#hell i already have and im enjoying it

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi prime defenders spoilers #jrwi pd spoilers #jrwi pd #william wisp #vyncent sol #THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it. #BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece #i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW) #that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that #if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles. #open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho #BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses... #lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH #FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE #i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony #recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day #ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw- #-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM- #-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS #its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not #well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i- #-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!! #i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i

[todayisafridaynight]

sequel to this cause Uh Oh !!!!!!!

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #jo sawashiro #ryo aoki #masato arakawa #snap sketches #if theres mistakes idc this is TWO DAYS LATE i have a COMMISSION TO DO and im GOING OUT WITH MY BRO AGAIN #we are SPEEDING THROUGH PLEASE FORGIVE ME #anyway. hey :) #part of me feels like this would have been better in b/w but OH WELL #part 95 of I Almost Trashed This but i didnt want to whenever people were already expecting it and saw me draw it SO. <:] #eveyrone from the stream lookin at this like 'snap what the hell did you do this is totally different' GIRLS I TOLD YOU IT'D BE TOTALLY DIF #ok not 100% diff but. i redid pretty much the whole thing #i still have the old draft actually LMAO i had to yoink soem bits from it but now i dont want to delete it... #there was just a lot i didnt like with the first one that i wanted to see if i could adjust to my liking and well. Good Nuff #theres SOME bits i dont like but thats more so how i drew it opposed to the thought or composition #ok maybe a lil bit of the latter but anyway. Enjoy :) #also you'll have me gutted like a fish before i try to learn how to draw croc skin like we'll just have to save that for another time #do i have anything else i want to say. no LMAO if i do im just gonna end up explaining all the composition and panels #and id rather leave that up to yall lookin to see if you wanna take anything Extra away from how i set things up SO :) #bye for now. i have to run around my house ☠️

[constantvariations]

As much as I enjoy Neo, I think she was the wrong villain to drop into Wonderland with the squad. Her conflict with Ruby doesn't thematically lend itself to the current arc of self-doubt and weight of responsibility (plus any resolution of Neo's revenge arc will probably end up with her dead since the writers have no idea what to do with her)

Even if Neo calmed down long enough to somehow communicate her grievance of losing Roman, nothing would really come of it. He was an enemy who died in front of Ruby, not because of her. His death is a footnote at best considering two of her friends died in front of her within like, an hour. So, if Ruby tells the truth of Roman's demise, then there's only two outcomes. Neo either thinks she's lying (which would be dumb. There's literally nothing to gain from it) and keeps attacking her until one of them is dead/left behind in Wonderland or Neo believes her and...???

(Seriously where can Neo go after this conflict is resolved? She doesn't care about Salem's cause, there's no one who cares about her, and she probably can't return to her previous life of crime since she was based in Vale. Neo's entire existence revolves around Roman; take that away and you have even less than a ghost)

You know who would be able to excel in a chaotic world and take advantage of Ruby's mental instability? Tyrian

This guy is able to bypass the barriers that keep someone safe, both literally with his ignore-aura seblance and metaphorically. When the writers aren't playing up the "woohoo wacky crazy psycho" schtick, which gets real old real fast, Tyrian is one of the most adept psych-analysts in the entire show. This guy read Mercury and Emerald like the morning newspaper even though they kept their distance from everyone but Cinder

In her current state, Tyrian could pick Ruby apart petal by petal until not even a bud remains. Or better yet, try getting her to align with Salem

"It's so sad, isn't it? You put in all that work, did all that planning, and Atlas still fell. The relic lost. Your friend died.

"I know you did your best. But it wasn't good enough. You weren't good enough.

"Such a big burden placed on such young shoulders isn't right. You tried so hard to save everyone, but no one has ever tried to save you, have they? Everyone has failed you. Ozpin, Ironwood, Qrow, even your friends down here. Too wrapped up in themselves to notice your struggles.

"But you don't have to do it anymore, Ruby. No more fighting, no more betrayal, no more dying. All you have to do is help Mistress get two itty bitty relics, and it will all be over.

"After all, you didn't ask for this."

#rwde #plus itd be really nice to see a rematch between ruby and tyrian #why make him a personal enemy if he's not gonna come back? #i do wonder whats gonna happen w tyrian tho bc im p sure his VA left rt #which good for them! get outta that hellhole #but w all the interesting villains killed off or written out theres not much to look forward to outside of Tyrian and Mercury #hell mercury would also have been a good choice to fall w them. he's already doubting the whole salem thing iirc so it would fit w the arc #also villains w a psych degree are always my favorite. theyre so much fun to write #as you can see lol #rip to mkek but i enjoy writing smart characters #especially when theyre manipulative bastards

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

forever mad about how dirty they did aveline from act 2 onward

#thinking way too much abt it rn cus i just finished her quest today #she is important to liam and i enjoy their relationship a lot & also her character in general in the earlier acts #but MAN i hate what they did to her in acts 2 and 3 #laya plays dragon age #feels like there is such a disconnect from her attitude between acts 1 and 2? #or well. maybe not disconnect exactly but even so there is an important shift there and we never even get to see it OR question it #she could have been such a good contribution to the story and the themes by putting her at a crossroads of #do i keep following what i know and become another cog in the system or do i challenge them and break out of it #cus like. in act 1 she is not above going against laws when her own morals (or even just biases) go against them #but is generally still in favor of ''regular'' law and order (which does get challenged by characters sometimes which is nice!) #(sort of) blind loyalty is already a fault of hers and now her loyalty is understandably mostly towards her guards #but then her companion quest is not in fact about herself but about frickin. courting the guy she likes??????? #full on i thought this was a silly quest for levity in an act that has a lot of dark moments #but no it is Her Important Quest TM and not only does she not get with him if you dont do the quest #but her entire attitude and happiness going forward depends on it????? what the hell #also fun fact first time playing act 2 i thought that there was a lot going over my head and like #and some of it did yeah but i also just Assumed that bc the way aveline acted/ the guards actions were presented through her #didnt line up with what actually happened #(& her being so defensive and dismissive didnt line up with the impression i got of her before that) #sorry for the rant im just once again mad about cool characters being screwed over by the writing

[amiinkles]

I dont usually post non art related things but ugh. That ending made me sick...

#i would talk more on it but i feel like itll just be a stupid rant that talks about what many people have said on the topic #yes im an izzy fan yes i hate the ending because he died #i feel so bad for the old izzy fans who have been countlessly harrassed by fellow queers in the fandom #for them to go through hell just to be gifted the worst thing of all #a canonical death that happened rushed and horribly #nothing against the actors i just wish it ended differently #im not excited for season 3 anymore. they already got their 'happy ending' #sorry i actually ranted 😭 if you want to discuss about it or let it out feel free to comment #and apologies to everyone else who saw this feel free to celebrate or something idk #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 ending #izzy hands #i wish the actors the best and people who enjoyed the ending will get a season 3 they enjoy too #ill probably delete this later when i clear my head but im not doing well right now and i mean genuinely... #'not moving on is worse' or something

[lilalilan]

Ahhh got harassed by a random guy at the concert after-party could y'all just fucking not

#tw harassment idk what to call this #first interaction: hi you dance good and are hot #second interaction: him asking me out and me saying no #third interaction: saying im hot #fourth interaction: him asking me on a date then asking if im married #me saying I have a wife and pointedly calling my partner my wife #him going great I have two new best friends and asking for a hug and us turning him down #fifth interaction: him letting me know that he's leaving and asking me out before remembering I already said no #sixth interaction: him asking me out again before remembering I said no and saying goodbye again #last interaction: him coming to say bye to me again #me really quickly saying bye and not really giving him much attention #and him getting all upset about my not giving him attention to a friend he was with #mind you this is all happening while I'm trying to focus on watching a really cool local band perform #like this guy got upset I wasn't giving him attention during literally the last song on the set when I was just trying to enjoy the moment #fucking hell can entitled people with no respect for boundaries get the fuck away from me #I want to be nice but then people treat me weird and I don't like it #but how can I stop that while still being nice? #and is it my being nice that's the issue or do I just want to feel like I have control so that I can feel safe?

[j-esbian]

see the problem with all of the puzzles in bg3 is like. sometimes the player (me) is stupid. and at least in a real dnd game you might get the dm to take pity on you

#the number of ‘’walkthroughs’’ that i’ve found that don’t actually. help #they tell you the map coordinates or whatever. what about if i cannot physically find what you’re talking about AT THOSE COORDINATES #or cannot figure out how to get to those coordinates (like when i spent three days trying to find karlach) #i’m in hell. actually still having a very hard time getting invested and like. not rly enjoying this game lmao #I AM PLAYING ON EXPLORER MODE AND SOMEONE GOES DOWN IN ALMOST EVERY COMBAT #also just. open world syndrome a little bit #too many quests that apparently i can’t actually move forward in yet. and too much open space #making me feel like. i need to go explore and grind when i just want to finish the quests i already have good lord #idrc about exploring every corner of the map. at this point??? #tried going into the mountain pass and it was like ‘hey you’re really low level. reconsider <3’ and im like #literally WHAT is there to do for me here #(it wanted me to go to the underdark. which i figured would progress the story so i was trying to find lae’zel’s crèche while we’re here??) #also on a non gameplay note #inSANE that all of the questlog items for daughter of darkness list her and i having interactions that We Did Not #got to act 2 and she’s like ‘hey i worship shar btw. this is supposed to be a reveal’ but like. the quest log told me that immediately?? #was i not supposed to read that?? she never told me that she wanted to join the justiciars. i never gave her the idol. #but it said all of those happened??? #maybe i’m biased bc my first save was trying to play as her but it REALLY feels like they’re pushing her to be the main character #like. kinda sucks how she’s the only companion you can check in with and say ‘how do you think we’re doing’ #and these fucking controls #why are the items hit boxes so weird. my cursor is a centimeter away and yet it still highlights something #the label isn’t actually next to the thing it’s describing so holding the alt key does nothing to show me where it is #god forbid you try to point at something through an open door #the fucking. camera angles. impossible to see what i’m doing or where i’m going because the trees and walls and shit keep getting in the way #straight up not having a good time #but this was a lot of money and i’ve heard it picks up #when tho #also the fact that i rly like wyll and he’s got like. nothing. id heard he has less content than other origins but #didn’t realize it was to a noticeable extent #maybe it’ll pick up and give him more to talk about once i save his dad. please god

[meimeikyu]

whoopsie it is 1am

#i cant sleeppp #i have so much work to do #oh fuck i think my essay deadline fucking closed now too so fuckin hell #i have so much work and i cant get myself to get anything done #and i cant even like. enjoy not doing any of it bcs i also cant get myself to draw or to play the new game im meaning to #so im just sitting here swapping between listening to music and reading n watching dr who #bcs they r the only things i can get myself to do rn #im just #blegheh #i wish i wasnt like this bcs im already in trouble bcs im behind #i hate stuff #personal #vent #<ig #ok to rb/interact

[bitchfitch]

For all the teething I've been doing on Pavo and Esti i haven't been able to like, actually write any thing for them recently mostly because I've been Busy.

But also because I'm snapping between like 3 ideas for them at terminal velocity and haven't been able to actually get anything written for them and it's like having pumas bouncing around my skull at mach fuck as though theyre house cats at 2 am when you're trying to sleep,

#idea one is the day after things start changing and they haven't discussed it fully yet. #Pavo is mulling over some things and Esti is too nervous to ask about it. but they're alone out hunting #its such a nice day. and Esti thinks hes going to be saying goodbye soon. and hes making himself sick with anxiety over it #and they're alone together like old times but its Not like old times because Esti remembers how sweetly Pavo had kissed him that #morning after and how good it had felt to spend the whole morning in bed cureld up against him. #and Esti doesnt think he could stomach the idea of leaving without getting another kiss or at least finding out if Pavo regretted it or not #and the story is them being sweet on each other and avoiding the big heavy topic until Esti can verbally ask about it. because like Pavo #knows him well enough to know whats eating him up. but he wants to hear Esti say the words #and then the second idea is Esti waking up from a nightmare after hes been brought home from that hell. he screams for Pavo and #like of course pavo is on his feet and at the door that separates their rooms in an instant. but its locked and Esti is too #scared to navigate to it because hes already wound up and hes still not used to life as a blind man. so the idea of getting out of bed #and crossing an open room with nothing to help him orient himself is Terrifying. #probably more than it should be but the nightmares are still fresh in his head and hes having to make himself focus and ignore them #and just reasure himself that it Actually is Pavo and not one of those monster that had used his voice. and its hard hes crying and Pavo #has to take down part of the fucking door frame to get the sliding door off its tracks without just busting it down since Esti didn't #need that particular audio experience right now and he liked that doors painting and Pavo had already sent for the craftsperson who #made his eyes to commission them to make a set for esti. and he doesn't want to destroy something pretty esti likes when itll only be a few #until esti can enjoy it again. and he gets into the room and esti scooches over in bed to welcome him into it because despite Everything #esti still will always feel safer pinned between a wall and Pavo than anywhere else. and he just needs to feel safe. #and the third thing is because of something deardest said a yesterday i think about Pavo in his old age. and im just Chewing on the image #of him and esti in his carriage. Esti's hair has gone white and hes nearing his end. and thentwo of them are together and happy #and able to reflect on the lives they've had together. and its mostly just the idea of Pavo being glad hes so much older than Esti. because #it means despite Esti only being half demon and having a much shorter life because of it. Pavo isnt going to outlive him by very long. #and All of this. Everything was because of how scared Pavo was to be alone. and hes not going to have to be in his last days. #so Yeah. thats been whats on my mind when im not devoting it to like lame shit like work #wow im bad at reading #their url is derederest #not deardest

[testing-12-testing]

if there was enough content out there to do so id totally make a 45 minute video essay talking about fandroid lore and what it personally means to me but alas

#the streams are nice but they all have about #10 minutes of lore content in them max #some of it repeating stuff we heard last stream #and stuff we already knew like. 3 years ago so #and like. only mostly about current events #the 404 stuff is fun yeah #i enjoy it #but im still hung up on the fact that we still know Nothing about most of adhocs past #we dont know why all the humans died or what happened #the war hasnt even been mentioned since fandroids return tweet so what if it was just. a joke? but theres a chance that it couldve been #literal and it frustrates me not knowing #god what i would do for a fandroid story. like a comic or a game or hell even if they refurbished the roblox rp and made it new #id be so happy

[verminfang]

The Behind Blue Eyes cover...

#buffybloggin #I feel like a lot of the time I dont really have much to say #thats like #anything #because the show is old and discussed as hell so I dont really feel to get in depth when im certain its all been talked over already #so you'll just end up with a lot of 'I enjoyed X scene happening'

[moonstandardtime]

love my digital art class but god it is filling me with rage and hatred for adobe.

#my post #i hope im able to use my tablet in classes when i transfer #bc good lord. this shit is impossible #i would be done with this project already .. but im not even halfway through. #its due on friday too and i cant get adobe illustrator on my laptop and work on it outside class bc adobe wont fucking COOPERATE WITH ME. #its trying to make me pay. girl the school is already paying for it for me what the hell are you talking about. let me in #i should talk to the professor..oogh but theres so much other stuff i havent done for either of the classes i have with this professor #bc of that unnecessarily long quarantine i had to do right at the beginning of the semester putting me behind #and i would feel bad abt asking for an extension for whats basically the only assignment ive actually done for both of their classes #i would feel less bad i think if i had accommodations for this kinda stuff. but i never actually went to get any and now it wouldnt be worth #it bc im not gonna be at this school next semester. and i only have these two classes that i have anything to do for #oh right this post is abt adobe #.. i dont think id be able to fully finish this assignment on time even with an extension #bc adobe illustator. like i said. is filling me with rage #it is so tedious and finicky and unnecessarily complicated and doesnt have the tools i like and i cant find a fill tool or how to make the #eraser smaller and im using a fucking. mouse. a mouse that i cant right click with btw bc we're using apple computers and the mice are lite #rally just one button. #i love this professor and i enjoy the projects but good GOD. i hate the tools so much #maybe ill ask them for an extension and if i could do it. not on adobe

[killherfreakout]

i’m so incredibly upset that i hated college

#feel like everyone lied to me and feels so alienating when everyone i know had the time of their lives there #in theory it sounds so fun and freeing and a place to make forever friends and memories. but it was actual hell on earth for me #so if u enjoy college i’m so happy for u and am envious #and im at the age where i should have graduated already it just fucks everything for my life path that i have no control of awesome

[coloursofaparadox]

>:[

#ive lost like all fear of dogs at this point. i realized that earlier today when a massive rottie started a fight with my boy #and my first instinct on seeing flying teeth was to sprint towards them and shove my body in between #its very possible it was also just all self preservation leaving my body because i am absolutely going to protect my pup #i would probably fight a bear for him there is no question that i would forcibly shove another dog off with my forearm #but fuck. despite the fact that i /know/ better sometimes i have a real real bad fatigue week and i use dog parks. i have like. #a selective list of ones that i will go to categorized by 'least likely to become a boxing ring'. tons of space. multiple separate areas. #i go only at off times when its not busy! i watch dog body language and keep an eye on him at all times. #ill rotate areas if i spot a potential problem. i have him under verbal control and wouldnt even be there if i didnt. but! like! #despite all that. just fucking anyone can go there. 'oh your dogs a puppy thats why my dog attacked him!' idgaf. #speaking as someone who has raised a reactive dog. if your dog is reactive why in the absolute hell would you take them to a dog park. #why!!! lif your dog is consistently fighting other dogs why would you do that! it does not matter if he 'only attacks dogs that arent fixed' #he is still obviously not having a good fucking time and is not going to enjoy this environment holy shit #just. gggHHGGH. i avoid off leash parks as much as i can already but. fuck. idek the point of this im just. #still a bit riled over having to physically throw myself in the middle of a dog fight while the other owner did absolutely nothing. #like just hovered! while his dog was pinning mine and teeth flying attacking and was actively fighting me trying to keep him off #when i can afford it im gonna find some sort of dog group walk/hike thing instead i do not want to socialize my boy like this #i am tired and very very upset because my boy looked so scared and i swear to god if you arent grabbing your dog i will fight it myself #fuck dude. fuck dog parks and fuck me for knowing better and still using em anyways.

[driftwoodskeleton]

dropping subtle hints that i wanna see Ghost in concert more than anything by saying things like "i wanna see Ghost in concert more than anything" to my mum at every opportunity. i am very subtle and chill all of the time

#i have no chance #i already know id have a massive meltdown if i went #and it would ruin the experience for me and everyone around me #nobody wants to see the autistic guy crying and hyperventilating louder than a chainsaw when youre trying to enjoy a concert #i already ruined the dodie concert for mio caro amico a few years ago #i dont wanna ruin Ghost too #but at the same time i so badly wanna see them #but it would also rely on them actually touring in the UK and atm i dont think they are lmao #tobias pls #also id want to be somewhere i could see the stage from my chair which would be expensive as hell #and dangerous. when u think about tobias and his apparent love of throwing himself headfirst off the stage #im just rambling now #ive never had a band ive wanted to see live so badly before. ive never really cared tbh #just gotta ride out the hyperfixation 😭

[pallases]

:/

#tbh thinking abt the fact that according to my schedule mapping from like a year ago it’s not too late to switch to a double eng/french #major and still graduate in 4 yrs #personal #made it as a contingency plan in the case of robotics being my breaking point. which it wasn’t that class gave me hell but im glad i took it #i learned a Ton and think it was worth it in the end even if my team sucked most of the time. but physics is Testing Me #on the other hand tho i will not need mechanical physics at all for what i want to go into as far as i know. so maybe i should stick #through it idk #i mean ive enjoyed everything actually relevant to the field i want to enter so far. but fr i don’t even know if i’ll pass this class in #which case i will have no choice but to switch programs 😭 #<- not bc it’s failing a class in the program but bc it’s failing This Particular Class. if i don’t pass it i’ll have to add a whole #other year and it’s already a 5 yr program like i am not doing that. #the engineering chronicles #wait to clarify eng is english in this scenario not engineering agdjf