#either way it's an absolute win

[tomiyeee]

michelangelo, test my brushes

#rottmnt #rottmnt mikey #my art #mangastudio #yes you guys are getting my shitty literal scribbles #i found secret new brush settings in mangastudio and i splooged them all over the place #life lesson of the day is that if your art program has a button u should absolutely press it #if it's poggers then u get a cool new little smth or other #if it fucks everything up then u learn a whole LOTTA new little smth or others trying to fix the fuck up #either way u learn smth new so it's a win win

[thevioletcaptain]

if you as a fic reader ever become possessed by the urge to do a popularity bracket with the fics other people wrote and shared for fun and for free, consider:

don't ❤️ 

#just!!!! make a rec list!!!!!!!!! #popularity contests do nothing but drive writers out of fandoms by pitting people against their friends #and invariably result in people being assholes in the comments as if the people who wrote the fic can't see it #like ''oh clearly fic x is better than fic y'' #or ''why is fic c even in this poll?'' #nobody gains anything by you doing a bracket to see which fic is the ''most popular'' #a stat which could be found more easily & less cruelly by simply hitting the sort by bookmarks/kudos button on ao3 #anyway ugh. i saw that one of my fics was being pitted against one of my friend's fics in this bracket that's going around #and i have no idea who is ''winning'' because i refuse to look. but either way it's gonna feel bad!!! #because i want my friend to get his flowers so i want him to win!!! but i also would like to know that people like my fic!!!! #so it's just a lose/lose situation even though i generally don't give a shit about numbers #but this turns it into a schoolyard popularity thing #and the emotional response to having people *vote* on if your work is *better or worse* than other fic is hard to ignore #cannot reiterate enough JUST MAKE A REC LIST #or if you absolutely must do a bracket like this do it in a private chat server or something #don't create a public forum for people to pass value judgements where the authors can see it #and feel bad if they get told their fic is ''worse'' than someone elses #but also feel bad if they get told theirs is ''better'' because it came at the cost of telling another author they weren't good enough #ANYWAY i still feel sick with a super sore throat and a headache & am probably extra cranky because of it #(still testing negative thankfully so it's probably just weather/allergen related) #gonna go make some tea and prep the fic updates i want to post today #cass says things #fandom problems #wank adjacent

[im-still-watching-anime]

sakura: alright so we should be running into sasuke soon if you wanna plan—what are you doing to that kunai? poison? some kind of sedative?

naruto, carving ‘deflect this if you love me’ on to it: nothing! don’t look!

#naruto #naruto shippuden #naruto incorrect quotes #sasunaru #sns #haruno sakura #uzumaki naruto #uchiha sasuke #naruto: win win situation either he dodges and loves me or it hits and i drag him home #fails to wonder how sasuke could read a message that tiny #sasuke elsewhere: whys it feels like someone is challenging the lengths i’ll go to hide my feelings #absolutely would allow a kunai to hit him rather than admit he has a crush tbh #they’re connected in a way that just has them building on each other’s stupidity constantly #positive feedback loop of dumbness

[rawliverandgoronspice]

The more time goes on, the more I think we (= westerners, especially white westerners) are just so fucking bad at guilt. I feel like guilt is among the most pernicious and dangerous emotions out there --not because guilt is literally deadly in isolation, it is an excruciating emotion but it will not kill you in itself, but because we have been trained to associate guilt with worthlessness (I partially blame christian values, the idea of impurity and sin --not to downplay, of course, the danger of a community judging you or being expelled from that community on the basis of being considered a danger to its other members due to the thing you've done that has been generating this guilt), and so we must, absolutely must, protect ourselves from simply feeling that guilt and processing its cold indifference washing over us, and we must do so through any means necessary. This can involve defensiveness, denial or reject of that guilt altogether so we are mentally protected from having to reevaluate ourselves and our place in the world, or can involve wallowing in and using it to self-harm --focusing on the pain and on self-hate rather than on what the guilt is telling us about ourselves and our heritage; blinding ourselves to it still in a twisted way.

I think it's also complicated to know how to manage guilt in a world where we're generally (as a whole) deeply powerless. It feels unfair to be called out about not doing enough when you know that pulling even mediocre heroics on your own will most definitively do almost nothing, hurt you, and be buried in a way that might be extremely unhelpul --not to mention, that it would actually hurt you in a very real and final way and lead to entirely thankless results, even if it was the morally correct thing to do. I do not want to pretend that it's not, very often, the results that awaits even serious and well-practiced activism --or even mild activism, major shoutout to everybody who got maimed or arrested or even killed on zero basis simply because they happened to be at or even near a protest, when they were not brutally attacked for no reason even outside of activism because an officer was racist or sexist or queerphobic or simply bored that day. There are genuinely good reasons to be scared.

So we feel guilt because of this fear, because of our isolation from any serious movement and the fact that we privilege our comfort over letting action taking over whatever else we have going on, and because fear and comfort knowingly keep us into inaction --or action that doesn't feel like enough, or that we feel doesn't achieve much of anything (which I think is never true: even giving someone a glimpse of hope for a second because we made an effort towards them is always always worth it in my opinion, it's not nothing and it's not a cop-out --of course it's not enough and we collectively need to find ways to do more, but it's not nothing and it should never discourage people from taking action --but I digress). But I think we start making a mistake when we point at this very real powerlessness as a shield from the guilt. Both can coexist. Both have to coexist. It isn't fair that some people are being forced to be courageous when we can afford to remain cowards. It is not even a moral judgement that condemn our souls forever, weakness is human and lack of individual reach against an overwhelmingly powerful and removed system even more so; it is a simple fact that we *have* to acknowledge if we want to take a clear look at the actual situation instead of camouflaging it behind self-justifying walls to give ourselves temporarily relief from that awful feeling. And I'm not saying it's not a constant effort, to keep those instincts of self-preservation at bay, or that some people don't have really good reasons that they cannot act more than through social media or miniscule donations or by talking about it around them, or being powerless to even do that without putting themselves into real and concrete danger --or that letting guilt in will be pleasant or even healing. It won't be. But it's also not the point.

Yeah, I get that it's hard to truly reckon with the fact that almost everything that made us (= westerners, especially white ones) is soaked with blood, imperialism, white supremacy, sexism, queerphobia, and a whole sweve of truly rancid ideologies that we cannot afford to passively accept as our lot. We were not given a choice in that legacy, and we don't have a ton of leverage over reorienting our haunted civilizations into something that isn't a horrible nightmare; but it is a fight that is happening right the fuck now.

I genuinely think guilt is a feeling we are not taught to handle in a healthy way; and because we have essentialist, pseudo-religious and punitive justice concepts terminally untangled with that feeling, guilt governs our politics and our private lives in the most rabid and unchecked way imaginable. But guilt will not kill us, unless we allow it to, and it will help literally nobody if it does. Guilt isn't evil in its soul-crushing pain as much as it is informative. Guilt is unbearable, unfliching clarity. But fever boils us alive because there is an infection that needs to be destroyed.

#thoughts #personal #not zelda #palestine #free palestine #guilt #cw self harm #(not graphic and really in passing) #sorry it's quite different than usual and it's a lot and I don't know if I'll agree with everything in five seconds #but I feel like we don't talk enough about the impact of guilt on our lives and psyches (and politics) #I am not great at guilt either (tho tbh I don't know many people who are) #but I'm trying to get better at simply... shutting up and Feeling It #I'm sure there's a way to face guilt that isn't destructive or self-pitying or generally useless #but I am.... I am so pessimistic about the future #not in a: let's all give up and cry but in a: we must fucking brace ourselves and look after one another #and put our foot in the sand right now because everything is unnacceptable and we need to acknowledge it much harder #if we let it fester it will only get uglier and uglier #and it doesn't mean we won't win or that hope isn't an absolutely essential component to it all #I am ultimately optimistic that there is an After to capitalism and imperialism and that brand of self-centered preservation and brutality #and this general oozing of toxic and unprocessed guilt #But #let's say that we'll all have to lead our own fights against it at some point #and I think that time should be right now #tl;dr imo there's no hope for justice and genuine resistance without facing guilt and resisting the urge to deny or fret against its ache #which doesn't have to equate with allowing guilt to rule us and use it as a tool of self-torment #anywayyyyy #saw a LOT of very weird reactions to the gaza genocide in my personal circles #some that really disappointed me even though they came from people I know to be better than this #so #yeah

[thisisreal-really]

listen i dont know about you all but sylvie is literally right?????? she’s right? you want loki to rather be a god that take away people’s lives and free will even if it is for the greater good (if that is even a thing that actually exists lol)? you want them to trade one apocalypse for thousands small apocalypse forever and ever? that is not a way to live for anyone. who decided who lives and who dies? no one should have the right to do that, no one should ever bear that burden, NO ONE. That’s why loki has to made the hard choice, choosing the easy way out or choosing to do the right thing.

#this is why they showed us loki talking to the two of them #they are not exactly an opposing view as much as they are presenting loki with possibilities for his choice #mobius shows him that kindness matters. shows him that living with the burden of tva agent is not exactly the way to live either. #sylvie challenges him with her question and defiance and determination to LIVE and to let people LIVE #they are two forces driving loki into finally paving his own path #to be better than tva and hwr #and he DID #oh it has always been about choices all along and that’s beautiful #also lokius shipper in me take this as an absolute win idc #loki #loki s2 spoilers

[brookheimer]

some very cold takes i saw on twitter

#kieran should submit as supporting but he 10000% deserves to be lead as much as anyone else #he would just easily sweep in supporting whereas it could go either way in lead #but y’all saying rome is still a side character and that kieran is nothing compared to jeremy…. did you stop watching partway thru s1 or #something ?? #like he absolutely could compete with strong it would just be stupid to bc they’d split the votes #(altho that means bob wins so maybeee👀 jk) #succession #OKAY DONE POSTING AB THIS NOW SORRY

[tortoisesshells]

223.

#BURKE/LIZ NATION RISE UP #think about it. liz loves charmers. the collinses in this generation love screwing (with) dark-haired outsiders; #from the wrong side of the tracks.; #it would mean that roger's new brother in law is also his undead wife's ex & either way david's bio dad is part of the collins family. #the collinses need liquid cash and burke needs to feel like he's got one over them. #burke's the true successor to jeremiah collins in a weird way which would absolutely appeal to the collins family propensity to incest. #burke and roger can continue to have amazingly charged arguments over smoked kippers and coffee forever. everyone wins. #i am no longer joking about burke/liz mister curtis. #the news from collinsport #burke devlin #victoria winters #elizabeth collins stoddard #dark shadows

[mechieonu]

honestly i'm sorry i don't see the discourse between ochako being a lesbian or bi. the way her story is setup you could LITERALLY see it either way: as her realizing her love for her friend isn't as sincere as she thought OR as her finding out that she ALSO likes girls

#i don't get y ppl are fighting abt it #i personally love bi ochako bc i'm bi and i like izuocha #but i also love lesbian ochako bc of how coming-of-age romcom togachako are #and i really love the realization of 'i don't love you the way i thought i did‚ only the way i was told' #and honestly i. dont think its serious enough to fight over. either way shes sapphic which i see as an absolute win #bnha #togachako

[elitehoe]

Ok I'm rooting for Jay to win in the gold final cause the outcome is either

A) Jay wrestles Eddie who exiled him from nooj in a rematch that ends with him slithering his way back into nooj and causing chaos with BC.

B) Jay wrestles Bryan in the greatest match to ever grace my eyes no matter the outcome and I cry or cum so hard I explode.

#if jay wins i fucking win either way can you see babes can you fucking see *shaking you* #the winners of the tourney shouldn't be bryan or mox and I'm only rooting for eddie cause i hate the stip of all his titles on the line #swerve winning would be cool but at this point i need him to take that belt of mjf #going absolutely mental over the possibilities right now #jay white #aew #aew lb

[just-some-guy-joust]

(if anyone is interested in knowing who Amedeo is, here's the link to his toyhouse profile)

#polls #tumblr showdown #tumblr competition #amedeo kenzie #in a manor of speaking #you absolutely do not need to give a shit about my oc i put him in because #if he wins this first round it's funny. if he loses this first round it's funny. either way i win #so you can kill him if you want to #lovecore showdown

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Hey! So, I wasn't able to be home for Abbott Elementary (I had a jazz concert :) it went well!), but I am now! I am absolutely terrified and I've only been getting more scared throughout the night :D. Like, more sure it's what I hope it isn't (a breakup). But, as I was opening Tumblr, I oddly felt reassured, so maybe not. Eh, whatever happens lol, I'm still very excited :DD.

See you in a few minutes!

#abbott elementary #ae #oasis's ae chatter #absolutely terrified #petrified :) #:') help #xD but also I am so ready #either storyline (that is a bonus I mean)with presumed angst or actual angst so it's a win either way #or well #more like silver lining but yk xD #OKAY I have to hope for/manifest good things lol #I got this xD #I will survive #(I probably won't) #see you guys in a couple of minutes xD :D

[aparticularbandit]

Monokuma: There's no food here! You will all starve!

okay but what about all of the snacks Hajime got from the MonoMono Machine (or whatever it's called in DR2) and is just carrying around everywhere to give to people during FTEs

Hajime literally gave Gundham sunflower seeds during that FTE. Like. The mystical properties of the food Hajime carries around that apparently does not count as food?

Also what about Gundham's pets? (This is probably where the sunflower seeds went.) Like...they probably couldn't last as long as people would. And without anything to drink, I'm surprised everyone lasted as long as they did.

#musings #bandit liveblogs #bandit liveblogs danganronpa #and even hajime by the end there just /i have to do something or we will ALL starve/ #which like - i don't think anyone would have killed to feed themselves #they would have killed to save everyone else #which is just such a diametric opposition to the gang in dr1 #some of whom absolutely would have killed the others so they wouldn't starve #but like this is a win/win scenario for monokuma #even if someone dies from starvation first #the others then get to run into the issue of...well...do we eat them? #SONIA JUST ALREADY LOOKING AT PEOPLE AND ASKING TO EAT THEM #despair end either way! #meanwhile chiaki doesn't even NEED food and is just staring at everyone else starving #monokuma is LIVING

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

now that dumb ways to die is finally making a comeback, i need a compilation of rly stupid fire emblem gameplay deaths

#DCB Comments #my dumbest way i've ever had a unit die was in por chapter 27 when ike had damage on my turn already #from the previous enemy phase but i was getting desperate bc i didn't wanna redo the chapter #bc like if i don't get nasir i will literally redo the chapter fuck ena idk what intsys was even thinking #making her unit as worthless as it is. no nasir no victory. so in my desperation i attacked #with damage taken. bc my brilliant idea was to attack and get hit again so that mist could heal all the damage taken #but wah wah i had to redo the whole chapter anyway bc SOMEONE activated luna on me #i was relying on either aether going off or luna NOT going off but i had a massive wah wah #this wasn't recent but it did happen and i absolutely learned my fucking lesson LOL #titania: i think ike has grown enough to judge if he can win #soren: i don't like it. in fact i disagree. in fact this is a terrible idea. in fact what if he's impatient bc he only has five turns #also the other dumbest way to lose a unit is to have them standing in front of the house in chapter 11 #when you kill the boss bc bk walks out when the boss dies. i always make sure mordecai is #already past that area while im getting zihark before killing the boss #but yes i do absolutely agree with the lyric ''so many dumb ways to die'' for fe and that's why i need a compilation #y'all needa tell me your dumbest fe ways you've lost a unit and had to reset #if you played on casual it still counts bc they had to retreat lol #edit: actually no i remember that happened twice. there was a time when i attacked on my turn with full hp #but that was after mist healed so i had damage then she healed then i attacked on my turn #and then luna activated on the enemy phase so no that shit actually happened to me TWICE #and i am not sure which one of those times i learned my fckn lesson but i absolutely did #edit again: also npc and enemy phase deaths that are rly dumb are also valid i need those too

[daxite]

i'm at the point where even as a huge frye fan, i honestly hope shiver wins just to spite the people who obsessively hate her for absolutely no reason

#dax rambles #i'm with frye all the way but holy shit i fucking hate these people #they all suck at the game as well lmfao #most of them don't actually even care about frye either they just don't want shiver to win that's literally it #because “she's won too many splatfests!!/she has simps!!” it's so stupid lol #you didn't see people getting this outraged over marina or callie's constant fucking wins or the simpage over marina #and how people will god-defend frye but nobody really did that for pearl not saying it's a big deal and don't get me wrong i'll fucking #defend both frye and pearl to the grave i love them but the double-standards are absolutely fucking bizarre

[dutybcrne]

I don't even write Diluc, but I hc that if he gets enraged enough and/or gets caught in a particulaly dicey battle, he tends to outright blue fire and that's how you can tell shit is goin DOWN-

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//If he had brought his Vision to Snezhnaya; perhaps he would have had more practice with this #//Also prolly would have barbecued himself a la Dabi bc he would NOT have the emotional control at this time #//Perhaps it's good his Vision stayed in Mond #ANYWHO; in my thoughts #//I love him realizing this maybe during a fight should he encounter a Herald or smth #//Maybe he's with traveler or on his own encounter in his invesitagtions; either way gettin' real desperate to win #//And mans fucken not only goes APE on the herald; but also fucken near charbroils his arms in the process #//Damn near melts the Wolf's Gravestone too #//Wins; but & survives; but deffo resolves to Never do that again unless ABSOLUTELY necessary #//Anywho; now I must Kaeya to re-balance the natural order of my brain

[tardis--dreams]

What I always fail to consider when I create my absolutely realistic to-do lists and plans is the fact that I'm just. So so tired

#either i am a giant cry baby or there is something wrong with me #(in this house we ignore chronic lack of sleep and other unhealthy lifestyle decisions and questionable dietary choices and habits #that has absolutely nothing to do with my feeling of utter exhaustion #this feeling of malaise is completely beyond my control #no but fr i think i would feel 90% better had i slept 1 more hour last night #idk how i survived the first 3 months of this year where i was getting 3 hours on average #i had at least 4.5 hours last night and i feel like dying lmao #had to lie back down this morning after finishing my preparation for the seminar and doing some yoga because i felt like passing out #but i went to class and it was actually okay today and i didn't faint and i even contributed something #amazing #(i mean we were forced to say something but i did say more than the bare minimum so i think that's an absolute win) #uh anyway i need to work for 2 hours and then study korean and do my homework and realistically that's gonna take 4 hours at least #and i need to prepare for my seminar on Thursday which realistically also takes at least 4-5 hours because I'm so fucking slow #and technically i need to work and catch up with my other 2 courses which would require 2 hours a day #and i need to write my stupid term paper from last semester but i haven't even found a topic yet and i need to prepare my stupid #presentation for one seminar and then start working on the term paper for that as well and then start working on the term paper for my #other seminar and then #I'm just way too overwhelmed lol- idk how people manage life. i feel like a rotten corpse all the time and don't even do anything #i need to clean and do laundry and take out the trash and do the dishes and do laundry and write emails and #i just wanna sleep ahahah #ok I'll stop complaining now. I know how much other people do all the time and my workload is nothing in comparison. #i just like to be dramatic #void screams