#i genuinely hardly remember 2020 all i got is Pain And Suffering. shit sucked

[myersesque]

I have OCD too (and particular POCD a little bit that I sometimes think is more just general MORALITY OCD (yes it's all caps cause the morals are strong and angry at me)) and so just like,,,, solidarity 🤝, hope you're doing well today, and thank you <3

ayyyy solidarity 🤝!!! i hope you're doing well today too <3

i don't talk abt it publicly much because i tend to work myself up about the possibility of ppl willfully misinterpreting me and thinking i'm a horrible person, but - yeah, same here. i've had pretty much every obsession under the sun i think but the main ones nowadays are morality/harm based - my horror interest flourished into a full special interest/fixation partially because i used it to cope! violent intrusive thoughts are a lot less scary when you can compare them to horror movie gore sfx in my experience.

(also, uh... yeah, pocd fucking sucks. i hate calling it that - it's a stupid misleading demonising fucking name - but i do get it, too. it's the worst part imo. i can deal with violence, i can deal with obsessive cleanliness, i can deal with counting compulsions, but that shit is hell on earth.)

i wouldn't still be here if i didn't have loved ones who also had ocd (it's hereditary in my family) and helped me through it when it started hitting full force so i do try to mention it every now and then when i feel comfortable doing so, because i don't want anybody to ever feel alone like i thought i had to. we're not monsters. 🎶we're all in this together🎶 and if anybody's struggling or just, like, wants to know shit, my inbox is open yknow? 🫶

#also someday we need to talk abt how fucking HORRIFIC the initial covid quarantine was for us bad ocd bitches #like. oh so you're telling me not only do i have to worry abt a deadly fucking disease #but i have NOTHING to distract me from the inside of my head??? nothing??? #i genuinely hardly remember 2020 all i got is Pain And Suffering. shit sucked #anyway!!! sorry for the mild vent #ask