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ineffable-obsession · 24 days

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90s Crowley Cosplay

So! I'm working on a S1 shoulder-length hair Crowley cosplay costume for Ineffable Con 5, and I've really been getting into the details of the costume. Let's look at this guy:

I'm getting lost in the weeds a bit, but! He has at least two different snake belts used in the same damn costume! And a different one in s3!

The top (s1:e1, antichrist delivery) has a golden sheen to the head and prominent raised oversized scales.

The middle one (s1:e1, park) has a satin black finish and paired holes over the entire length (presumably, we never see the back but they wrap around).

The S2 belt also has a golden sheen on the snakehead buckle, high gloss finish but more more subtle scales, visible rivets attaching the head to the belt, and top stitching along the edges.

Reproducing the belt

The easy part: you can just order exactly that snake head buckle off Etsy, the very same one used in the show. Available here for $20 (resin) / $90 (aluminum cast).

It has little black jewels for eyes you can glue on once it's painted (1/4" diameter).

At this point, I'm not entirely convinced that the first belt is real snakeskin; it might be embossed leather or PVC. Python scales look like rounded diamonds up close; cobras are more like ovals, vipers have the sharp diamond shape with the raised center (like the vein of a leaf).

If you go looking for viper skins, basically nothing comes up, but! Rattlesnakes are in the viper family and you can find both Western and Eastern diamondback hides quite easily. And they have the leaf pattern to the scales.

But if you compare the snakeskin in the costume belt and the real hide (bottom left) or a real belt (bottom right), Crowley's belt is overly regular in its pattern and doesn't have spacing between the scales the way real hides do. Crowley's belt is ~9 scales tall (top to bottom), the rattlesnake is ~15 scales, meaning the show's belt has scales 1.66x the size of a natural hide. Real snakes have much, much smaller scales. The more I look at real rattlesnake hides, the faker those scales look to me.

I'm fairly certain the S2 belt is real snake skin -- the smaller scale size and the flatter scale matches python belts nicely.

Embossed leather can give you nice deep grooves between the scales, and an even pattern, matching the belt in the park.

I cannot find a viper print embossed leather anywhere on the Internet. Faux snake vinyl / PVC fabric, however, has huge scales -- the same ~9 "scales" per inch, and there's likely one somewhere with that leaf-texture.

Conclusions

I can't say for certain, but I think the first belt seems really likely to be PVC wrapped in order to get that texture.

The middle one was likely made of embossed strap leather, the more durable material supports all those extra holes without being weakened, and the single layer doesn't require top stitching. The scales are an extremely regular pattern, and still fairly oversized. Plus you can get those very deep grooves between the "scales" when they're stamped into the leather.

The final belt looks like actual snakeskin wrapped leather -- you wouldn't use rivets like that on PVC, it's not strong enough, but riveting leather is just fine. Plus, it has a line of machine stitching near the top and bottom, which makes sense if you're joining two very different materials together (thin skin and hide). The scales are the smallest and flattest of the bunch, which matches actual snakeskin. And, the budget of S2 was a bit higher, so maybe they had more money to blow on a $300 snakeskin belt?

My suggestion for a belt?

This is currently $12 and not overly terrible, it's got an ok pebbley grain to the scales, at 1.3" wide it's pretty close to the buckle size.

If you have access to some dye that will work on pleather, you could try dying this one, $13. It's not particularly embossed though, so the snakeskin pattern might just disappear on you.

If you have money to spend, a 1.5" wide, men's python skin belt will run you about $56, this one is quite close to that s2 look.

Happy crafting and dress up!

#good omens #good omens costumes #crowley #cosplay #costume design #costume deep dive #snek #snake belt #everyone's favorite demon #i am perhaps somewhat unhealthily obsessed

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my-wife-doesnt-approve · 8 months

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Aaahhhhhhhhhhhhh! His velvet waistcoat is from when he learned to dance the gavotte and he never changed it!

#good omens #Aziraphale #gavotte #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #i am perhaps somewhat unhealthily obsessed

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thinkingofmikey · 7 months

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There's a dark pit in me. Sometimes, it feels like a black hole, like a force of nature that has intense gravity, threatening to swallow anything that comes close, thoughts, light, me. That I'll be trapped in its darkness, lost. That me, whatever me is, won't be able to escape, and I'll just be the darkness instead.

It feels empty, like a void, like a hole that goes down and on forever, bottomless. That no amount of throwing things in there will ever fill it up. Sometimes it feels like an echo, like thoughts get close to it and get distorted, bouncing back to me all different and wrong. It's the source of all those terrible fears, maybe it is fear, or loneliness. It's self-loathing and self-hated. Unkindness. It spawns every dark narrative whispered when things are too much or too hard: "you're not good enough" "you'll never be good enough". "No one will ever love you", "you are unlovable". "You have done terrible things" "you are unforgivable". "Even the people who should have loved you unconditionally beat you, neglected you, turned your own blood against you, cast you out". "You deserved it", "it was your fault". "I wouldn't hit you if you were a good girl".

The fear of the fear gives it gravity, turns it from a void to a black hole, the fear of getting close to it pulls you in against your will. Sitting quietly near it, feeling it hollow out my chest, push a lump into my throat and air from my lungs, makes it both overwhelming and manageable. Reminds me that it doesn't have gravity per say, that it won't pull me in.

Trying to avoid it distorts life, too. Takes energy and vitality away from living, just to try and put a railing around it. Trying to avoid it curves every path such that they always end up next to it, and usually when you least expect it. A stray thought and you're right next to it, with its echos in the dark, telling you what a piece of shit you still are.

In therapy today, I sat near it. Breathing. Not letting panic creep in. Sat near it and didn't try to push it away or lock it up somewhere. Sat near it, saying nothing, so there were no unkind echos. Sat near it, and felt the space get a little larger.

Trauma is exhausting, a constant battle under the surface, against yourself, against the dark. Most of the time, these days, I feel like I'm winning, like I have more resources and tools to cope, to be kind and effective, to not believe the echos.

But watching Good Omens has shaken some things loose, rattled them around. When Crowley says, "Unforgivable, that's what I am", the void screams, "me too! I, too, am unlovable! Cast out! My creators didn't care for me, either!" Trauma is lonely, at its core, isolating. Having a mirror held up to it has been good... but hard.

It looks like I have a lot of sitting next to a dark pit, not falling in, and just breathing, in my future.

#good omens #crowley #i am perhaps somewhat unhealthily obsessed #my thoughts let me tell you them #childhood trauma #childhood trauma strips you of an innocent before the fall #it gets better #therapy helps

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kobiiioo · 6 months

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yu lihan’s lore/universe and etc (spidersona, spiderverse related)

P.S. fyi this is just going to be a long “essay” of my oc and their lore

after atsv came out for the first time in 6 years i made an oc and i’ve never been THIS unhealthily OBSESSED with a character i made. so here i am rambling about her simply because i want to and for my own pleasure 👍

character introduction:

Lihan who just attained her majority yet, still considered as a teenager from where she comes from, is finally entering adulthood and facing her reality. Her whole story relies on finding herself, finding security and happiness which are the only things she ever wanted since little. Those were the things she was never able to experience as a child, it almost seemed to be unattainable goals. Through her life she struggles with lot of issues, facing her fears and trying to become more responsible as an adult but also as the idol that everyone looks up to: Spider-woman. And so she is split with two identities; Yu Lihan, a normal college student, a random person you’d come across in the street and Spider-woman, the somewhat called “hero”, vigilante that protects the city that everyone talks about and admires.

backstory:

Lihan Yu had to leave Korea, her home country at a very young age, moving to West Europe due to her mother’s work. Her and her older brother Suh-han Yu were raised by their mother only, being apart from their father who stayed in Korea until later her brother moved back to join him, wanting to become a cop just like him in the korean government system. Living in West Europe was definitely not easy for her and her family. They had to face lot of issues such as racism since people were unwelcoming at the time with foreigners. She spends more than half of her life trying to adapt in a environment where she doesn’t feel like she belongs at all, feeling like an outsider. Later after graduating middle school, she moves back to Korea to join her brother and her father in Nu Yang. She thought going back there would perhaps make things more difficult for her but instead, it totally changed her life; in a better way. It had been 2 years since she’s been living in Korea and she was happy; She made friends, she had her family, she found love, she had everything she wanted so desperately. Finally having her life together. She was satisfied with this new life that was so different from the life she had before moving to Korea and it felt like the huge hole in her heart had been filled and healed with all the good things that were happening to her. She didn’t feel like an outsider anymore. She finally found a place where she belonged.

Until one day.

After getting randomly bit by a (radioactive) spider, she started to feel.. strange. her body changing, her hands and feet sticking to the wall, weird substance coming out of her wrist and etc (basic spider people experience in the beginning). This only made things worse for her, destroying her emotional well being, having low self esteem, totally losing her mind as she didn’t know what to do with these superhuman abilities. She was lost, she didn’t know what to do anymore and started struggling to handle the stable life style she used to have, leading her to become mentally unhealthy and having numerous unpredictable breakdowns. Her situation was overwhelming and she wanted to give up everything. But she knew it wasn’t the time. She had finally found everything she needed for so long; her friends, her family, her love, her life. So instead, she decided to put herself together. She couldn’t give up, just yet. So, she decided that this was the opportunity for her to engage, to have a important role in this world. Wanting to bring change and hope. She had new goals to accomplish but they weren’t actually goals. They were more like responsibilities. But she had no choice. She was chosen. And she knew that if she didn’t hold this weight above her shoulders, trying to make things right, she was also going to lose herself for real this time.

oof. well that was long 😭 anw here are badass poses of lihan in her spidersuit (+ pjs bonus and her cat) 🫶

sooo to explain some of these drawings, she’s been spider-woman for almost a year and she’s been living in nu yang for 3 years now annnd she listens to music while fighting because it strangely helps her to concentrate better but mostly because of her first canon event *COUGHS VIOLENTLY* and she doesn’t stand hearing people screaming so she simply relies on her spider senses. she’s mad serious when she fights the villains but hella silly and sarcastic at the same time (kind of like miguel but more chill ykwim) like i can’t really take her seriously because i can picture her being kinda like ben reilly at the end of atsv when he’s sitting in that “perfect pose” and he talks to himself like 😭 SHE’D DO THAT BUT IRONICALLY. (+ yall go listen to 4 big guys it’s a bop 😰)

also about her abilities, she has organic webs but her webs are kind of transparent and mixed with like this bright neon blue color with some sparks (kinda like small fireworks) and it kinda burns her hands sometimes which is whyyyy she has that light blue/purple thing on her palms. she also has this power to make some kind of smokes when she fights with the villains from her universe. (more details written on the page).

about her universe; its’a a mix of joseon era and modern era of (republic of) korea !! the country is split in two parts; north being modern and south being joseon/traditional. i had this idea for such a long time and i’m only drawing and posting these now 😬 anw that’s it for now but imma post more of her lore and universe soon !! thanks for those who took the time to read and were interested in my silly oc’s lore 🤞

#lihanlore #kobiverse #oc #oc lore #spiderverse oc #spidersona #spider oc

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kellinrk800 · 3 years

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toko fukawa comphet no i don’t take criticism

nobody will even see this because my account just. doesnt get traction but here have a ramble abt toko’s backstory and how much i firmly believe her attraction was comphet.

spoilers for thh, sdr2 and udg

tw// ab/se, n/glect, severe bullying

toko was severely neglected and unwanted when she was a child. she grew up with two mothers and one father due to both sleeping with the same man and neither wanting their child which caused her to be mistreated. once she was locked in a closet and forced to stay there for three days without food. clearly, she grew up in a household completely devoid of healthy love. genocide jack’s development was likely a response to cope with the traumatic experiences.

her time in elementary was no different. in third grade, she was used as a scapegoat for stolen money and her classmates tied her to the jungle gym with a garden hose as punishment.

her first real “love” was with a boy who she had been friends with since elementary but when she finally confessed through a letter, she found it pinned to the bulletin board to mock her. this was genocide jack’s first kill, leading me to believe that her murders were actually a form of protection.

on one occasion (and most likely more considering her difficult relationship with understanding rejection) she was ghosted halfway through on a date after spending three days and nights planning it so that she would not mess it up. she later found out that the boy only asked her out because he lost a bet.

the most likely only healthy representation of love she ever has was through media, which is arguably extremely heteronormativity and the actual healthiness of how relationships are presented in media is debatable.

she internalised all of these things happening to her and believed she deserved them somehow, building her inferiority complex. she began to assume that people only expected bad of her and self victimises herself almost on instinct despite her nature to express opinions without care for others most of the time. her self esteem is extremely low and she often worries about being considered an “old hag” in ultra despair girls.

toko fell in love with the idea of love, not an actual person. at some point she turned to novels and writing as a way to express her emotions and she used that passion to create works of art through her novels and created a toxic idolisation of the perfect relationship with nothing but media, her family’s relationships and her past experiences to go off.

she began to let herself get hurt and internalise it which ended up building her inferiority complex even further to the point of becoming unhealthily infatuated with anyone she saw fit as a stand in for the dreamy perfect people that made her books succeed.

time and time again genocide jack and toko were mistreated in their relationships, causing their system to suffer greatly. jack began to kill anyone toko saw fit as a perfect romantic interest to protect them both, but this most likely caused her own mental health to decline as well, leading to the aggressive, startling and manic personality we saw in the games.

toko began to both idolise and fear falling in love. while she knew they would most likely be killed and she would have to cope with knowing that the police could come knocking any day if they put the pieces together, she also still purposed her life around being in a perfect relationship because it was now causing her to gain traction through her novels.

this only furthered her unhealthy infatuation with relationships. she became determined to find a man who fit her description of the perfect man and would not mislead, use, mock or hurt toko in hopes that he would not be killed and she would finally achieve her dream.

enter byakuya togami. blonde, blue eyed, rich, cold and most importantly, entirely unattainable. he was an ideal stand in, especially considering the circumstances of the killing game (jack’s unique killing style would immediately be found out). she was able to fantasise from afar without ever really getting as severely hurt as she had in the past because he simply did not care to provide her his attention.

jack had two options. kill byakuya and get executed, or suck it up. clearly you can tell which option she chose. in addition, she had all of her memories from prior to the game which most likely slightly numbed her thirst for blood. by the end of ultra despair girls, she has grown a respect for toko, a softness for komaru and even calmed jack down to the point where it’s suggested that she no longer uses her skills to murder but instead fight despair.

in fact, near the end, toko is acutely aware of what is happening despite the fact jack was fronting (they don’t usually share memories, only emotions), suggesting they may have slightly integrated but i don’t really want to make assumptions considering i do not have did and am not educated enough to speak confidently about did.

ironically, the killing game was actually good for both of their mental health’s. i’ll only be talking about toko but in ultra despair girls she was emotionally stronger and more mature. she believed she finally had a purpose other than romance and that she could fight against all odds. she even credits makoto for her newfound courage. she criticises cowards and those that remind her of her past self. she is willing to challenge her fears.

komaru had an amazingly powerful and positive effect on them both. her softness, optimism and empathy help toko’s character develop even further. when komaru tries to give in to despair, toko encourages her to face her fears. toko, who was before extremely afraid and uncomfortable with being touched, is now willing to comfort and even hug komaru. she claims she’s finally found a true friend (that’s actually human, can’t forget kameko the stinkbug) and that she found hope in her.

komaru admires toko and doesnt really mind her split personality, instead just considering it “a bit strange”, which is a noticeable difference from how she was treated by everyone else for it. toko is protective of komaru during chapter two due to her suspicion of shirokuma. later, they even sleep in the same bed.

however, when toko risks komaru’s life for byakuya, they get into an argument in which toko accuses komaru of manipulating her with terms such as “friends”, which leads to komaru showing that she really does trust her.

later, this arguably resolved after servant forces jack and toko to fight against komaru for byakuya. they fight back against servant and komaru forgives her because they are friends, which makes toko extremely happy, so much that she blushed and admits she has never had a real friend before. she thanks komaru genuinely for the first time and they try to become real friends.

toko swears she will help komaru with anything she can’t do by herself, just like komaru would do for her.

toko even stays by her side to the point of rejecting the opportunity of going to future foundation to stay with komaru :)

in the end of danganronpa goodbye despair, which is set after ultra despair girls, kyoko reminds byakuya that someone is waiting for him and he jokes that she shouldn’t remind him of “something so horrifying”. and honestly i think the fact he was able to joke about it shows that perhaps toko and byakuya found a somewhat healthy relationship as friends, acquaintances, or even just bearing eachother’s presence.

a notable addition that didn’t really fit anywhere else is toko’s scrapped execution. “first kiss prank” is the title and it consists of byakuya running towards her before toko gets hit by a roller. that says enough about her biggest fears and how badly her past memories affected her.

in conclusion, toko fukawa’s obsession with byakuya was comphet due to pressure from the media and her toxic ideals. the fact she was able to form a healthy relationship with komaru is hhh and i could talk about them for hours. tokomaru is the second closest thing we have to inmedia stated canon (fuck kodaka’s statement me and the homies hate kodaka’s statement about naegiri /j)

sources: toko fukawa’s fandom wiki, genocide jack’s fandom wiki, free time events, transcripts

#danganronpa #toko fukawa #fukawa toko #touko fukawa #fukawa touko #tokomaru #syomaru #toukomaru #trigger happy havoc #ultra despair girls #character analysis #in which i am unhealthy obsessed with toko fukawa

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