#guh im so stressed

[updatingranboo]

(sorry for how long this is, I swear I tried to keep it short pfft)

Hi Day! I didn’t really know where to ask this, sorry in advance if this is the wrong place or something completely out of your wheelhouse. I know you have your ‘RanbooStartingSoon’ YT channel where you upload starting soons and on occasion vods that are missing from the official vods channel (like the missing LA vod, tysm for that btw !!) so you seemed like the best person that I could ask about this; 

Yesterday I was looking for a couple vods of Lethal Company from November, because I missed seeing them at the time and had never gotten around to seeing them- I wasn’t in a rush because I thought “well they’ll be on the vods channel!” but looking through I realized they’re totally missing from there, along with quite a few other vods from November- they’re still on twitch right now, but won’t be much longer.

The missing vods as far as I can tell are: the Thief Simulator 2 vod (which I think will be gone off of twitch tomorrow, Jan 19th if I’m not mistaken) the LC vods “THIS COMPANY SURE ISN’T NON LETHAL!”, “the lethalist of companies, the best of people”, and “2 years of having EYES (LETHAL COMPANY WITH HUGE LOBBY LATER!)”, along with the VR Kayaking vod, the “planning the project fundraiser subathon” vod, and the “absolutely massive announcements” vod. The vods from after the subathon are also missing, but I’m assuming (hoping) that those will be uploaded to the official vods channel soon, although the oldest of them is already 23 days old so I don’t know. 

There's other vods from before these missing, like the RGBtrio PayDay stream and Streamer's Court, but those aren't on twitch anymore so I'm assuming those are just lost sadly.

Basically, I was wondering if you’d consider uploading the missing vods at all? I imagine you probably never planned to upload that many vods, so I completely understand if it’s too much of a hassle and you can’t/don’t want to. And again, my apologies if this just isn’t in your wheelhouse, so sorry if I was a bother. 

Regardless, thank you for your time and thank you for all the updates you do! Hope you have a lovely timezone <3

hi there!! yeah I’m very painfully aware of how far backed up the vods channel is, it causes me stress daily LMAO. there’s already vods that have fallen off twitch that haven’t been uploaded, but I’ve been assured by the twitch vods manager they’ve been saved so i have to trust.

i try not to upload anything that is definitely going to be uploaded to the vods channel, because i don’t like taking away from the traffic to official channels, and i also am working with the tiniest hard drive known to man and just. don’t have the space to download full streams most of the time :(

i do have plans to upload both of the alt streams just because I’m paranoid but believe me, I’m just as stressed and i hope that when ranboo gets back from their break the channel picks up again because we are over 2 months behind now and i Don’t Like That as the resident media preservation freak

but thank you for reaching out, maybe I’ll change my mind if I can figure something out, but for now I’m just praying that the vods channel manager knows what they’re doing 😭

#guh im so stressed #I’m also fighting my own very busy schedule to try and find time to upload starting soons and they keep catching up to me #I do still have the ghost starting soon downloaded from the nov national ranboo day stream that was muted #that will go up soon promise #not updating ranboo #updatingranboo ask

[lazirayxi]

Daymn hi moots and besties. I deleted tumblr for some time because i felt uncomfortable. can you please drop your honest opinions on me real quick i feel kind of paranoid ppl secretly hate me.

#guh im sorry for being so stressed all the time #pleasee i just want to interact more to you all guys yall are so cool

[pyrotechnicdarts]

(wip) top 10 podcast scenes that fuck you up

#the hotel #the hotel podcast #the owner #the manager #been thinking abt this scene nonstop for 2 days #what if; wat if he u;sed his wings to try to s hield both of the m from the light.... wuh guh #guh. they can barely stand each other normally but in this moment they are just filled with the very human need to hold and be held im huogh #bro they are a family they are literally a family. yeah they killed a few people but they would hug each other if they were sad #if the whole staff doesnt hug each other when theyre finally reunited for real i will scream and cry #my art #the hotel s5 spoilers #also i love the idea that owners appearance gets more crow-like when hes stressed/scared #so thats why his arms are dark n feathery here

[watch-out-it-bites]

I believe I deserve a sweet little treat [He has done nothing important for the past week]

#i am so fucked #don't let them see this! #i could always go to the kitchen - Above the fridge ;-) #siiigh to have things i enjoy. the worst. ever. #i really dont wanna be god im so fucked but im so tired. and i dont want to be yelled at but i dont want to do anything #i feel like just. lying down and not getting back up. nap time. oreverrrr #i really wish i could live carefree doing whatever #guh. is it even worth it to try? #im just going to end up all. eugh. #sure. it was great last year. but uhghfhfhg so quiet and so hard and so. bluh. #i really dont wanna wake up on monday #so stressful all the time #im either stressed but enjoying and spending time with friends or stressed and alone but people are proud of me #maybe we should cut off interests for a while - it could fix hims stuff. #i wish i could focus #i dont know why so hard recently #uhhhghĥhhhhhhh #i dont think i deserve to sleep but im so tired but i need to work on things #god i want to kill myself - you can't!! youve taken too many vows to die now

[swordmaid]

i feel like shri’iia should’ve been an oath breaker in act 1…..not finding a lot of opportunities to break her oaths in act two currently but like imagine breaking her oaths via telling minthara where the grove is THEN betraying her when she rolls around because she’s a traitor to lolth ….it’s much juicier than 1v1-ing her in her office imo…

#like it’s messy and kind of elaborate but I LIKE IT …..???? #but the annoying thing about me is that if I start thinking so hard about it I will be so tempted to restart my playthrough JUST to do that #like once the idea is in my head I have to do it or else im going to EXPLODE…. telling myself I’ll do this in my next playthrough where #I’ll roleplay her char but also im like… I can just do it NOW…? #just want her to be an oathbreaker guh 😭 #and I want her to be an oath breaker in act two bc it’s the start of her girlfail era aka she starts being a decent person and not a #little shit……… but I like tropes where character who thinks so highly of themselves gets the rug pulled from under them #then have an existential crisis bc they’ve based so much of their worth in that image that turns out to be FALSE….. I feel like I want to #do that kind of story for her hihihihi #also her breaking her paladin oaths for the sake of avenging her goddess ?? like kind of juicy to me idk !!!! #like it prob doesn’t work like this but I like the idea that her oaths is based on lolth’s idea of justice and vengeance #and she is serving HER but doing all of that then getting considered an oathbreaker #like what she is doing isn’t enough … and her love to her queen isn’t enough …… #+ having the singular white eye instead of all red like she’s been lacking from the start I kinda like it idk ????? #imagine going through an existential crisis while you have literal brain worms I’d be so stressed

[jadeneppy]

Im at the point in my life where i want to do smthin but am too lost to know what

#maybe cux my birthday is soon and my next milestone in in a year.. #25 big scary #im starting to think about studying geology or botany but ive no idea where to start for either #i also hate moving im so tired of moving #but i also now have debt to my family and credit card which honestly isn't too much but owing 4 different people money stresses me out sm #i say as i impulse buy things due to depression #guh #i dont even remember my vent tag cuz of gabes stupid ass stalkin it and me having to change it 4 times a month #ALSO NO IDEA IF THAT SENTENCE MAKES SENSE CUX ITS 3AM ANF IM STRESS CLEANING MY ROOM #pile of clothes that needs to be folded vs dirty clothes piling up on a chair #gaaah

[atvbs]

囧rz

#i wish i could stop having nightmares💙💙💙 #it happens more often than not and its just. so stressful waking up from them. #i mean yes im glad theyre over and just a nightmare. #but i had to see all of that. guh. #loner.txt

[faineant-girl]

its okay ill be fine. ill have to miss sociology bc im way late but i can still make gen lit. uhhggg

#.tlktxt #still stressed. im only alotted a certain amount of days to be gone and thats 3. and i already missed that. so this is my 4th #guh.

[dilfprayers]

okay oaky kay THAT FIC WAS SO GOOD holy shit but i thinkk its more non-con than dubcon bc reader doesnt enjoy it even till the end 🙁

also my guess on why leon & readers mom divorced is probably bc he mightve said readers name while jerking off or whateva and got caught JFKSJFN thats the first thing that came into my mind when reading it

ahh right i have to change the label, i forgot omgg 😭😭😭😭

also AHH!! im so certain he kept thinking about what reader said and it came out of him randomly guh-

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know what! im writing under this, im treating you guys :3.

tw; incest

Maybe he was starting to second guess what you said and slowly acted upon those thoughts.

He sat there in the bedroom, glancing out the window as she saw you heading out to start your day. He had a slight smile but would frown when he didn't even get to 'bye, have a good day!'

Whatever, right?

He leans back in bed, laying there quietly. His wife was off shopping and now it was just him. What was there to do? Nothing much..

"A couple hours till they both get back..Alright.. Cool, cool. I can just relax."

He spoke out to himself, remaining there as he let his body sink into the mattress. That was obviously short-lived once he started to get into his head about what you said. Now it was weird, yeah totally — But he had put some thought into it. You had felt a certain way and he was the reason.

"But why.."

He mutters to himself, glancing down to his pants. A tent- Wait, huh? He stares wide eyed, feeling it throb the whole time in his pajama pants. This was weird timing, considering what was on his mind. He shook his head, ignoring it for now and went back to his thoughts.

"Angel, why..."

He mutters again, shifting only a tiny bit but the fabric of the blanket rubbed against him, making his breath hitch. He squinted his eyes, gazing down to his pants.

Oh, fuck it.

Why did he even dare to do this? He didn't exactly know himself. He just wanted to space out after that conversation. It was tension filled and had him stressed a bit. He soon tugged off his pants and boxers, letting his cock spring out. Precum was already pooling from it while he just stared at it. Eventually he groaned quietly, proceeding onwadd as he held his cock in his hand, starting to pump his cock.

"I just want to know...Why.."

He groans, lightly arching up — His hand trembling while he's jerking himself off. A rose tinted blush formed on his face the longer he thought about it. Actually, he was thinking of you.

"Gh- Fuck...I want to know."

He breathed out, quietly huffing as he let his thumb brush along the tip. His cock overall throbbed in his grasp while he felt the precum ooze over his fingers. He was zoning out and letting go completely.

"Fuck.. If only you were home.. I'd-"

He hisses, not even realizing what he was saying to himself anymore. His heart started to race as he kept on pumping, eventually grabbing his pillow. Filthy, filthy man.. He set it up in a hurry and started to thrust into the pillow. His breathing growing heavier, feeling a much better sensation.

"—...Mm- Wanna make you actually feel something cause of me.."

He breathes out loudly. His groans filled the bedroom as his hips were crashing with the pillow. It didn't take long for him to start moaning your name.

Yeah, your name.

He repeated it, over and over again until cum was all over the pillow. He stared down at the pillow — His hair dangling over his face. He was breathless but so was his wife who stood at the doorway with a wide eyed expression.

#✉️ — mail #leon kennedy x y/n #leon kennedy #leon s kennedy #leon kennedy smut #leon kennedy x reader #🕊️ — drabs #woahh aftermath of last fic

[zaynesaurora]

🎐mdni

ok i have thoughts again

do you think… dr. zayne……. in uni

oh, i dunno.. likes it when you sit in his lap while he writes his thesis or some crap and uses you like some kind of stress toy…

every half hour he just repositions you or squeezes your waist, maybe he’ll kiss on your neck a little while he types away.

doesn’t mind if you give him some moral oral support under the desk, or he’ll let you sit on it while you boredly tap on your phone as to distract yourself from wanting to squirm and wiggle..,.,

GUH uni-student zayne is just so attractive like YES STRESSED AND OVERWORKED MAN LET ME TAKE CARE OF YOU!!! by letting you use me whenever u want!!!!!

(MDNI)

— only when your back in your dorms bc if you do that in the public library he’s gonna consider eating something fatal tbh don’t even do it for the funny he will turn red and his ears will smoke like a cartoon character

at home though?! he’s become a master at one handed typing because a) big hands long fingers and b) the other ones massaging the meat of your thigh like crazy bc it helps him zone in :(( ORAL SUPPORT im aihsshjkahsh he’s so annoying to cockwarm too he never crumbles first he has the resolve of a stone wall mannnn just whimper will you damn

#asks— #🎐— nonnie #love and deepspace smut

[multiplicity-positivity]

hi uh i could use some advice :<

im a host of a recent system of 20-ish and guh i am t i r e d

im mainly looking for advice on how to switch or just retreat into the headspace/leave front or even just kinda stop being fully aware while still being in front for awhile bc id rlly like to take a break and the realization that im most likely front attracted/frontstuck is kinda making me more tired of being in front

also if it helps at all my(&) system is parogenic + traumagenic in origin (specifically parotraumagenic) and theres kinda iffy communication between members (some of them i have clear communication with and they randomly pop up to say stuff, some i have no idea where they are and some of them i can usually only hear when im directly interacting with them).

afaik (as far as i know) only three?? ppl have rlly "fronted" per se, and the rest have been co-con

i apologize for the long and mildly depressing ask but any help is appreciated also dont forget to hydrate

Hello! We have some posts that might help you that we’d like to share if that’s okay. The first is a post we wrote a while back with some tips on switching from our own experience:

We’d also like to share this post by @rin-and-jade on being frontstuck or frontlocked, and how to go about unsticking yourself!

Our own system host (Parker) is almost always fronting to some extent. It can certainly be exhausting and disheartening fronting nonstop, especially when other members of your system can seemingly come and go as they please. He’s going to put some info under a cut for how he copes with fronting constantly, in case you want some advice on coping with being genuinely unable to switch out!

We hope something here will be helpful for you! We’re wishing you the best of luck with switching out or at least learning how best to cope with fronting in your future!

(Host here - I’ll just write this bit if thats okay. Anyway here’s some stuff I do to deal with The Horrors of perpetual existence)

Meditation

Taking a few moments to sit in comfortable silence can be useful for me when I’m feeling stressed or overwhelmed or straight up exhausted. Here’s how I meditate (I’m no expert and I’m sure there’s better ways to do this… this is just what I do)

- get in a comfortable position in a quiet place where I’m not likely to be disturbed

- set a timer on my phone for 5 minutes

- close my eyes, focus on my breathing

- don’t dwell on any thoughts but also don’t push them away; acknowledge them and let them go

- try to stay still and calm until my timer goes off

And that’s it. Sometimes I get interrupted by an alter or something outside, but for the most part, this is how I’ve been able to meditate effectively.

Rest

I take naps whenever I can. I sit down whenever I can. I’ll literally just close my eyes for a few minutes whenever I can. Our body has issues with chronic fatigue, and fronting constantly can sometimes exacerbate our exhaustion. So yeah I am a huge fan of naps and will often set a timer for like 15-20 minutes and snooze whenever the opportunity arises. Even just lying down with closed eyes can help replenish some energy.

Distractions

Reading, watching something on TV, or playing video games can help give me somewhat of a break even if I’m still fronting. I do tend to try and keep us distracted as much as possible… sometimes to our own detriment. But if you find that you really aren’t ever able to switch out, or if your system is specutien and that’s just the way your system functions, finding things you enjoy that can serve as distractions may help you as well.

Saying No

This one’s tough, but I’m trying to learn to say no when I’m overwhelmed or have too much on my plate. This means sometimes I’ll cancel plans, hand off a responsibility, make a compromise, or turn down an opportunity if I don’t have the energy for it.

Honestly idk how much my addition can help you, but if you find that you’re not ever able to switch out at all please know there’s other folks out there in similar positions. Hoping you can make the most of your situation, anon /genuine

#switching #fronting #frontstuck #leaving the front #specutien

[bananacat76]

i don’t like talking about my negative feelings and thoughts that much, but i’ve just been oddly stressed and overwhelmed and idk why

these past few days have been pretty hard on me with some irl situations and problems and drama and just crap.. so i just wanted to let some some stuff out. (more vents stuff under cut)

but like.. have you ever felt so stressed and overworked for no reason? or there might be a reason.. just can’t put my finger on it. i’m really tired right now and school’s hard and life’s hard and i just wanna ahsgsjsbwh!!! i’m trying to give myself some hugs and reassurance but it feels like it has no.. like.. real meaning,, if you get what im saying. really annoyed by life and existence and having to comfort my close friends and i’m scared and don’t want them to hurt themselves but i don’t wanna hurt myself.. guh this is like all over the place wawawawawa!!!! i’m scared of having my friends get themselves stressed comforting me but.. that idea is a lil silly .. haha :’3. my mind is everywhere but where i want it to be. the once calming beat if my music now feels empty and emotionless , my plushes aren’t as soft and cozy as they were before, and my friend and family’s voice aren’t soothing and fun anymore.. i don’t know why i feel like this wewawewgsvwhsvwhsvwh- i don’t like all this all over the place random rambling, but i just had to say some things

i’m okay, i prommy! just wanted to doodle some things to help me feel better

i mostly posted the drawings cause i’m kinda proud of them

i’m gonna be okay. don’t worry :)

#vent art #my sona #i’m okay!! dw about me #i think i just need some time to recharge #i’ll be okay. #hugs are appreciated though…

[londonspirit]

London, Take 1

Very first London trip in 2024 - one of at least four planned ones (maybe five depending on WHEN they re-home Macbeth.)

And boy, was it a great one. 

Friday noon was leaving time - and I can only recommend that time of day: airports are basically empty, flights are on time and people are less stressed. 

All very uneventful, meeting up C in London and off to the YHA Thameside - pretty far out but was the cheapest so… it’s a good place to stay (whether you still wanna do dorms which im too old now, or a private room; always worth checking if you’re on a budget!) 

Got caught in the rain for a bit but once we’ve dried off, we were off towards Battersea power station for the light installations. 

The weather Gods were merciful, no more rain for the rest of the trip so we could have a nice wander around, having dinner and learning that a fire alarm doesn’t really faze people that much at all - we were finished so we left but there were many that just stayed put O_O (was a FALSE alarm but still...O_O)

Since it got late that was about it for the Friday. 

Saturday morning we had a NT backstage tour planned. GUh, I love them sooo much. I’ve done so many by now and I still love to go behind the scenes of that huge place, and have people tell me all about it. This time we had Chelsea who did an incredible job - and they were so many people that asked just smart questions that we went a bit overtime. 

And we weren’t allowed into the Olivier because the NYE cast was in there, rehearsing!!! 

So we were in the same building as Michael freaking Sheen!!! (We didn’t manage to get tickets for that weekend beforehand - it was sold out as it was very first preview! But we already had planned to do stage door in the evening, just in case!) 

Anyhow, after the tour we were off to Richmond! Finally! I have been trying to get there for a while now. 

Gosh, it’s gorgeous there! And yes, of course my Ted Lasso loving heart was in Heaven to see it all: the pub, the park, the bench (which was sadly occupied), the street!!! *sighs happily* I love to be in places where beloved shows got filmed. 

And the riverside is soo pretty even though it was rather crowded. But then again, the weather was nice enough, even sunny at points. 

After a while we sat down near a muddy field, considering when to go to the theatre. Being the needing to plan woman I am, I checked the site to see how long the play goes. 

And there they were, two beautifully perfect seats next to each other in the middle of the circle. 

I stared at them, stared at my friend and started laughing. 

“Do you wanna go to the theatre tonight?” I asked once I could breathe again. 

“Huh?” she said. 

I showed her the site and she stared at it for like 30 seconds. 

“Can we make it back in time?” she asked wide-eyed. 

“Yes we can. And if we leave now, we even can have dinner before the show.” 

Now SHE started laughing and nodding wildly. 

So I took out my credit card and booked us tickets for NYE’s very first preview in the middle of a muddy field.

We then made our way back to London, had dinner and soon we sat down to watch Michael Sheen being amazing on stage!!! 

There were no obvious issues, the staging was pretty cool and Michael was BRILLIANT despite him being in his pj’s  and barefoot all play long! 

It was a bit weird that the curtain call was soo quick - i'm used to longer ones but with it being 1st preview it’s probably normal. They still got standing ovations so there’s that. 

Stage door was very calm; not too many people (less than I expected tbh), and all very collected. 

What was funny, that there was a person looking at me as if they know me. After a few moments of staring back and forth and them waving at me, I walked over. 

“What name do I call you?” I asked as I had absolutely no clue who they were (IM SORRY IM OLD!) 

“D. From the Rhys gig last year!” 

Only in London!!! *giggles* That was soo very nice to run into them again, we had such a blast at the Rhys gig, but sadly they’d left before I could get their socials! 

We chatted for a moment and then Michael came out! 

*sighs* He’s sooo lovely!!! And so kind. He was rather tired which didn’t stop him from taking pics, writing autographs and chatting with everyone. (He had indeed cold feet, literally; I asked him *hehe*) 

We told him how amazing he was, got our pics and autos, stuck around for a bit (I might have told Anna who waited for him how lovely she looked at the Baftas!) and then he was done, wished us a good night and lead Anna back inside for the party, I guess *lol* 

We were very happy when we made our way back to the hostel (even though the stupid bus didn’t come the 2nd day in a row!) 

For Sunday we only had the Jason and Paul gig in the evening… and a Tower visit I surprised my friend with! She’s never been, but I knew how badly she wanted to see the Crown Jewels so I got tickets for us, got her there under the pretense of meeting a friend and then just walked inside!! HER FACE was fucking priceless!!! 

And DAMN, it’s really worth the price!!! At least for us. Never been INSIDE before, but if you like history and beheadings, this is for you!!! I LOVED the tour, the kids that were in it were amazed and a constant source of amusement to our guide! 

I LOVED the Ravens! Getting this close to them without them being fazed at all, was cool! We spent about 3 hours in there before it was time for food and then heading toward the gig! 

God, I missed live shows!!! Especially Jason and Paul’s - they’re always so much fun!!! 

Still not over the fact that my last one was FIVE years ago; also in London and also around that time of year! 

I had bought VIP tickets just BECAUSE and it was worth the insanity that are these two on a stage just dorking around. 

They played a few songs and then started one somebody had requested during the tour. 

I sat there, confused because I knew it somehow… but it wasn’t one of theirs. 

And then it hit!!! It was a FLIGHT OF THE CONCORDS song!!! One I had just seen/heard a few days ago on my OFMD twitter!!!! 

I couldn’t get it together; my friend thought I’d’ve lost the last bit of my sanity, and I couldn't stop cackling!!! 

It was soo hilarious!!! I mean, Jemaine and Bret did that for a living but Jason and Paul’s faces while trying to get through ‘Business Time’ was sooo worth the money!!!! 

Still not over that!!! 

The general gig was as awesome as always!!! It’s funny tho how the love has shifted: used to be Jason who pulled the fans, nowadays it’s Paul!!! My boy’s come a long way! 

We stuck around after, mainly because I wanted to say HI to Paul. But he’s in HIGH demand. 

Still… when I walked past him and he saw me, his whole face lit up! It’s always nice to be recognized by your ‘stars’. Plus, we ‘know’ each other for more than a decade now so yeah. 

I finally got my hug (and MAN, his hugs are the greatest, especially since there’s so much more shoulders there now *giggles*). 

We chatted a bit, then he left for a bit, came back, I introduced my friend to him, we got our pics and more hugs and another brief chat (which is harder these days, too many people want a piece of him *hehe*) before we said good night and headed back ‘home’! 

Always soo good to see them boys! 

Monday was leaving day for my friend; we had a wander around before it was time for her to leave for the airport, and for me to head towards the Old Vic to catch up with an old friend! It was brief as she’s busy as hell these days, but it was soo good to see her and here’s hope the next meet-up will be a bit longer!  

After that, I was off to see my beloved Victoria Palace Theatre again!!! I’ve sat in basically all seats by now, boxes, royal and grand circle, slip seats but NEVER in the stalls. 

So yeah, 2nd row, smack in the middle!!! ARGH!!! SOO GOOD!!! I love that stage sooo freaking much and seeing it this close was AMAZING!!! Totally new cast but two! I squeed and scared people when I read the cast list in the foyer: Dom was still there: his Washington is sooo good and I was soo happy to see him again!!! 

What made this evening even more wonderful was the adorably excited French man next to me. His very first time and he was sooo hyped! Once it started he had a REALLY hard time to control himself - his joy made my night!!! 

After I sent him around to stage door and after picking up my things joined him; sadly Dom had already left but I played photographer for the french so he got his pics with some of the cast before we said good night - he called meeting me ‘very delightful’ which was 👀!!! Never been called that before!!! 

One last sleep, and I was off home again. Thankfully I’ll be back very soon so saying goodbye wasn’t too hard. 

As always London proved that it’s the most incredibly city in the world - I can’t wait to come back in June!!! 

And this concludes my rather long winded tale of my first London trip in 2024!!!

#personal #london 2024 #michael sheen #paul carella #jason manns

[joelletwo]

Jorribly horribly horribly depressed and everyone thinks im stressed abt the corporate visit today and im getting so many allowances for it lol. Guh. Gwahhhh. Musters myself to not tell anyone to fuck off for the ~two hours theyll be here. Cant today but friday i want to talk to my manager about reducing my hours u______________u

#REMEMBERS THATVIM HERE FOR ANOTHER SIX HOURS. Pushes that back out od my brain #Sorry it doesnt make me happy bc i dont like being this person but it Is really funny when #Im visibly in a mood and the manager ive beefed w bc her moods are rancid and we're too similar in this way #Will like. Run damage interference for me lol. First customer i talked to yesterday was a bitch and she forced me to switch out bc i was #About to antagonize him back and pick a fight lol. See. Shes nice and i love her.

[deafeninggardenerpanda]

im making another post for this because oops youve accidently activated headcanon ramble hours 🤪 everyone who asks me questions should be aware im like a friendly but rabid dog regarding this

@ethansajz short answer: "ABSOLUTELY UNFORGIVABLE!!"

long answer:

i imagine jambandran to be a combination of english and japanese with a lot of weird sounds thrown in, but in this case its mostly a bastardization of japanese lmao

vun = "very" and japologa = "sorry" are things taken from canon jambandran. the -ne at the end of japologa is the equivalent of -nai in jp, which makes the word a negative = sorry > un-sorry > "unforgivable" in this context.

unrelated but i chose -ne because i wanted something that would change the stress and sound of the overall word (this part works more like english where different letters around an existing sound pronunciation will warp that pronunciation a bit, rather than jp where each character syllable is always pronounced the same) so japologa is pronounced jah-po-low-GUH and japologane is pronounced jah-po-low-gah-NEH

the vo at the end is the equivalent to the yo sentence ender in japanese and adds emphasis to the previous statement. so the entire vun japologane vo translates to, "absolutely unforgivable!!!"

on the same topic, fran says "jasumi vu". jasumi being "good night" in the japanese version of the game. (they translated this as jaitty in the english version of sa but dont ask me why i didnt use that. i dont know.) anyways its the equivalent to "oyasumi ni", except im using oyasumi as a general word for rest instead of just being goodnight/going to sleep. so fran told dark meta knight, have a good rest/nap~ (when you pass out from hitting the floor so hard). this could be both sarcastic and genuine

#*gardening noises* #i dont actually know if its grammatically legal to use ni with oyasumi #but the gist of that is the vo silently implies the statement is to/at someone #theres also a different particle for to/at inanimates in jambandran #but thats getting Very off track HAHAHA

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 3487

today was a little better.

my nose hasn't stopped running, though, and when i went to take a nap my nose started bleeding, so i just stayed awake.

my window is open, so that's nice.

mom is getting sick though. her immune system is terrible. i wonder if there are some immune system boosters that she could take to keep her from getting sick a lot.

but also i feel really bad. if i could remotely take care of myself, i'd be able to handle it. but i always prefer to be taken care of when im sick. it's so hard to do by yourself, and having that pressure is horrible. when im sick and by myself, or at least what i did when i was out living on my own, i just would sleep for days. i'd sleep and take medications to manage the symptoms, stay in bed and take it easy. drink water. i don't remember if i would eat. eating is important. so it's better for me to be taken care of than it is for me to take care of myself, and i don't know how to change that.

not having someone nearby to give me comfort was the worst part of that. that's the biggest thing. and to bring me things when it's hard to move or walk, to make a hot meal and make sure i have the different vitamins i need and filling my water so i can drink enough.

i know i'm literally just complaining about something people have to do all the time. and like. i get it. it's a first world problem and it's a "i have a good relationship with my parents" problem, which i know so many people don't have. yes i know i'm lucky. i'm incredibly privileged to be able to be at home and be taken care of when i'm sick. i am sad that i have to work and as such cannot take care of my mom when she inevitably gets sick, too. it's the worst part of having a job so far away, is having that inflexibility in my schedule.

guh.

i'm tired and i'm sad and i'm hungry and my throat is dry and i need a new job. maybe i can go back to school.

fuck.

i need to learn to take care of myself. that's my biggest problem.

i also need to learn how to communicate the needs i have when i'm sick to joel so he can help me take care of me when i need to. or always, really, since i always need to take care of myself. which i'm always really bad at.

i need a break. and not a sick break. like a break break. a month off. maybe two weeks would do it. i want to go somewhere and relax and not be stressed about anything.

does anybody happen to have a wealthy estranged uncle who needs a friend?

(i am both kidding and not.)

#molly rambles #operation srr #osrr #3000s #3400s #sunshine boy