#fuck fuck fuck fuck I’m in so much emotional pain I don’t wann be here anymore

[sensitivegoblin]

Vent tw

#i have a lot of pain and emotions and no one to go to #my house is so cold and it’s making everything hurt #i wish I could k!ll myself but that would be selfish #but then again everyone even my cat now is probably better off without me #i miss c-tting it was the only thing that gave me release #it’s too hard being good I’m stressed out 24/7 making sure everything I say and do is good #i just wanna be happy #what is wrong with me #the only time I’m happy is during sexting #i just wanna talk and have someone who loves me listen #I’m so fucking stupid I hate myself so much #i wanna die so bad I wish someone was here to hug it out of me #I’m the reason why everything sucks #if my family didn’t have to deal with my disability they would’ve been a happy normal family #you have no idea how painful this anger is I have towards myself #to numb my emotions my brain makes me dissociate and picture killing myself #instead of feeling painful emotions I envision knifes and sharp things #why can’t this be like a rom com and I can call my SO crying that I need them and they rush here #fuck fuck fuck fuck I’m in so much emotional pain I don’t wann be here anymore