#i certainly played around...

[hazmatazz]

uhm. mcr fan hello kitty...that's all

#wanted to play around #i certainly played around... #uhm #my tablet's s little weird and shows color differently compared to my phone so the pink and stuff is a lil to vivid for my liking #but oh well #yeah #mcr #gerard way #hello kitty #sanrio #my art #ignore how i didn't use a consistent “black” i uh. i'm bad at color

[pondsphuwin]

You are someone with the smiles I want to keep to myself only.

(@asiandramanet creator bingo — shapes)

#bad buddy #inkpa #bad buddy series #milklove #love pattranite #milk pansa #asiandramanet #gledit #seamayweed #userkimchi #tusermona #usermoonchild #gif 3 #bingo tag #this is.... certainly a different style for me but i think it looks kinda cute?? #and i got to play around with pixels again after so long so yay

[molsno]

what I've experienced and observed as an asexual trans lesbian is that engaging with certain kinks can be unhealthy and harmful, but it doesn't necessarily have to be.

by and large, most of the people who have "unhealthy" kinks are victims. that is to say, their kink originates from a place of trauma. someone who's experienced sexual abuse in the past, for example, may very well have internalized the idea that they deserved what happened to them. and because escaping that traumatic mindset is incredibly difficult, they may find themselves having sexual fantasies about being abused again long after the danger they were in ceases; to them, it can feel like being sexually abused means they're fulfilling what they believe to be their only purpose. these fantasies can be deeply damaging to a person's self worth, not just because they're blind to their own inherent value as a person, but because they're denying themself any form of sexual agency. they may very well seek out relationships in which they're abused once again. and that is unambiguously harmful! I've certainly seen several people that this has happened to, and it's an incredibly demoralizing and heartbreaking situation to observe and an even more miserable one to be in.

however, that isn't a universal experience. for some people, engaging with their kink with someone can actually be a source of empowerment. let's continue with the previous example. if, instead of seeking out a relationship in which they're sexually abused, they decide to engage in their fantasies with someone who genuinely recognizes their sexual autonomy - someone who they can honestly talk to about their experience, who respects their boundaries, and who communicates with them to establish safeguards to ensure that their consent is never violated - then they may well find a feeling of power over the situation that they didn't have before.

that isn't guaranteed to happen; for some trauma victims, their pain may be too great to replicate, even in a state of significantly reduced danger. some people may try to and discover that it is affecting them in an unhealthy way and stop. and that's okay! their sexual autonomy deserves to be respected. however, others who do engage with it may come out of the experience with a newfound recognition and acceptance of said autonomy. if they know they have the power to make the experience stop any time they feel uncomfortable, they may come to realize and truly believe that they didn't deserve what happened to them, and that they don't have to tolerate anyone who disrespects their boundaries in the future.

it's perfectly fine to not want to see someone's engagement with a particular kink. it can be upsetting for those who have been personally affected by it to witness recreations of it. luckily, in online spaces, there's an easy solution to this problem: you can avoid it by unfollowing or even blocking anyone who posts about it.

I find it troubling that so many people are averse to this idea - particularly because of the way they direct their anger toward trans women. it is a regular occurrence on this website and in fact most online spaces for someone to accuse a trans women (or multiple) of having an "inherently harmful" kink. often, these accusations are made with little to no context or even proof, if they're not simply fabricated outright (which they frequently are). accusing trans women of being sexual predators is one of the oldest forms of transmisogynistic violence you can commit, which is why I find it infuriating that this is such a common tactic in purportedly transfem-supportive communities.

perhaps you might be thinking that engaging in harmful kinks contributes to their normalization. I find this idea laughable, because sexual abuse is already normalized in society - it's baked into its very foundation, in fact. marriage, the nuclear family, christianity, police, the judicial system, and just about everything else was designed to give cishet white men absolute unchecked sexual power over women and children. and while some small advances have been made to chip away at this authority, by and large, these men are still free to perpetrate sexual abuse without facing any consequences.

minorities, on the other hand, have always been and continue to be violently punished for even being accused of sexual abuse. for example, there's a very long history of white women falsely accusing black men of rape with the express purpose of getting them lynched. still today, black people are viewed as hypersexual predators who pose a danger to white women and children for doing things as insignificant and nonsexual as wearing a revealing outfit. trans women are in a very similar position, with our mere existence being nothing more than a fetish to a significant number of tme people. it's no surprise, then, that accusations of sexual predation against us largely focus on the non-normative ways in which we often have sex.

what this inequality often looks like in practice is that cis men are free to browse the step-sister category on pornhub to their heart's content, whereas a trans woman who might, potentially, call her girlfriend her "sister" as a means of recovering from a form of sexual abuse she faced in the past is stalked online by people who believe her to be a physical danger to others, who will then publicize all of the details they can find about her private sex life with the intention of isolating her from what is likely the only community and support network she has. this should be obvious, but a trans woman without any community to accept her is significantly more likely to attempt to commit suicide, making this form of social outcasting a form of violence.

so the question then is, why does this happen? because let's be honest, it's not really about "removing predators from our communities", as much as people like to claim it is. if that were the case, then it wouldn't happen so disproportionately to trans women; the demographics of people accused would be more representative of their actual proportions. the real reason this happens is specifically because of transmisogyny. tme people, even those who are outwardly supportive, harbor internal conceptions of trans women based on stereotypes of us being sexual predators, and they react to our every action with undue scrutiny and vigilance. and because they hold the privilege of being transmisogyny-exempt, they can exert power over us in a way that they can't do to cishet white men by exiling us, knowing full well that they'll be believed by other tme people, even if they have no evidence of actual harm being done.

and that's the metric by which we should actually be judging the validity of claims of sexual predation - whether or not someone was actually harmed. if no one has genuinely been harmed, what good does it do to isolate someone from the only community they may have? that in itself is obviously harmful to the person being exiled, so the question to ask before utilizing it is: will doing so actually prevent more harm from being done unto others?

trans women as a whole are a deeply traumatized demographic. I can almost certainly list off more trans women I personally know who have been raped than who haven't. we are victims, in the vast majority of cases. despite that, we live under a veil of transmisogyny that constantly calls us dangerous degenerate freaks. as a result, some trans women develop coping methods you may find unpalatable. I'm not a very kinky person myself, and a result of me being ace is that a lot of even the most basic and common sexual acts are physically repulsive to me. because of that, I feel uncomfortable when I see people engage in certain kinds of sex and kinks, even if they're fellow trans women. you know what I do in these cases? I just don't follow them. I mind my own business and move on. it's really that easy.

arguing that nobody can engage in certain trauma-based kinks because it can harm them is short-sighted at best and actively dangerous at worst. how can you claim to be a feminist who supports bodily and sexual autonomy and be opposed to people having consensual sex you don't like? it's the same conservative rhetoric that aims to suppress women for taking control of their own sexual desires. it's one step removed from telling trans people not to get bottom surgery because they'll regret it. if you truly believe that people have the right to do what they want with their bodies, you're going to have to accept that some people will do things that personally make you uncomfortable, and you're going to have to acknowledge the fact that just because they make you uncomfortable, that doesn't mean they're harming anyone. just mind your own business. it's seriously not hard.

#I've finally had enough I'm done playing nice and tiptoeing around the blue whale in the room #I'm almost certainly gonna lose followers for this but I don't really care anymore #if after reading this you're still a reactionary who chooses to paint trans women as degenerate perverts just get out #txt #transmisogyny #my writing

[justplaggin]

« to the stray dogs »

#and to the second stray dogs anniversary of yours truly 🥃 #bsdrewatch2023 #bsd #dark era #technically 2 years and 10 days of having dived headfirst into bsd. but who's counting. aight story time #dark era is so special. somehow it always reminds me of the first time i watched bsd #5 eps in i thought to myself... huh. dad (huge animation & big-brained stuff fan) would love to watch this too #and he did. so every saturday i'd go over to his place and binge as many eps as we could until we finished it a month or so later #and the part i felt he liked most was dark era bc he was HOOKED- and i was overjoyed. #(i.e. he's a Lot of fun to be around when he's interested in something. the wonder is palpable) #not even the 'woah dostoyevsky!?!? bit got him quite like dark era did and it's such a fond memory to me #maybe bc it was the longest of our rare watch parties and the weekly anticipation was real. maybe bc i found my favorite piece of media- #-and the circumstances certainly played a part... yeah. unforgettable #<- when you need an actual post for the ramble so you whip up a phone gif and it looks reasonably crisp?? huh #tldr how was YOUR first time watching bsd? #*edits #*gifs

[captainofthetidesbreath]

sudden idea that made me almost choke on my tea laughing: Spahr's marble bust, the one of "some ancestor of his" that he puts his abacus on, is of Isold

#can't prove it but can't DISprove it either! which is the BEST place for a random idea to be #the bust IS wearing a sash (like a notary) and Isold is certainly someone a family WOULD have a marble bust of hanging around #I'm just CACKLING at this as a concept. It's surprisingly compelling but also like SO FUNNY GIVEN Y'KNOW #god I love playing in the space and just holding up random ideas to the gaps like paint swatches #Midst podcast #Midst #Midst things #Midst spoilers

[yuhi-san]

you know, its kinda funny how much of a polarizing person vash is in universe. like people he meets can almost always be put in one of two categories

wants to murder him (subcaregories of 'actual violent intent' and 'i'm gonna wring that stupid idiots neck')

or

absolutely adores him

#though the two aren't mutually exclusive #as wolfwood and meryl escpecially would know #i mean the seeing vash for who he really is certainly plays into it #but it's still funny #wolfwood kinda bounces around in that triangle especially in the beginning #98 vash wins the contest for getting his neck wrung for his idiocy. easy #trigun #vash the stampede

[starflungwaddledee]

The height chart gets even funnier when you consider that Rick gives Kirby piggyback rides. Kirby, that hamster is only up to your feet.

i think that for reasons to do with this the earth accurate sizes doesn't actually work very well when you try to extrapolate it out, and i did intend it as a joke!! it's funny and i enjoy it, but it falls apart the second you try to consider them functioning with others 😂

like... is kirby small enough to be comfortably piggybacked by hamster sized rick? then he's too small to be held in coo's claws, let alone to fit in kine's mouth! this would likely be the case even if we just took kirby's "canon" size of 8-9 inches but plonked him in an earth accurate sizing for everything else

then, is king dedede a penguin accurate size (king penguin size: 85–95cm) or is he comparative to a human adult? either way, he'd be smaller than kine, as mola mola average 250cm tall (at least according to wikipedia. other sources say 300cm longs and up to 450cm tall) and easily dwarf humans here on earth.

or does dedede have to be comparative to kirby, who is comparative to rick, who is an 18cm tall hamster, making kirby probably 10cm at best, making dedede probably half the size of a king penguin though maybe closer to a blue penguin (45cm), meaning that kine could easily be up to ten times his height--

in general i kind of just prefer to size them comparatively, starting from kirby, and considering individual characters Bigger or Smaller. as much as i'd love to see an enormous semi-realistic sunfish kine basking happily in the ocean surrounded by tiny friends, i think that it's easier for me to work on a "kirby" size scale and consider them all aliens, at the end of the day 😂

this seems likely, given that female mola mola are apparently bigger than the boys! they can also supposedly spawn an absolutely mindboggling three hundred million (sorry. hang on. three HUNDRED million!?!?!?!?!) eggs at a time, so i hope you're all really really looking forward to seeing a Lot lot more of Kine around.

#you could work in a sort of 'kirby auto scales to his animal friends' mechanic i suppose. he's certainly been tinier before! #that could be enjoyable in a world building sense! you'd see many small items look BIG when you were with rick and vice versa with kine! #but i'd feel bad assigning enormousness to kine! he'd be quite difficult to get into just about any location and he's already a bit of a #dare i say #fish out of water #definitely fun to play around with in individual circumstances but hard to work into a broader world-scape. not impossible though! #asks

[thenotoriousscuttlecliff]

No matter how good X-Men '97 is, no one should be advocating for Beau DeMayo to be rehired until we know exactly why he was fired in the first place. Considering his history (he was previously fired from The Witcher for being toxic to the other writers), there's certainly enough to suggest that it was for something serious and Disney/Marvel is telling everyone to keep quiet about it to avoid bad publicity for their latest hit. It would also reflect really badly on them if it came out they put someone into a position of power who had just been fired from another show for toxic behaviour. After the first season is finished I wouldn't be at all surprised if more details eventually do start to come out.

#x-men #x-men 97 #The lack of any show of support from anyone else involved in the show also speaks volumes #i know there are certainly nda in play #but if this had been an unjust firing over something trivial i would expect people to find a way around them #but no one has been coming to this guy's defence #and a lot of his social media activity has been iffy #he went radio silent after being fired but then suddenly became more active after the show took off and got a lot of praise #he seems happy to bask in the acclaim #even liking tweets that say he should be rehired while dissing other parts of the show like the animation #some from really dodgy account he either isn't checking before liking or not caring #after he was fired from the witcher he started pandering to the fans unhappy with the show #and got called out for by the writers for just making up lies to cover up his own firing for bad behaviour #feels like he's trying to curate an online following that'll stick with him no matter what comes out #which is sadly very likely

[sangfielle]

i need to write a proper backstory for my pathfinder character beyond the basic stuff laid out before the campaign started and answer dm questions about her... and i need to make a character for the new 5e campaign i'm in... busy busy...

#the new character takes priority since pachy already has Some stuff laid out and the stuff that isn't there isn't immediately necessary #hmm. the things i had kicking around in my head for new characters don't work for this campaign. #the things i wanted to try - i want to take another go at a changeling bard since i spent a lot of time on one years ago and didn't get to #play her... since i ended up having to dm that campaign. #and then i want to take another crack at a kalashtar and make another tempest cleric #maybe not the same character this time. vash wasn't weak by any means but certainly she could have had a better match #for the extremely tanky thing that she was built and played as #kalashtar i feel like would also be served by a more bard-y or rogue-y class... maybe a trickery cleric as well? #but i'm wanting to play a campaign-specific subclass cleric so that's not the right choice #personal

[findmeabowlofundertale]

Merry Form Change Friday!!

I actually drew something halfway decent! Yay!

Have some slight feelings.

I realized while drawing that this is almost certainly a scene that will happen in the fic

(Couldn’t decide whether I liked this version or another one better, so the other is below the cut)

(Quit starin at me with them big ol eyes)

#seeker draws #asteri #⁂ gaster #seeker gaster #⁂ art #⁂ #seeker oc #Form change friday #dingsaster #I’m actually really happy with this! #well. mostly. #I COMPLETELY gave up on Gaster’s other hand but if you don’t look at it it’s fine #FOR AS SIMPLE AS THIS IS IT TOOK ME SEVERAL HOURS #mostly because I didn’t plan out this pose like at ALL #but yeah I got some new brushes I was playing around with #hmmm I wonder why Asteri might offer this… #what could be the context… #knowing ​WHEN this conversation takes place would certainly help wouldn’t it… #*wink wonk*

[prototypelq]

Reasons to look up/play (if you can) Alan Wake 2:

- this in-universe ad

- multiple music numbers

#this is peak 'the horrors are endless but we stay silly' energy xD #im watching a playthrough and this is the thing #the sam lake genius cringe thing I love it so much #just the first hour and so many name-droping bombs too xDDD #you just know remedy had the time of their lives making this #also the acting and mocap are like extremely good I thought that tech peaked with Death Stranding but apparently not wow #im having a blast here and you will too if you engage with it in any way you like) #playing the game would certainly be ideal but remedy games are also the Real proper inverse of the 'gamemovie' genre #'interactive cinema' games have you walk around and talk and maybe choose something #alan wake 2 is a playable Movie and you're the star/actor/viewer/narrator/4th wall break? #btw just the first hour in and already meaningful questions about narratives characters their agencies inside etc etc are popping up #thank you sam lake #alan wake 2 #alan wake #saga anderson #she's a mom a detective and wears a sweater i like her more than i thought i would #sam lake #remedy entertainment

[nuclearspring]

i know there's a little bit of info on him currently included in my roster but ! i wanted to cobble together a more detailed rundown of my courier (the sixth one) + his verses. he is a bit of an unreliable narrator, so i'm leaving gaps in this - thing is he doesn't know what's up, so neither shall we.

(that said, if anyone has ncr muses who could maybe piece some things together, hit me up. he can't keep getting away with this).

rough bio under the cut. trigger warnings for death, violence, drug use, the military, addiction + memory issues.

name & aliases: sasha dubrovhsky / boris medvedev / courier six. tag skills: unarmed, survival, guns. (note: given his backstory, he's proficient in these, and in stealth). age: late twenties / early thirties during the events of fallout new vegas. moving into his late thirties if in the tv show era. sexuality: bisexual. you know, for the extra damage. alignment: chaotic something. personality types: estp. enneagram 8. physical appearance: 6'3", buzzcut, brown eyes, cheekbones, numerous tattoos. imagine a large russian man who has clearly broken his nose more than once. he is russian jewish & roma ft. general slavic aura. always clean shaven if he can help it, but stubble happens to him frequently. if in the verse in which he's courier six, he will have two scars on his forehead courtesy of benny. notable features: speaking to six, one may get the sense that english isn't his first language. he doesn't really have much of a russian accent, but his cadence (especially when he is particularly tired), as well as his word choices can sometimes give him away.

he is also autistic, and may have adhd. both are undiagnosed. the latter may have something to do with six's mentat habit.

his face is rarely shown - he tends to wear full combat armour, helmet included.

the man who eventually becomes courier six is born in ncr territory to a family who are descended from vault 13, if a tad distantly (nobody in the family can track the exact lineage, nor have they tried).

six is born alexander dubrovhsky. his branch of the family are loyal to the ncr in some ways, though their primary ideology is born not of the ncr, but of memories of their heritage. sasha receives more of an education than he feels he needs, but he is a curious soul and enjoys picking apart the way of things. devours books when he can get them. is in trouble more than once in his childhood for taking things apart to see what makes them tick.

he is not yet of age when he enlists. he's tall and broad enough to pass for it, and nobody in ncr recruitment looks too deeply into the issue. even before taking two bullets to the forehead, he is an improviser - there's no real plan tied to his enlistment. he makes it through basic easily enough - can remember that fine. can remember being passed up for first recon so as not to waste his hand to hand abilities - he is, in a word, large. can remember being filtered into the rangers instead. can remember later leaving his dog tags on a corpse about his size. tossing the tags that had originally been on the corpse in question into the colorado river.

the why of it is unclear. but he remembers the bloodless panic, and in hindsight is certain he had something to do with that death. can't say for certain whether or not this is unlike him, but the potential will keep him watching himself out of the corner of his eye, waiting for some similar slip up.

he knows he picked his new name out of the past. boris was the name of some relative, he thinks. perhaps a distant cousin, perhaps not. medvedev, on the other hand, is born of the bear tattoo adorning his ribs. (two-headed, stick and poke, slightly weathered, scar cutting through it).

recalls a time, too, when he burns his armour and weighs his options. he knows how to kill things, and is the sort of person with at least a chance at surviving the wasteland. so far so good, anyway. he passes a town with a mojave express office, and volunteers himself for a job. from that point on, he is a courier.

post gunshots to the head, he'll wonder if the memory issues are new. thinks they must be. things improve with time, but some things, he thinks, will never come back to him.

he remembers just enough to feel like helping the ncr is the most deranged thing he's ever done. he does it anyway. that said, six saunters vaguely in the direction of socialism whenever possible.

he identifies a chem habit, but can't be sure he had it before he was shot. can remember snippets of things he used to know, and understands that a great deal of the information is barred now. one hobby of his is gathering it again.

choices in game:

these will be updated in time (i'm going to play again to refresh my memory on him), but he can either pick the independent or ncr route depending. if we're writing post game, his default is independent, though that was a difficult decision for him and he still feels two ways about it. he isn't a blind ncr loyalist by any stretch, and is aware that there are some in the ncr who'd string him up if they knew he'd deserted, but he is not immune to propaganda.

alternate depictions:

i have written him before as an ncr ranger spy who is only moonlighting as a courier, never properly deserted (because the desertion catalyst wasn't there; he made it through the battle of hoover dam in 2077 just fine in this verse), and didn't end up shot in the head in goodsprings. in that verse, he can be recruited as a companion - for anyone who's into that.

this version of him isn't as fleshed out right now (read: i don't remember most of the development i did when i was writing him this way) but i'll update this later, and i'm happy to plot things out on a character by character basis. he is generally motivated to fight the legion, and will in time become somewhat disillusioned with the ncr.

#SIX. BIOGRAPHY. #SIX. ABOUT. #i used to write him in little groups with friends so his backstory kind of shifts all over the place but. here he is! #maybe subject to minor edits later but if there are larger retcons i'll make fresh posts detailing them once they're underway #death / #violence / #drug use / #military / #memory loss / #if there's anything i missed tagging lmk #his speech skill is like. mid. lmfao. #depends what drugs he's on if ygwim #me writing this like IS THIS CORRECT? #i've had him in my brain for so long and i feel like this bio. does not hit all the little headcanons and things. #but of course it doesn't. #and i'll certainly add more as time goes by #no but the joke i like to play on him is. #i think he maybe was a ranger for a little bit (considering he lied about his age when joining the ncr and got there #a little younger than he should have) #but he's walking around like. thinking he's just impersonating a ranger at times. which he IS. but he also maybe sort of isn't. MAYBE. #it's mildly unclear.

[dayurno]

darling, have you any kevjeanthea thoughts to spare? i've been going insane since i found out jean was thea's puppy and also their Mailman. i'm in need of your wisdom rn.

<3 (@stabbyfoxandrew)

OF COURSE hello darling aerie i hope you're doing well also you know exactly what you're doing referring to jean as thea's puppy don't you. i think i hauve covid....

as of right now i have two ideas which are not really that distinct but cause me great amusement... first i thought about established pro era kevthea and jean ending up in the same team as them (possibly the olympics?) while being a trainwreck himself and kevthea immediately taking him under their wing :) this is like the standard aftg poly fic scenario and i fall for it all the time because it's so GOOD. i think at first kevin's the one who's kind of laying it heavy on jean because he's worried he might do something stupid but thea is ultimately the one drawing jean by the back of his neck and being like you're acting ridiculous. live with us. and he does... AND THEN OF COURSE the evergreen offer of a threesome, the unbearable tension, the constant mistaking of jean as either kevin's or thea's boyfriend, being so close it gets inappropriate. the perfect culmination i think would be a night where they actually do sleep together and jean wakes up under kevin and thea like what the fuck just happened

AND I DONT THINK THEY EVER TALK ABOUT IT. or like define terms. or even boundaries. but it happens and its there and jean is just casually added to their every activity like hes always been there in the first place :) i think theres something just so fun about a dynamic like that for poly ships sorry sorry sorry. jean thinks he's a single man until it's christmas 2011 and he's having dinner with thea's family

my Other idea was well of course the nest-era moment. i was thinking thea has a the boy is mine moment with jean until she realizes that jean has a crush on her too and she's Very flustered about it because it's definitely not what she expected would happen out of this situation. i don't know if it'd change much about canon but i think itd make the scene where kevin takes thea to see jean in tkm very tense >:3 and you know how she was like should i come back? to kevin i think they could do something similar for jean like. finish usc. get a little better. and then we'll come back for you. and they do :3

#jeanthea the boy is mine interlude do you understand. #also i need u to know kevin is so fucking unaware of all of this #or at least so unaware of jeans feelings #EITHER THAT OR he knows but hes obviously hesitant because its easier to be heterosexual in exy #but i think at some point hes at home drinking water in the dark and thea shows up behind him like an apparition like When are we going to #talk about moreau. #and kevins like hello. never #and shes like tomorrow then. #and hes like no please. #and shes like hes sleeping in our bedroom. #and kevins like ok you got me there. #DENIAL IS A RIVER IN EGYPTTTTT #its good that thea is here because shes not a repressed loser and i think shed be having a lot of fun #she dgaf about kevjeans conflict LOL #i have this visage in my head of her playing around w kevins hair (braids ponytails hair clips etc) while he rants #and shes not really listening but shes certainly hearing moreaus name a lot #OH YOU KNOW. you know. you already know #kevin #jean #thea #kevjeanthea is such an ugly name can someone better than me get a better one #kevin/thea used to be mulday iirc so like um. mulreauday #oh that soudns awful #dayreaul #no thats also bad #kevjeanthea

[freebooter4ever]

holy shit for the first time in ten years i forgot nicks birthday

#and ironically it was my friends video talking about march that clued me in #like fuck march passed and i didn't even notice it.... feels weird. very. weird. #jrnlsht #yikes he turned 40 this year #oh that makes me feel old lmao that makes me feel so old #i thought i had everything figured out when i was 25...of the two of us i was the one with the stable job that i loved #making art all day... and then staying up till 4am making art with nick #and like sadly literally not euphemistically #although those after hours set painting sessions did include some making out #he was such a mess back then #now we've swapped im the mess and he's the one with the stable job he loves #funny how life works out #i remember his 30th vividly his sister bought him this ridiculous bunch of balloons #which of course he hated #and he was forcing a smile cause he was trying to play nice and act like his life wasnt a total mess #and i just sat there giggling at him in his sisters kitchen with the balloons cause i could tell he was faking it #anyway it was fine i made it up to him with a much better present later that evening when we were alone :P #i dont think either of us ever imagined being this old #i certainly didnt #i remember the last time i touched his face a few years ago #it was the first time i realized that - oh- i could love wrinkles #bald with lines around his smile... it was still his face :) #but forgetting is a good thing #sometimes i need to let memories go and move on

[sharkdays]

been meaning to mention this but i kept forgetting: i think it's interesting how most of the characters have some signature catchphrase when they tera

for friede and lizardon it's "surpass your potential"

for amethio and ceruledge it's "follow your own path"

#i know there are others for like the game characters too but i dont know them off the top of my head #i know arven and mabosstiff is always something relating to glowing/shining #i have nothing interesting to add or like speculate on i just thought it could be worth mentioning #i have like. all these loose ends swirling around in my head and no idea how to articulate them #me when i try to be smart/theorize but i have adhd #the only thing is i think friede's line is symbolic of his journey as a professor #from being bored and assuming he's seen it all vs post meeting cap and realizing he had so much left to learn and experience #and i think amethio's line esp will be relevant in terms of his own personal growth and development #to 'follow his own path' no matter what form that takes #he's certainly already made the baby steps towards that #uhhhh yeah #shark speaks #pokemon horizons #my bad if someone else has pointed it out by the way #ive been playing too much stardew havent been online lolololol

[phoebe-twiddle]

It's my birthday 🥳

#pheeb's ramble #anyone else like to start random megahoods just to mess around in? #I've started a belladonna cove - riverblossom hills - bluewater village 'hood #to try out 1 day rotations and a new sim calculator #I probably won't get to play any of that today though #I'll be visiting family :) #hope you guys have a good day! #I'm certainly going to do my best to