it's just that sometimes you have to love a thing including the ways that it inconveniences you like i keep picking dog hair out of my clothes because he steals things from my laundry basket to lay on them while i'm gone and whenever i use my laptop i have to type with my arms in a parabola to make room for his head on my legs and yes it's kind of a far ride to my mom's house but she always remembers to have dairy-free options available just in case i stop at home and nick lives in another timezone so we have to plan our calls carefully to be sure he's available and i'm not in bed and i hate driving and looking for parking but it means i get to visit my friends and i hate doing dishes but i'll do a million if it means i get to throw a dinner party for everybody and i hate being cold but one time we stood outside in the snow for 5 hours waiting for a concert, bundled up and red-nosed
i always apologize about the ways i take up space even when they're medical like at a restaurant i usually have to take the moment to say i really am allergic, sorry, and feel like i am making everyone around me angry and i always apologize when i am too tired to be funny or when i actually really do need to take care of my human body because it feels like i'm making everything about-me and i always apologize for the ways that i become needy; how i get scared when we're high up (and no for real please get down it actually kind of stops being funny) or how i panic if i hear a loud noise i wasn't expecting or how it's been years but there are days when i'm still doing the same shit, still drowning
the trick about relaxing, i think. like the answer to why i couldn't trust the idea anyone actually likes me. was realizing that at some point i am going to be an inconvenience, which means that at some point i need to trust other people want me to take up space. and yes, some people have to take up a lot of space. but. i relish this little gratitude: making room for people and things in my life. i love picking the dog hairs out of my food - it means i get to have a dog. i love answering the phone at 3 in the morning - it means someone is on the other line, and i can help them weave through life. i love the little chores - it means i have something productive to do. so what if you take up space - it means this world gets to have you.
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i know will wood probably made “the main character” sound extra Quirky Spooky™️ on purpose so the chronically online would ignore the meaning and take it as a self-anthem which is super funny BUT i still feel myself shrivel up at my core anytime i see “will wood just like me fr?” or “i didnt know he was like that”
yes, will wood, known narcissist and lover of social media, made this song, meant it genuinely and put it right after a fucked up song all about being anti-social media corporation, ur so right bestie!!
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OH YEAH I HAD THIS BLOG IDEA THATS BEEN SPINNING IN MY BRAIN ALL DAY BUT IDK IF I HAVE THE SKILLS NECESSARY TO PULL IT OFF
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when talking about the challenges of writing and the journey of improving as a writer, something I notice in myself is how it can feel like there's a wall between myself and the character I'm writing, not because I don't know them well enough to write them, but rather, because I know them too well and so (especially in the context of roleplay where you are responding to a potentially novel and unexpected situation) there's just this knee-jerk knowledge of how Char is going to react/what she is going to say/what she is going to think, without me really having to think about it too much, and that feeling... that reflex of just knowing what Char is gonna do, can be hard to trust sometimes, tbh.
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putting this out there but if you've been following me & you want me to follow you back/read your writing/interact with your posts etc, please feel free to tell me!!!!! like literally @ me! I know this might seem very *bold* and I myself as an anxious person would be like :) oh :) absolutely not :) but SERIOUSLY I want to read your stuff, etc!
SIMILARLY: if you DO interact with my stuff & ever feel anxious that you're annoying me & should stop, YOU'RE NOT!!! (I am chronically wondering if I'm soooo annoying & if you're like that too, just know you're not!!!! I love seeing people having fun on my posts/tags/asks/etc! <3).
I love to see people excited about writing whether it's mine or yours! okay PSA over!
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