#i get so angery with these things

[completewannabe]

can we talk about how much i DESPISE MBTI TESTS PLEASE?????

I AM AN INFP/INFJ BUT IN ORDER TO NOT BE GROUPED IN WITH EMOTIONAL AND RELAXED PEOPLE I HAVE TO BE BRUTALLY HONEST ON THESE STUPID TESTS ABOUT HOW I AM EMOTIONALLY STUNTED AND TEND TO MAKE DECISIONS BASED ON LOGIC

which by the way is NOT my preferred method of making decisions but my emotions are unreliable!!!!!!

I AM A CREATIVE AND HUMANITARIAN INDIVIDUAL PERSON BUT I ALSO DO HAPPEN TO HAVE AUTISM (undiagnosed unfortunately) WHICH IS A DEVELOPMENTAL DISORDER THAT IMPEDES MY ABILITY TO COMMUNICATE MY EMOTIONS EFFECTIVELY AND MAKES EMOTIONAL CONVERSATIONS DIFFICULT AND UNCOMFORTABLE FOR ME

so basically my choices are: be autistic (intp) or be a therapist (infp)

or, if i can figure out how to make the test say what i want, i can be not like other girls (infj)

this is why i can’t find a job isn’t it

#mbti types #mbti personality types #mbti #mbti slander #wannabe vents #wannable rambles #vent post #autism #undiagnosed autistic #no i’m not someone who self diagnosed because of tiktok #i did a lot of research so please take me seriously i’m begging #i get so angery with these things

[driftingballoons]

the treacherous grinding session I went through in BW2 suddenly starts to make a little more sense :)

#Serperior #original art #And it only took 12 years to figure it out #I mean COME ON man #angery #So I had something of a challenging time in BW2 #Where for the longest time I just couldn’t use snivy #Bc for SOME REASON I couldn’t get him to beat an opponent without fainting #but no wonder the opponent wouldn’t faint bc there was NO ATTACK POWER #furiously booting up the ds to check and all along it has THIS as a personality #But thank god it’s dishing out nothing attacks FASTER than anyone else 😭😭 #Anyway when I learned abt the natures thing I had a sneaking suspicion that something was amiss #bc with the same starter/almost identical moveset I just had an AWFUL time in BW2 until I decided to grind like hell #also chump over here using mostly regular attack moves which can go as well as you’d imagine #I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again #i may be shit at battling

[cyanocoraxx]

my mischief and their respective crimes <3

#rats #ratblr #my art #minnow is the crime boss obviously #ok here's my reasoning. #minnow has main character energy and loves chaos #she does things for fun and i respect that #cinnamon is a sweetheart but if you tickle her too much she gets ANGERY #cedar.... you wouldnt expect to be a criminal. behind the scenes she is a master tax fraudster #and saffron is the most loving but could get away with anything by being so sweet

[albatris]

fuck aidan jasper all my homies hate aidan jasper

#a rental car takes a left down rake street and disappears #I'm glaring at him in my outline #i think a lot of the stupidity i projected onto reuben march belongs on Jasper instead #march gives the go ahead but jasper has FUN with it all #aidan jasper is the one who does most of the poking prodding torturing cough cough I mean medical experiments on nat #fun fact! nat is conscious for all of it :-) #being operated on..... and other things :-) #the first phase of jasper's research is just ''lets fuck this vampire up and record how he heals'' #they take a couple organs out #they inject some cancer cells #they remove some skin #they cut some fingles off #then nat gets tossed back into his sad little steel room to heal and maybe do a murder but hes trying real hard #not to do a murder bc they just threw some random hypnotised human in there with him #anyway. #fuck aidan jasper all my homies hate aidan jasper!!!! #its fine nat gets to tear jasper's heart out of his chest later #angery..... #so yes i will b shifting a lot of Reuben March's views and biases on vampirism onto jasper #dw march is definitely still gonna die tho #quinn will hunt him down dont u worry :-) #oh also fun fact this is the bit in the story where nat digests his own appendix LMAO #his body is just like. uhhhhh. we have better uses for this. lets melt it down and turn it into something else #like..... bro???

[keygen]

I have the kind of mental diseases that make me want to violently throw my phone at a wall if I see like 99% of stimboards

#noa.txt #paint mixing and slime and that crumbly sand stuff all trigger this animalistic part of my brain that makes me ANGERY for no reason #this is like a Me Problem it's just so funny to me that these things meant to be calming and satisfying to watch make me turn into a Beast #also asmr whispering is another one of those things that makes me so upset i want to throw up for literally no reason. no I do not Get Why.

[fooltofancy]

gonna curl up in a stupid little ball w fields of asphodel (beloved) and try to sleep, the piles of things looming can goddamn wait.

#.... until i wake up in the inevitable four hours. #gonna make a list and goddamnit gonna do the things on the list #today is finish in progress comm day + finish black mage leveling when im done w that (two accomplishments but one is a trick) #laundry and laundry and laundry tomorrow #dentist wednesay and hopefully last comm if i can get a sketch out tonight #balls have to cook sometime today too #thursday rest day probably wrists will be angery #.... not gonna plan as far as friday but probably laundry again. comforter needs to go to the Big Laundry Machines and i dont wanna #weekend have to figure out how to put gas in my car so i can meet carrie and pick up the stupid fucking cat tree i sent to mn #need to schedule like 45 minutes in here to cry #mundanity etc im so tired everything hurts #oh wednesday also fill out this stupid bullshit for new endocrinologist ive filled out twenty times in the last year #medical histories my beloathed #they should have this anyway gonna mutiny #ok gn

[marklikely]

idk if this is a silly question but why. do some doll collectors have multiple NIB of the exact same doll. like it seems selfish to me.... give me your extras pls.

#its one thing if they're like out of box for parts or customizing but #to just have. multiple of the same exact doll just for collecting is so weird to me. others would like to have one of those too. #unless there's like some reason other than just hoarding them so nobody else can have any smh. #avpost #sorry i saw someone showing off her 'extras' box on tiktok with 3 of a doll i really want and can't get in my budget so i got angery. #and i know this is like not unusual i see duplicates on ppls collection shelves all the time and im like well WHY #why do you need two just to put them on display and not even do anything with. #or in that ladys case not even to display them theyre all stuffed in a BOX. sick disgusting evil etc. #would you even notice if i took one of the ones i wanted . out of your stupid box. >:/

[teamisc]

trying to not put the same songs I always put on every playlist on this one

#my playlists are very much a personal thing #obv #and im very specific about the order on this one #if u see me listening to the same song 5 times im listening to how the end flows into the next song lol #and i have a bad habit of making playlists that start out w really strong emotions and end on really dulled/sad ones #or vice versa #i think a playlist is a journey ^w^ #so if im making a playlist about how angry i am i dont want to leave the playlist angery #i want 2 feel free of that #its therapeutic #i just usually struggle 2 get a transition to that calmer ending #but i like this one alot #THANK YOU MUSIC

[spade-club]

Was it really leading you on if I also let you down? Or do you really just hate the idea of me being happy without you? /not at you

#im getting angery about things from almost two years ago again haha oops #but honestly. you cant just fucking traumatize me and expect me not to be pissed??? #just tell me I'm a monster and you hate everything I am. #like. do you know how hard it is to be going through someone sexualizing you constantly no matter how much you ask them to stop #and have your best fucking friend yelling at you because you're such a monster who's going to ruin this poor boy #and have her tell you she tied her self worth to your capacity to like men?? #like. cool. okay. fuck you I guess. #its so bullshit #like. I'll admit I didnt treat her great. i let her believe she had a chance with dating me #when ultimately that was probably never going to happen again #but also like. I just like having close friends I flirt with. thats how I do relationships. and I made that clear. #and I even toned it down and we talked about it all the time #so maybe actually I didnt??? idk #point is its still fucked up that she would honestly tell me how much I suck as a hostile way of attacking me for not dating her #and THEN a few months later managed to get mad at me again for.... being triggered by something she said #so anyway uh. when you have someone in your life and you know how mean they can be #dont tell yourself its okay because they arent hostile to you. they could just as easily be hurting you the moment their rose glasses fall #if you dont want to be on their bad side. do you really want to be on their good side? #sad posting #<- not really but its personal and I'm scatterbrain thinking #soz if it doesnt make a lot of sense I'm. strugglebus #I might try to explain better later because those moments have really lodged their way in my brain and it sucks

[orcelito]

:')👍

#speculation nation #finished placing the order and finished my call with my boss about the new tips sheet #i need to input values still but it's mostly done #but. bc of thanksgiving we have to put shit into the thing earlier to get paid on time #and i might b helping with that. idk. #im COLD why is the office so cold. angery

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #I got the bullshit “hmm I don't think you're adhd” dx from the psychiatrist. #“it's usually diagnosed before age twelve” yeah not when you're homeschooled by your fundamentalist xian adhd mom #I didn't go in with the right notes. I went in as myself instead of my angery alt who gets shit done. I avoided thinking about it #when instead we needed to sit down and make a plan and write out the important points and then make sure we're heard. #needed to research criteria for diagnosis and then dig for the things that match because I've literally got them it's just that I cope #I cope so fucking hard that I forget about the problems. I show my strong fixed side instead of the cracked under surface #literally made a list of stuff to talk about and then forgot to bring it out during the meeting #I shoulda just printed out all my personal tumblr posts and had her read them #the problem is I'm afraid to be honest because they'll genuinely commit me against my will. and I don't fucking want that. #they're so preoccupied with keeping me from killing myself that they don't bother addressing the reasons I want to die #stop infantilizing me and fucking listen to what I'm saying

[heylinfanclub]

Lookin at other spec bio folks n sometimes feelin bad I can’t seem to get my creatures to feel. NATURALISTIC. FLUID. LIKE SOMETHING REAL. All my lines feel bad. It’s always been the case for my art. Line consistency SHIT, Line stability SHIT (even with stabilizer), knowledge of linework SHIT, ability to make shapes and forms stick together in a way they look like they’re actually connected and not some kind of fucked up paper mache doll. I can make things recognizable, as an artist, but can I make them LOOK GOOD AND NATURAL? No. **SCREAMS AT THE HIGHEST POSSIBLE PITCH IN RAGE** I JUST WANT TO IMPROVE AND DRAW SOMETHING IM PROUD OF.

#me. #therapy. #(**grabs gloreals by the throat and fucking KILLS THEM** #(BE EASIER TO DRAW YOU FUCKWITS #(why did I have to care about all your complex inner mechanics #(I can’t even draw your torsos consistently. let alone faces from any angle. #(I don’t wanna say I hate it but I hate it I hate not being. able to do what I wANNNTT #(but hate isn’t a feeling I should bring into my passions ughhhh or I’ll ruin it #(COMPARISON IS THE THIEF OF JOY #(AND IM COMPARING MYSELF TO EVERY ARTIST KNOWN TO MAN #(how the FUCK #(the more I get angery and hold onto this anger the more it’ll start to turn into selfhate and that’s nOT GOOD #(I recognize this and should realistically take a fucking breather but I’m just. so mad. I can’t. #(I just want to see the things I love in my head manifested #(screams cries and slams head into cement #(my brain wants to go ‘I want to die’ but OVER ART BRAIN?? YOU CAN FUCKING WORK ON IT

[driftingballoons]

Sometimes when your parents are angry they’ll say something that gives light to their own childhood and you realize Holy Shit a) that explains it and b) that’s so sad. 

Thinking specifically about one story my mom would always proudly tell when I did something wrong about how “easy “ I have it. As a child a great grandparent was asked to get something from a drawer—specifically the bottom drawer. They went all the way upstairs, checked the drawer, couldn’t find the thing, then came back down to report to their mother. And this woman apparently hit the fucking roof. The reasoning being that the kid “didn’t think” to check the other drawers when they couldn’t find it in the first one. The kid in question was 5 years old. This is an age where if you put the same amount of water in a short wide cup and a tall thin one, they’ll say there’s more in the taller one because the level is higher. And the fact that this story was passed down from generation to generation as an example of how the child was in the wrong and as a guide on how a kid’s mistakes should be handled is infuriating and incredibly depressing. Anyway I always took it as she said until one day, after having learned a tiny bit of developmental psychology, where I took an incredibly calculated risk and said something like, “that’s really sad. A 5y/o can’t necessarily reason at that level—their brain development isn’t physically there yet. For their mom to get so irrationally mad at them because she forgot where she put something was really low. She should have been able to own up to her own mistake.” And I’ll tell you normally a comment like this would’ve got me murdered, but I don’t think she’d ever quite…thought about it that way. She went quiet and changed the subject, and since then it’s never been brought up with that same haughty “see how good you have it! People deserve to be treated like this!” energy. 

#Idk didn’t mean to ramble so much just sometimes people are a product of their surroundings #and don’t even necessarily realize how their behavior might be harmful #Not a pass for those behaviors or anything #It’s just sad that THEY were also a victim of them from their own parents #Anyway it’s interesting reflecting on your childhood as an adult #I mean I don’t have kids I’m no parenting expert #But sometimes you just know something was….wrong #Like when making a small mistake becomes the huge thing to be feared of instead of just a learning opportunity #And then you get criticized for not wanting to own up to the mistake or for getting frustrated for making it in the first place #And it’s like hey! Thanks to you I’m TERRIFIED of making a mistake! #Bc when I do all hell breaks loose! #And I get accused of doing it on purpose to be passive aggressive! #Anyway thinking abt this bc recently made a tiny inconsequential mistake #And it turned into a three hour yelling lecture about “you can’t be trusted with anything ever” #Comparing it to a huge mistake like leaving a baby in the car #angery

[roseband]

god i’m so sick of seeing all my friends in various design fields striking cuz they’re treated like shit...... 

now book publishing too ://///

#personal #HEY i know someone who got to meet the president....... for her union work LOL #she was partially so ANGERY cause of animation health insurance fuckery #the only thing that could make me leave apparel at this point is if i was to get a gov job #(still bummed that i didn't get that digital design job with ACS........ it was for maintaining training materials #and i was no2 choice ;^;..... ) #(BUT like im super happy where i am... .and idk if i would have been there LOL... but bennies were better) #BUT.................... LIKE i think apparel might be better even on the non-union design/graphics end #cuz a significant amount of manufacturing in the city for apparel/textile is union..... cuz well.... *gestures broadly and nyc history* #so even tho my field isn't.... the higher ups are used to dealing with people who won't let themselves be treated like shit #so it affects everyone else........ in a good way

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

rise raph also has autism swag: a post

so basically heres a quick little cap collection just of some of raph not getting social cues or reading tones etc

01. minotaur maze, calls leo out on being up to something only because of the use of the word “indubitably” (bonus: so into behavior pattern/routine that even though leo admits outright that he lied to get them to do the maze, raph just continues having half an argument like leo denied it)

02. mrs cuddles, raph is fully wholly completely unaware of the suspicious pre-prank energy his brothers and april are giving with their faces, actions, and tones of voice. like he fully 100% does not suspect a thing

03. stuck on you, raph does not pick up on the fact that his brothers are CLEARLY only saying that the teamwork ball they complained about all episode ~really did make them a better team and they wanna get back together~ to make him feel better bc he was sad it got wrecked

04. shadow of evil, does not pick up on or suspect ANYTHING about the weird-ass energy of the mutually-lying-and-hiding-something exchange they had with splinter. look at him. he is in the middle of being like “we nailed it i can’t believe he fell for that”. i love him.

05. mutant menace, raph is VERY ANGERY that people were unable to tell that the note they left with their ‘good deeds’ was using THE JUST-KIDDING QUOTES AND JUST-KIDDING WINKY FACE!!!! this whole ep could make a case for his autism swag, it’s so.... he is understanding many things in a way that makes a ton of sense to him that is largely not understood by others

06. the ancient art of ninja hide and seek, where raph spends almost the entire mission taking “stick to the shadows” as literally and face-value as turtle-ly possible and thinks he is absolutely nailing it.

07. snow day, (or lbr any other time he interacts w ghost bear) just. so so so excited about his favorite wrestler... very much having that override the fact that ghost bear is clearly not about this

08. raph’s ridealong, goes through the entire process of getting mistaken for a criminal, freaking out a whole police station, getting apprehended and thrown into the back of the wagon, without clocking any of that energy (bc he is so excited to do a cool activity related to his extreme interest in crimefighting/justice)

and like thats just the stuff i found idly browsing through caps i bet theres a ton of other examples on the social front alone, let alone stuff like stims, special interests, behavior patterns, etc.  

BONUS: 

late fee, iconic autism to autism communication

#rottmnt #rottmnt raph #rise raph #rottmnt raphael #autistic raph #rise of the tmnt #as someone w autism i see raph and donnie and i am always winning basically

[oorevitcejda]

lets get one thing straight, trans women are the most important people on this planet

trans people have always been a part of the world before the british colonialists tried to take over the world and distort the world into a binary that makes less and less sense as you look at it.

Trans women, trans men, all trans people between, either, both, neither and all forms of nonbinary gender has always been a part of the world. Trans women are women, trans men are men, nonbinary people are the genders they say they are. Gender is deeply personal and attached to tradition and spirituality for some and for some its just an inconvenience and both are completely fine experiences and no one has the right to tell you that youre living wrong.

no dumbass white supremacist-adjacent vagina-flavored """"feminists"""" will ever be welcome here or near me. Fuck all terfs, radfems, febfems, 'gender critical' whatever the fuck you wanna call yourselves away from me and my trans siblings. nothing you say will ever matter and your "feminism" is a joke without trans women, especially listening to black trans women.

if youre a terf eat glass and jump off a fucking roof youre no better than male white supremacists who function off the same transmisogyny, transphobia, homophobia, gender essentialist and colonialist ideals but in a far more pathetic "please like me" tone

#just your regular reminder that terfs are racist #terfs die challenge #ti talks #gender is a spectrum #i am 100% serious when i say my gender is green. its not some sealioning thing shit its my actual gender #greengender makes me feel happy like i finally understood myself!!! what fucking harm am i as a nonbinary lesbian doing to you for saying #'hehe my genders green :)' like how fucking sensitive do youhave to be? #does that seem intrinsic to you? instinctual? that someone woudl get so fucking angery that this random lesbian #chooses to define eir gender as green or pretty lights?? get over yourself #delete maybe #just bc idk if i like the wording #but trans people are the most important people on this planet