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delos-mio · 5 years

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Death of a Bachelor - Part 7

A/N: Lots to unpack here! Let’s chat about this chapter!

You had completely immersed yourself in your work. The deadline for the project you were working on for Delos was rapidly approaching and it was all hands on deck in the office. Admittedly, you’d been running a tight ship as of late, but you were determined to hand over a perfect project. All the long days and meetings and revisions were helping to keep your mind off the one thing that had been plaguing it- Logan. It was nearing the end of the week that he’d taken to go to Westworld with William and you were upset with how much you really missed him. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. You were never even supposed to sleep with him. But despite your best efforts, you were falling for the billionaire playboy you had no business fucking around with.

Before he left, he told you that he had confessed to Juliet. This also had been occupying quite a bit of space in your mind. Though you spoke to your sister almost every day, you hadn’t mentioned seeing anyone and certainly that the guy you’d been seeing is well known and that you kind of work for him. You weren’t sure how she’d react which is mostly why you’d been avoiding the conversation all together. She’d pried a few times when she thought you sounded “off” or “distracted”, but you always had the convenient excuse of work.

One night when you came home, you decided it was finally time to face the music. You poured yourself a too-full glass of wine and took a deep breath, tapping open Facetime and waiting for Emily to pick up. Her smiling face popped into frame after only a couple rings, a thick coat of mud mask covering most of her features.

“Bad time?” you asked with a small laugh.

“Nah, you know I don’t care! You’ve seen me looking worse. What’s up?”

“Just catching up. How’s Elliot?” you asked, taking a long drink. Emily and Elliot, perfect matching names for the perfect couple. You adored him. You’d always been protective of your baby sister, but he treated her with respect and he made her happy. What more could you ask for, really?

“Good! I think he’s at the end of the rope with wedding planning, so I’ve been doing double-time with blowing—” she started casually.

“Ew, TMI. Please no,” you cut off.

“Don’t be such a prude.” Emily looked at her reflection in the mirror and wiped away a rogue clump of mask that was too close to her eye.

“What else have you been up to?” You were just postponing the arrival at the real reason you called. Any time you could buy was welcome.

“Not much. We hired a new girl in my department, so I’m on training duty. She’s really sweet though and I think she’s gonna fit in just fine. You know I’m always open to new friends!” And she really was. Emily had always been outgoing and bubbly. Making friends was second nature to her and you’d always envied that talent. You were sociable only because you had to be in your line of work. You turned it on to network and turned it off the minute you didn’t need to work.

“How about you? I feel like I haven’t heard from you in a few days,” she said as she wandered out of the bathroom to the kitchen island you’d stood around so many times laughing, crying, and drunkenly shoveling food into your faces.

“Yeah, I’m sorry, Em. I’m working against a deadline for that Delos project and it’s been insane at the office.” That was true. It wasn’t the whole story, but it wasn’t a lie.

“Oh yeah. How’s that going? Hey! Do you get to see that hot guy who’s like the CEO or something a lot? His name’s like…Luke or Liam or…”

“Logan,” you cut her off with a dry chuckle. It’s like she had a sixth sense. “Mhmm. I see him a lot actually.”

“Ugh that must be so nice. A little eye candy during those boring ass meetings must be nice,” she laughed until she looked back at the screen, seeing your slightly contorted face. “No offence, I mean.”

“No, I know. It’s ok. But what I mean is…I see him a lot…like, not just for meetings a lot,” you said with a huge lump in your throat. Please don’t make me say it out loud you silently begged her.

“Oh,” she replied slowly, letting the information sink in. “Oh! Oh my god, is Logan your boyfriend?” she asked in a high pitch.

“No! I mean, no. He’s not, but…”

“But you’re fucking him?”

“I wasn’t going to put it like that but, yeah,” you groaned.

“You idiot! So the minute you decide you’re ready to finally date again you pick your boss?” she scoffed.

“I’ll remind you I’m my own boss, you brat.” Her point stood and you knew it, but you had to deflect in any way you could for your own sake.

“You know what I mean! Don’t deflect!” Busted. “Isn’t he like super sleazy and a dick?”

“That’s what the tabloids would have you believe, yeah.”

“So he’s not really like that?”

“Not entirely. He’s arrogant, sure, maybe a little reckless,” you started, “But he’s also very thoughtful and smart and charming and witty.” You couldn’t help the fondness in your voice. Talking about Logan openly wasn’t a luxury you usually had and now you found you couldn’t stop the words from flowing out of you.

“You really like him, huh?” Emily’s expression had softened as she watched you speak. “You haven’t talked about a guy like this since…”

“We don’t need to go there,” you interrupted quickly. It had been a long time since Theo left you and you’d gotten over it. But that also didn’t mean you wanted to discuss the pros and cons of choosing your career over love every fucking time this line of conversation came up. “But yeah, I think I’m really falling for him.” You groaned dramatically and took a long drink from your glass. “Why am I like this? Em, I can’t fall for him!”

“Well, you’re not going to work for Delos forever, right?” she suggested, raising a mask-caked eyebrow.

“You think I should bide my time?”

“I think if you really like this dude, you shouldn’t let something silly like working on one project for them stand in the way.” She was in the bathroom again, running the water in the sink. “I love you and I just want for you to be happy. And I haven’t seen your face light up like that in a long ass time.” Maybe she was right. “I’m gonna wash this shit off but I’ll call you this weekend, ok? I need you to look at some swatches with me.”

“Ok, Em. Love you,” you said with a small smile.

“Love you too!” She blew you a kiss before disconnecting the call.

A weight had been lifted off your chest. You felt free. Finally telling another living, breathing person about Logan had eased your anxiety tremendously. After your chat, however, you found yourself missing Logan even more. You couldn’t wait to see him and hold onto him as he kissed you hello. The thought made your heart constrict, longing to be with him again, but you reminded yourself there were only two more days. You could do two days easy.

It was the Tuesday after he should have been back. You of course didn’t expect him to get ahold of you the second he got back to the real world, but you also thought he maybe would have texted you by now. You tried not to let it bother you and gave Logan his space. But Tuesday turned into Wednesday which turned into the next Monday, a full week after Logan should have been home. You finally caved in and messaged him first.

Y: Hello? Earth to Logan?

That text sat unread for days. Any anger you’d felt had passed and you were starting to get worried. Why wasn’t he responding? Where on earth was he? If this were a normal circumstance, you would have asked Juliet if she knew where he was or if he was mad at you. Of course, you couldn’t. You still had to play like you and Logan were not a thing. As if reading your thoughts, your email chimed and there was a new message from William. So, William was home. That must mean Logan was too. Part one of the mystery solved, now to crack the other part of the case.

Good morning,

We will be holding a meeting tomorrow morning, 8am. I understand this is short notice, but we do require your attendance.

Best,

William

He knew good and goddamn well you were a busy woman. And since when did William send you emails? You were annoyed but still checked your calendar. Lucky for them, you were free tomorrow morning, though you weren’t happy about being summoned out of thin air like you had nothing else going on.

When you parked in the lot at Delos the next morning, you took a second to do a quick lap around the lane where all the executives park their cars. Logan’s Range Rover was nowhere to be found. Not a good sign, you thought to yourself. Though it was entirely possible he was just running late, that was not out of the question for him.

You sat anxiously in the boardroom you’d come to know well. The water you raised to your lips did nothing to help your dry throat. Finally, you saw William and Juliet round the corner and cross by the glass walls. No Logan. Your heart was racing, quick and fearful in your chest. When they entered, Juliet gave you a polite smile and William grinned at you a little too widely. Never before had he shown you so much emotion or really interacted with you directly.

“Glad you could make it. I know you’re awfully busy,” William sneered. Something was wrong.

“Not a problem,” you lied. “Will…will Logan be joining us?” you asked tentatively. The question felt odd to say out loud, but you assured yourself it wasn’t suspicious since he and Juliet had been in most frequent contact with you.

“No, I’m afraid not. Though, that is part of why I’ve asked you to come.” Something was wrong. “As of last week, I will be taking over Logan’s role at Delos and you will report all updates and proofs directly to me for approval.”

You wanted to throw up. You wanted to throw your drink in his face and storm out. You wanted to cry. Cry for Logan, for yourself- you were both fucked. “Congratulations,” was all you managed to choke out. It sounded mocking and you weren’t convinced it wasn’t.

“Thank you. My beautiful fiancé here has been catching me up and I have some concerns about what you’ve sent to us,” he said thoughtfully.

“Like what?” You were defensive but you really didn’t care anymore.

“The whole aesthetic of the thing. It just reeks of Logan. It’s tacky, honestly,” he smirked. The fucker.

“I have never had my work called tacky. And respectfully, I have been working on this campaign and submitting proofs to you approve for months. And they’ve been signed off on every time. So I’m sorry if I think it’s bullshit that I’m just hearing about this ‘concern’ now,” you scoffed. You looked to Juliet who was usually lively and involved in these kind of conversations. But she sat beside him, doing everything she could not to look at you.

“Yes, that was when Logan was in charge. And like I said, he’s not anymore.” William took a drink of his coffee before speaking again. “I need a revised campaign to my inbox by Friday at 3.”

“Oh fuck you!” It just kind of came out. “You know that’s not enough time to finish this huge project top to bottom!”

“You can either complete this and submit it by Friday at 3 or you can be released from your contract and forfeit all compensation.”

You rose from your seat and grabbed your bag. “Keep your money,” you spat.

You were almost to the foyer when you heard another set of heels clicking behind you. “Wait! Please, wait!” Juliet called after you.

“What?” you asked harshly, tears pooling in your eyes. “You really just let him talk to me like that! It’s humiliating.”

“I’m so sorry,” she said quietly, pulling you around the corner into her office, checking to make sure William wasn’t lurking. Now tears were threatening her eyes. “It’s Logan.” Your worst nightmare was coming true. If you thought you felt nauseous before, it was nothing compared to this moment. “I haven’t seen him since William got back. He’s not responding to any of my calls.”

“Why are you telling me this?” Your voice caught in your throat.

“You know why,” she said sincerely. You finally met her gaze and you couldn’t hold your tears back anymore. Logan had told you that he confessed to Juliet about the two of you. What you didn’t know was that Logan was being honest when he said Juliet was supportive. “He really cares about you. I’m sure he has a weird way of showing you sometimes, but I promise you he does. I’m hoping if you go to check on him you can find out what’s wrong.” Her bottom lip was quivering, making you want to start crying all over again.

“Ok,” you said softly, nodding your head. It filled you with dread, but you had to know he was safe. She let out a sigh of relief and abruptly took you into her arms, embracing you tightly as she let tears flow on your shoulder. Juliet’s body convulsed as you hugged her, doing what you could to calm her down. You suspected she wasn’t often afforded the opportunity to be vulnerable and emotional—Logan didn’t have that luxury either. “I’ll keep you updated, ok? Promise,” you said, taking her by the shoulders and looking into her eyes.

“Thank you.” Her voice was a rasp as she ran her elegant, perfectly manicured fingers below her eyes, wiping away the stray tears. Juliet took a deep breath, shaking her own fears, and painting on a smile again. “Maybe I should stay in here a minute until it doesn’t look like I just took 30 bong rips, huh?” How did the Delos siblings have such an affinity for using humor to cover their bursts of emotions?

Your hands trembled the entire drive to Malibu. Gripping your steering wheel was near impossible with the convulsions. You had absolutely no idea what you’d be walking into, if anything. All you knew was you missed Logan like hell and now you were scared. Juliet looking so shaken had done nothing to calm the nerves you’d accumulated over the last nearly two weeks. God, had it really been almost two weeks? Something had to be wrong; you could feel it deep in your bones.

The house looked dark when you pulled up, shutting your car off but glued to your seat. Now that you were here, you couldn’t find the courage to knock. What if he wasn’t there? Worse, what if he didn’t want to see you? You steadied yourself with a few deep breaths, paying attention to the even beating of your heart. One last internal pep talk and you stepped out of your car, letting your heavy footsteps carry you to Logan’s front door. You rang the doorbell once and listened as it reverberated through his home. Then silence. You waited a moment before pounding your fist on the hard wood.

“Logan? Logan? It’s me,” you called. It was unlikely he could hear you, but you felt compelled to call for him. You needed to know he was ok. You banged your fist again and again, followed by more silence. Maybe he really wasn’t there. You let your head fall forward, resting your forehead against the door in resignation. “Logan,” you cried once more, mostly out of desperation.

Then you heard it. A shuffling of feet on hard wood floor. There was someone in the house.

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roxannc · 5 years

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❝ Girls like her were born in a storm. They have lightning in their souls. Thunder in their hearts. And chaos in their bones. ❞ AISHA DEE? No, that’s actually ROXANNE WEASLEY. A SIXTH YEAR student, this RAVENCLAW student is sided with MCGONAGALL’S ARMY. SHE identifies as CIS-WOMAN and is a HALFBLOOD who is known to be DRAMATIC, HAUGHTY, and TEMPERAMENTAL but also PASSIONATE, SOCIABLE, and OPENMINDED.

LINKS: stats, pinboard, character tag. CHARACTER PARALLELS: donna pinciotti (that 70s show), amy pond (doctor who), amy santiago (brooklyn 99), dan wilds (aftg) HELLO just a quick note from me mar, some of this is for sure up for change, mostly regarding the wotters and family in general!! besides that, here we finally Go

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roxanne voice: i was born in an iconic family because it was my destiny to be iconic! but --- in all honesty --- she is right. roxanne is born to george & angelina one hot summer morning, waking up the whole damn hospital with her crying and huge lungs. she has a brother --- fred, who’s officially her half brother, but that’s not something that makes him anything less than her brother. and then there’s heaps of cousins, almost too many of them, and uncles and aunts and other people to call family, and from day one, it’s all good.

roxanne was a chaotic kid, growing up. a cheerful and energetic and exciting one, but a chaotic one. dirty walls and destruction followed her wherever she went. a bit of a hurricane of a girl, even then. roxanne discovered her love for quidditch at a young age, too, and how couldn’t she? it was in her blood and all around her and there was something bloody magical about flying.

a love for people and laughter and loving people was also discovered. roxanne grew up in a warm environment and had plenty of reasons to love the people she loved, even if she needed none. there was, of course, tragedy in her blood too, an awareness that there’s horrible things in this world --- an awareness that she buried as soon as she was able to.

upon arrival at hogwarts, the hat took a while to decide between gryffindor and ravenclaw but went with the latter, in the end. was roxanne disappointed? a bit, maybe. she would have liked to be sorted into the same house as her parents and brother and a lot of her family but the hat had made some solid points and heck, she wouldnt be roxanne if she looked at ravenclaw as a challenge.

was eventually sorted in ravenclaw because her mind, in the end, is her motivator. she might be a very physically active and present person, but she thinks. a lot. about everything. ( with an exception for moments where she acts on impulse. ) roxanne is a very bright individual, to be honest --- she’s able to be booksmart and she likes learning. she likes challenging herself. above all, she just has a Very open mind and is always looking to broaden it.

is a whirlwind. roxanne joined and dropped clubs like no other, switched favourite subject every month, delved into odd sections of the library to become an expert on rare subjects ... it was a lot. her grades suffered under it, too --- roxanne might be a loyal person, but she’s damn flighty. there were, of course, passions that she stuck with. quidditch, of course, but also justice. roxanne, as a queer woman of colour, has always felt very passionately for human rights issues and knows shit about it too. always down for a debate over lunch. getting on the quidditch team was one of the best days of her damn life. getting the quidditch badge later on was an even better day. roxanne loves the sport so much, wants to go pro once she’s graduated, is crazy competitive. she’s a gay jock. another cliché character by mar learned eventually how to focus and keep her grades up, but she does have trouble motivating herself for things that dont interest her. she’s just not an academic. she likes learning, loves it actually --- but hates the way she has to do it at school. hates it. she’s still working hard to get good grades, of course, because she gets that that’s part of life but she just really... wishes it wasnt. [ death, murder tw so life was going pretty good and then her uncle was murdered and everything went to shit like that. and--- here’s roxanne’s question: how in the living hell do you deal with that? she doesn’t know, that’s for sure. she knows that she’s angry. that she’s absolutely livid and not sure what to do with the grief in her chest because damn it, that’s not her thing, not at all. she’s sickened with worry. she mostly is enraged at the world and that this is happening and that people can be like this. end of tw ]

so joining the DA was something roxanne didn’t even think about. she just did it. her studies, once again, have taken a backseat while she pushes all her energy into the DA and the team, as that functions as something ... as close as therapeutic as she can get, i suppose. leading her team, searching that snitch, hoping to win, win, win --- all things that in the grand scheme of things dont matter but do make it easier to deal.

roxanne ... she’s a lot. she’s a fucking lot. she’s a mess.

personality & rambling

roxanne does NOTHING half heartedly; she either commits fully or doesn’t do something at all. she doesn’t do half-assing, doesn’t believe in it — this got her in a fair amount of trouble at hogwarts (handing in 10/10 homework or ,,, not doing it or barely doing it) and she knows it’s a bad attitude to have, deep down. not that she’s admitted that to herself yet, though. things have been put in perspective now, though. it’s clear that there’s no room for just doing what she wants to do and what she feels like, so she’s ... improving ( and yet completely abandoning her studies lmao )

when roxanne is passionate about something, she goes on about it for a long time. loves ranting about topics that drive her, is very vocal of her views and thoughts and hardly shuts up about it. can be condescending, at times; roxanne believes she’s always right, has little humility to her — she often doesn’t try to put herself in other people’s shoes, thinks that anyone who disagrees is simply wrong. it’s a thinking pattern she’s trying to shake, but alas; it’s easier said than done.

this is also a way for her to cope with her insecurities, tbh; she puts others down in her head so she can lift herself up. unhealthy!!! yikes! it’s something she’s pretty unaware of.

i mean, roxanne is, deep down, very fucking insecure. she has this surname that’s got a bit of fame to it and she has such high ideals for everyone around her including herself. especially for herself. her confidence is not completely feigned, i think part of it is definitely real, but part of it is definitely a mask

roxanne LOVES music. she’s into everything that either is a jam, old classic rock or has a damn good message. she’s v passionate abt it. her spotify? gold. she’s also a good singer! this video is literally roxanne im sorry aisha dee move over! honestly if she had mroe time she would try and get into music bc she would love that but yeno quidditch is the name of the game (someone show her hsm and show her that u can do both)

she’s so competitive someone please stop her from fighting everyone over quidditch

uh she’s just very... much. she’s outgoing and loud and dramatic and her emotions are like! all over the place! and change very easily! she thinks she’s a lot herself too tbh she’s constantly exhausted from herself which i think is valid and relatable on a personal lvl for me.

possible plots

friendos roxanne loves ppl and loving ppl so let’s go and have some FRIENDS up in this building. couldve met through family things, in the library, on the pitch, in dueling club, in any other club that roxanne was in for a short amount of time, etc etc etc. roxanne is fairly easy to place at hogwarts bc she’s everywhere

quidditch competition just give me all the plots if you have a fellow quidditch pal because roxanne is ready to fight to the death for that cup!!

dumbledore’s army bros people that roxanne got to know better through the da would be v interesting because it’s a ??? weird base for a friendship or dynamic ( i mean, a tough one. like ... we’re buds because we’re fighting for a cause whihc we shouldnt even be fighting for bc the world shouldnt be like this )

idk roxanne is literally so all over the place, if your character is at hogwarts im sure we can plot something??? enemies, shenanigan pals, exes, study buddies, etc etc etc

#iidyintro #issa report!!!#repost #i didnt go to school for typing

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pinksausageduo · 6 years

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yoon jisung|the heirs

member: yoon jisung genre: fluff summary: heirs au! you the cold hearted ice princess and jisung the friendly outgoing warm sweetheart. when you and jisung are the only senior students staying at 101 academy for winter break. will jisung be able to melt your heart? heirs series: hwang minhyun | kang daniel | park woojin | yoon jisung | ong seongwoo | park jihoon

you looked at the list of people staying for winter break

the only other senior student was yoon jisung

you automatically thought what an awkward winter break it’ll be

jisung and you weren’t close but of course you knew him

he was one of the most liked guys at school

warm, friendly, kind, hilarious, fun, sociable

good looking and ridiculously rich

the mother of the heirs

the 11 guys aka kings of your school who were infamous for their good looks, talents and ridiculously large fortunes

most of them were distant from the other students but one of the only approachable ones was jisung

he was a complete extrovert

on the other hand

you were the ice princess unapproachable, untouchable, cold, distant, elegant, intimidating

too perfect

you had no friends just business acquaintances

not a single person approached you

even if you were one of the wealthiest girls in 101 academy

it was rumoured you had an ice cold heart

you hated being like this

loneliness and emptiness was all you felt

you had no one who cared about you

no friends whatsoever

and your family never thought you were enough

your parents expected

ice cold perfection

and you hated it

but you still delivered

though you still wished someone came into your life and saw past the cold ice princess mask and cared and loved about you with all your flaws

sounds like a job for jisung

you knew it was going to be an interesting holiday

when jisung saw that you were the other student he completely agreed with what you thought

and then cursed the rule that all the senior students needed to eat at least 2 meals together if they’re staying over the holidays

which meant you two had to actually interact with each other

the first breakfast of the winter break was stiff and awkward to say the least

“good morning miss y/l/n” jisung said friendly

“hello” you curtly responded

jisung fell silent before trying to strike up a conversation again

“what are you doing today?”

“reading” you said without giving a glance at him

he sighed and you felt bad you knew he was trying but you knew you also had to try to be at least polite

so you tried to organise the meals

“jisung-ssi, it would probably be best for us to plan a schedule for both of us to have a smoother winter break, so i’m suggesting we have breakfast and lunch together. either of us can knock on each other’s bedroom’s when they want to have the meal. what do you think?”

jisung was shocked for a moment at how polite you were but quickly agreed

“sounds simple and effective, i’m in”

you nod at him

and then both of you eat your breakfast in silence

the next week went by and you two got along surprisingly really well

and in a very weird way you felt like a couple

you two even had a morning routine

jisung was the earlier riser so he was like your alarm clock

after he woke up would go to your room and he’d knock on the door until you’d say you were up

you’d both spend 30 minutes on showering and dressing

then get to the eating area

and the waiters would immediately come out with your food since you two always order beforehand usually the night before

first you’d pour cereal into your bowl while jisung poured milk then you two would switch

you’d then spread nutella on one slice of your toast while jisung was spreading mashed avocados on one of his slices

then you two would switch

cheers your pieces of avocado toast and then take a bite

it was really relaxing and it was the same routine everyday

once you two finished you had some hot drinks

and that was the only time you two talked

it was also the favourite part of your day

you realised jisung wasn’t some overly social happy rich kid

he was kind caring gentle and funny

and he realised you weren’t an ice princess

in his eyes you were introverted soft spoken and sweet

the conversations were always sweet, warm and short

and whenever you two were talking you felt complete at ease

you also couldn’t help but smile more around him

especially after jisung said to you one of the mornings

“you should smile more y/n, you really look beautiful when you do”

he turned slightly pink but it was no comparison

to your full ruby red blush

you felt your palms go sweaty and your heart start fluttering

it was completely new and different feeling

and it was just as the movies and books said

that rush of warmth

that’s how you felt around jisung

it was the 1st of december

you two completed the whole morning routine as normal

until you two got to eating

it was the first snowfall

the snow looked pristine

white and beautiful

“wow the snow looks perfect” jisung exclaimed

“it does” you whispered detachedly

you hated it

not snow itself

but the perfectness of it all

the supposed flawlessness

it reminded you of yourself

you remember your mother saying from when you were an early age pointing to the snow and saying

“y/n doesn’t the snow look perfect, no flaws just complete perfection, that’s what you need to be sweetheart”

from that time on you loved kicking or just walking in the snow

ruining it of that perfect appearance

it was like the snow was a reminder of who you should be around jisung

and you instantly felt shitty

with that thought you finished your morning coffee quickly

“jisung, i’ll see you later, bye” cutting him right off his sentence

he looked at you worriedly as you rushed away

you quickly went outside

and started pacing in the snow

trying to get rids of your jitters

of course you thought about jisung

the last week or so, was wonderful

jisung didn’t expect anything from you

he was always caring and sweet

and you felt warm and safe around him

you didn’t need to be cold hearted around him

no pretending, no mask, nothing

just you

but jisung’s voice snaps you out of your thoughts

you didn’t realise that you were pacing in the snow in a thin hoodie and sweatpants

nor did you notice how cold you were getting nor how much you were burning up

you were completely swept up by your thoughts

jisung called out your name “Y/N!!”

he rushed over to you concerned with your winter jacket

he quickly puts on it you and puts his hand on your forehead

“y/n you’re burning up, why are you in the snow with these clothes on?” he asked concerned

“umm i needed to think?” you suggested hesitantly

“you’re telling me the real reason why later, but first let’s get you to bed” he said gently

with an arm around you and you leaning on him

you really bright red not just because of the fever

once you got to your room

jisung automatically made you go to your bed

and got your first aid kit to check your temperature

“y/n you’re burning up you’re 38°C stay in bed today okay? let me take care of you today” jisung said gently

“i’m just gonna quickly make some hot chocolate” he added sweetly

“thank you jisung” you sincerely say

making him smile a heart melting smile at you while going out of your room

you couldn’t help but continuously smile thinking that jisung really did care about you

and your heart was all soft and fluffy as that realisation set in

jisung quickly came back with two mugs of hot cocoa topped with toasted marshmallows

yes jisung is that extra to blow torch the marshmallows

he gave you your mug your hands brushing each others

making your conscious giving a girly squeal making you feel like a love sick puppy

then handed you some medicine and water you quickly downed that

and then started to drink your hot chocolate

you realised that jisung was still standing because he didn’t want to sit on your bed if you wouldn’t be comfortable with it

“jisung come lie down i really don’t mind” you say welcomingly (is that even a word)

patting the space beside you which trust me was a lot you had a queen sized bed

“are you sure?” he hesitantly asked

“of course” you reply sweetly

jisung stiffly sat next to you

“jisung bloody lie down and get comfy before you actually turn into a statue” you say with a roll of your eyes

jisung finally complies with a weak chuckle

“can we watch a movie?” he asks looking at your huge flatscreen tv

“yeah sure, what do you want to watch?” you say while drinking your hot cocoa

“the notebook” he says with zero hesitation

“you’ll need tissues then” you say with a cheeky smile

“nah i won’t cry” jisung says confidently while your raise an eyebrow at him

fast forward to the credits scene and jisung is still sobbing

his eyes are all puffy red and tissues are all around him

you shed a few tears but most of the time you were giggling at jisung then comforting him

the two of you order pizza from the kitchens and jisung goes to pick it up

and then you two go on a christmas movie marathon

before you knew it

you were sleeping in jisung arms

jisung had no idea what to do as he held you in your arms

he thought of the last week with you

he was falling for you hard

your gentle calm softness worked perfectly with his loud vivacious personality

you balanced him perfectly

whenever he looked at you he wanted to wrap his arms around you and never let you go

you were beautiful and fragile in his eyes

jisung knew you didn’t have any friends and you were known to have an ice cold heart

in his eyes you were nothing like that and even if you did have an ice heart

it was definitely melting

because of him

he hoped

with those thoughts he fell asleep with a smile on his face and his arms wrapped even tighter around you

for once you woke up earlier than jisung

the first thing you saw was jisung’s face with his hair sticking everywhere and slightly snoring

even then you thought he was the cutest person you’ve ever seen

you then realised jisung’s arms were around you and you did an internal happy dance

“gosh i’m so whipped” you whispered

you didn’t know whether it was the fact that jisung was the first person to see through the “ice princess” persona

or whether it was just him

at this point you didn’t care you were falling for him and no matter what anyone else said including your parents

you were determined to not let go of one of the best things that ever happened to you

“did you really mean all that” jisung hopefully whispered opening his sleepy eyelids

“wait did i just say that out loud?” you said absolutely mortified

“yup now answer my question” jisung grinned happily

“i meant it” you whispered before pulling the blanket over your head and hoping the ground would swallow you up

jisung chuckled and started tickling you and you couldn’t help but laugh while telling him to stop

your head finally popped out of the blankets

and with no warning jisung kissed you on the cheek

making you blush and your insides turning into mush

“i’m falling for you too y/n” he said sweetly while giving you his signature beaming smile

“really?” you hopefully say

“yes really” he confirmed

before you knew it he was leaning in and you were frozen

but your heart was beating so fast

the moment his lips met yours

you completely relaxed and you enjoyed it wholeheartedly

it was soft sweet warm

filled with affection

you two broke apart with wide grins

then jisung wrapped his arms around you making

and you instantly snuggled into him

it felt completely right

just like jisung was for you

the next two weeks sailed by

it was amazing

everyday you woke up in jisung’s arms

and you hung out with each most of the day

you now knew jisung inside out and he was the same with you

jisung was so understanding about your thing with perfection and your “ice princess” persona

you remember him hugging you then saying sweetly to you

“y/n perfection is impossible, everyone has flaws but i love you just as yourself with all your flaws okay? and you should too”

you then couldn’t but give him a kiss for what he said

afterwards you two went into the snow and kicked it made a mess of it and then had a snowball fight

it ended with both of you laying in the snow laughing

while you two were lying down in the snow

out of the blue jisung asked you “y/n this has been one of the best few weeks of my life with you so will you be my girlfriend?”

you were surprised but super happy and you of course said yes

but that wonderful winter fairytale came to an end

it was first day back from winter break and you were worried

luckily you had jisung in all your morning classes

EVERYONE was staring at you and jisung holding hands

and you hear the whispers and feel the glares

then people started gossiping more when one of the younger students came barrelling into you and fell

instead of glaring at them walking off as you usually do

you asked if they were okay and helped them up

literally the whole corridor was SHOOK

you just wanted the day to end to be honest

“just ignore the stares you have me okay?” jisung whispered in your ear as he grabbed your hand tighter as you entered the cafeteria

literally more silent then when woojin and his girlfriend came in holding hands for the rest time

you could hear a pin drop in the cafeteria

even the heirs table looked pretty bloody shook

the first one to snap out of it was daehwi who you were acquaintances with

“hey y/n, jisung, come sit” he friendly said

you gave him a smile which resulted with a brief look of shock

“okay seriously what is it with one of our guys being completely single for like forever then first day back BOOM they’re holding hands with a girl” seongwoo groans trying to diffuse the tension

making everyone laugh

“seongwoo you’re just jealous you’re still single” said woojin’s girlfriend poking a tongue out at him

he then poked his tongue out and pouted cause it was true

not for long seongwoo not for long *hint* *hint *cough-nextfic-cough*

she quickly turned to you and said light hearted and sweetly “the stares and looks die down after wait- never-good luck, the cafeteria seemed even more silent when you two walked in then when me and woojin walked in”

“i’m used to it but cheers for dramatic entrances” you say with a smile and you two gave each other a hi five

everyone looked at you two shocked

while jisung just smiled and looked at you adoringly wrapping his arm around you

while you just snuggled into him

“wow the ice princess isn’t so icy anymore” said sungwoon jokingly but surprised

then minhyun’s girlfriend whacked him over the head

“sheesh woman did you not know violence isn’t the answer to everything” complained sungwoon as he rubbed his head

#harrypotterreference #imsocool #totallyhaventreadeachbook20times

minhyun’s girlfriend glared at him and expaseratedly said “sungwoon please don’t be an immature asshole you’re the second oldest and guanlin’s more mature than you!”

“YEAH NUNA YOU TELL HIM!” guanlin cheered then sungwoon shot him a withering glare

“nope no nothing i do not exist i never said anything” he muttered slowly sliding down off his chair

everyone was laughing

“minhyun please say something she’s your girlfriend” sungwoon pleaded

minhyun had his hands up while shaking his head “nope never i support my girlfriend fully, 100%”

“that’s my man” minhyun’s girlfriend said giving him a peck on the lips

they looked so in love

and you blushed thinking maybe that’s the way you and jisung look

definitely

then you heard jinyoung’s voice “hey mum dad keep the pda to a minimum okay we ARE EATING”

“when you have a girlfriend we are going to constantly bother about you doing pda” woojin butted in

“that will not happen, end of conversation” daehwi jokingly not added while putting his arm around jinyoung

“oh by the way y/n all us girls are going christmas shopping this weekend what do you say?” said daniel’s girlfriend with a welcoming smile

the atmosphere became suddenly a little tenser since they knew you always have declined these kind of offers

but you knew jisung personality has rubbed off on you in the last few weeks

no not sexually get your head out of the gutters

instead of declining you said “that sounds great!” with a smile

everyone visibly relaxed a bit and jisung squeezed you just a little tighter

“wait wait no one’s actually asked but are you two officially together?” daniel asked you two

“yeah we are” you say smiling snuggling even closer into jisung

“damn whoever made the name ice princess really didn’t know you” jaehwan stupidly added not thinking about what happened to sungwoon literally 2 minutes ago

then it was time for daniel’s girlfriend to whack jaehwan over the head

“did your brain cells die when you came into my room blasting punk rock music at 4am in the morning as a joke last week?” she said still a bit miffed over it

“no my brain cells are very much working thank you very much. BY THE WAY it was daniel and seongwoo’s idea!!” jaehwan complained and pouted

daniel’s girlfriend just rolled her eyes while said “which is why minhyun and woojin are better boyfriends, jisung too”

“HEY!!” daniel complained

“at least daniel’s the best kisser” seongwoo said cheekily

“what you talking from experience seongwoo” jihoon said smirking

“i- didn- fuck off jihoon” seongwoo stuttered out then ended jokingly

“yeah yeah you love meeee” jihoon said teasingly with some aegyo at the end

“welcome to the crazy ass family” jisung whispered

but everyone ended up hearing it

which of course means everyone heard your answer which was met with wide beaming smiles

“it’s amazing”

ahh this was my first jisung fic! i hope i wrote him well please tell me if i did. i’m sorry this was so late =this was the first scenario i had such a severe case of writer’s block. i procrastinated so much it’s not even funny. i might not have time for seongwoo’s heirs before daniel’s birthday. so i’m planning to write the daniel angst soulmate scenario first and if that gets done quickly i’ll do the seongwoo’s heirs asap. as always please tell me what you thought and give me feedback!

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Well, this is Miniqued/Poscha again. Hmm I don't know what to start with, actually. Have no idea. Well I've written above in description, I guess, that this blog is for writing some stuff in English. Just some stuff, not a big deal, like fics or just random writing. Maybe some critical stuff, though I don't really know how to write anything critical. Let's consider this is just for myself, nothing more. I'm not really good at writing, though i like writing and most of my unfinished stories are about a fictional world and some characters in it. Worlds and storylines may vary but some main traits of characters remain unchanged. This is the first time i've tried to write in English so please don't be harsh on me. I have a lot of flaws I guess in writing. I definitely do have. Huh, but let's give it a try anyway. And when writing I like to take notes describing the reasons and emotions behind characters main motives, what actually drives them and so on. I think I will post that kind of stuff too as I will go further. Cause I kinda like it. My main story now I think is about a character named Suol. She is a young girl who has been raised in Savagoy previously having lived in Ronnia, another country. Savagoy is situated in the South of this story world while Ronnia is in the north-west side. Suol is approximately 18-19 years old when the whole story starts. She is cold, considered beautiful by others, incredulous and somehow restrained. She is a typical ronnian girl and seems a bit like a foreign body in savagoian society because of her appearance and personality. She is not outgoing and sociable as other southerners or her friends. Suol has a rather painful background, she doesn't trust others and is a little suspicious of them. When story begins she meets ronnian acquintances from her childhood days. One of them, Alvin Ronn, is trying to achieve his goals in Savagoy and lures Nario Arvi to Ronnia escaping with his girlfriend. Suol goes after them being sent by her guardians. Ilaf Arvi wants her to infiltrate Alvin's surroundings becoming his subordinates. Suol achieves it and starts sending data about his actions to Savagoy and other groups. Alvin is fully aware of it, but keeps Suol in his surrounding in order to be in control of the situation. Suol is the main narrator of the story and we see actions of others through her eyes and perception. She has some distant feelings for both Alvin and his father Ilaf Arvi who uses her in his plan. In the end she chooses the side of Alvin, but eventually left behind by him for previously lying to him. She tryes to analyze her feelings and emotions only to find out that she is empty and doesn't have any sort of will except for revenge. She manages to avenge her mother's death after which she was sent to live in Savagoy. She kills lord Lucian Ronn in a bloody fight alongside Manirela Ronn. The reason why she is a main character is her complicated path and relationships with others. She knows both savagoian and ronnian cultures and people in both societies. She belonged to neither of them at birth, but was raised in both places. She tries to avenge her mother, but is used for completely different purposes by other people. She knows very well what kind of purposes for, though she agrees to plans of Ilaf Arvi and goes to Ronnia again. After her mother's death she was bullied by ronnian kids who saw a target and a victim in her. Suol is not ravaged by injustice of the world around her, but has a goal of bringing justice. The one who is ravaged is Alvin, the opposite of hers in every aspect. Al is an antihero, hero-lover and romantic hero too. He is more callous and mature than Nario, full of hatred and cruelty, not without honor and manifestations of kindness, humanity. His initial humanity is the starting point for all his atrocities for his far-reaching goals he will do anything. Like Taniru, Nario's ex-girlfriend, he is physically attractive and handsome, has a surprisingly beautiful appearance, but is rotten from the inside, has the worst intentions and is unprincipledly cruel. He is also emotional and furious like Nario, but he is more restrained and knows how to manage his emotions for the sake of his goals. Alvin is perceptive, cunning, treacherous and clever in the implementation of his plans. He sometimes uses the most extreme methods. Callous and flawed, he is more sensual and extremely cruel with enemies, but not without sincere mercy. He understands the cold and cruel world of Ronnia and is ready to do for anything to change it. Emotions overwhelm him, but he hides them under the guise of cruelty, and when he can no longer bear them, he goes beyond rationality, obeying only his blind hatred and the bitter accumulation of injustice. Then he is emptied of all his gnawing emotions and unconsciously seeks solace from the one who saw no less than him. In contrast to the sensual attraction to Taniru, Al is looking for a spiritual comrade in Suol. He is frank with her and understands that only with her can he afford to frantically open up. He understands that he was only aware of his dark feelings of resentment and anger, and was guided only by them, by his hatred and perverted love for his father, his aversion to the true nature of Taniru and carnal attraction to her body, contempt for his own mother and inexpressible and carefully concealed love for her, which was combined with bitter regret for her unfulfilled fate and female misfortune, user-related attitude to Suol and long-standing bright feelings for her that have not faded away in him over the years from their childhood. He gives the impression of a person who has long lost hope or knows that hope never existed. Disappointed in the world, he began to do what he wanted, by any means and at any cost. And the price turns out to be what actually constituted the whole meaning of his life, and he destroyed it with his own hands, arrogantly believing that he could do without them, but then comes the quite predictable devastation. The relationship between Suol and Alvin is intertwined with past feelings, obstacles in the faces of the others around them, mutual attraction, sympathy, some sort of growing confidence and at the same time wariness. Suol tries to hide in shadows while achieving her goals, Alvin does everything blatantly and in public. In the end it's clear that they had the same goal - destroying the toxic world of Ronnia. They leave Ronnia together after having done everything to ruin it. Suol kills Lucian Ronn, the one who was actually in power, and after his death the chaos becomes uncontrollable leading to destruction. Alvin puts Ronnia in a war using cover in the face of Kaleian forces and leaves Manirela without any control while she is about to die from injuries inflicted by Suol letting her demolish the whole city. Alvin silently watches his mother die apathetic to her pleas. His cruelty is unreasonable, but he never had love for his own mother and becomes indifferent to her eventual fate. Because Manirela has never tried to love him or has never seen him as her child instead hating him for being born to the world where she wasn't loved by his father, Ilaf Arvi. Manirela was failure of a mother putting fury and rage in Alvin since birth for being nothing to his own parents. Alvin suffers from being raised loveless, he tries to attract Ilaf Arvi's attention by any means, but eventually fails facing his negligence. He thinks the roots of his father's indifference is in him, in Alvin, but soon realizes that all his attempts was worthless and he has spent so much time for nothing. He becomes just as apathetic to the world as his father and decides to leave his country behind alongside Suol, who has suffered from greater injustice than him, having been brought to Ronnia from another place by her foster mother only to be severely bullied and abused after her parent figure's death. Suol was abused and beaten by her mother, Kassien, on a regular basis and Alvin knew about it as a child. Another person standing between Suol and Alvin is Taniru who escapes with the latter only to be disappointed with the life in Ronnia. Taniru is careless, attractive and thoughtless, she is fed up with her rather tedious and not really evolving relationships with her boyfriend Nario. She sees nothing new in their bond and easily seduced by the promising intercourse with Alvin Ronn, a ronnian prince. She faces unexpected consequences from her relations with him. She and Alvin are banished from the royal palace for the latter bringing his concubine which was deeply offensive to the Ronn family members some of which were born from a concubine of the previous king. Al has no intention of marrying Taniru and soon their life together becomes marred with sin as Al finds out that Taniru is actually his half-sister. He is disgusted with this revelation but keeps her in Ronnia till he achieves want he wants. Taniru reveals afterwards that she is pregnant and situation worsens even further. She doesn't know about her being an illegitimate child of Ilaf Arvi and is jealous when Alvin leaves her behind going to the war with Suol. Taniru secretly harbours suspicions about her mothers's relationship with Ilaf Arvi and an untimely death of her father who was always jealous of her mother. She comes to not comforting conclusion that she might be Nario's and Alvin's sister torn by remorse and fear. She remembers that she was the one who involuntarily killed her father(the one she thought was her father) after he beat her mother for infidelity. The mask of a carefree, obtuse and naive person gradually fades away as she finds herself torn with fear and uncertainty of the future. She is still egocentric though, despite the fact that she is left behind by the one who only thought to use her against Nario. She tardily demands attention from Alvin who already becomes cold towards her. Taniru kills Suol after the latter tried to save her thinking that Suol is the source of her misery for she won Alvin away from her despite the fact that Alvin and Suol never really had any love affair. Alvin leaves Taniru unconcious of their incest and destroys all life forces of immortal Nario who also knew about their blood relations but kept loving her no matter what. Alvin sees that Nario is the one of the people who personally loved him but fails to understand it in time. It was as if Nario loved all of them instead of their indifferent father. Alvin fails to catch up to a person who was compassionate to him and to his fate. Who cared about him despite Alvin's hatred for him. Nario becomes a martyr Alvin didn't deserve for he has done only callous things to him. And Taniru also realizes too late that she is likely to never see Nario again before she leaves Ronnia. But she comes back to the death field to see a beaten Nario who lost everything. Alvin only then reveals that they both are her brothers. Alvin and Taniru didn't deserve Nario but he is gone now because of their egoistic actions. Suol is gone too, but Alvin brings her back to life with his abilities nearing those of a god. Taniru and Alvin are examples of how feelings of someone can be immature and utterly selfish. They never loved each other, they only needed what was represented through each other. Alvin wanted to enrage Nario by seducing his beautiful, but thoughtless girlfriend. Taniru wanted to marry a more promising party in the face of a more passionate and handsome Alvin. They both wore a mask of someone they weren't. They were liars, and the ones they tried to deceive were themselves. Opposite to them, Suol and Nario were of a much more modest opinion of themselves, sacrifacing some part of them for others. Both of them were somehow destroyed in a clash. But Alvin realizing his true feelings through the example of Nario brings her back to life as only he is able to do it. Alvin perfectly knows that he was born as a part of an experiment to see what kind of a person would be born as a result of an affair between Ronn and Arvi, Manirela and Ilaf. His parents failed to understand each other, though they did love each other, dooming Alvin to live in disgrace of being born half-breed. Taniru was somehow right suspecting infidelity just as her late father, dying from jealousy and thinking that Alvin and Suol had an affair. If they ever wanted to have an affair they just never happened to express it. Alvin knew the true nature of Suol's agenda, Ilaf Arvi's plans to distract him through her presence and her spying on him. He literally lets her do it, though he is not particularly happy about it. Alvin is aware that letting her do what she actually does will eventually benefit him. He knows very well that deep down Suol would choose him over others as it really happens when she betrays Ilaf Arvi and Manirela Ronn whom she previously worked for and helps Alvin get free. But Alvin leaves her though going to conquer the capital city on his own. Suol becomes alone and empty and goes to living in a former house of her mother, about whom Manirela told that she was very abusive towards Suol revealing that Kassien struggled all her childhood before she fled to Ronnia with lord Lucian Ronn escaping a miserable fate of an illegitimite child of an Airusu general. Her mother and father died in a war fighting for her real father. When she found out about it after their death she left her grandmother. All her childhood was spent in unterminable and constant clashes between her mother and grandma. Her mother went to the war to fight alongside her loved one and died because of it. Suol doesn't know what to do when she comes back to her ronnite district. She then sets free her former classmates from Savagoy and tells them to quit Ronnia as there will be nothing soon. She goes to Alvin in the royal palace and severely injures Manirela Ronn as she attempts to have the power back. Alvin is indifferent to his mother who failed to raise him and leaves her to the fate of the death. He and Suol disappear into oblivion, leaving ruined Ronnia behind.

#Suol #Alvin #Ronnia #Savagoy #analysis #intro #characters

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𝙿𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙾𝙽𝙰𝙻𝙸𝚃𝚈 | 개성 ( character development 001. )

NINE PROMINENT TRAITS

Reticent: not revealing one's thoughts or feelings readily.

Hesitant: tentative, unsure, or slow in acting or speaking.

Perceptive: having or showing sensitive insight.

Benevolent: well meaning and kindly.

Repressed: characterized by the repression of thoughts or desires.

Ambitious: having or showing a strong desire and determination to succeed.

Adroit: clever or skilful.

Energetic: showing or involving great activity or vitality.

Affable: friendly, good-natured, or easy to talk to.

JUNG’S THEORY: INFP: THE DREAMER

INFPs are introspective, private, creative and highly idealistic individuals that have a constant desire to be on a meaningful path. They are driven by their values and seek peace. Empathetic and compassionate, they want to help others and humanity as a whole. INFPs are imaginative, artistic and often have a talent for language and writing. They can also be described as easygoing, selfless, guarded, adaptable, patient and loyal.

STRENGTHS

Warmly concerned and caring towards others.

Sensitive and perceptive about what others are feeling.

Loyal and committed - they want lifelong relationships.

Deep capacity for love and caring.

Driven to meet other’s needs.

Strive for “win-win” situations.

Nurturing, supportive and encouraging.

Likely to recognise and appreciate other’s need for space.

Able to express themselves well.

Flexible and diverse.

WEAKNESSES

Don’t like to have their “space” invaded.

Extreme dislike of conflict and criticism.

Strong need to receive praise and positive affirmation.

May react rather emotionally to stressful situations.

Have difficulty leaving a bad relationship.

Have difficulty scolding or punishing others.

Tend to be reserved about expressing their feelings.

Perfectionistic tendencies may cause them to not give themselves enough credit.

Tendency to blame themselves for problems, and hold everything on their own shoulders.

MORAL ALINGMENT NEUTRAL GOOD

A neutral good character does the best that a good person can do. He is devoted to helping others. He works with kings and magistrates but does not feel beholden to them.

A neutral good character will keep his word to those who are not evil and will lie only to evil-doers. He will never attack an unarmed foe and will never harm an innocent. He will not use torture to extract information or for pleasure. He will never kill for pleasure, only in self-defense or in the defense of others. A neutral good character will never use poison. He will help those in need and works well alone or in a group. He responds well to higher authority until that authority attempts to use the law to hamper his ability to do good. He is trustful of organizations as long as they serve his utilitarian purpose. He will follow the law unless more good can come from breaking the law. He will never betray a family member, comrade, or friend. Neutral good characters are indifferent to the concepts of self-discipline and honor, finding them useful only if they promote goodness.

Neutral good is the philosophy that goodness should be advanced by using whatever means provide the most benefit. It is a philosophy of altruistic consequentialism. This philosophy holds that people should behave altruistically and balance the needs of the collective as a whole and the needs of the individuals making up the collective. Neutral good can also be associated with act utilitarianism and ethical altruism.

ENNEAGRAM: TYPE SIX: THE LOYALIST ➜ WINGED BY SEVEN ➜ SELF-PRESERVATION

QUICK OVERVIEW

BASIC FEAR: of being abandoned.

BASIC DESIRE: to have security.

THE HEAD CENTRE: moves away from others - out of touch with the centre.

ORIGINAL LOSS: "i was too rebellious.“

DECISION: being obedient and loyal allows you to survive and be loved.

SELF-IMAGE: "i am faithful and responsible.”

COMPULSION: to establish security by obeying the rules.

VICE: sloth in self-reliance.

VIRTUE: courage.

HIDDEN COMPLAINT: i am dependable and i follow orders, although other people don’t.

KEY MOTIVATIONS

Want to have security, to feel supported by others, to have certitude and reassurance, to test the attitudes of others toward them, to fight against anxiety and insecurity.

➜ WINGED BY SEVEN: THE BUDDY

Sixes with a Seven wing are generally outgoing and may appear more overtly nervous. More plainly want to be liked and will pursue others in contrast to Five wing who pulls in. Can be charming, sociable, ingratiating. Have a faster tempo, stronger connection to Three. Often self-preservation subtypes, characterized by a personal warmth. Can have a cheerful, forward-looking drive and be disarmingly funny. Self-effacing, gracious and curious. When more entranced, may be self-contradicting and seem as if they want two things at once. Sometimes test others overtly, drive you crazy with mixed messages. It may be hard to follow what they’re saying. When threatened, one defense is to become impossible to please. When counterphobic, they tend to be accusative. Some get caught up in big plans that they hope will result in material security. Also can be insecure, irritable, petty, irrational, chaotic. Subject to mood swings, inferiority complexes, runaway fears. May have hair-trigger flare-ups of paranoia. Falsely accuse others and then seem not to realize it. Other times they plead to be taken care of. Sometimes defensively conservative in their lifestyle. Some struggle with appetite.

➜ SELF-PRESERVATION (SP)

Self-preservation Sixes often display a personal warmth that is meant to defang the potential hostility of others. If they sense aggression or disapproval in the environment, they may counterphobically zero in on it. Use humour, charm, self-depreciation to make friends out of possible enemies. Can flatter like Twos, play themselves down, work to maintain other people’s affection. Act vulnerable, invite rescue. Ingratiating, but more nervously dependent than other Six subtypes. Also less in touch with their own hostility. Their home environment is sometimes important. May feel like their house is a fortress against the outside world’s dangers. Worry about their ability to survive; have scary “worst-that-can-happen” fantasies

FOUR TEMPERAMENTS PHLEGMATIC

STRENGTHS

Calm, humble, discreet, flexible will of steel (flexible steel), thoughtful, patient, modest, a real sweetheart, accommodating, steady-paced, sympathetic, perceptive, faith in morality, very compassionate, assuming innocent until proven guilty, a good listener, open-minded, considerate, and empathetic to all

In common with melancholic: Polite, reserved, gentle, ethical to a fault, dependable, mysterious, quiet and stealthy, a deep poker face

In common with sanguine: Pleasant, forgiving, witty, easygoing, idealistic endurer, emotionally available, a good sense of humour, good with relationships.

WEAKNESSES

Indifferent, submissive, lazy, slow, shy and passive, slacker, indecisive and too yielding.

In common with melancholic: Timid and docile, scared of sudden change, stubborn (about certain things), easily embarrassed.

In common with sanguine: teasing, too compromising, forgetful, unable to find what's wrong.

STAR SIGN PISCES

Neptune signs, Pisceans have the tendency to be chameleons, to “match energies” with others, or become what others expect or want them to be. This enables them to blend in anywhere they want to. A Piscean can be the life of the party or fade into the woodwork, as they choose, and may appear very differently to others from one meeting to another.

PATRONUS RACCOON

Curiosity, secrecy, adaptability. Raccoon people have a tendency to be defensive, on-guard, ambiguous, and aloof. They can also be charismatic, involved, and unpredictable. Raccoon medicine is integrated with the idea of having the right 'mask' for any situation, and taking control over change. Raccoon is a symbol of disguise, transformation, and open-mindedness.

Jay is a boy with many secrets and many masks, he changes easily and can adapt to situations how he deems fit, having the ability to understand the person he’s talking with and giving them what they needs. Once he’s comfortable with the person and the side of himself that he’s shoving, he blooms, friendly and open-minded, enjoying the time he spends with that person.

BOGGART His white lies and past doings coming to haunt him in the form of; people he loves ( his fathers and close friends ), dying in front of him.

His biggest fear comes in the shape of his fathers getting dragged out of their home, a big fight follows, glass shards everywhere, droplets of blood marring the faces of the people he loves as they’re dragged away, it’s not just his family but every single people he ever cared about, looking at Jay accusatorially. What they’re thinking is crystal clear in their eyes — ‘it’s your fault, it’s all your fault’. No matter what he does, as he trashes and tries to reach them, they get farther away, a dark hand crawling around their throats, leaving them breathless. It’s Jay’s biggest fear, that all he has done, all the white lies he ever told will harm the ones he cares about, and bring them their demise — while he just stands there and watches.

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#( hnnng idk what this is #i took psych so i wanted to give this a go? the links are super helpful dfkjh )#◣ 𝙳𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚁 𝙷𝙸𝙲 𝚃𝙸𝙱𝙸 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙳𝙴𝚁𝙸𝚃 𝙾𝙻𝙸𝙼 ┇ — musings. ◥#◣ 𝙰𝙱 𝙸𝙼𝙾 𝙿𝙴𝙲𝚃𝙾𝚁𝙴 ┇ — headcanons. ◥

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Hey, I'm new to the whole astrology thing. I decided to learn more about it because my girl is into the whole universe thing and I thought it would be could to know what she's actually talking about, so I want to learn about myself here's my info if you could get me started in the right direction that would really help. Birthday: 10 August 1995 Time: 8am Location: San Angelo, TX Not really sure of anything else you might need but I would greatly appreciate any help you can offer.

Hi so the following chart I got from cafeastrology.com (if you have any astrology questions and you need a nice, quick answer cafe astrology is your best bet) so this is what I gathered! (btw I’m sorry if you’re not a guy, the default gender on the profile was male)

I completely understand that this may just look like a jumbled up mess of numbers and neon symbols, so let me explain some basic understandings of Astrology! The sun sign is your primary sign, it’s usually what people use as a gauge to interpret one’s disposition, for it embodies the traits a person can exhibit both inside and outside (there are 12 signs you can be, Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces, NO Ophiuchus does NOT count). If you look on the chart, it reads horizontally and your sun is Leo! Aside from your Sun Sign, people usually like to know their moon and ascendant signs (people also refer to ascendant as rising, so if someone says they’re a _____ rising, it’s the same thing as their ____ ascendant. Unfortunately I can’t tell you what all the symbols mean at all the different placements, because to be quite honest with you I wouldn’t be able to give you the best and most accurate report you deserve! However, I can tell you about your Sun, Moon, and Ascendant signs! :)

Sun: So as I said before, the Sun sign is sort of the essentials of who you are. You answer a question, talk in a conversation, or behave a certain way, chances are it’s because of your sun sign! Now your sun Sign is Leo, meaning that you are quite the extrovert. I won’t get too into the details of Leo and its denominations and celestial bodies, but I will let you that because your Leo is under the Sun, your energies in this particular placement (placement being which symbol or planet) are particularly ‘powerful’. Leo tend to be quite energetic, they value and enjoy social life, and above all they just love having a good time! Often people like Leo because they tend to be sociable, they’re outgoing, and all around a jovial force. Leo also tend to be leaders, so I wouldn’t be too surprised if someone found you leading the conversation and where it goes, changing topics or pushing them forward.

Ascendant: Ascendant and Sun are often mixed up quite easily, but I tend to keep them separate with this visual! Imagine that you are floating outside our solar system, and all the planets are conveniently in a way where you see all of them. Think of the outermost planet, the body you see first is your Ascendant! If it’s the outmost shell of who you are, the first ‘self’ you show others in social situations or when you deliver first impressions. Again, your Leo is in your ascendant placement meaning that you are easily approached by others. You dominate conversations, and you tend to talk for the sake of it. In terms of interactions, you appreciate a sense of variety, never really sticking to one particular friend at a time, usually a combination of different people going to different places. This doesn’t however mean that you’re ALWAYS like this, Leo aren’t the most grounded of signs, and they do appreciate alone time here and there (but then again, i feel like everyone needs that). Now going back to my visual, the reason it’s helpful is because even though you see that planet easiest, the shine of the sun will still be evident, despite being millions of miles away at the center of the solar system. This is because your sun sign is represented in all that you are, and it’s just a mask you show to people like your ascendant for the sake of first impressions. However, because your Sun and Ascendant signs are the same, people may find you to be an open person, because who you are by nature is also what you show when you talk to others (there’s no discrepancy, where people see different sides of you when they get to know you better).

Moon: Personally, the Moon placement is my favorite of all placements, because it has a multifaceted sense to it, because it essentially rules your emotions. Now you may not know this, but seeing as how you have Aquarius in moon and a Leo in your ascendant, there’s a bit of a juxtaposition. Aquarius in moon means that you value privacy. As much as you like to talk to others, there’s that part of you that longs for quite days spent in introspection, just being alone and therefore being in comfort. You like to ponder and you love to observe what’s around you, and it allows you to gain much insight on other people, possible making you a skilled individual when to comes to reading a persons’ feelings. Aquarius and Leo however share a commonality in their conviction, because once they set their eyes on something they plant themselves like a tree. They are adamant, and when it comes to their ideologies they resent the idea of compromise. Despite this, you believe in a sense of fluidity and continuity, always working hard and striving for your goals as opposed to waiting for another day. If someone doesn’t know you as well, people may see you as emotionally detached, which is not a bad thing!

Overall: If you feel as if you disagree, that’s completely okay! The thing is you have so many other placements with different signs in them, and perhaps one of your placements is more dominant than the other! (I have friends who have signs more apparent than their sun). I hope this helps you understand a little bit of Astrology, and maybe you can impress your girlfriend with your newfound astrological knowledge!

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