#hunbun🌸

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So I just got graced with the artwork sent from god himself; dear lovebug and let me just say, why does the best series always appear when I go on an uncalled for and unannounced tumblr detox?

hunbun!! ahdhdhsb pls i neglected it so bad this past few months 😔 but i’m about to get it up and running again so let’s pray i don’t disappear again

#hunbun🌸 #svt sns au #dear lovebug #sweet asks 🥺

[atrabiliousse]

@shizziebo my hun!!! you always give me such endless support and your requests always excite me, plus you have the most patience with my dumbass, i don’t deserve you fr! i hope you enjoy this one 💞

warning: strong language

Marigold with Sunwoo

Your relationship had a slow start. Months of your frustrated sighs and Sunwoo’s rather shy advances turning to embarrassed insults and storming off.

You’d only stand there, completely at your wits’ end, and then storm off behind him and yelling the first insult that came to your mind to ease the pent up frustration.

You were hopelessly in love with the boy and he knew this, and in his absurd ways, proved to you that the feeling was mutual. But that’s where it came to a halt. Sunwoo hadn’t asked you out on a date and God forbid you actually asked him out on one.

However in love with him you were, you wouldn’t be the one to take initiative. You were stubborn to the point that it made you foolish. And you were set on having the boy make the first move.

Especially seeing as you were the first to put your feelings out there. Telling him that he was your favorite asshole took a lot more guts than you’d like to admit.

So when your friends finally forced him to ask you out and actually ask you to be his, you rolled your eyes and grabbed his hand, dragging him to the arcade not so far from your house.

“Took you long enough, bastard.”

After the slow start, things actually proceeded pretty smoothly.

Now after little arguments, instead of storming off in opposite directions, came the aggressive grabbing of the other’s hand and storming off together.

This is not to say that your entire relationship was built on aggressive displays of affection. You were a pretty chill couple. You thought you guys had a good balance, where your relationship wasn’t all romance neither was it too casual. It was just perfect.

The two of you were often commended for the flow you had, it came very natural and it was something you wouldn’t ever change. It almost allowed for you to forget about Sunwoo’s cowardly approach.

Almost.

But besides all of that, you found Sunwoo very endearing and being in a relationship with him taught you a lot more about him than before. You had met through a mutual friend at school and with the integrating circles, came seeing the boy a lot more often.

It was only during a trip to the arcade, when you had beat him at air hockey, that the two of you began talking separately from the group.

You were friends with the boy for almost two years before you had become a couple.

And with this came learning that Sunwoo had a more naïve and inexperienced side to him. A side you adored and secretly related to.

The boy often became meek and bashful when he held your hand, starting with the smallest and quickest of pecks and the silliest of smiles whenever you so much as addressed him as yours.

Even months into the relationship, the boy would still need some validation, his eyes big and pure with emotion and it never failed to tug at your heartstrings.

Despite your friends’ teasing, you never mentioned it or joined them, you felt that it wasn’t fair to him and only wanted for him to be comfortable and ease himself into the new dynamics of your relationship. Much like you were doing too.

It never bothered you, not when he slightly bristled when guys blatantly flirted with you in front of him, not when he tugged you away from your friends, whining for your attention. Not even when he asked you if you still wanted him around when he messed up your birthday by being a day early.

You usually prided yourself with being patient with Sunwoo, because to put it simply, you loved him.

So when Haknyeon pulled you aside one day on a little outing around the streets of the city, asking you if you were still in love with Sunwoo, it threw you off guard and to be completely honest, offended you.

“What kind of question is that?” Your eyebrows were drawn together and you came to a halt, the ice cream in your hand melting too fast and dripping down to your wrist.

Haknyeon was quick to raise his hands in defense, trying to tell you he meant no harm with panicked eyes, “No no no, don’t get me wrong, it’s just,”

He sighed, eyes falling to the ground as his moral compass spun,

“Sunwoo’s been worried lately. Sanha told him that you’ve been hanging out a lot with some guy from your biology class and now the boy thinks you’re going to leave him.”

Your emotions came over you like a tidal wave, unable to distinguish anger from disappointment and the overwhelming love from the sadness. All of them tumbled together and left you feeling drained on instant.

“That’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard.”

The boy was caught by surprise by your statement if his expression was anything to go by.

“What?”

“If he really thinks that, then he’s really a dumbass.”

And with that, you shoved the melting cone into Haknyeon’s hands and stormed off in the opposite direction, needing a minute or two to gather yourself before you did anything too rash.

Even though your decision to march on off from the group was just as rash and maybe a little dramatic, but you felt justified and had you stayed even a minute longer, you’d have strangled Sanha and then Sunwoo.

You never wanted for him to doubt you and never would’ve thought for him to take Sanha’s words to heart the way he did.

The boy Sanha had been referring to was a project partner you had been paired with. The only reason you were supposedly ‘caught’ hanging out with him. You always had a thing for wanting to get assignments completed as soon as possible and so you made the effort to reach out to Daehwi for this sole reason.

Not once would you have thought that it would result to Sunwoo fearing losing you.

Your heart melted and then sunk lower and lower the more you thought about it. Never once had Sunwoo made you worry about whether or not he still loved you and to consider that indirectly, you had done so to him, bothered you.

You shifted the blame endlessly as you walked further and further, not really paying attention to where you were until you ended up dead center in the busiest part of the city.

Cars whirred by, their honks coming together to form a cloud between your ears that left you slightly dizzy. There was so much movement, too much from the life of a Friday afternoon that you felt the need to sit down.

You turned around in your spot with the intent to backtrack, to find the quiet path you had strayed off onto minutes ago before the city found you, but you couldn’t.

The crowd was dense and you were tired and slightly panicking, having never been comfortable with tight spaces.

The frustration in you grew, wishing you had never marched off, that Haknyeon had never said anything or even better, that Sanha hadn’t spoken out of context.

Everything suddenly became too much too fast and you felt the warm burning sensation of tears welling up in yours eyes, your hand clutching desperately at your jacket as you shoved with no direction.

No one bothered to notice the short human making their way through the crowd, trying not to lose their last grips on composure, blinding rushing to free away from the crowd.

You were about to cross the intersection when a strong force pulled you back with a blur of loud blaring horns and the rush of wind opening your eyes.

“Are you insane?? What the hell was that?”

The voice was panicked and angry and all too familiar.

Perfectly imperfect timing, you would conclude.

“What are you doing here?” Your voice was uncharacteristically calm and flat for the situation at hand. Every visible part of you was ready to fall from exertionand moreover, shock but your voice remained strong.

Sunwoo’s eyes were utterly confused and disheartened, probably not understanding your behavior but it only made it hurt more.

Those big brown eyes had been staring at you in fear for however long and not once had you seen it. Was the boy that good at hiding or were you that ignorant?

“You can’t storm off and expect for me to not care. You left me and you didn’t even give me a reason why.”

His diction clogged your throat and the little grip you had was wearing fast, “Don’t say it like that.”

Sunwoo seemed to find this even harder to comprehend by the expression he pulled, “What?”

You pulled away from his hands almost hysterically, the tears now finally falling down your face and giving way for everything you had tried to contain.

“Don’t say it like I’m going to get up and leave you forever like you mean nothing to me!”

Breathing was hard and you felt both on fire and completely frozen altogether, like your brain could no long distinguish between the two. Maybe the entire storm you were undergoing had finally derailed your brain processes to the point where you were completely unhinged, but you were now yelling all your thoughts with your eyes closed.

“Don’t say it like that, like my feelings for you aren’t genuine and like I would hurt you purposefully. When I say I love you, Sunwoo, they’re not words for you to hear, they’re words for you to comprehend. It’s not just a statement, it’s the feeling in my chest that you put there and I want you to know that.

“Sanha had no business making it sound like I’m hanging out with someone with any intention of furthering the relationship and hurting you. Even if he didn’t say it like that, he could’ve at least spoken to me about it. Daehwi is a lab partner for a project in Biology that I never even spoke to before this assignment.”

Finally, you inhaled, running short on breath. You looked up at your boyfriend, a fiery look in your eyes that caught him off guard to the extent that his left foot fell back a step to steady himself.

Your hand reached up to poke him square in his chest as you continued, “And you, God you, you should’ve spoken to me the minute you felt any doubt or fear, you should’ve voiced any concern you had. Sunwoo, you should’ve just asked me.

“Do you know much it hurts to know that you actually considered that I would leave you for someone else, or maybe even cheat? Goodness, imagine one of your friends asking you if you still loved me and then continued to tell you something that your partner should be telling you, not an outsider.”

Your body sagged then, the despair finally formulating itself into words instead, “Why didn’t you just talk to me?”

The boy couldn’t meet your eyes, his hands wringing themselves as he stood before you like a child being scolded by their mother, only this felt much much worse than when his mother took away his gaming console in the seventh grade. No, you weren’t just disappointed, you were hurt and that left a scar.

“I felt dumb.”

His words were surprising, as you weren’t expecting for him to tell you what was going through his mind so openly and quickly, when it usually took him a while to process the words and his thoughts. But you could see it, the way his brown eyes traced lines on the pavement, mouth open ready to speak the words his mind was trying to piece together, as if he was already saying them.

With his eyebrows furrowed and his plump lips parted, the boy almost looked lost. Lost in the city surrounding you and lost in himself. It brought you back to the purity you always painted him with, like an iridescent aura. A young boy lost in the emotions he feared exploring.

“What-“

“I felt dumb telling you that sometimes I feel that you could do so much better. You could have someone so confident and strong and experienced and yet you have me. And sometimes that scares me because even if you settled for me, you could change your mind and realize that there’s better out there. Someone who’s not afraid to kiss you in public or meet your parents as something more than a friend.

“It’s scary for me to realize that there might be someone out there willing to give you what I struggle to sometimes and although you deserve that and more, I want you with me and not them.”

Your hand slapped his chest, a sob breaking from your lips and not really knowing what else to do, you hit him again. “You fucking idiot. I didn’t settle. I chose you because no one is worthy of anyone but if there was such ridiculous value, you’d always win. Every single time. Because you give me a love no one else can.”

Tugging on his jacket, you pulled him closer and buried your head in his chest, letting the warmth of him soothe the cold tracks from your tears because you never wanted to him say anything like that again.

“You fucked up the minute you thought there could be anyone better for me.”

His arms weren’t hesitant when they folded around your frame, like the door shutting after a long day, you walked into your home and he shut out the bustle of a noisy city around you.

“You fucked up.” You said again, only this time more slurred but still audible to him.

“Yes I fucked up, but are we even surprised?”

Pulling away, you looked up at him, his eyes were big and bright and his hair tickled his long lashes, the smile on his face much lighter than the sky above you.

Sunwoo was captivating when his heart shone so brightly through his eyes and his expression. He wore his heart more literally than on his sleeve.

“Normally? No, but right now? Yes. You should know better, baby.”

Sunwoo pulled you back in again, this time his hug was tighter and urgent, him needing the security that your words promised.

“But for when you let the fear win you over, know that I fear losing you too.”

#prompt list #requested #hunbun🌸 #thank you hunbun!! #kim sunwoo #the boyz #tbz #the boyz scenarios #tbz oneshot #tbz sunwoo

[atrabiliousse]

Can we please talk about how I just noticed that your pwp is a picture of hyunjae with a fudging puppy... it’s too cute🥺🥺

akdjsjs isn’t it everything? look at how he looks at the baby, i’m-

#hunbun🌸 #lee jaehyun crying hours #he makes us #emotional

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I’m already half way through the new sao arc but I feel like I’ll have to catch up on some yt vids now. Why is it never a win win situation for me man??? Dude, fruits basket is an og manga for me, it was one of the first I ever read. Onto firsts what were you first anime and/or manga??? My first anime was mermaid melody (fucking still a bomb ass series) and my first manga was gakuen alice (one of my all time favourite but I might just be sentimental???)

there’s just too much to keep up, i swear!! and tbh the first anime i remember watching when i was younger is sailor moon kdksjdbd and i’ve never really read any manga, pls don’t disown me 😔

#hunbun🌸 #confession time #i think i was 8? when i watched sailor moon #i only watch anime every now and again #mainly bc my attention span #is uhm #rip #but when i do #it’s almost always slice of life

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There are plenty of words to describe him; annoying, handsome, funny, caring, loud, embarrassing, did I say annoying and of course soft and cute. He just too much for me and when he just laughs it makes me happy, I instantly smile and get giddy and feel my heart race slightly. That’s the hyunjae effect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My love, help me with this problem!!!!!!!!!!! Did I mention how much hyunggu’s coming for me too. Like I’m attracted to him on pretty much the same level and it’s not fair.

hunbun, if i could help, i would but we’re in this together now 😔💗 also hyunggu is SUCH a babie, when he giggles, i fall to mush and tears i can’t i can’t

#hunbun🌸 #us crying together is my fave thing #crying hours #can’t stop won’t stop #crying

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I’m also gonna read that sangyeon and the younghoon one (that I’ve probably already read, let’s be real) soon but I’ve been binge watching sao cause I haven’t seen the new arc that came out and I have so many anime to catch up on. Like I was even late to watching the new season to bnha and I was reading fairtail again for like the 19737383 time. I also have to catch up on one piece but I wanna rewatch it from the start but there so man fudging episodes man!!!!!! I have so many anime on my list

ily 😭💓 but oooh you have lots to catch up on and get to, i’m so glad you’re treating yourself bc i know you’ve been super busy!! i’ve been planning on rewatching fruit basket before watching the new version actually

#hunbun🌸 #youre so good to me and my work 😔 #binging is so much fun but so addictive jdbdvd

[atrabiliousse]

Dude, I went through something but this is the shit hyunjae does to me. Do you see why I am so confused with who my bias is??? Curly haired hyunjae is superior with blond haired hyunjae!!! You can’t convince me otherwise!!! We can definitely talk about embarrassed hyunjae, you know that I’d never miss the chance. You should know that I love when he gets so embarrassed that his ears turn read and he turns into this shy giggly mess and he cringes at himself. I find it hella cute man!!!!!

he- i have no words to describe this floofly baby perfectly but he does things to my heart 😔 and i think we’re ready to admit that he has finally won the bias game for you jdiwhdhd yES YES his giggle is everything and the way he either has his arm around the member closes to him or is in somehow way touching them to focus on everything else but his shyness i wanna sOB

#hunbun🌸 #lee jaehyun crying hours #my favorite activity #i’m broken

[atrabiliousse]

Sorry for not talking in a while, I’ve been hella busy. How’ve you been??? Whatchu been up to??? (This has become our staple for starting my messages) I’ve been meaning to ask, are you gonna do a different Drabble list or still stick with the one you got??? If you do, will you add more flowers/lines????? Also, the next time you do prompt list request, can you make it an angsty one???????? Or should I just request and angsty one???????

no need to apologize hunbun, i feel ya!! i’ve been okay, just juggling everything and trying to find time to sit my ass down for half a second lmfao and you angel?? quick rant: tumblr has been eating my asks and so i wrote this request which i was hella excited about and when i went to answer the request, pOOF it was gone :)). aNywhoops i actually haven’t thought that far ahead of the next round of requests djdhbdd but i have been meaning to extend the prompts with a few more and as for genre, they’re not all specifically fluff, so unless the request asks me for it to be angsty, i kind of just write what comes to mind if that makes sense?? (like my last younghoon request was an angst themed piece)

#hunbun🌸 #how are you doing hun?? #prompt list talk #exclusive #ooOoOOh #sometimes i hate my own humour smh

[atrabiliousse]

AND HIS FUNNY ASS PERSONALITY AND HOW HES SO FUCKING ANNOYING THAT AT THIS POINT I FIND IT CUTE AND HOW FUCKING LOUD HE IS... LIKE EVEN HIS FUCKING LAUGH IS FUCKING LOUD. HES SO OVERLY ANNOYING AND EXTRA IT FUCKING HURTS AND HOW HE TEASES THE OTHER MEMBERS... ESPECIALLY CHANHEE

IM CRYING the way you’re aggressively loving him rn is a MOOD ajslsksjs bickering with jaehyun will always be the ultimate fantasy 😔

#hunbun🌸 #tell me i’m not right tho #crying over lee jaehyun hours

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I DONT FUCKING KNOW ANYMORE BUT WHAT I DO KNOW, IS THAT ITS HYUNJAES FUCKING FAULT!!! WITH HIS FUCKING BEAUTIFUL FACE AND HOW HIS LIPS DO THAT THING... I CANT PUT IT INTO WORDS BUT YOU KNOW THAT THING AND HIS HAIR LOOKS SO FLUFFY... I JUST WANNA RUN MY HAND THROUGH IT CAUSE IT LOOK SO SOFT... LIKE ITLL JUST FALL STRAIGHT BACK INTO PLACE

do you know what i miss more than anything in the world??? his curly hair :(( also can we talk about the face he makes when he laughs? or how he sometimes get so shy and i just mELT, eye-

#hunbun🌸 #is it blaming lee jaehyun hours #or is it crying over lee jaehyun hours #mayhaps it’s both b

[atrabiliousse]

He really isn’t playing around this time!!! Like, I actually think I’m having a midlife bias crisis and it’s all hyunjae’s fault!!! He’s the one who started my questioning loyalty to my biases. I don’t know if I love mark or Jaehyun???? Or shinwon??? Or is is changgu???? Or hyunggu????? Or is my bias san or is it yunho?????? What about taeyang and inseong??????

HUNBUNS REALLY GOING THROUGH IT!! 😭😂😭😂😭

#hunbun🌸 #blaming lee jaehyun hours #also #OUR BBYS GOR THEIR FIRST WIN TODAY #i’m currently VERY emo

[atrabiliousse]

I’m like ‘who’s that blonde guy??? Who the amazing dancer with orange hair??? Who are the Boyz??? I only know Lee Jaehyun!!!’ Also, how’s your cold? And your assignments, they aren’t through the roof right! I’ve been good, just working (like, when am I not???) I’ve recently got back into ukiss & pentagon, they’ve both been taking over my life. I also watched the 1st ep of pd x 101. It was hella good (like always) & some of the trainees are really good this year, beating all my expectations

jaehyun really came for you this comeback skjsksj my cold’s gotten a bit better thank you hun!! 💓 i luckily had a short break but we’re back on the grind again 😤✊ lmao. also i’m so glad you’ve been good and uwuing over pure talent yes. i’ve been meaning to actually watch pd101, mayhaps i’ll do that before bed 👀

#hunbun🌸 #uwu times #we love pain

[atrabiliousse]

Sorry I never replied back, I haven’t really been on tumblr in a while but damn, Lee Jaehyun is really testing me with who my bias actually is. Do I have to be honest with myself now???? I think this year of denying that he’s not my bias is starting to affect me now. I can’t explain it anymore man. I was watching their dance practise and the only person I was looking at was hyunjae (but that might be because his dance style really suits the choreography!!!)

no worries hun, i understand!! and OOF girl, the way i felt that. sir lee jaehyun didn’t come to play, it’s time to double bias and accept the pain 😔

#hunbun🌸 #i love crying about sir lee jaehyun #i was watching his its short vlives this morning #and morning i mean 3am

[atrabiliousse]

Damn!!!! That fic was beautiful, absolutely beautiful and worth the wait and why did I resonate so much with it and why the hell did I guess that was Jaehyun before his name was even mentioned??? He’s one annoyingly teasing bastard, that’s how!!!!!! Also, how’ve you been???

i’m so so so relieved you enjoyed it hun!! 😭😭😭 you know i couldn’t go and leave jaehyun out, he serves a great deal in this relationship 😔 i’ve been absolutely swamped with work and assignments i wanna CRY but it’s been fun ig and you angel? we haven’t spoken in a while

#hunbun🌸 #asks #i need a vacation 😔