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Otherkin Challenge Post

I saw this and thought it would be fun. It also looks like a great way to vent, since no one I love knows about my kin identity..

1. What name do you go by? What is the significance of it to you?

My name is Briana, but I got by Breanne, a name from Englund during the time range of which werewolves/beasts were prevalent.

2. How old are you? (If you don’t mind sharing.) What is the gender you identify as?

I'm 21 years old, and female.

3. What is your Otherkin/Therian species?

I'm still trying to find a "label", but I would say Werewolve/Beastkin. Some sort of large monstrous canine creature.

4. How long have you known that you are Otherkin? How old were you when you Awakened?

I've been otherkin since I was 4, but I didn't find the term until highschool, so I guess I was awakened when I was 16. I was literally forced as a child to start "acting human." No more outside playtime, crawling on all fours, howling and barking and growling at people. I was a little heathen as a child, but I'm glad I got to express myself.

5. How did you find the Otherkin community?

A friend of mine who is a Kitsune (apologies if I butchered that), she showed me otherkin and Tumblr and Kinmunity, hoping that if I went back to therapy with this information it would help ease my depression.

6. How does being Otherkin affect your life?

It's mostly the depression. Not knowing who or what I am fully but still having these memories and flashes/glimpses of myself. It's like a constant dizzy spiral and I can't make it stop.

7. Are you "out of the metaphysical closet"? If so, to whom?

Barely. A few friends who I've grown apart from. I think if the man who raised me knew the term, he'd just know that I am. Nothing gets by him.

8. How did/would your family react to you being Otherkin?

I think they would shut me down. They've done it once before when I came out as nonbinary, and now that I've had a child, they think they won that argument. It's very disheartening.

9. What does being Otherkin mean to you?

It's a way to express myself/feel normal again. I've never felt human and I thought I was the only one. Now I see others with the same feelings and I feel at home in my own body.

10. How do you believe you came to be Otherkin? Is it a psychological connection? Were you reincarnated? Explain.

I very much believe I was reincarnated. I've always had a huge fixation on Englund during what I think was the 1700s. When werewolves and vampires and monsters ran rampant. I even have memories of men I've slayed in the types of clothes and homes you would of seen back then. I just can't pin point was exactly I was...

11. What do you hope the Otherkin community will be like in ten years? Are you for public awareness or against it? Why or why not?

I think it'll be stronger, hopefully with less misconceptions. I am for public awareness in the sense where if I go to a friend, they dont shun me. Or if I go to therapy, they know exactly what I'm talking about and can tell me, "Hey it's normal and this is why." I want all of us to be seen as normal.

12. Do you have phantom/astral limbs? What are they and how often do you feel them?

I do, I have a tail, a huge, kinda whippish, dog tail with fur. I can feel fur all over my body, excluding my stomach, at the weirdest times. I've grown out my nails and filed them so they now match as close as possible to the claws I feel. And lastly, if I focus hard enough, and there's wind outside, I can feel ears on my head that kinda sway or flop in the wind, depending on its strength.

13. Do you mental-shift? Have you ever harmed yourself or someone else during one?

I've had a few that just happened, and I didn't really know/register what was going on. I was alone for the majority of them so I've mostly just calmly idled, but there's always the urge to hunt something down, so I might end up hurt/hurting.

14. Have you ever mental-shifted at a time when it could be considered inappropriate?

I think so. We were in the car and the windows had to be rolled down because there's no AC. I closed my eyes and instantly felt a snout, fur, ears, the whole nine. I felt like the world melted away and I just enjoyed the wind in my fur. Then my friend snapped me out of it and said I looked like I had completely zoned out.

15. Do you Astral Project or practice any occult crafts?

No. Not quite talented enough.

16. Do you feel you are any sort of danger to society?

Probably more towards myself or animals than society. I do have an insane urge to hunt but nothing more.

17. Does your nonhuman identity complicate every day life for you? If so, how?

Not so much complicate, just makes me exhausted and depressed when I have to go out in the world and do things. I'm a very solitary creature, much rather be alone and talk on the phone versus be out with people or at a party. It makes me a twinge angry/irritable and anxious.

18. Why do you believe you are here as a human?

I didn't understand why until I had my son. Now I'm here to be a mother and raise my child as my father raised me. But before that, I was nothing...

19. Are you active among the Otherkin community?

I am, but I tend to be active while everyone else is asleep. I'm nocturnal.

20. Are you religious? What faith do you follow? Does it contradict your Otherkin identity or do you feel that the two are synonymous somehow?

I believe in a God or even the possibility of multiple Gods, but that is the extent of my religious beliefs. So, I just live my life and sometimes pray as a way to get answers on why my life is so..weird.

21. Have you ever been emotionally, verbally, or physically harassed simply for being Otherkin?

Not yet. I've been very selective on who I tell. The only person I want to tell is my husband, but he refuses to listen. He thinks it's a Furry thing. I guess I'll let him be blissfully ignorant.

22. Do you feel you are oppressed because you are Otherkin?

Not oppressed by society like a person of color or a trans person, just kinda oppressed by my husband. I dont understand why he would question something I do then not let me explain it. I know he still loves me or else I wouldn't have the life I do, it's just confusing.

23. What is your take on fictionkin/mediakin? What about machinekin and appliancekin?

I don't quite feel comfortable with "Factkin", but anything else, that is their identity. I shouldn't have and possibly will never have the ability to judge or say anything about someone else's identity. If that is you, it's you.

24. Did the awakening process seem relatively easy, or difficult to you? Why?

Very easy, in a sense that I already knew I wasn't human and I just needed some help realizing I wasn't alone and that it was ok to feel that way. Difficult because I still can't tell exactly what I am, so I go by werewolve.

25. What do you think of the information provided online about Otherkin, is it relevant or not?

I believe its relevant. It definitely helped me come to terms with myself, and talking to veterans (as we call them) helped me a lot too. It just depends on the articles and people you talk to.

26. How has your Otherkinity/Therianthropy defined you as a person? Do you feel as if it has given you morals that you didn't have before?

It's given me an identity, but it's only taught me to be more open minded and tolerant of other people's identities and ideas and questions,etc.

27. Have you learned any life-long lessons due to your Otherkinity?

To be more tolerant and open minded.

28. What do you want to do with your life?

That's a tough one. Firstly, raise my son to be an amazing, tolerant person in society, and secondly, be who I am. Even if it means living out in the woods for eternity, so be it.

29. Do you have any tips or advice for young and newly-Awakened Otherkin?

Seek help. Seek out a veteran. Let people question you. It may annoy you to no end, but it helps in the long run. Most importantly, remember, you are you. You are valid.

30. Anything else you'd like to share with us?

Respect others and their identities.

Be kind.

Remember, you are you.

Awwooooo.

Original is by @justanotherkin

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