#i had plans w my friend to go to a streetmarket today after i finished at work and i was so looking forward to it!! and like idk it

[honeyednights]

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#i feel so braindead nowadays it’s so annoying and draining #like if i have work i’ll wake up not long before i have to leave go to work get home and have no energy to do anything so i just sit in #front of my computer and watch something and do nothing else and then go to bed too late #like literally feel like i have no bran capacity for anything<3 #brain** lmao #also work sucks ass i really can’t wait to get a new one #like having to work at a random shop that you’re not even interested in is just uggggh #can’t wait for when i’m working w smth i’m actually interested in and feel like i’m doing something related to my studies or hobbies #but i applied at a bookstore yesterday!!! and if i get that one i’ll be so incredibly happy and honest to god the day i hand in my #resignation where i work now i’ll have a big celebration aksjsnsn #but yeahh things are just so ugh nowadays and today i got like maybe a bit unreasonably angry #i had plans w my friend to go to a streetmarket today after i finished at work and i was so looking forward to it!! and like idk it #would’ve been so nice to go and get a coffee and look at everything and maybe buy a nice thing #and spend time together #but when i texted her about taking the bus together she was like ‘oh… when does the market close? can we go later i’m so hungover’ #and like. i got so annoyed and like we had a plan she knew that yesterday and if she had planned to get wasted yesterday she could’ve maybe #said that today wasn’t a good day for her when we planned to go there or maybe she could’ve not drunk that much alcohol yesterday??? #but ofc i can’t tell her i was upset/angry abt it bc i can never tell people when they make me upset w/o me feeling like a terrible person #for being upset w them<3 #anyways #brain is not working but i need it to start up again soon bc like i have no idea what i’m doing nowadays and i need to like figure out what #to do after finishing my bachelors next semester to lower my stress levels a tiny bit #but then the stress of not knowing only contributes to my brain shutting off :) #idk idkidk i feel like more of a mess these days than i usually feel