#god dammit they did it again

[daphnalia]

and they were galpals

#oh i am SO predictable #alternative captiob to this post: welll... good luck babes! #but idk if the dndadders like chappel roan☹️ #also lawl this is gonna sound SO stupid but as a lesbian this is. so INSANELY important to me😭 #i will write so much fanfiction #for the firsy time in my life #i will write an essay anf publish it when s3 ends #if theyre not canon i will cry myself to sleep until the day i die #dndads #dungeons and daddies #apple pie #IDK I SAW SOMEONE PITCH THAT AD THEIR SHIP NAME AND A PART OF ME MELTED #Kelsey Grammar #is it with an e or an a?? nobody knows #Trudy Trout #someone notify my asap whrn we collectively agree on a ship name #the peachyville horror #peachyville #love them so so so much #god dammit they did it again #hey siri play heaven is a place on earth and do it NOW #me and my girl when we're literally trudy and kelsey

[vinnie-the-silly]

✨ oratrice mecanique d'analyse cardinal✨

#genshin impact #neuvillette #god dammit they did it again #oratrice mecanique d'analyse cardinal

[ramble-bloo]

Sweetheart frequently has unheroic thoughts.

That's what she calls them to be a comfortable level of vague. These thought range vastly from weird little ponders to malicious wishes. Things her brain just conjures up while she dealing with reality.

She doesn't feel comfortable talking about these thoughts to anyone but her boyfriend and their best friends. And even then, certain thoughts are limited to just Bitterbat as he's the closest person she has and he comes from a rather fucked up background. He would never judge her and he keeps her grounded with reminding her that her thoughts aren't her.

Which is true, her bad thoughts aren't her.

The desires she has for Decking City to get destroyed are just products of her being drained from a long day of heroics, only to have another problem only she can deal with rear its ugly head.

The wishes she has to rampage through the city itself as one of the Strangers are just her wishing she could break some rules. Stress from staying within the lines and the desire to cross them.

She doesn't hate being a hero but one of her ever passing thoughts is that she is just forcing herself to be one. It's not true but it's a thought that pops up with all the negative opinions about her online. A 20-something year old magical girl obviously has to hate her job somewhat. Who could love being in such bright frilly clothing for long periods of the day? Constantly having a smile on her face as she faces the civilians of the city has to make her mouth sore. And GOD, all that pink has to be bad for the psyche.

Sweetheart loves being Charmed though. She doesn't regret her decision to keep going when all her teammates had retired. And the constant optimism can get a bit much sometimes but she truly does prefer it over all the pessimism littered about the internet.

She's good at filtering out her bad thoughts from her good ones. Her evil ones from the real ones.

Bitterbat helps tremendously with his "Devil on the shoulder" act. He always proposes some over the top stunt to her and she shoots him down immediately. Even when he pokes and pries and gives her puppy eyes, she stands her ground.

She reminds herself that if her bad thoughts were really her, she would have greenlit one of Bitterbat's more destructive schemes. Her lack of hesitation to tell him no is a sign she's really a good person.

But her bad thoughts continue to return. And she continues to fight them off. Either by distracting herself from them or by talking them out.

It's a common symptom of being a hero where one's mind is so focused on doing good deeds and being a good person that there's a pile up of all the nastier thoughts in one's head. It's why the Decking Defense Force has a free therapy program for its heroes.

It's one way to keep them mentally healthy as well as keep the city safe from anyone snapping.

When you have a city's main defense be the superpowered citizens within it, you have to make sure said citizens aren't on the path to becoming a threat. The force doesn't like to look at its mental health program like that as it was genuinely founded to keep its heroes healthy in a job that many have no one else to talk to about their problems due to having secret identities. But the program is a "two birds one stone" situation, whether anyone wants to say so or not.

Sweetheart frequently shares these thoughts she has during her sessions but only the parts unrelated to Bitterbat...at least in the romantic sense.

She can tell her therapist about her wishes for Bitterbat to win a fight for once and destroy the city. But she can't tell them about how much happier she'd be as his Queen or how much she'd love to destroy the city alongside him.

And she knows if she tells Bitterbat any of the latter, there would be no stopping him from finally going on that rampage he keeps hyping up and whisking her away to Umbra. She only feeds him bitesize pieces of the thought. She tells him being a queen would probably be nicer than being a hero. And how much fun he looks like he's having when he's busting up the streets. But she makes sure to keep them spaced out and as playful little jokes.

Sweetheart knows Bitterbat can read thoughts and emotions. She knows he knows how she truly feels. She knows he knows she's holding back on what she truly wants to say. But he knows that it'd be cheating to act just from filling in the blanks. He restrains himself to only act if she explicitly says her thoughts. The thoughts he has been explicitly reading.

It's a strange powerplay between them that neither really minds. A constant struggle between good and evil but shrunk down to their relationship. They're used to this struggle though as it makes life a bit more fun, knowing the other is the only thing holding them back.

#this was meant to just be make explaining how sweetheart has bad thoughts #i did the thing i do again where i get too deep in the rambles #GOD DAMMIT #sweetheart #bitterbat #glitter and guilt

[ee-where-they-shouldnt-be]

Since you ran rick over with a car. Let's give him the opportunity to destroy something or someone again.

he got revenge...ow

(note: this is mod using Sylvie as a stand in for himself, this is not about Sylvie)

#epithet erased #epithet erased where they shouldnt be #mod sylvie #rick shades #GOD FUCKING DAMMIT KRIS I DID IT AGAIN #the kris was just muscle memory lmao im keeping it though #not forklift certified

[lesbianhughie]

the cutest hughie has ever been, in your opinion?

SEASON 1 EPISODE 1 WAS PEAK HUGHIE CUTENESS AND I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL.

#lesbianhughie #the boys #the boys tv #hughie campbell #before they started flattening his hair😔 #before he was met with The Horrors #all of s1 he was sooo cute #and s2 he was cute #but s3. babe the facial hair isnt working out #it worked for richie. did not work for hughie i fear #jack quaid looks good with facial hair #but it just does not suit hughie i think #HE WAS CUTE IN S3 DONT GET ME WRONG #BUT GOD DAMMIT MAKE HIS HAIR FLUFFY AGAIN

[crashstanding]

I have GOTTA STOP DRAWING CHARACTERS WITH THEIR HEAD TILTED TO THE LEFT

#flips my fucking computer #I DID IT AGAIN GOD DAMMIT #babbles

[threeautisticbrothers]

🫵

POINTS AT YOU!!!!

WUHHH HUHUHH HII???

#ezra reveals #GOD DAMMIT DID TEH YFGURE IM KIDDEI STRANGKER AGAIN'

[opens-up-4-nobody]

2024 the year of God Won't Let Me Sleep

#fucking bullshit. i got 4hrs sleep yesterday and again im in too much pain to sleep #and before that we were on the insomnia ride. god dammit #im so nauseous and tired. what did i do to deserve this? nothing. thats not how it works #i need these cramps to fucking stop so i can sleep #at least we're still in the moderate pain level. like high moderate but im not pleading for death #to look on the bright side i guess. now that i have thr contrast of like excruciating pain back from November #never again pls 🙏 #sorry to keep bitching it just hurts a lot and im all alone here #unrelated

[some-french-asshole]

I can't think about Johnny Joestar's entire life for more than 3 minutes or else I just

#it's 3am and Im crying over some crippled jockey who did a lot of bad things but who ultimately didn't deserve life to hit him that hard #like god fucking dammit ;-; #he was just a kid who didn't know anything and he became an adult and he found joy in life again he even found love #and when everything was seemingly perfect fate just barged in and he just... GODDAMMIT MY TEARSZ #johnny joestar #jojo part 7 #steel ball run #jojo part 8 #jojolion #jojo's bizarre adventure

[end-of--the-line]

bought myself house of leaves as a late christmas gift and finished it last night at like 4am in a haze. oh my god .bro . holy shit

#voice of god #genuinely new favourite book #i was like damn this christmas sucks im going to do something nice for myself and get a book ive wanted since fucking my house.wad #which will fuck me up in an expected way and be cool right #it fucked me up in an unexpected way . #its very fucking good tho #i read parts of it on call which was funny because the commentary from the peanut gallery was mostly just ''uh oh'' or ''thats normal'' #but for the most part it was alone in my pitch black room which did not contribute to any sense of security #tldr book rules maybe dont read it if you have delusions about reality and getting hunted #which is a warning i did not follow myself whatsoever #anyway. what was i saying #good book would get lost in that house again . justice for tom navidson god dammit #i have more to say i just need to like stew in my thoughts. this post is inadequate

[pebblezone]

Living life yay huzzah yay

#a #I have beef with my school. am I happy here? absolutely. do I think we are beyond lame for not having an actual guy? 100% #letters don’t count!!!!!!!! having a capital letter for your school doesn’t count!!!!!!!!!! #like it’s not even a complete absence of a team no just like a silly little physical guy than runs across the field #and can be all cute on stuff on shirts and be stuffed animals it’s the marketing potential they’re missing out on #though I guess I’d rather have no physical dude than one which sucks complete ass I’m talking about pen state fuck that guy #I need to watch the gnomes again wait oh my fucking god I was thinking like damn I did the gnomeo juliet ace attorney moment #but my brain is knee deep in hellsing so idk how to connect them but bruh every piece of media has some form of rivals #I’m not emotionally invested in andercard but the idea of Catholic and Protestant gnomes is really funny #and they’re already British!! lovely!!! at some point in college I need to use gnomes for a grade I can’t let that be a high school only bit #did you know that gnomeo and Juliet is technically owned by Disney? add that to your marvel cinematic universe #oh gnomeo and Juliet poster we’re really in it now #did you know that the version of hello hello that’s in the movie featuring lady Gaga is not on streaming services? they take lady Gaga out #it’s really unfortunate the echos and duet aspect make the song it’s not just one or the other it’s Two Gnomes!! #have two exam grades back that I have not looked at out of fear #either they’ll be bad and I’ll watch hellsing to make myself feel better Or they’ll be good and I’ll watch hellsing as a reward #unrelated but it looks like a gutter on the other side of my dorm got busted and I’m trying to figure out if it’s always been like that #maybe it has and I’m not a gutter glorifier like I thought I was…. rip observational skills #I have a group project I have to work on and it’s evil I do not enjoy the class and it’s not very lgbt slay girlboss of me #but god dammit I am not filling out a fucking gender unicorn for your class that’s between me and my tumblr drafts from 2019 #it gets a credit out of the way and I never have to take it again I am so strong #man what does it say about society that I’m more excited about Econ than wgs (it says nothing the Econ professor is just goofy and fun) #(also he does more than read off of slides and show those like buzzfeed social experiments) #but none of that is important since next week is when things get fucked and I’ll end up with more free time! yay strikes!! #update: made it back from project zone those fuckers held me hostage using social norms #it’s okay though I’m sooo strong and brave #talkingcore

[the-kipsabian]

fucking GOD socioenvy was already like my favorite song from to let go and then nate puts out a fucking banger of a video for it thats digging so deep into my fucked up psyche like holy fucking shit bro CHILL

okay you know what im gonna put this here but content warning for blood, disturbing imagery and drowning so like. yeah. at least listen to it tho if nothing else its.. hitting home very hard tbh

#the fact that the song and the video hit differently too like #socioenvy is all about the pressure of popularity as a creator and the need to succeed in the numbers #and then the video puts out a more visual fucked up representation of that and its just #this is so going to visually inspire immortal fears. like god you dont even know #literally fucking art. god fucking dammit nate you did it again #i'd link it up but its content warnings for blood and just disturbing imagery but hoo boy. i am in love #night is absolute mess on main #Youtube

[spottedbread]

WHY?!

#IT DID IT AGAIN #IT REVERTED THE SAVE #FUCK #GOD DAMMIT #im so fucking angry

[oceanxveiined]

Honestly, even when I add a new verse for the oc(s) and work them into a still-expanding canon, I like to think their presence in the area/time of the narrative is best justified as essentially them running a B-plot in a sitcom to the main quests/protagonists' journeys. Or like. Half the shit Team Rocket gets up to in the movies-

#v; intertwined fates (genshin verse) #So it’s—Mondstadt: Dani & the gang grapple w customer service while running a money laundering business that STARTED as a bit #Clowning hilichurl camps cuz sb lost a bet & attempts at raising property value–is tHAT A FUCKEN DRAGON??? #Doin in-city heists & thievery–WHY’S there a masked weirdo out patrolling? WHY’RE the cats EVIL? Abort mission; abort; aBORT- #Liyue: One of the friends got Homesick & there happens to be a BIG FREAKIN ARCHON EVENT goin on so let’s go for a vacation #Before the Rite begins time to gather things for Dani’s pet projects–shit; wait; there’s Fatui; oh god there’s Fatui everywhere what the fu #Dani & co take crash courses in geovishaps–literally #Wandering the Adeptal Zone– 🎶 don’t be suspicious; don’t be suspicious 🎶 #Okay made it to the Rite; now there’s–what the fuck; he’s DEAD??? Dammit; time to clown the Millelith to avoid questioning #Now for a Mora heist & for the corpse; that could be useful–What the fuck; a Harbinger??? Wait–WHY is the overlord of the Vortex here??? #Inazuma: Dani&co almost freakin died on the way bc Dani wouldn’t let up; but at least they got there yay; time to clown Fatui for disguise #Dani has a Bad Time currently Thnks t th Mmrs; but it’s okay–she can have dango milk in these trying times. Also commit Violences #Loaches are fucken evil #The gang got so caught up in the wonders of sightseein; local specialty huntin & wild new cuisines they forgot there's a Vision Hunt goin o #Oh okay; bad time to be Fatui; bad time to be foreigners; sHIT–oh; gods; wHY did they even come here–oh nvm; it’s cool again #Sumeru: One of the friends got Homesick 2: the electric boogaloo–what do you MEAN like half the lot are Wanted here??? #Dani has a Bad Time currently 2: The electric boogaloo–except now bc she can’t find her brother where she last abandon–sorry; LEFT him #Jade has a Bad Time currently: The spinoff–her family wants her back; but they're looking for the wrong person there so it’s cool #Time to scam clowns & waste all their hard earned Mora–the gang gets Political & starts a bar fight over Eremite rights to Education #Dani is actually Excited to see something for leisure for once–the fUCK DO YOU MEAN THE FESTIVAL IS CANCELED #Only Eliza; Oz; Da; Jade & Dani had terminals so they go thru the Terrible No Good Disappointing day loop while Durene has Peace for once #No she didn’t notice anything was wrong in the slightest; not even while Tua went awol. With errbody awake now; time to Desert #Dani&co get clowned by shrooms & Jadeplumes–what do you MEAN there was a staged coup??? #Invading the House of Daena; time to look for smth to help out Eliza...WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE HAS A VISION NOW? #Fontaine: The gang go on vaca to see an exclusive magic show; Dani's illusions of the Archon are shattered. also THERES A MURDER @ THE SHOW #'With this candle; I will...I will set your mother on fire-' faking Family for a prestigious dinner CLEARLY goes off w/out a hitch #Ozzy starts an underground gambling ring—Gone WRONG??? #Another trial? REVELATIONS?? A HARBINGER GOT ARRESTED??? ...ANYWHO; time to heist & try not to get arrested #Vivianne of the Lake must be Feared #//Honestly; can’t wait to see what potential plot bunny I get to think up for 4.1 kfjkfjfb

[i-dont-want-your-hysteria]

who's crying over steve tonight raise your hand 🤚

#I don't mean this as a joke #I mean I'm dead serious I'm crying over steve right now #While I could never go the true pain that steve went through and that they all went through #just really fucking hurts to feel such a connection to this band #And then find out the one of them is already gone #and that you didn't even live at the same time #and they're just so far away that they'll never know #And you never knew them but every single day you have to find out all over again that they died #No matter how strong the illusion is #idk when i first discovered leppard the first thing i did was google ''who wrote photograph'' and steve came up first #so i googled him and you know how that went #and i went ''GOD DAMMIT why did he have to go and die before i was born HE WROTE MY FAVORITE SONG'' #i felt this really strong connection to him back then and i couldn't explain it- maybe bc i knew we both had anxiety disorders or something #I'm still watching that documentary and Sav said 'we owe it to Steve to play his songs live have him remembered that way' #And I just flash back to the concert when viv was playing the armageddon it solo and looked up at the heavens #it just made me lose it man #I hope someday I figure out why I was born in the wrong time because it just hurts more and more every day

[castlesinchaos]

just finished radio silence. this has been the first book in a long time to make me bawl like a little baby SEVERAL times.

#this was the book that I desperately needed right now #i failed out of my first semester this year. then transferred. then withdrew (to avoid failing out again) #everyone says ‘college isn’t the only option’ but this is the first perspective to really represent what it feels like to hear that as a #soon to be college student that feels trapped by the expectations set before you #and as much as I love coming of age stories I have never found one that spoke to me like this one did #god fuckinf dammit I’m crying again #so many parts of this story hit close to home #Alice oseman really looked at me personally when she was filling out her plot checklist #mommy issues? check #academic validation poisoning your heart and soul? check #the thing you’ve been preparing for for you whole childhood falling through? check #realizing you’re not happy with what you thought was the only option? CHECK #avoidant attachment style asexual who runs away from problems to cope? CHECK CHECK CHECK #this story is so personal to me and these tags are very telling of that #tiny talks #Alice oseman #radio silence #Alex last #frances janvier #heartstopper #tiny talks books