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tonypostt · 2 months

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OUSJDG HI CREATIVELY COSMIC HERE.. i had to do a double take when i saw the notif that you reblogged our art and THANK U SM ?

hhh is genuinely a fantastic pokepasta and i couldn't get enough of it once i started wrapping my head around it. we've always been a HUGE fan of more abstract, interpretative, and experimental work so seeing a pokepasta go ALL IN on that approach was fantastic and i genuinely think it's one of our favorites now.

everything about how it was written really.. struck a chord with us. I COULD BE SO FAR OFF THE MARK im so sorry but im trying to articulate it. something about memory loss and identity loss and dissassociation. and how vulnerable it leaves you and how desperate you can become for an escape, no matter how much that escape hurts, because its surely better than the alternative. becoming dependent on something or someone that pains you because theres nothing else to turn to or so you believe.. and eventually it's all you know and turning back seems impossible. and you just fall deeper and deeper because the more it hurts the more it at least feels real and its become synonymous with comfort. its a very potent work to me is what im saying

as for the sylveon in my head its like 50% hexi. half the time its normal the other half it is absolutely NOT. im really glad you liked our art regardless though hasjfjgd

i hope you dont mind us rambling a bit uh!! i want to try and do better at letting people know how much the stuff they make means to me where im able. and happy hardcore hexidream hit HARD (in a good way)

HIII SORRY FOR ANSWERING SO LATE YOU SENT THIS LIEK RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF NESS (ALTER) STARTING TO PLAY SPLATOON 1 WHICH HE HAS BEEN WAITING TO DO FOR LIEK . A MONTH NOW (you know how it is with those Autistic People /LH)

I AM . SOOOSOSOOSOSOOOOOOOSOSOOSOO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT HHH RESONATED WITH YOU SO MUCH . LIEK IM NOT EVEN KIDDING . esp as the years go by and i form what HHH is in my head more (which will probably not ever be a concrete thing . Liek i just think that's the nature of HHH) and i just even let it sit with Me The Author . it's also just kind of one-of-a-kind in my writing where it started as a one-off but then grew into something instead of me planning out 745395764385634895643987 different multimedia projects HSDKJFGDSKJLFGKJSD .

and liek . DONT WORRY ABOUT BEING "OFF THE MARK" WITH HHH BECAUSE THERE IS NO MARK . my dream is to have a world filled with a billion different HHH takes ..... Because honestly that was what it was made for (or . i guess . Continued for ? it was originally a vent with the first two parts being posted . Twwwoooooo years ago ??? On the pokepasta wiki ????? Fuck i can't remmeber im barely even fronting rn JSKLDFGHDKSJ) , to be talked about and theorized about and just . Conversed . Hexi is everything to me (and she is everything to you !)

WITH THAT BEING SAID . I ABSOLUTELY LOVE UR INTERPRETATION SO MUCH . i think a good amount of people kinda miss the subtle themes of trauma in HHH especially if they haven't read my other stuff or know me personally . Mostly because they're probably overwhelmed by the material itself and i dont blame themJLKJSDGFLKJSDGK . you could interpret hexi as either the truama , the effects of it , a reflection of how one views their own trauma or themselves within it , etc . But liek i said that's also only one side of the picture too even within the aspect of it being focused around trauma . the Situation could be representative of the trauma or a flashback . Or it could be some kind of a conversation situation . Or it could be a person . Or it could all be fake . Or it could be the person having a Funky Time !

and theres even more that you could do with this . liek . I feel a bit bad for not being able to put as much as much as i could into the updates that came after the first two chapters/parts to imply Other Things:tm: other than the fact that there's just random chaos going on , mostly because HHH is the type of story where you spot a new sentence you haven't read before and it changes EVERYTHING .

Also shoutouts to the fact that executive dysfunction affects my writing very disproportionately and the fact that there's supposed to be a massive update on april 4th that i dont even know if i can write let alone on time . I WOULD LOVE TO PUT IT OUT I JUST . BRAAAINSJDFHKDSKGSJKD

ALSO IRT SYLVEON . YOU ARE STRONGER THAN GOD FOR HAVING HEXI IN YOUR HEAD (/J i know fictives aren't their source) . ALSO PLS TELL IT HI FOR ME IF POSSIBLE i think it is so swag

ALSO NO WORRIES I . HAVE CLEARLY RAMBLED A BIT MORE in fact there's stuff ive rambled about on previous asks regarding HHH . if you enjoyed HHH you'd probably like my other stuff even if atm i dont have a Ton that is as Crazysillay as HHH !!! they can be found on my AO3 (tonyboyy) . Also obligatory mention to ness's splatoon visual novel that is in the works because im INSANE about it . He hasnt posted about it at all in order to avoid spoilers but just know that whenever last dovesong releases i will fly to the moon . ANYWAY THANK U FOR UR ASK !!!!!!!!

#tonytxt #HHH #happy hardcore hexidream #ask #Hexi :]

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wandering-system-of-a-time-lord · 4 years

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So here's the thing, I'm an alter, a co-host and a protector. I'm 21 years old and not from this planet mentally. Anyways...::he sighs tiredly:: There's no one here anymore. I am not sure if they're going to come back or what. I am lost as to why I'm the only one left. I did gain some memories of some of them and traits too. But its not from everyone... I do wonder if this is just a minor merge......you know like the calm before the storm type of thing. It is kinda scary to think of the what ifs but I am keeping myself occupied by working on art mostly and finishing up with the progess of applying to school. I think because of this lock down, or quortine (yea i know i misspelled it) it ruined what i am used to. Now I'm so confused and struggling mentally to think. I haven't done much but mostly sleeping alot and laying around. Can't go outside to walk around town. There are few cases now in this county that I'm living in. I am feeling all sorts of emotions about it. I have been getting siezures again without anything triggering it. It just happens without warning. I haven't fell yet from I was told. I just stand in spot and blank out for some seconds or minutes. It's just I dont know how to feel about it but it sucks as I can't drive anymore, not that I could now anyways. I am slowly starting to miss having the others around and talk to while inside. The Manor is still there so I know that this has to be a minor merge that is going on here. It's just the matter of when they will come back and I am hoping its not by truama but probably will.

I still have not recived my new medical card from the new insurance so I still can't setup appointments... meaning that I can't even have my therapy that I'm used to go to but stopped in Dec due to the hospital cutting off the insurance that I was using. I actually going to therapy and now for four months going without one, its just I have been bottling up some of my emotions and feelings. Why? Because there's no one to talk to deeply. Idiot is a person but he's not a good type besides we're trying to move away from him and that's not happening anytime now or later this year. Its all because of this virus. If this didn't happen, we wouldnt be facing this crazyness. Because of this virus, I worry sick about my two favorite guys, one's in Spain cause he moved there and the other who is a paramedic. The one in Spain reads my msgs but he hasn't replied back. I know he's busy with this small family and possibly work (at home), the other... he's on the frontlines to say, like I said he is a paramedic so he has to be super extra careful around people. For the whole month last month, I havn't heard from him as I sent like 4 emails to him. He had finally gotten back to me (what a relief) last week. Saying that he's pretty busy trying to handling protional covid-19 patients. What I mean is that he's trying not to get infected by anyone that might have the virus. I know that I misspelled more words. Anyways, he also said he gotten new phone so he was slowly moving everything over to it from the old phone. Hes okay and drained. He hopes my side is going okay and that I'm okay. I'm planning on emailing him back soon. I'm just super glad that he's alive and well as he's my speical guy. The one I trust my life with within a heartbeat.

So that's what has been going on for me since the last post I had made. I know this one is a long one but I had to ramble somewhere. I do hope whoever reads this will remain safe and sound. To be careful when going out. To remember wash hands. Stay safe now my followers and my Systems. I gotta get back to my drawing that I'm making for my page on Deviantart.

- Alex

#dissociative identity disorder #dissociative #dissociation #alter #alex #alternamedalex #dissociation life #so confused #rambling

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