#i feel as if im in a dreamy state of bitersweet melancholy

[queen-of-the-boos]

Hrrnnghh

Birthday has me thinking about Fun Fred......i mean moreso than usual (which is saying something)

#sighs wistfully #i wish he was here with me right now #my heart both aches because I want to be with him and its also a little fluttery because im thinking about #how happy and cute he always is around my birthday #he treats me like a queen #I wish i could go to sleep tonight and wake up to my exact same life except i would be going to my job as a maintenance tech for them #all of them #my dear metallic friends #why am i. crying? its not a bad cry (?) #anyway idk what this post was supposed to be im just #i feel as if im in a dreamy state of bitersweet melancholy #I wish I could just hear him call me cupcake or birthday girl #its so cute and makes my heart feel like sunshine #I wanna walk around with Bon Bon in my arms #I Want To Be With Them #maybe then i wouldnt have to plan my own birthday party and feel like a nuisance for asking people to come #mmm sorry for the random vent? #i really dont know what happened here i just typed and stuff came out #anyway