#hopfully i can sleep tonight

[foxgloveinspace]

Listen. If you had told me in August I would be hyperfocused on Assassin's Creed, Daredevil, CoD, and DBH by January, I would have shoved you. And the fact that I am MORE INTO THESE THINGS THEN I EVER HAVE BEEN!! WHen three of these are re-hyperfixations, and I am just. FUlly, FULLY obsessed with them. And DBH was just last night,fuck. TO be fair I had a long af night. I was up til 3. reading dbh fic (but the fic was not the reason I couldn't sleep, I couldn't sleep so I fic, you see).

#very much so #the ac and dd brain rot is real for me right now. it's so fucking real guys. #I think about Desmond Miles at least once a day #and Matt Murdock??? No one wants to know. seriously it's getting to a point I have experienced since I was a teenager. Thats how I think ab #out him. I think it's unhealthy tbh #I'm so sleep deprived i... why has this happened to me #hopfully i can sleep tonight #pray for me. send sleep vibes. or whatever the fuck. hit me in the head with something. put lavender under my nose (it give me bad dreams- #so don't actually do that) #why did I think I could write a prompt tonight thats so dumb??? I can't spell right now and all I am doing is watching ah compilations #but I am so grateful to the person who sent a prompt anon I love you so much I'm kissing your head a lil' smooooooooooch #if anyone is reading this I am SO SORRY #this got off track. oh well #yes I took the time to make my my capital letters <s> it looks soooo much better #I like the look of <s> a lot anywya whay if i started making all my posts <s> #I'm not editing my misspellings tonight tired sleep now soon

[house-of-slayterr]

So turns out the power went out because a power line exploded and caused a huge fire… I don’t think I’m gonna get power back tonight. Good thing I still have some cereal left in the cupboard cause I obviously can’t cook anything. I have back up battery chargers for my phone, so at least I’ll still have that. But my cell service is a bit spotty so I probably won’t update too much.

It still really hot so I probably won’t feel well. I tend to faint because I can’t sweat which is the bodies defence mechanism to cool you down. I’m already starring to get a little nauseous, but with the sun going down it should cool down at least a little bit. Worst comes to worst I’ll go sit down in my car for a bit with the AC. It’s parked under the building so I should be able to avoid the storm. Definitely going to see if I can find battery powered night lights and a fan so that next time this happens I’m prepared.

It will be hard to sleep tonight as I don’t have my nightlight, and I can’t wear my weighted blanket cause it’s too hot. But I’m gonna try my best to rest. Hopfully the power gets fixed tomorrow. Still sad that I lost that story I was working on because tumblr wouldn’t let me save. So I’ll try to rewrite it when I get power back. But obviously stories are going to be a little delayed as of right now. Love you all dearly and I hope you’re having a better night thank I am.

#power out #fml #I’m gonna throw up #literally why #i hâte this

[tarnishedxknight]

“Oh, Ashe,” Thor whispered softly, wiping away the tears with her spare hand, “I promise that I shall not leave you alone ever again.”

Thor didn’t remember much, if she was being honest. She knew Ashelia was her best friend and girlfriend. She knew she’d been thinking about proposing for a while now. She knew that she’d had to go away for a very long time, and she feared she would never return. But other than that, Thor didn’t remember anything. Well, those were the important things, she supposed, and she pushed past her confusion.

“I would love to, my lady light, but have you forgotten about the dinner?” They had invited Basch, a dear friend, to dinner tonight. Thor was planning on talking to Ashelia about marriage afterwards, and she was absolutely thrilled. “We must make haste! The dinner is only in a few hours. But after that, I am all yours.” Thor kissed her girlfriend on the forehead, smiling at her sincerely. Everything would be perfect.

{I’m not sure what genre Ashe’s Hex would be, so I left this kinda vague. Feel free to run with this however you want :)}

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{Honestly, if it’s meant to be her ideal situation as a overcompensating response to trauma, then it would be in Dalmasca in her own time, probably in the royal palace. So I guess I’ll go with that, heh. XD}

Ashelia was speechless, her mind blanking as she felt her dear love’s hand touch her face and wipe away her tears. As she spoke, things seemed to suddenly flood Ashe’s mind, filling in the once vacant gaps in her memory. “O-oh... Oh yes! I forgot!” she said, as if coming back to life after a long sleep. “Basch... is coming?” She missed him... a lot.

As Thor kissed her, Ashelia felt all warm and fuzzy inside. She blushed and blinked as her words registered. “I... What is there to do be done? Will the servants not attend to the food?” she asked. “Oh, but I suppose we should see to our outfits.” Ashe looked down at herself and frowned. “Goodness, yes, I must change. Well, what color are you going to wear? I want to make sure I wear something complimentary,” she said with a happy smile.

She suddenly felt very happy at the prospect of dinner with Thor and Basch. The palace seemed filled with light, as if it was pouring in through the windows, and her spirits could not be lighter. “You promise? That we can have some time afterward? For just us?” she asked, hopfully.

#submission #side muse: ashelia #{ scarlet witch au }

[mozambique-and-a-dream]

I hope you feel better soon! Always here to listen if there is a problem! XD Hopefully you can get some rest soon! Especially if you have been called in on a day off!

Thank you!!

I’m currently trying to explain to my Incompetent bosses that maybe I shouldn’t work 12 days in a row when I’m only supposed to do 5 with my contact!!

I do plan on going to bed extremely early tonight for some extra sleep so hopfully that will help!

#moz rambles

[celestialallstars]

Episode #6: “Can i PLEASE get a blindside.” - Jared

ok so basically the game has been sooo quiet and ive like.  felt dead. idk. i had a breakdown last night bc of it and i cried on my couch (KNOW THERE WAS A LOT MORE THAN THIS LKSDJGKLDSGLS I WOULDNT CRY PURELY BC OF THAT) but yaaa and now im better but like the entire day i was throwing up in class (or like feeling anxious im exaggerating sorry) about going home.

i didnt want mo out but with that being said i didnt want anyone out?? after i mentioned to him that stephen/mo were targeting each other, rhys came to me with the idea that like him jared chloe and i should make a chat, and i was down for that bc it would secure my positioning and like ALSGKSDG who'd flip on an alliance THIS early.. right?? right..

chloe was really not talkative with me. stephen/jared were active so i appreciate that immensely. im just thrown off. i dont really know who i can or cant trust.

OK ALSO SIDE NOTE CHRIS SENT ME [IM NOT EXAGGERATING] 55+ MSGS SPILLING TEA ABOUT HOW THE TUATHA HAD AN OG ALLIANCE WITH EVERYONE BUT MITCH + MAYNOR - which i knew about but LASKGLDKS AHHHH. and he leaked that stephen wanted kori/bryce targeted and i leaked that to bryce to further stephens target. IM JUST SO MESSY LOL

also i kind of predicted a swap likeee omfg. and i dont know how i feel. i kind of felt safe on my tribe??? but like.. oh no. anyway, my tribe isnt super dominant in challenges or anything (compared 2 the other tribe who has bryce/stephen/drew), but i think we can win a lipsync since we have a woman, gay men, and a metrosexual male who has an outgoing personality (and i mean that in the nicest way obviously). IDK I HOPE WE WIN BC THAT TRIBAL WAS HORRIFIC AND I LOVE MO SO MUCH AND AHH.

ill probs give a video soon in more depth with what chris said. yalls deserve it.. oops period.

I HOPE YALL CAN FORGIVE ME. im eating hotdog. bye bye love u all.

Wow I like the whole tribe! Alyssa is probably my front runner of talking and honestly she's great! I am in her spell ahhhh but hey JARED is here too woo! I think at least with Mitch and Zach too I'll be safe but I'll see! This challenge could either go really well or really badly for us but I'm excited to do anything creativity!!

I absolutly love my tribe at the moment, i'm getting along well with alot of them except Kori who i haven't spoken to much at all but im confident in our abilities to win! Jared is talking a little bit about wanting the game to pick up a little bit and i agree to some extent however blindsiding someone just for the sake of a blindside isn't smart gameplay so im just gonna lay low nd continue making those strong bonds here there and everywhere to hopfully come out on top should we end up at tribal

Can i PLEASE get a blindside

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hi it's 6 am but rhys fucking filmed vertically so if we lose he automatically has my vote

I feel good but also scared. I dont think I'll do as good of a job as I hope, but it also is turning out decently so far. My biggest concern is time. With having work tomorrow, I can only do the editing on my lunch break of 90 minutes, then whenever i get home which probably wont be until 6, given the upload time that leaves me with about 3 hours in total. Hopefully I'll be able to work with Rhys and Jack's stuff, as i think it'll be easier for me to do it then. Regardless, I'm gonna be a zombie but LOL this is the second Wednesday in a row I stayed up late except this is not for school and instead of 3 hours, ima get 2 hours of sleep haha that is so sad and funny and heebee jeebee zoinks, alright goodnight

Two things: 1) there's really nothing quite like making a fool of yourself multiple times in a single org, just to be immune for one round. 2) i am horrible at looking for idols

So Matt just told me he thinks we’re gonna have a double tribal right before merge which is like ew I hate that throw it out please, speaking of throwing out uh Kori can go because he’s wearing on my nerves like yes we’re gonna get things done on time calm down please and thanks.

these people are actually delulu if they think that video is winning. no fucking way we are winning. time to go to tribal!

So the swap has happened, and I get what is almost probably my worst case scenario player-wise. All of my close allies, with the exception of Kori, are currently on Cyrena. Meaning that winning immunity isn't even really good, since it puts them in danger.

I think there's a way to make this bad situation good though. Getting to finally work with Michael, Matt, Loris, and Drew can actually be a blessing in disguise. If I get on their good sides now, they might clue me into their plans once merge rolls around. That's the hope, anyway. For now my goal is just to survive being swapped with a bunch of people I've barely spoke to!

The past 24 hours have been major toughie for me. Staying up late and then trying to manage editing a video, work, and time constraints, and I won't lie, its been exhausting, but I didn't want to let my tribe down, or anyone down I guess. A little ways through, I kinda felt pretty defeated and then learning at last minute it was due an hour before I predicted made me panic A LOT internally, but it does seem like the tribe likes it so if we do lose and if they do vote me out, I can look back at this and feel like I did something right.

Well a lots happened and to be honest at times life and this game move too quick for me to even remember if I've mentioned it. We swapped, and I'm trying to just keep myself afloat however I can.

The challenge was overly stressful and I have no idea if we'll pull it out. Editing has been so stressful and I've found new appreciation for the people that do it. I just hope whatever I whip together will just be enough so that I can breathe and really take stalk of my new situation.

So, I haven't been around a whole bunch recently. However I'm glad we didn't go to tribal, that could've been  a reason if my name came up. So I'm glad I have time to more cement my bonds on this tribe and keep my name out of peoples mouths.

We JUST WON IMMUNITY WOOHOO. I was kind of nervous with a music challenge considering the only other one I did previously I did not do the greatest in :P. Both videos were amazing and im so glad Eve and Jones's mom liked ours significantly greater than the other one! As far as my position is concerned, I am reunited with Jared and our relationship is still strong I think so that's good. Stephen I am HOPING will be ok by just latching on to Kori at least for premerge. Those two are still the ones I trust the most, but I also like Alyssa Chris and Zach. I WISH i could connect more with jack, but i feel like every time we play together it gets more difficult to hold a conversation, so that's a yikes. Jared myself and stephen are diligently working on the idol search, but it's likely already found. I'm pretty sure there are too many components for someone to just find it by themselves

WELL. Im a target tonight! God we really do love that for me. We really do. Kori, eat my fucking ass. You leave me on read all the time. And then you have the NERVE. THE ACTUAL NERVE. to be like "omg stop slipping in my dm's!" Boo if you didn't leave me on read constantly then maybe i would actually want to speak to you! an actual moron. And then STEPHEN HAS THE FUCKING AUDACITY to me like "ya lol i'll be at tribal i'll make the decision between you and Kori at tribal!". BOI. THAT IS NOT HOW YOU GET TRUST IN SOMEONE. Its fucking ridiculous. Thank god Michael is in my corner, hopefully drew and bryce too. I am NOT getting 15th right now, no way. I am BETTER than this. i am going to make it work, tim gunn style. maybe its time to break the fajitas and channel their energy once again

Why do I go on the initiative literally ever? I'm clearly bad at it, I wasn't even remotely thinking things through and I SHOULD have let Stephen or someone else suggest someone but no I had to be mildly greedy and wanna send home Matt whom I barely DM.

I already flopped editing the video, and now here I am flopping the social/stategy game that I love playing supposedly.

Of course I tried reaching out to Michael and Drew FOOLISHLY because I wanted to build trust and maybe work with them. So naturally Michael tells Matt because ofc they'd be close as would Drew probably since he and Michael have been together since Day 1. As it stands I'm stuck praying Loris is gonna vote with me and it just sucks because I'm so bad at this game.

I'm trying to keep a cool head right now because there's still time. Stephen and I are trying to work logistics, see if we need to switch the vote to say Michael in case of an idol, but I'm not sure Loris/Bryce would be on board for that.

There's a pretty good chance that I'm definitely dead. But I'ma fight to the bitter end!

Today I learned from Stephen that Kori is in some dangerous water. He I guess said Matt's name to Michael who told Matt and now them and Drew are voting Kori. However Bryce and Stephen and perhaps Loris are all voting Matt. Now this is good if it works because honestly that group having to endure their numbers dwindling is good for my game. It only leaves Jack and Alyssa but I think we better be careful because I can see both of them slipping through the inevitable war zone that is gonna be happening.

Today's been a pretty informative day for me. After losing the immunity challenge by a hair, I was worried because I didn't think I had bonded very well with my current tribe through One World, luckily for me, that doesn't seem to be their biggest concern at the moment.

During the initial stages of the vote, I talked to Kori and the two of us decided Matt would be the easiest target to take out. I was leaning towards voting Matt because we hadn't talked very much, so hearing Kori was on board right away simplified things for sure. Bryce and Loris both seem to be on board with it too so I shouldn't have anything to worry about at this point.

In the morning, things got a whole lot more complicated. Matt found out he was the target through Michael, and began his campaign to get Kori out instead of himself. I'm not entirely sure why Michael decided to do this, but it doesn't make much of a difference at this point. Matt campaigned to me, and I sorta pretended to be on the fence. I was listening to what he said, but Kori is realistically one of my closest allies, there's no way I'm voting him out to side with people I had just met.

Once campaign season got under way, I had a conversation with Chris. Chris tells me that on original Orfeo, him, Loris, and Zach believed there was an alliance of Chloe/Sharky/Drew/Michael formed. This explains not only why Sharky was seen as an easy boot on swap-Tuatha, but also why Michael wants to keep Matt instead of Kori. With Chloe re-joining after tribal, him/Drew/Chloe/Matt would form a tight majority. Without Matt, they're a minority.

I proposed an idea to switch the vote from Matt to Michael or Drew. I said it was because I was worried about an idol, but this alliance is the real reason I wanted to do it. However, Kori, Loris, and Bryce are comfortable with the status quo and since it's not my neck on the line I didn't feel the need to push too hard.

Me, Kori, and Bryce now also have an alliance with Loris, which is cool? I haven't gotten very close with Loris yet but he seems like a smart player tied to Chris and Zach which spells good things for us working together in the future. Assuming I survive this vote and have a future, of course.

hi I think I might make it past final 15 that’s nice umm... I suggested an alliance of me Bryce Stephen Kori to counter the potential power of chloe Matt Michael and drew once chloe joins our tribe because my brain is massive. but now we’re like scared for idols . scary shih anyways like how r u I’m good.

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oh huh tribes r gonna be even again next round... so I have to make this conf by default just in case of a you know what wait no anna u said no more 24 hour challenges QUEEN ... thank god I can’t be bothered to delete this so she’s being SENT

Right now there's so many things running through my head with the introduction of Matts vote steal, because realistically i could convince him to give to me or i could keep him around as a potential shield. I don't want to do it to the guy but also a vote steal could shift the tides of the game in my favour later down the line. so it's a difficult decision and one id rather have more time to contemplate.

Wooo ok operation vote steal is a go and next round we’ll be swimming in green hopefully but with one world sis og tribe lines just ain’t it!

God im over this tribal. Like ugh these people really are under Kori's mist so like im probably going home. Do I think i might be able to survive? a small glimmer of hope says yes, but i'm not confident. God im just... so annoyed at this. Im clearly on the outs here and I just HOPE i can pull through i just am so scared. I know if i do leave though that I have fought my damn hardest to stay tonight. Im trying to think of the positives because its hard to do so because im being sad atm.. UGH. the fajitas really have failed me tonight, their light has dimmed and their guidance is no more. i am now with the darkness. we r one.

Oh my fucking god my heart is breaking. Matt is basically in such a deep hole he's going to go home, unless he plays an idol. And Alyssa has an idol. And she doesn't think it's smart to use it on him because Michael says he's just gonna go home next round. His social game hasn't been up to snuff and they're gonna boot him regardless, so she wants to keep us with power and let him go. And I agree with her. Which kills me. I'm usually able to just be a robot when it comes to this like yes I will make the smarter decision if it means I'll be emotionally torn, and this is such an instance. Luckily, it's not my idol to give up. Yes Alyssa says it's "our" idol but it's her call end of the day. I just... fuck. This is all stars man. And I'm actually starting to feel, for once.

Well it's about an hour before tribal and at least on it's surface it would seem Matt is going. I'm not confident though because any number of things COULD happen. I'm hoping there's no idol play, just because I feel like pre-merge just isn't a good look for me.

If Matt does pull something off, then kudos to him, and if it's me that'd make this my final confessional for the season. I've had such an amazing time playing and while I feel like I've been playing a lower key game on purpose I feel like I'm doing what I can to really come into my own. I hope the bonds I've made are gonna stick and that everything works out for us.

But if it doesn't I guess I'll have to find a way to be ok with that. This has been such a unique All-Stars experience so far, and I hope I can take what I've gotten from it and make myself better for it. (Also highkey hopefully this isn't my last confessional and I'm getting sentimental for no reason.)

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Kori is voted out 4-3.

#shinebright #episode

[bambaooo]

the weekend..

lol this weekend wasnt as eventful as i was expecting, but its cool. 

friday went to the gym after work as usual

had a good lift,

went home ate dinner, and then a few hommies came through to chill

sipped on a few beers

chilled at thys for a little

ended up chillin with all of wolfpack, 

its pretty rare when we get to all be together at the same time, so thats cool

saturday went to the gym 

then went to chik fil a with the roomies

i had some chik fila gift cards from christmas so i wanted to use em

chilled at home for a bit

then got ready for pageant

took a few shots before hand lol. and we ended up walking to campus.

it was weird because it was my first offical fact event where im an alumni

it was cool thought

went to christians pizzaa after with a few hommies 

and grabbbed red eye

went back to the house to change and to meet up with everyone before we went out.

we didnt leave the house until like midnight

usually when we go out around that time we end up being out for 4-5 hours.

we were only out for an hour and a half before we went home lol.

i drank a bit, got a little buzz but nothing too crazy.

i was planning for tonight to be my last night to get mad fucked up with everyone before i go straight edge.

but then i thought to myself.

why the hell do i need to go straight edge? lol

im in prep, but idk when im gonna compete again, and im just living life at this point. 

ima just enjoy life in moderation. 

during winter break, i had a goal of drinking to get fucked up and have fun.

but i can still get drunk and have fun, without getting belligerent lol

im getting to old for that shit i guess. 

but im just gonna do my workout grind, work grind, and still have fun with life and shit

i have a 3 day work week,

gotta go to nova wednesday night,

drive to maryland thursday for my orientation

im gonna have to leave my house at like 5 which is gonna fucking suck. 

but ima grab a drink thursdya night with my god brother, and possibly abus with andy

and then ima stay in nova for part of friday and head back to rva sometime early afternoon?

i have a haircut at 6, so theres that. 

supposed to get my check on friday, hopfully it comes on time. if not ima be pissed lol

first big boy check, so im hype

i owe a few people sums of money cause ive been broke for the past month, 

so once i take care of some bills, the money i owe, and putting off into savings, what evers left  is gonna go towards a little treat yo self type shit. 

idk what yet, but ill figure it out lol.

like i dont really have anything in mind that i want/need. but ill see

i also want to take out the roomies and hommie out to dinner or something

idk where to go yet, but ill figure that out eventually too.

but yeahh.

this week is pretty eventful.

ever since i started working the weeks have been going by pretty fast.

which is kinda nice.

like there hasnt been a time at work where i feel that ive been waiting for time to go by.

id start working, check the time, a couple hours go by, then look up again its lunch, the look again its time to go home.

time to go to sleep. 

gnight tumblr.