#galaxy pics are fitting for existential crises no?

[studentbyday]

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there was a time not too long ago when i used to just eat up everything i learned just because. there was an invigorating hunger, a positive feedback loop of needing to know more.

and now i don't know if i still know how to learn something for the sake of it. i study life sciences because i want a bachelor's degree. i self-study computer science because i think that its applications in life sciences will lead me to a fulfilling and well-compensated career. even my piano progress has become something i've kind of assigned a purpose to: it's for my mental health and i don't wanna become one of those people who learned it as a child and gave it up in adulthood.

if i don't have a purpose for what i'm doing, then why am i spending my limited time on this planet doing it? is being an adult needing to assign a purpose to everything? i wish i could go back to the child that lived in the moment and was truly carefree. (but i can never truly go back unless i lose the self-awareness i've gained and am unwilling to give up)

thanks intro psyc for teaching me about knowledge emotions, triggering this existential crisis. 🤦🏻‍♀️

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