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#i dont think ive felt anything but fleeting (minutes) joy since it was over i didnt have that crutch anymore
craycraybluejay
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i miss them.. they made me feel so excited and hurt and scared and things.. i fucking hate them its been years and i miss this stupid motherfucker suddenly again
#all the degrading and control god take me back
#the cruel indifference
#do all dreams have to end?
#i dont know if ill ever feel so indulged again
#so allowed to be feral. animal. nothing but instinct and sensation
#it was complete chaos and it was 'morally corrupt' but by god it kept me so happy and satisfied
#i dont think ive felt anything but fleeting (minutes) joy since it was over i didnt have that crutch anymore
#i was right. it left me untethered.
#untethered much like a balloon i will float float float away
#and im still angry still impulsive and pain seeking and hungry
#whenever i felt i was going to explode out of my skin i had an outlet
#without one i get physically sick with it with all the energy and feeling and impulse
#its like my whole body is wrapped in live wire
#worse was that i trusted them and it wasnt just a clean cut and dry its over
#it was ugly and fucking awful and completely caught me off guard
#i still have the memories saved i could go and look
#i shouldnt. not tonight. not this impulse
#i will become so much angrier it isnt worth the pleasure
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