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lunarxdaydream · 2 years

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fdgdf one more lmao for Satine

- What is your earliest memory that you can remember?

- What is the dumbest thing you have ever done to impress someone? Were they impressed or was it all for naught?

- Would you rather have your own kids or adopt? How many kids would you want?

- Have you ever been badly injured before?

( interview the muse )

- What is your earliest memory that you can remember?

"Probably ... my brother helping me scavenge for food while our mother did her 'business'. I think he picked a lock into one of the local bakeries, just at the start of their shift change. He stole a cookie -- double chocolate -- and it was the sweetest thing I had ever eaten ..."

- What is the dumbest thing you have ever done to impress someone? Were they impressed or was it all for naught?

"Play a round of Bishop. Some of the kids bragged they could play without cutting themselves so ... naturally I had to try. Especially when my brother kept saying he was the winner. I think my friends were impressed ... or maybe freaked out by how well we did. I mean -- not many nine year old kids can stab themselves and just go on without crying."

- Would you rather have your own kids or adopt? How many kids would you want?

"... Adopt. Having kids of my own is ... impossible. For myself and my fiancé." But it was a loss they both shared. A consequence to their lives long before they had met. At least neither of them had to worry they were causing a burden to the other when they both carried the same weight "I'm not really sure. We haven't talked about it and ... I don't know how Nolan would feel about bringing children into our lives." Would he even want to?

- Have you ever been badly injured before?

"More times than I could count. Depends on which instance you're talking about. I've broken my ankle. Fractured a few ribs. Was in a coma for a few months from a head injury. But I guess that's part of the job."

|| @fellbloom || @vacuitas ||

#( Satine || answered )#( Satine & Nolan )#( ahhhhhh tyyyy for this! )#fellbloom #vacuitas

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oswednesday · 4 years

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yesterday i made curry and cleaned a bunch, nothing like harsh or chemically just tidy’d between online like chores, i really like making meals that arnt urgent and like going about the house in like a Gentle way it really feels like the place gets woken up with you? i hope to be able to do that more and like carry that with me or like in the future itll be working on projects while stuff is cooking like oh dreamy it feels like if i sit down to work work i might burn something ggdf like theres a different sense of urgency but omg so i just made food and fell asleep basically and heres the only part i really remember, this was like a recipe level intro to this dream im sharing fdgdf

i was in a class but it was set in my preschool caf which was also the areas like rec center, it has a stage like it does irl, its very like ethnic of it dsdsd and the class was like a reading literacy thing where we practiced reading out loud and stuff so maybe more of an acting class? but it was in the dream like englishy like a reading class, which omg my grade school did seperate reading from like grammar now that im thinking on it, omg anyway this old book collector had donated a bunch of books from like the 17th century cause whatever fantasy currency he had only accumilated based on Deeds he was still mega wealthy but you know like ooohh nooo my massive wealth is only huge how embrassing and i had volunteered to read them like hehehe he’ll fall in love with me, and there was like a class host? class rep? or whatever like an older student who sat in with the younger students to help as apart of like guidance thing older students are expected to do in catholic schools (or at least the ethnic ones fdgfd) and she was dressed goth and so was i and like a teacher was like which one of yous shawl is this and she was annoyed that my stuff would be confused with mine and as im typing this im like pretty sure this girl in my dreams was my actual like assigned older student like we got lunch buddies or w/e and they were suppose to like share food and talk with us and like eat with us as like a mixed age thing and she was sooo mean and didnt share anything i cant fully remember what she did or said but one of the other students like took me from her and had doubled up like hey get away from that person and i recall now feeling like oh no im doing something wrong i should go back to her, hmm much to think about

but omg then i left the class with people i knew from highschool who were both like not the core group and nice to hang out with casually and became like seperated from the group cause of group drama or just like different life directions with no self awareness of it, but in the dream it was just us, the latter one was trying to get validation from us and like teachers about becoming a military nurse and we were like noooo dont be a bootlicker and also how dangerous that is for your person and like the building we were in was like so so different ive never really been in a building like that before it was like the vague feeling of a school building in a scifi setting but with like darker lighting and blue tones like 90s scifi, it was time for gym and i didnt want to change so i just hiked my skirt up i was wearing like this extra long black one, some boy kid came in to harass us and i was looking for a decent place to get changed but it was all just like lockers like the alchoves of lockers was shaped like a square with a wall missing also hey isnt it wild that young children are expected to get naked in front of their peers and teachers and shamed when they use the bathrooms to change like there’s absolutely nothing else like that in society where thats acceptable and on top of that most american schools dont even have like gym uniforms so its like get judged twice in an american gym class

but omg okay like you have to leave the changing room to have access to the bathroom but the hall wasnt like a full hall it was like half walls with a space under it too, and the kid threw a red rubber ball in after me and it like bounced and rolled back into the changing room, the toliets were at the end of the hall, no doors but they were facing like the opposite direction so like your back would be too each other if both were occupied and like the “boys” one was super clean and new and the “girls” one was clogged unclean and junky and i was calling to the others to look at this, act of sexism and i group had gathered to be like hey wtf and then it clipped to like lunch

it was like a sushi bar from another planet like i recognized the food and what it should look like plated because in the dream ive like read about it, but how it was like to be assembled i had no idea like you were suppose to do it yourself and people, older students and teachers and other staff, sat around the serving station, i didnt know what to do and was afraid to cut into a group so i was doing my best to put the food together how i remembered from books but i knew i was doing something wrong, finally someone got up from a table that was nearer to a wall and had put me in front of a kitchen worker that was still doing stuff and they had an exchange in the planet’s like native language or like the language from whereever we were on the planet and i thought i was in trouble cause the exchange sounded urgent but then the worker was like if you dont know what youre doing it can be dangerous and then showed me how to crack and peel this eel like thing that had to be open up like a shrimp to be edible and like what parts to pull off and like you had to eat that first as the Start of the meal and the worker was like your homeroom teacher had boasted about a student who had read into the culture we were in and i was all like super embrassed like oh thats me haha!! ;’;’;’;’ and the worker was like i noticed, you did as good a job as you could on your own and then after i had gotten help at like all the food stations i went to go sit with like the First Years who were in a different eating area with like a pull down projector set up playing stuff like the gist of it was like visual lessons in the guise of like media like eduatainment from the native culture and i woke up before i could find a seat

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hnnnfdfds · 5 years

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So, I had to rewrite this. The og was def different but like mentioned, Tumblr deleted it so I can’t remember shit. dgfdgdf I totally cannot believe I wrote sth. I’m so sorry tho. This should have been way better.

Yo, yo, those are the prompts!

I do other fandoms too fdhgjd

To be quite honest, I usually tell myself to try write properly on this blog so I seem mature but who I’m kidding, this is literally a mess and I don’t have the energy to continue being mature fdgdf.

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Kind of Dazatsu — Babysitter!AU, I totally fucked t his one aspect up so u can sue me I accept, the quote sth with like 3534 fucks and one (1) shit which is a mood tbh.

—

“Fuck you, this can’t be happening to me.”

Dazai Osamu is not good with kids.

Dazai Osamu is really bad with kids.

Dazai Osamu literally would make “I’d accidentally kill a kid” come true.

Atsushi doesn’t get how someone could trust Dazai with their goddamn kid. This has to be a mistake or something.

“Are you sure she meant you?”

“Yes, she explicitly called me by my name and told me to be a responsible adult.”

Atsushi only raises an eye. Honestly, this whole situation doesn’t even deserve his attention. Who the hell believes that Dazai is a responsible adult?

“Even a five-year-old would probably do a better job at being responsible than you.”

“Wow,” Dazai mutters, clutching his chest, “I can’t believe people think your an angel. You’re the devil himself.”

The grey-haired boy rolls his eyes. “Don’t spread lies, Satan.”

As Dazai gasps in mock hurt, Atsushi lets his eyes wander to the kid sleeping on the couch.

“This is going to end up so horrible.”

“Atsushi—”

---

Five hours later, it turns out he’s right.

They had to call Chuuya to help them out because Dazai took his eyes off the kid once and lost him.

---

“Again?”

“Yes, she thought I did a splendid job last time!”

“... You didn’t tell her it was Nakahara-san who took care of the kid?”

“...”

---

“So… a third time? After you almost burnt the house down last time?”

“Well, I… may have not mentioned that?”

“Dazai-san!”

---

“Why did Nakahara-san call me at four in the morning to tell me that you actually did burn the house down?”

“... Good news, she wants me to take care of the kid again.”

“...”

“Atsushi-kun?”

“...”

“... Atsushi-kun?”

“...”

“... Aw, he hung up.”

---

“Mhm?”

“So… she has a second kid she wants me to take care of?”

“I hate you.”

---

“Fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck this shit. Fuck.”

He did it now. He literally fucked up.

Dazai decided that it was warm enough to go to the park with the kids. How could have he known that those little assholes would actually run off? He sure didn’t! God, he has to find them before their mother picks them up!

But he literally can’t find them anywhere. They couldn’t have run off that far, could they? They are tiny with short legs. They shouldn’t be able to run far away. So, they had to be somewhere in the area.

“Hey, have you seen two kids? One of them has brown…”

“Miss? Miss, have you seen those kids…”

“Ah, wait! Did you see any one of those two kids…”

Three hours later he still hasn’t found them.

He fucked up.

There’s no other way, he’ll have to call Chuuya to help him search and the mother to inform her that he lost her kids. God, this is all his fault. He should have just told her the truth. Now she’s going to be mad and the kids might be injured with no one to help them.

Atsushi is going to be so disappointed in him.

He fucked up. That’s all he ever does.

It’s over.

It’s just o—

“Dazai-san.”

That voice…

He turns around and stares into sunset-colored eyes.

...It’s Atsushi.

And there’s cheerful laughter.

The two kids are with Atsushi.

“You’re such an idiot, Dazai-san.”

The kids are safe.

He nods.

The kids are safe. Because of Atsushi.

Slowly, he lifts his hands and draws the other into a hug.

“Thank you.”

Atsushi sighs.

“Start with a cat, Dazai-san. Or maybe a plant is better for you.”

#dazatsu #bungou stray dogs #bsd #my stars #request

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latetaektalk · 3 years

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06.08 - 09.08.2021 | friday to monday 📖

meet up with my best friends !!

we had ramen and shaved ice together,, it was so delicious ✨

got lost trying to get back home and ended up waiting like an hour for the the train lmao but we took pics, so it was okay

got my second shot 🥳

i also finished reading a little life and ive never felt so empty before,,,,, literally just stared ahead of me for an hour 🤧

also yes i did cry by the end because damn that book is heavy,,,,, if anyone wants to read it, please check the trigger warnings!!

woke up on sunday with a major headache

rested and napped a lot which helped a bit

still i thought my skull was gonna split open at any point

read convenience store woman by sayaka murata !! i enjoyed that a lot! it was a nice quick but still very interesting read

started on kitchen by banana yoshimoto and im enjoying it so far!

watched minari today and god i just fell in love with it so hard 💕 probably my favourite film right now!!

GOT LORDE TICKETS !!!!!!

yes im gonna see her next summer and im just FDGDF

made my entire fucking year bYE

music rec: double take by dhruv (dont know if youre gonna see this 🦋 anon but yes im totally obsessed with it right now) and je te laisserai des mots by patrick watson and indigo by niki 🎧

#linh.diary

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oswednesday · 5 years

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last morning, if you will, i had these really intense sorta vent dreams like it started with my mom being like yeah im on drugs and us having that kinda Get Help sorta thing, irl my mom acts like i dont know and ive never been able to be like youre high rn @ here she just like “hides” her drug use and goes through the day high as shit and unreproachable, in the dream she was driving so i had to take the keys from her then it faded into like a school dream that was like a cross between a so so im stuck in detention themed creepypasta and baldis basic education where i was with people like my?dream made up and then it was like a grocery store field trip my grade school would take a lot fdgdf and everyone else was getting like a lunch like a Core Meal and a juice and a snack and my mom wouldnt let me and my dad was like okay we’ll go out for sushi, and his part was only over a phone i had in the dream (irl my mom like fought tooth and nail for me not to have a phone > > i only got the most basic flipphone at 18) and suddenly my mom was fighting really hard against that and like my dads offer became like a gift card and a plastic like sd chip and i dropped it in like rain water on the way down to the drain but i picked it up before it went but it was still wet, then i had a really strange dream that i wasnt in that was like optical illusion surreal but in it furbies had teeth and i woke up sooo bummed out that they dont have teeth normally!

#dream journal

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