#feeling some v spicy flavours of depression tonight

[sam-xaviel]

just me, her (the pandemic) and the overwhelming feeling of loneliness accompanied by a sense that this condition will last forever and change wont come because all that you are is not enough to bring it into existence in this chilli’s tonight

#feeling some v spicy flavours of depression tonight #i dont get it when people say that theyre waiting until covid is over #like what are you looking forward to #bc i know everything will be exactly the same as it were before #just worse bc when you wont go out and stay home youll be a weirdo and antisocial again #idk how Its possible that everyone apparently has a friend group or a partner or at least experience dating and does stuff all the time #except me n idk if it’s just because I’m only 22 or Mary else #makes me feel like at some point I did something wrong bc I don’t have that #no one has ever shown enough interest in me to even ask me out for a date lol #anyways #this has been a vent post #hope y’all didn’t read this #and if you did girl help