#i found the text on reddit and ive never been happier

[sky-is-the-limit]

no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponent al, logarithmic, while i gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cow girl, doggy, backwards, forwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the ool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick thribbing, first clenching, ear rining, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling. teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy, moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious, gushy, creamy, beastly, lip bitting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, cant walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail stractching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magniticent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tangos, he could put a nuclear bomb inside me and i'd still ride it and I would give this man the sloppiest, wettest, creamiest, soul taking, slimy, life changing, death DROPPING, heaven sent, flabbergasting, hypnotising, ungodly, astonishing, leg trembling, back arched, hands desperately grabbing the sheets, legs stretching out again and again, toe curling, voice breaking, whimper causing, waist slowly moving up and down, small heavy breath " I can't take much more of this", breaths getting quicker, twitching, throbbing, eyes shut, lip biting, edging begging for relief, warm hot rush bubbling up, spit upon the tongue twisting ground tip-talking against the mouth, sideways spit from the end and lick from the bottom to the top then spit and lick to the bottom,

deepthroating, thrusting slower then faster, faster, FASTER twisting mouth around each side, spiritually enlightening, chakra aligning, mangekyo sharigan unlocking, golden light like a halo, noise from the very edge of his throat for the final, hardest release ever....and THEN I'd let him pound me so FUCKING HARD UNTIL HE IMPRENATES ME WITH HIS BABIES. My prayers for you be like no lube, no protection from the condom or the lord, all night all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the church, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, while i gasp for air and scream the lord's prayer, YOU sir can OBLITERATE me and uses no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponent al, logarithmic, while i gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cow girl, doggy, backwards, forwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the ool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, he could put a nuclear bomb inside me and i'd still ride.

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[cantaffordtherapist42069]

breakdown message/running journal

first and foremost i cannot believe I wasted time getting my nails done to not even get to see them on a dick this is what I get for going with something cool again

part of me feels just absolutely stupid. like i have no idea what's going on or what anything means because i am just so used to being manipulated or lied to or choked out in bathrooms. i want to believe u are a genuinely nice person like you seem but part of me feels like you are just really good at hiding that you're just an emotionally dead fuckboy.

but like would i recognize those traits if i were not also an emotionally dead fuckboy probably not.

which is exactly why this week has been so awful.

had this been a week ago i was ready to have the "hey i havent felt any real human emotion in years but if you want me to i can try but like ur dick bomb so i can swing whatever" conversation. deadass i was at times like if he really a fuckboy i guess i can finally get a threesome out of it. (in the interest of funny things I would message u about but wont because i can't tell if you give a shit or not i was so far done caring for alias i suggested he message felecia for a threesome. completely seriously.)

however on wednesday, my anxiety was at an all time high for no reason. and it just kept getting worse all night. and all i wanted was to talk to you. i didnt care if all you did was bitch i just wanted like a ten minute phone call with you because i missed you and talking to you would have made me happy. then on my way home i had to pass a very freshly killed deer which, while interesting to my inner freak because it was like split in half and dragged, all i could think about was that your dumb ass text and snaps all the fucking time while you're driving and that technically speaking you could just hit a deer at like 70 and die and that's it you never get to talk to Dillon again and i lost it i had to pull over to cry. this was partly because i was so high but also mostly because it has been so long since i have cared about the person i was fucking and i am terrified to get genuinely attached to another person like that again. but whatever i thought I could just deal with that later.

then of course the next day was Summers wedding. and yes it was cute and im very happy for them and love is beautiful but like, first off it was weird because i am literally getting a divorce that i could not be happier to finally be getting, but also i am kind of jealous of their relationship, and then when u hit me this week with the "never once contemplated marriage", Dillon i had never been more attracted to you than at that moment. and again all i wanted was to talk to you but you were barely responding so i just volunteered to work all night to get my mind off everything even though it was one of my nights off and i already felt miserable. Then the more i thought about it all night, u bitching about being hungover, i realized that u didnt send me a single drunk text and like.. cant relate! i want to talk to you literally all the time but especially when im drunk and miss you and havent talked to you all day!

friday morning i had mail from the court that the judge on my divorce case put in a removal for dismissal. on my way to the courthouse guess who was behind me! alias! guess who had a panic attack because shes so fucking scared of this actual pussy! me! guess who has to get her paperwork in by the 20th or she has to pay 250 fucking more dollars to the state to file again! me! and of course multiple people have told me that they dont think alias and felecia are doing well and im fucking terrified. i thought theyd at least last a year and buy me some time to heal but nah fuck me. i love feeling absolutely terrified everywhere i go.

i think its probably important you get the whole story. it really explains why im a freak and also why i was temporarily drinking almost every night. but like its really something you sit down and discuss not casually send over a message so a very short version is i knew alias would be abusive within the first week, broke up, got back together when he got back from basic and went to mos school, i knew i was making a mistake because i was crazy about him but i knew he was a piece of shit, cheated on him to convince myself to leave him, never told him and stayed instead, found him sending and receiving nudes and sexting with girls from gone wild on reddit, shit was absolutely awful and we fought non stop for years, he gets out of the marines we move back and he finally admits to me that he thought he wanted kids which i had known he did for a while so wasnt a shock, I smoked half a pack of camels and i was over it. didnt love him at all. didnt leave because he begged me to stay because "he didnt he just needed to discuss wanting kids", then after i specifically warned him i was going to be emotionally distant, he started getting crazy. he was so miserable all the time and reflected it by acting angry around me intentionally. then it was the busting in to my room at random times to accuse me of not loving him and like i wasnt going to admit to the psycho that i was just with him because i couldn't leave kira with him and yes i was def lying about loving him, and then one night he just flipped and was screaming at my accusing me of cheating on him (not that i even had the time to with how closely he monitored where i was and how long for), and then he choked me. he had both hands around my neck and was pushing so hard he basically threw me into the bathroom wall. then after he realized what he was doing he smashed his head into the bathroom mirror and came into my room begging me to kill him. every night after that i was terrified to stay and terrified to leave and terrified to do anything at all. i really thought killing myself would be how id finally get out. then the night with the police happened and now im staying with my mom and stepdad because i literally do not feel safe anywhere else.

or at least i didn't until i was able to sleep all night with you. i did not think i would ever feel safe sleeping with a guy again and now i miss waking up next to you.

there is so much about you that freaks me out but literally not one red flag and that also freaks me out. i know im a mess. you have a nice normal stable life and im sure you dont want a messy trauma bitch all up in it. but fuck Dillon, if you dont want to see me why the fuck are we always talking

like i know i have done everything possible to get you to keep your distance and all i know how to do is self sabotage but like i can't anymore. i am not capable of acting chill again for another whole fucking month and then imagine you hooking up with way hotter girls and cry every fucking night because i caught feelings for the fuckboy. i miss you, literally, all the time. i check my phone every morning just to see if i have a message from you. i think about you every night. and yes the way you fuck me is literally the best sex ive ever had but i am beyond dick crazy about you. i love just being around you. i could listen to you talk for hours, just nonstop. i am already daydreaming about dates we could go on next summer. and i want to tell you all this but i feel so stupid for feeling anything at all for you when you make me feel like i just dont matter to you and im just an ego boost for you.

[lepidopteratos]

Thanks for the tag @veronikamacabre!

- Most Recent -

Drink: Water Phone call: Its been years since I've had a phone call Text: Dont have a cell phone to text with Song you listened to: Disease by Hollywood Undead Time you cried: About a week ago, was kinda sad and thinking about suicide.

- Have You Ever -

Dated someone twice: Never dated before Been cheated on: Nope Kissed someone and regretted it: No, haven’t kissed anyone Lost someone special: No, not really. Been depressed: No, I’ve been really sad alot recently though. Been drunk and thrown up: Never been drunk. List 3 favorite colors: Black, purple, and red

- In The Last Year, Have You -

Made a new friend: Haha, no Fallen out of love: Never been in love Laughed until you cried: Yes, its very easy for me to do that. It’s embarrassing sometimes. Met someone who changed you: Nope Found out who your true friends are: Kinda? I always feel like a third wheel though.. Found out someone was talking about you: Nah Has sex on the first date: No Kissed anyone on your FB list: Don’t have a FB account

- Extras -

How many people from your FB list do you know IRL: None, since I dont have FB Do you have any pets: Two cats.

Do you want to change your name: No What did you do for your birthday: Nothing much just ate some stuff, to many other things were going on to celebrate or anything.  What time did you wake up today: Around 11:20pm  What were you doing last night at midnight: Listening to music Name something you can’t wait for: The day my life gets better and i’m happier again Last time you saw your mom: An hour or two ago What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I could just be as happy as I used to be in 2013-15. Also I wish I could have like a really close best friend like you always see in stuff. I’ve always felt like just a friend, never a best friend. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Not that I can think of What’s getting on your nerves right now: Theres soooo many things I wanna talk about and I wanna be social with people, but I dont have anyone to talk to. Ive been so goddamn lonely for a few years now that its starting to hurt. I just want someone to listen to me. Someone who I can talk to about the things I like. But no one I know shares my interests. I dont even know where to go to find people. I feel so alone its killing me.

Blood Type: I dont remember

Nickname: Ive never had any Relationship Status: Forever alone :(  Pronouns: She/her or however it goes Long or short hair: Long Height: Idk like 4ft. something? Do you have a crush on someone: Just people i’ll never meet What do you like about yourself: Nothing really. I guess I have nice hair according to everyone else? I pretty much completely hate myself. Right or left handed:.Right First surgery: I dont think i’ve ever had any surgery done. First Best Friend: A girl named Sam I met in I think 1st grade? Never saw her again after 2nd grade though. I think she moved away. First sport you joined: Some soccer thing when I was younger First Vacation: I can’t remember, haven’t really gone on vacation. - Right Now -

Eating: Nothing Drinking: Nothing I’m about to: Go on r/gore on reddit then go to sleep. Listening to: Nothing Kids: I’ve wanted kids for as long as I can remember. Get Married: If I can find someone who is going to be loyal to me then I would, But it’s not really important to me so i’d be fine without getting married to whoever i’m with.

Career: I’m pretty interested in becoming a trauma doctor. But if that dosen’t work out ive also thought about being a mortician. And if that also dosent work ive wanted to be a bartender for awhile.

- Which Is Better -

Lips or eyes: Eyes Hugs or Kisses: Hugs I guess? Taller or shorter: I don’t care Older or Younger: Older Romantic or spontaneous: I don’t really know, probably romantic Sensitive or loud: Sensitive Hookup or relationship: Definitely relationship Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesistant

- Have You Ever -

Kissed a stranger: No Glasses/contacts: No Broke someone’s heart: No, I don’t think so. Not sure how I could’ve Turned someone down: In a dating sense? No i’ve never been asked. But for like a task or going somewhere, then yes. Cried when someone died: Yes Fallen for a friend: No

- Do You Believe In -

Yourself: Nope Miracles: No Love at first sight: No Heaven: I remain agnostic about it Kissing on the first date: I dunno. Sure?

#me #this took forever #lol #some of them were kinda hard #for me to answer #thanks again for the tag! #still cant believe anyone has noticed me enough #to tag me in things #all the things ill never #say in real life #especially that nerves one #im kinda nervous #to post it now #eh fk it #only like 2 people are ever gonna see this #I hope I didnt miss any?