#errithepoet

[spacedouterri]

I am weeds in stones

I am acorns after fires

I am cacti with no rain

I am spores after death

I am persistant

I am beautiful

i will take a deep breath

And i will keep growing

#errithepoet #erriwrites #Persistence #September 25 2023

[artbyerri]

A sentence. I could think of a sentence or i could not even go that far i could think of 

a word.

and know exactly what I mean.

I could see the story arc behind it. The emotion behind it. The world building behind the single 

word.

I know how many times this word would be repeated.

know how many times the characters have said it.

know how its meaning changes in the story. within the prose.

and thats a 

word.

what about a sentence?

it why its so difficult for me to write because all I know is the one sentence or

word.

and thats all my head will give me today

and i could write it down. that sentence or 

word

and no one else knows what I mean no one else knows the depth behind the letters.

and i wonder why cant you see

See what i see. See the potentional.

there are paragraphs behind it

novels behind it

hidden and stored away.

and you can’t see it.

because all my head will give me is 

a word.

#ErriWrites #errithepoet #poetry #writing

[spacedouterri]

You are mine

Not in a way that is possessive

Not like a secret

Not mine in that no one else can have you

But you are mine.

.

Mine like experiences and memories are mine

Mine like laughter is mine

Like jokes and stories are mine

Mine like art and poetry is mine

Mine like love is mine

.

You are mine

In that you are meant to be cherished, and adored, and shared by many

You are mine in the way that the world is mine

You are mine like a secret

That i am ready to share

#the said a smaller version of this aloud to myself and i think it was better than this #but this is what i managed to write down #erriwrites #errithepoet

[spacedouterri]

You never truly stop

Looking for someone in a room

Once you start.

And your heart will always skip a beat

When you find them.

The only thing that changes

Is the direction you want to run.

#December 2nd 2023 #errithepoet #erriwrites #Familar Faces

[spacedouterri]

The brusies on my arm

would be much prettier

If they came from someone elses teeth

Instead of my own self inflicting rage

#erriwrites #errithepoet #self harm #January 12 2024 #bite marks

[spacedouterri]

I should write more poems

But the strongest emotion im feeling right now is love

But if i wrote about love

It would be all scared and trying and enduring and hoping

and taking deep breaths

and walking away for a moment

and not understanding what im feeling

and finding reassurance in little moments

And being scared and hoping away

.

And you read these

So im nervous of how that would make you feel

#erriwrites #errithepoet #you read these #September 9 2023

[spacedouterri]

Three days ago i said

I love too hard and thats whats wrong with me

Today i believe

I love too hard

And thats something God

did right with me

#errithepoet #erriwrites #September 25 2023 #I Love Too Hard

[spacedouterri]

You stare at the everlands in front of you.

You stare ahead and your heart

pounds against your chest.

There is this tingling, crawling,

overbearing sensation of an adventure

yet to come.

Just ahead in front of you.

You feel no excitement,

Not like you dreamed of,

You feel no thrill.

You just feel cold

and small.

Cause the everlands in front of you are very much alive,

and they are very much real,

and this isnt the adventure you dreamed of.

You stare at what awaits you

.

and you cry.

#errithepoet #erriwrites #January 3rd 2023 #ahead

[spacedouterri]

Fairy hills

and holidays

and other places

where time fades,

find your and my

hands intertwined

in flower bloom,

'mongst fireflies.

.

Enchanted

hearts, and heads, and fools

#January 16 2023 #errithepoet #enchanted fools

[spacedouterri]

I just saw someone ask what the lesson of someones poem was

Lesson?

Am i to be telling lessons cause i dont tell lessons

This is purely the inner bits of my mind coming out to the surface

This is my notebook

My secrets whispered in your ears

My night visions and daydreams set to paper

This is my diary

This is my stage

My circus ring

My performance of my downward spiral

This is my cartharsis

This is my heart spilling out

Like it was ripped out of my chest

This is all the words i could think of to describe

what it is to live in my head

and the cry of help that it truely is

#errithepoet #March 25 2022 #poetry #erriwrites

[spacedouterri]

I just hope you dont ruin

My favourite songs

#is this poetry #do i count this one? #errithepoet #deleted playlists #istg if i have actually start removing songs from my playlist bc of this i will be more unwell than i already am #September 24 2023

[spacedouterri]

Take my quiz cause i deserve it

#errirambles #errithepoet

[spacedouterri]

Im not a good person

I want to be set on fire

I deserve to watch the world

As i burn

Grinning

In a blaze of hell

In destructive glory

I am so cold

I am so lonely

#july 21st 2021 #errithepoet #destructive glory (ablaze)

[spacedouterri]

I think I destroyed myself.

but it just felt so good

to be someone's entire world

#errithepoet #errirambles #august 20 2021 #all consuming

[spacedouterri]

I have been writing about you for 4 years.

Why are you all consuming and malignant?

Falling for you

has killed me in some ways

and gilded me in others.

— chronicles about an eighth grade crush from hell

#errithepoet #erriwrites #poetry #December 19th 2021 #spilled ink #malignant crush

[spacedouterri]

After it all,

Blow me away like ash

Let me pass in the wind

And then ill be free.

There will be nothing

Not even me.

#errithepoet #july 22 2021 #aftermath (like ash)