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#gah i can't even explain why im feeling like this ugh hate it
catkin-morgs-kookaburralover
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goodnight
#off to bed and we. shall see. if i keep my streak. i desperately hope i do.
#but oh God help me it's hard
#i ust want to harm so bad
#well really i want to do more than harm but i Won't
#i am so tired from work lately
#ransom has her first vet appointment tomorrow
#i have work tomorrow
#it just
#all stacking up i don't even know
#had mildly difficult/thought provokin convo today
#aaaaa i want to jump off my balcony
#of course i won't i definitely won't but i Want To
#gah i can't even explain why im feeling like this ugh hate it
#puddleglum hours
#i really need a decent cry but it's all bottled up inside me and the only way i know of releasing that in the way it feelin now is to harm
#tw sh
#ive been nearly ten and a half days i want to get to at least a fortnight
#hmmm gonna bring puter to bed so i can listne to music real quiet tho bc i lost my headphones idk where htey are
#watch me Not get much sleep huh
#a dnthen be unfit for work tomorrow? its more likely tha you think
#i also wish i had a lighter i need to acquire one next time im getting petrol
#(no im not a smoker. just a pyromaniac.)
#(mostly i have a healthy enough fear of fire after dressing a nasty burn wound on placement last y that i probably wouldn't harm using fire
#probably.)
#i dont know in my head is all ajumbled mess and i dont see how i am to keep going
#and every time i say that i keep going anyhow and that thought makes it feel like im overreacting to all this which. of course i am.
#nothin but a fool a very tired helpless useless one
#was playing the piano earlier. played a movt from a concerto to which ive set words to a section at least (not the full thing yet)
#'and though the night seems endless/until the storm has passed/still i will hope in God my trust/i will follow him'
#my favourite lines from that
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