#finding the secret path

[finalgirlsamwinchester]

guy who so desperately tries to find god. who wants to have faith in a higher authority to guide him out of the hole he's in. from the weight of guilt from simply existing, as the person he is. but every time he thinks he's answered his higher calling it turns out he's made the Morally Incorrect choice and his path to goodness and holiness was the road to the devil all along

#now trusting god will give you a way out? there's your real crime!!! #guy betrayed by the protestant promise of a direct connection with god. but is also somehow. joan of arc. #see he never achieves actual martyrdom tho bc he's not allowed to stay dead lmaooo #sam somehow the most unintentionally catholic AND protestant character of all time #dean the atheist who sees religious predestination as the curse it is from the get go. framed as the narrative's Real Moral Authority #but also in the process reifying patriarchal familial power n authority. very very important Value of the Church #i don't think it's that deep. the show's attempt at critiquing christianity. but the way it reinforces christian cultural values??? #'religious predestination and absolute faith in a higher authority...bad' #nice nice ok tell me more? #“so you should put your faith in family. in your patriarch (big brother)” #????????? #the thematic incoherence of it all. it's like the world's stupidest puzzle box to me. i can't leave it alone. #sam = maybe i can find god thru following my destined path. wait oh shit. #cas = maybe i can find god thru rebellion and seeking my own destiny. wait oh shit. #dean = god is fucking dead and me i also feel not so good #the “guy who so desperately wants to find god parallel” <- me coming out as a secret sastiel fan #both of them...finding god in de-[sniper on the roof kills me in one shot] #spn bible studies #j.txt

[onii-onahole]

I detective’d too hard and now I feel like I’m gonna vomit 🥹

#WHO on earth gave women this inherent need to know things that only make them unhappy? #Why??? All of us were just made to work as like secret agents / spy’s 😭 #But because we can’t all find our way into that career path we have to do it in our day to day lives and find out some shit we ain’t even #wanna know? #But we also do wanna know #But we also don’t wanna know #Then we know and it makes us feel gross? Like damn #I really feel sick? BRAIN HELLO? Stop 😭

[lurking-latinist]

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#after uh. not enjoying hornblower: loyalty all that much I finally watched hornblower: duty #and enjoyed it a lot more. I think there's meta there with mutiny/retribution #I gather they were sort of not allowed to mention kennedy but you know that makes sense in-universe. #horatio isn't allowed to mention him either. not really. and I do think he'd clam up about him. that's horatio all over #but you can't convince me that survivor's guilt of his is only over bracegirdle #(bracegirdle makes it worse obviously) #also his letting doughty off really makes me want it to have been him that pushed sawyer #I always want it to have been him just because so much of his later career either makes more sense or has additional dramatic irony #if he knows himself to be an unhanged mutineer #BUT he doesn't have to have actually done it. he just has to THINK he is guilty #for instance - recently aubreysmaturin made a pretty good case for it having been Wellard in the books #but if it's Wellard--then Horatio's gone down a path of 'I was his senior officer I was responsible to have stopped him I wanted Sawyer dea #so basically I am guilty' - because again that is what it is to be a Horatio Hornblower. #(in fact another clue pointing to Wellard is that the universe always seems to bend to keep Hornblower's hands clean #like that time he lied that the war was over only to later find out that in fact unbeknownst to him it was over. #he gets the thing he guiltily wanted and he gets it without actually doing the guilty thing and so no one will blame him #except his own conscience) #anyway that's the books. I don't think it was Wellard in the show #I'm not sure what I think happened in the show #but whatever it was Horatio *feels* responsible #I'm not saying that's *why* he let Doughty off but I think there's a kind of secret symmetry there #hornblower

[petalsofchaos]

dude. i just want to like.. bake bread and kiss my friends on the cheek and support local theatres. i just want to have a little apartment with a little stove and a little pasta pot where people know they're always welcome. i just want to lend myself to the stage every night and breathe people into paper manuscripts. why does everything have to be so... much

#your girl decided on musical theater as a career path a month and a half ago and is already in mental chaos about it #I DIDNT KNOW THE SECRET GARDEN WAS A MUSICAL HELLO?? #why did i deadass find my audition song on tiktok 😭😭 #where do i get a monologue book?? #WHY IS MY SCHOOL YEAR ENDING IN FOUR MONTHS IM NOT READY 😭 #bro platonic love is so beautiful #wannabe cottagecore #cottagecore #musical theater

[megpricephotography]

 Flynn padding along The Secret Path through the woods

#it's not really secret #but the entrance is hidden behind a wall of hawthorn trees bracken & brambles #we've been walking here over half a decade now & in all that time we've passed people on no more than 3 occasions #I find footprints & the path remains somewhat clear... so clearly others are using it but we never bump into them #flynn #border collie #dog #woods #woodland #england

[fishybehavior]

I have ideas that are stuck in my head

#mostly just the star wars au #i cant draw what i want #and i dont want to write #but like #ousghsjsj #nya and jay are both jedi who fell in love #which is a HUGE no no your not supposed to have relationships #as jedi should only be devoted to their work and the force #but theyve fallen for each other and are keeping it a secret #and they both hate it #jay is driven to find some kind of work around and ends up falling more into the dark side #with his hatred for the jedis restricting rules and control #nya stays because she feels responsible for keeping everyone safe #but now to keep everyone safe she has to hurt the one she loves #and jays trying to pull her into the dark side too so they could be together #but nya doesnt want that so she fights him #and that make jay even more angry at the jedi krder and makes him want to tear it down more #and after some crying and heart to heart after fighting for so long they decide that maybe they arnt responsible for the universe #that maybe they should just run away #make their own path unstead of choosing one or the other #and then they do #the end

[dykedivorce]

if any other bitch in konoha had been gay apart from sasuke none of this would have happened to my son naruto.

#pussy from the turbotron edgelord 3000 and his whole life went up in flame. NOT worth it #no but fr it's insane how he bamboozled every fan into thinking he was so interesting and cool and badass when . #at the point im at in shippuden hes by far the least interesting of the main characters. one track mind (vengeance) and no depth beyond that #like the other characters rn : sakura coming in to her own ; finding her path and her strength + sharing a connection so deep with naruto #over their common loss that they both just Know although they absolutely cant talk about it #yamato: the only survivor of orochimaru's monstrous experiments on children; kakashi's stand in thats so different from kakashi #it makes you wonder what it would have been like with him as their teacher from the start; #a mystery thats clearly trying his best but whose mission truly is A Lot #SAI: A BRAINWASHED SPY A PAWN FOR A SECRET ORGANISATION WHO CLINGS TO HIS HUMANITY NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES HES BEEN PUNISHED FOR IT #WHO FELL IN LOVE WITH NARUTO FOR MAKING HIM REALIZE HOW DEEP THINGS COULD BE FELT AND HOW DEEP RELATIONSHIPS COULD RUN #WHO HAS BEEN DRAWING A BOOK FOR HIS DEAD BROTHER FOR YEARS EVEN IF HE'S FORGOTTEN WHAT HIS BROTHER LOOKS LIKE #WHO DECIDED TO SPARE SASUKE BECAUSE HE'S LOVED. WHO JUST WANTS TO LEARN HOW TO LIVE A HUMAN LIFE. #MOST AUTISTIC CODED CHARACTER OF ALL TIMES HAS NEVER SUCCESSFULLY MASKED A DAY IN HIS LIFE. #sasuke: sasuke #anyway. im not touching on naruto because i could be here for days #BUT while sasuke on his own so far is very whatever. the narusasu dynamic is truly one for the ages #bc i just saw the ep where sasuke manages to see kyuubi inside naruto and wooshes him away and it's very like. #oh so hes literally seeing naruto's demons and banishing them even as hes telling naruto they dont matter to each other anymore. #oh ok cool cool cool cool this feels normal and not something to obsess over #jesus christ why am i typing all this. who here cares #naruto thoughts

[toytulini]

i made an oc thats at least nicknamed "Stupid" and im constantly thinking about what a power move that is tbh

#toy txt post #i miss it i should play w her more often but it was going to be for a dnd thing that ive all but abandonded bc i feel like #i cant. do that but it sucks bc i had some cool fun concepts and characters but it was hard enough back then when i was just insecure and #knew nothing about dnd and was intimidated by the mechanics but wanted to try dming for some reason but now i just straight up dont know #what to do but i really enjoy those characters. i should just unlock the secret channelsand scrap the dnd game idea for now and keep the #concepts and im sure i could come up w something if i ever actually learned anything about that shit #anyway. my point being. im obsessed w my character i made up and you should be too cos its good shit #toxic anarchist half dragon demigod with authority issues whos an alloaro clown named Stupid Cupid. #i think her pronouns were whatever but also it/she? when i say toxic i mean it did have a bit of a Clown Cult. #Cupid i think is possibly its given name and Stupid was her clown ass addition and yes i do know of the song and yes it is on its playlist #obsessed w all the stupid overpowered characters i made in that universe. they were such good concepts. gulliver obviously. charybdis #silas (cupids father + previous (now deceased) god of chaos) #cupids mother who i dont think i had a name for yet but she was supposed to be kind of a neutral lawful (in a rules lawyering way) #moon paladin who hatefucked the god of chaos after failing to kill him which she was trying to do out of devotion to the moon #and she supposed to have what i can only describe as chainsaw powers? and she destroyed every gun in existence and killed anyone who knew #how to make them until there were no guns left bc silas kept being annoying w guns and was trying to use them on the moon. for reasons #so she really pissed him off and impressed him before she finally got to him and tried to kill him. and if she was even a minor god instead #of a 'mortal' it wouldve worked and thats the only reason he didnt die from her. and then her child. stupid cupid the clown #grew up and had issues and started a clown cult and wandered around usurping warlords and dictators before putting her aim on silas #and trying to kill him. but failing not bc she was mortal but bc he outsmarted it. but he couldbt bring himself to kill it so he had her #put to sleep for a thousand yrs until someone else killed him(he pissed off a stupid seagull druid who lured him into the path of Charybdis #who he'd ALSO pissed off and Charybdis mega killed him and then the gull druid was made the new god of chaos just to have someone fill the #roll but then they kind of suck at it? they did not want that much responsibility altho the immortality is nice. when they took over they #released cupid whos a bit of a legend but then the vibes are super weird bc cupid Definitely wants to usurp and take on the mantle of #chaos deity and gulliver idolizes her but doesnt feel great about just handing that over to it? and cupid has to grapple with not being the #one to kill silas. almost everyone she knew is dead. her mom isnt. the world has changed a lot. she finds out her cult is still going and #gets excited? but they have Changed. it disgusts her now. they are not the radical clowns she intended. the vibes are weird. she denounces #that and tries out piracy. she manages to get the moon paladin living chainsaw power? #despite not being aligned w their ideology at all. wow nepotism. then it was going to spiral into some fucking meta galactic shit and have #well. ran out of tags. anyway i miss this character i should figure out what im doing w this universe cos theres no way im dming rn 🙃

[toxooz]

Hi Toxooz, how do you get yourself to draw so frequently? 👀👀👀

bc i have literally 84 things going on at once in my brain at all times that my highly visually obsessed brain Has To physically get in front of my eyes so that i can see or else will i think abt it over and over again and Brother I'm always envisioning things characters scenes scenarios outfits designs colors all of it in my cranium like angry itchy itchy ITCHY bees until i draw them out lmfao even if i don't know what to specifically draw at the current moment imma still end up drawing somehow ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I think at this point it's literally hardwired into my brain that I Gotta draw its what I've been doing since I could hold a pencil tbh it's how i cope with being -gestures vaguely- Here and alive, i actually gotta force myself to take a day off and schedule days where I DONT draw bc I know it's wearing on my hands and wrists 😬 I guess physically drawing grounds me in a way and keeps me (mostly) sane like if I don't draw for a few days i start getting Vaguely Antsy it's fukkin weird and i think at this point my love for my characters has surpassed like any form of art block if that makes sense??? like they literally take up 92% of my brain if not more, and the only way to see them is to draw them but yeah it's just what i do it's my jelly n my jam which is why I'm literally so glad i realized that i don't want to make drawing a job/career bc God help me if i start dreading drawing bc of the stress of money I've been drawing like crazy for like 2 decades straight and I only wanna draw more man idk!!!!! It's just one of them 'how the brain formed around what you do an assload of times' thangs

Answer translation: idk I just like to draw a lot lmfao

#its like the kids say ✨💅its how i express myself✨💅 #and dont get it twisted im aware this is not healthy lmfao #dont aspire to b like me just draw or dont draw man its abt the want #like i said drawing is just What I Do at this point i didnt train theres not some ''oh draw for at least 30 minutes a day' shit #i draw fast as shit (probably obviously ) and so much its probably unnatural AHA #the secret is make drawing the only outlet for your brain to not completely self implode at the mere idea of existing #for 24 years!!!!! :) #honestly thats why im getting progressively more Tired when every mf and their grandma tries to convince me to sell my shits #like brother this is a part of me how can i give away something i created and inevitably formed a bond with for like 100 bucks #i caint do it and so if i go in with the expectation to imediately give it away then man i dont even want to be making art in the first pl #like for me Personally if im not going to make something that i fall in love with and want to look at occasionally then #Literally what is the point of me making anything #what is the point of me making my body and mind create a piece if not for my own personal joy??? #but thats just physical art ig #like digital stuff and selling it for money if some1 wants it im aight but physical paintings??? that shit is Me and Mine #like just bc i Can make art doesnt immediately mean i need to make money from it yknow #my brother in christ when it comes to the the only true outlet for me to find joy and inspiration in living i Do Not care about money #i will take any amount of shitty job abuse if it means i conserve my passion #ill get a scarring accident from welding before i will stress cry over a deadline for a project that i dont even want to do #absolutely terrified of that path and feeling it is The Worst for me #like literally thank FUCK i realized this when i was just in a community college and not balls deep in debt at some fancy university #granted late as all hell and all my opportunities of taking free welding classes in my early years have long passed but still glad #just stick me on an abandoned island with canvases n paint n shit and ill b fine #god knew if i managed my time better and wasnt Really Fucking Exhausted all the time i would be unstoppable #like ofc making money while drawing what i want is the dream no doubt but the chances of that are slim and the road to get there is even #slimmer #ANYWAY holy shit not to get hella preachy but i have Thots

[red-dyed-sarumane]

whats an activity void likes to do that most wouldn’t expect of them?

beyond photo editing void is not an artistic type they cant draw they dont write they cant play any instruments nor do they have any real interest in it BUT when they feel like treating themself they attempt latte art although more often than not its hot cocoa art than coffee art & also they arent particularly good at it & it doesnt often look like anything but its a little task that gets their mind off things for a moment & they like doing.

#asks #kuki #at first i was going to say something about astrology #& then was like. no maybe thats to be expected #when the person they like is the one making the constellations. like yeah thats a logical path i think #tracing constellations in the night sky. they like that a lot too. #about the art thing tho i. could never accurately impersonate void in art skill #bc void just. they cant draw theyre so bad at it u tell them to draw a cat & u have to wonder if #theyve ever actually seen a cat. i would love to show how bad but unfortunately even my worst is way better than their best #also this isnt to say void doesnt like coffee they do like coffee they just like hot choco better #photo editing is also a secret hobby of theirs they dont openly admit it to people #u have to either catch them in the act or have enough proof u Know its their social media acc for them to admit it #so thats kind of also an answer here but i think everyone here has heard void does photo editing so its not the fun answer #(ryuusei knows about the edits btw they find it entertaining)

[mangacat201]

What kinks do you not write?

Oooff, that's a loaded question, innit?

Obviously anything kinky I've tagged in some way in my works before is fine.

An absolute no go is the bathroom section (watersports et al.... No judgement, but uhh, definitely not for me).

And I don't think I can see myself doing something with furries. I mean, it's fine as a concept, I guess, but as a subculture I don't really get it, so I wouldn't feel equipped to write it.

Anything obscure enough I'd have to Google first, I reserve the right to veto on the same grounds, lol, after all, to be able to write good smut, you have to understand what makes sth. appealing to people.

#i always struggle with the DNW section in stuff like Secret Santa fic events and stuff #if you are too vague you risk miscommunication #but if you are too detailed you might cut yourself off from a different interesting path #idk... it's more of a case by case basis... if i find inspiration in sth I'll be able to write it #also btw making no promises on deadlines lol... notoriously bad at those

[planeclaw]

𝚖𝚢 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝟽-𝟷:

𝙷𝙾𝚆 𝙳𝙾 𝙸 𝙶𝙴𝚃 𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝚆𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴 𝙰𝙼 𝙸 𝙶𝙾𝙸𝙽𝙶

#ultrakill #my sense of direction is nonexistent in video games #help #i found the secrets by mistake trying to find the path i was supposed to progress on

[thegooddoctorkiebeth]

Thinking about Ari carefully talking around Edward's attempts to flirt while he's still in Arkham but jumping his goddamn bones the night he's released because He's Cute Goddamnit

#in the real world it is NEVER ethical to sleep with a paitent even if they're no longer under your care #its a power dynamic thing #but in fiction the idea of them crushing so goddamn bad #and Edward finding out Ari's secrets after she's learned so many of his #and where shit goes from there? whether that causes his relapse or sends him onto his PI path #GRABBY HANDS GIMMIE #stirring the idea pot #RP wishlist

[ascalonianlightbringer]

I like Logan Thackeray, in some ways perhaps more than he deserves. I mean, there are definitely things I genuinely like about him as written, but also, I’m willing to do quite a bit of mental work with him and play up elements of his character and background that I find intriguing but underwritten, like his perception of Rytlock taking Sohothin as an act of looting.

We don’t hear a lot about that, but it comes up in their confrontation in Lion’s Arch, and could be a factor in why Eir thinks finding Sohothin’s sister-sword for Logan would help patch things up between them. Maybe (depending on when Rytlock acquired it, which I don’t recall atm) it’s something that always bothered Logan, and he’s the kind of person who prefers to busy himself with action rather than process the things that are troubling him, especially when personal relationships are involved.

Regardless of when his grudge originated, though, it comes tumbling out when he's already tense and pressured and Rytlock threatens him. The scornful emphasis on "this Charr" and the resentful "looted from Ascalon"—yeah, I think there's potentially a lot more going on in his head than just defensiveness over Snaff.

Unfortunately, it doesn't really go anywhere, but in my head, the Ascalonian legacy matters more to Logan than we ever really see, and it's definitely something they have to navigate later on.

#t: greetings friend #c: logan thackeray #c: rytlock brimstone #h: everyone has a secret #q: may you find the path home

[wonderloste]

prepping the two diverging routes depending on what my partner wants to play off w their muse in the mc role (them being a reincarnation of the og alice versus just being an outsider not literally connected to the og alice) is super fun bc in route one you get to mess around with the concept of fate and soulmates and reuniting with ppl you lost throughout history versus route two having this whole dynamic where darcy gets revealed not only as the biggest bad in wonderland but ALSO as the original alice liddell and messing w the concept of like how much of something you loved and created with your own hands would you be willing to destroy and tear apart to protect someone you love

#i'll prob add in those diverging mc routes to my story page so it's easier to follow along but i think #tweaking it so darcy tm is actually the original alice liddell in the route where the mc isn't a reincarnation is hella fun #cuz he spends all this time in the role of the big endgame villain in the overall storyline #ready to just headass destroy wonderland #and it adds Flavor bc then u get the whole moral argument over how he (as alice) literally recreated and saved wonderland when they #came to it originally and now he's just standing there ready to fucking Glock everyone #i get rambly but like !!! #idk how many ppl saw that original post of my musing finding a more interesting way to incorporate the non-reincarnated route #but it's coming along #it kinda ends up creating a wild secret tru route cuz interacting with darcy on that path also ends up being the og alice's route #i don't make sense when i ramble this is why i have to make carrds aaaaaa jBNNEJHRGBNN #ʚ o. out of character ɞ ⁄ otome games are my thirteenth reason. #the original concept w reincarnation is the one i've developed the most cuz it's the like... theoretical blog canon but i'm having a Blast #finding out alternatives JHBENRG #esp since in either concept the mc / muse is led to believe they ARE alice for the longest time so in that one darcy is just like #and i oop :x

[hecksupremechips]

Hey uh what the actual fuck is wrong with the Iris route in aitsf????

#please help me #i just finished it and granted. i am so so so sleep deprived and out of my mind #but literally all of it was weird as shit??/? #lemme try to summarize #in mizukis psynch date finds iris dead body and later finds the body in the warehouse #so is the main suspect and he goes into sos mind and ends up saving iris #iris sticks with date and they get attacked by these guys on the way to marble #iris says shes being targeted by a secret cult #we go into her mind and theres 2 branching paths at the end but youre only given one choice and thats to believe iris #which i fucking dont believe her cuz its weird as shit and date is acting really weird at this point #but you have to believe her and my guess is that a second option gets unlocked later #afterwards we find out that pewter sent the guys after iris and that renju is possibly part of the evil cult #and both of them were in one falcos escape #iris is then kidnapped and we save her in a fever dream fight scene #she then tells date that renju came into her house that one night and tried to drag her into an abandoned factory #we go there and theres a psynch machine and iris starts dying and we go into her mind AGAIN #and it looks like we save her but then she dies anyways the end #plus she seemed like she was gonna ask us something important maybe date is her dad idk anymore #my theory is that this route takes place in a fucked up dream reality and its not real #because it all just feels super off #or this game is just really bad lol #i cant judge just yet i suppose but damn oof its given me a migraine #i gotta say im not very into iris maybe its just cuz im salty and confused but damn i just got tired of this bitch #kept waiting for her route to end lol #like i really dont know how any of this shit is gonna tie into the rest of the plot #its like i just started playing a completely different game man wtf #plus i hate iris and dates relationship cuz you really cant tell if you should call the fbi or not #is it familial or is date really gonna go after a fucking high school girl. either way i dont like #someone who knows this game please tell me if im going crazy or not #i miss the mizuki route it was perfect 😭