#ed really saves these movies ngl

[bipirate]

they put in this bit from the manga that didnt even make it into fmab.......disregard anything i said about this movie it gets 5 stars for this scene alone

#ed really saves these movies ngl #the wigs are still awful unfortunately #fma lb

[doctopus]

Evil Dead Book Bible

Why did they never make a book bible with really cool info!! please!!!

if they did make one this is what I think it should have:

i would have it so brandy, pablo, ash, and kelly are all commenting through the book bible

**Chapter 1: The Evil Dead** • Some actual pages from the book shown in the movie

• The Cabin • Couple pages on baby ash and kelly/pablo/brandy all commenting on how innocent he looks • Mostly knowby scribblings, notes, the actual translation he does •A joke somewhere from Kelly about how Ruby really claimed to be a knowby when she's too hot to be one •A page on knowby & henrietta, some AVED stuff could be used here • Cheryl & Ash commentary • A page on Scotty & Shelly, at least 2 pages for Cheryl & Linda • Cheryl's drawings of some of the characters (Brandy asking about her aunt she never knew) • Chet's page is crossed out and Ash explains why he wasn't there in the first place and is somehow still oblivious that Chet was dating Cheryl • Ash really explains why they went to the cabin all together in the first place and why the FUCK he brought his sister along. please bro. i need to know what was your thought process. • Ash explains his haircut & fashion choices. Brandy/Kelly/Pablo all shit on him for it. Brandy kind of defends the blue shirt but will shit on his hair.

•Delta gets 2 pages and it’s just Sam & Bruce commentary. I hope bruce draws swords going into the Delta because that’s how he feels about it.

• Sam shows his storyboard idea where the ugly necklace saved Ash with the power of love. And conveniently placed sunlight. 

**Chapter 2: Evil Dead 2** • Linda 2 pages • Commentary from Ash & Annie • Two pages on Annie Knowby • One page for Bobby Joe & Ed (Ash jokes about how quickly ed turned deadite) • Deadite Henrietta • Ash's hand • Chainsaw diagram, really in depth and shit for cosplay • Next page is really bad scribbles on how ash attached his hand to the chainsaw and commentary from ash (Pablo: I still don't get how this works.) • Dancing Deadite Linda (Kelly: She still sounds kinda hot ngl)

**Chapter 3: Army of Darkness** • S-Mart 2 pages and ash explains how he got the job in the first place

• Castle Kandar diagram • Ash & Arthur commentary • Pages on wizard, arthur, henry, blacksmith (Brandy: Was that guy actually a wizard or just a really old dude with a beard who read more books? Ash: I’m not sure, actually.) • 2 pages on Sheila (Kelly: Damn, she's hot too! I hate to say it, but you have really good taste in women.) • Ash's boomstick dialogue line with brandy/pablo/kelly all making fun of it • Tiny Deadite Ashes (Kelly: I wish you kept one, it would've been hilarious) • Evil Ash (Pablo: Man, that's one badass dude. Uh, second to you, Ash.) • Skeleton Army (Ash: I'll give 'em this, they had a really cool band playing during that fight it was pretty sweet)

• Ash’s trunk (Pablo: Damn, you really prepare for a trip through space and time.) • Two pages of the future Ash ending, the pages look like they were jammed in there. Maybe Sam & Bruce commentary? • Two pages of deleted scenes, especially the pillar one

**Chapter 4: Evil Dead (2013)**

• Mia & David commentary

• Pages on Mia, David • Minor pages on Eric, Olivia, Natalie

• Explanation of their family cabin and photos of them as kids

• Page inked in blood, maybe by the dad from the beginning of the movie explaining how the book got in the basement in the first place

• Deadite Mia 2 pages

• I would add more but this isn’t one of my fave EDs oops feel free to add any ideas though

**Chapter 5: Ash vs. Evil Dead**

• Commentary from all the Ghostbeaters • Pages dedicated to Pablo, Kelly, Old Ash (scribbled in by Kelly), and Brandy

• Two pages for Bill (Baal) and Ruby separately

• Two pages for the sexy Ashy Slashy puppet

• Two pages for poor Amanda

• Dad Williams pages, Chet, Candy Barr (need to see more of the drunken Ash in vegas okay), Cougie, Eligos, El Brujo, Kelly’s parents, Linda & her family, any other relevant characters in AVED. I still feel bad for the poor book dude in season 1 too so maybe pls include him.

• Eli, two pages for that bastard. And maybe Ash can explain where his love for bearded dragons came from since he did have one at home before

• Pics of Ash’s horny 80s teen room at his old house

• Pics of Ash’s trailer, also horny 80s teen room

• Value Stop (Could make it canon that S-mart change its name to Value Stop or have it so Ash has some ominous backstory as to why he’s banned from working in an S-mart ever again)

• Brandy’s prom

• The Dark Ones

• Baby Ash (Ash: They really like making handsome clones...)

• That weird limbo death world, include Knowby’s face from ED2 to tie it together

• Ashy Slashy Hardware store

• Actually, give me a news article published right after Ash returned from the cabin ranting about deadites and explain how “Ashy Slashy” was born

**Chapter 6: Evil Dead Rise**

• Don’t know shit yet so lmao

**Chapter 7: Video Games & Comics **

• Evil Dead: The Game (2022)

• Evil Dead Commodore 64 (Ash: Look at those sexy pixels!) 

• Evil Dead: Hail to the King

•  Evil Dead: Fistful of Boomstick   

• Maybe just a couple pages listing some of the other games and minor commentary, when they released, who published it, etc

• Marvel Zombies (Pablo: Wait, you met Spider-man? Ash: No! I mean, *I* did but another *me* did. Or something like that.)

• Reanimator (Ash’s funny commentary on Herbert West) (Brandy: Wait, you met the mad scientist head guy? Ash: Yup! He gives great head. Ha! I’ve been waiting forever for that one.)

• Army of Darkness Comics (Kelly: I’m calling bullshit. There’s no god damn way you met Freddy Krueger AND Xena. Fuck you.) (Ash: I did!) 

**Chapter 8: Behind the Scenes**

• I need all of the storyboardssss

• Any BTS pictures of cast and crew

• I loved Bruce’s drawings of the torture devices Sam made during the movies I want more in here

• Maybe an actual explanation from Sam as to why he wants the piss colored car in all of his movies

• List of actors, actresses across media (A joke about how many different Ash’s bruce played)

**Chapter 9: The Future (pls animated show)**

• Photos of fandom, conventions

• Hail to the Deadites movie pics shown

• Merchandise

Feel free to add any ideas at the bottom or let me know how much this sucks or rules LMAOO

#evil dead #ash williams #please i need this book bible.........i'd buy it....5 times...

[ground-muttmeg]

Alfons, of course (for the character thing) also Russell Tringham

I’m gettin real tired so I think I’ll save Russell for tomorrow (love him, excited to talk about him), but tonight-

My boy!! My best boy!! Your fav and mine,

Alfons!

Why I like them: Oh my god you don’t wanna get me started. Oh god. The only reason I’m gonna hold back from a rant this time is bc it’s after midnight and I’m tired as heck rn, but just understand I do have an entire imaginary dissertation to share on Why I Love Alfons Heiderich.

Why I don’t: I’LL NEVER FORGIVE COS FOR MAKING HIM HIT EDWARD IN THE STAIRS SCENE. WHY DO THEY INSIST ON MAKING EVERYONE EDWARD LOVES HURT HIM, WHY

Favorite episode or scene: His introductory scene, him and Ed driving in the car and him laughing at Ed’s story 🥺🥺

Favorite season/movie: th,,,,,there’s not exactly much choice-

Favorite line: Okay besides his entire monologue with Edward before his death, I absolutely fucking LOVE the line he gives after Ed goes crashing through the window and banging all around before he lands inside the warehouse- “:0!......I guess we don’t have to go pick him up now-” FUCKING NNDKKDDJDJ

Favorite outfit: He’s only got one and he KILLS it ok, if it ain’t broke don’t fix it-

OTP: HeiEd!!!! Aahhh!!! I cannot express how much I adore this ship!!!

BROTP: Guess what it’s HeiEd again!!!! Because them as platonic besties is just as absolutely adorable!!! .....also I’m pretty sure Ed’s like the only character besides Noah that he speaks to in the whole film-

Headcanon: I really love the idea that Alfons isn’t only the parallel of Alphonse, but that he’s a representative combination of all the people Edward loved/looked up to—Al’s name and facial features, Winry’s hair and eye color (and engineering profession), Pinako for taking Edward in, Izumi for coughing up blood, Trisha for dying from a sickness, Hughes for dying from Bullet In Chest disease. It’s a really poetic way of tying up the series ngl (and is hella soulmate au fodder for HeiEd enthusiasts)

Unpopular opinion: Alfons is so rare already any opinion on him is unpopular-

A wish: WISH HE WASN’T DEAD THANKS

An oh-god-please-don’t-ever-happen: I’ve read it in fanfics- Alfons confesses to Edward, Edward rejects him, sometimes quite cruelly- As an Alfons kinnie (and Ed simp skdjf but the kinning Alfons is more important here), god, that stuff hurts so much... ,,,I should probably stop reading those djnfjf

5 words to best describe them: rent free headspace 24/7

My nickname for them: Actually my partner’s Ed’s nickname for him, but...Fons,,, 🥺💕💖

#bee talks

[astralgloss]

im a curious meanie so 1-134 muhahaha you get to relive the hell i just went through

etab i haTE U

1: Name

my name is marit lol but please just keep it mar

2: Age

i am 17 but i’ll b 18 in 2 months!!!!

3: 3 Fears

the dark, complete and utter loneliness, and clowns

4: 3 things I love

books, forest fruit tea, the sound of rain

5: 4 turns on

a nice smile that reaches the eyes, a nice smell, having a dog ngl, a soft touch

6: 4 turns off

extreme arrogance, insisting to pay for my meal if i want to pay bc its “what a man should do”, forcing lifestyles on me, not caring about my interests

7: My best friend

she does have tumblr but idk it but hey demi if u ever see this ur the bomb.com

8: Sexual orientation

im bi fam

9: My best first date

my bf and i went to amsterdam to go shopping and he followed me everywhere (even the bookshop even though he hates books) and idk i just love him it was a nice day

10: How tall am I

im 1,65m or 5′4″ but i can and will kick ur ass

11: What do I miss

nothing really??

12: What time was I born

ok so i asked my mom and she said i was born on a tuesday at exactly 12pm but i bet she’s lying

13: Favorite color

yellow!! im basic!!

14: Do I have a crush

well i sure hope so @ boyfriend

15: Favorite quote

to the stars who listen, and the dreams that are answered

16: Favorite place

my bf’s house tbh, specifically his bed

17: Favorite food

pizza, specifically the hot chicken one from ny pizza

18: Do I use sarcasm

nah fam (ofc i do im a little shit)

19: What am I listening to right now

god is a woman by ariana grande

20: First thing I notice in new person

how they look at other people when those people don’t notice it

21: Shoe size

38/39 idk the other size lol sorry 

22: Eye color

its blue but it changes with my mood (oh my god im so sorry im kidding please don’t hate me)

23: Hair color

im a blondie

24: Favorite style of clothing

sth casual but also a bit towards the punkish style, but i also rlly love looking tiny and soft and cute lol

25: Ever done a prank call?

ok so there’s this hotline for kids who have troubles with their parents and families but it was a shit hotline tbh so once i called it up with my friends pretending i was crying and the man on the phone asked me what was wrong so i told him that all my friends had fire type pokemon and i only had grass type pokemon and they kept beating me and i didnt know what to do and then man was so confused it was funny af

27: Meaning behind my URL

idk man i wanted a name that could b easy to remember and i was inspired by ridgeport tbh

28: Favorite movie

the perks of being a wallflower

29: Favorite song

Fav song atm is anything from p!atd's newest album and my fav song of all time is probably train of consequences by megadeth

30: Favorite band

megadeth lol

31: How I feel right now

pretty good but also annoyed bc i have to go to work in half an hour :(

32: Someone I love

my bf

33: My current relationship status

if u guys havent noticed by now im taken

34: My relationship with my parents

p ok

35: Favorite holiday

halloween/christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

I have my ears pierced and thats it lol

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

i rlly want a few bookish related tattoos, like a tiny raven, a little lightning bolt, and the city of velaris and then i also rlly want a sleeve tbh but imma be a teacher and idk if i can :/ about piercings: i rlly want a helix or tragus and maybe get second holes in my hearlobes

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

ok so ive been on tumblr for about 5 years and initially it was bc i was Depressed™ and then about a year ago i found out about simblr and i was hooked

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

tbh i dont even talk to him anymore i dont rlly care about him in any way

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

yes bih

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

hes my bf so yea lol

42: When did I last hold hands?

wednesday

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

about 45 minutes bc im lazy and i keep getting distracted

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

nope

45: Where am I right now?

in bed lol

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

either my bf or my best friend

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

depends on where i am

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

mom

49: Am I excited for anything?

tbh moving out but thats gonna take a few more years

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

*insert bf here*

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

every time im at work lol

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

wednesday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

lol bye

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

nope

55: What is something I disliked about today?

the fact that i have to work a day shift instead of an evening shift

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

my internet friends tbh it’d be cool to meet all the people from my bookish discord or from @booptherat​‘s discord

57: What do I think about most?

what book i should read next

58: What’s my strangest talent?

i can finish a book in about 4 hours

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

not rlly? i hate the whole asmr thing tho ew

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind lol

61: What was the last lie I told?

i dont remember tbh

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

neither lol

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

look im not saying that believing that we’re the only living species in the entire universe is narcissistic, but it is. also dont fuck with ghosts

64: Do I believe in magic?

hell yes

65: Do I believe in luck?

hell yes

66: What’s the weather like right now?

idk probably cloudy and windy

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

fahrenheit 451 by ray bradbury 

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

nah not rlly

69: Do I have any nicknames?

i guess mar?

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

when i was 2 i fell from sth and slammed the corner of my eye onto the corner of a table and i couldve been blind but thank god im not

71: Do I spend money or save it?

both 

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?

yup

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

post it notes

74: Favorite animal?

doggg

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

reading lol

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

idk man

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

i gotta feeling by the black eyed peas lol

78: How can you win my heart?

give me a samoyed and a 1000 books

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

“a boss ass bitch”

80: What is my favorite word?

fuck?

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

@cubersims​ @imvikai​ @ridgeport​ @cowplant-pizza​ @bloomlet​ @tiptoptab​

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

spend fiddies, pet kitties, hold tiddies

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

not that i know of lol

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

the power to choose whatever power i want at any moment

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

“do you like working here?”

86: What is my current desktop picture?

its an august background from @emmastudies​

87: Had sex?

yes

88: Bought condoms?

no

89: Gotten pregnant?

no

90: Failed a class?

yes

91: Kissed a boy?

yup, i’ve been kissing my bf for about 2,5 years now lol

92: Kissed a girl?

yup, i’m living the bisexual dream lol

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

yes

94: Had job?

yes, im working at a movie theater right now!!

95: Left the house without my wallet?

tbh all the time now that i can pay with my phone

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

yea i used to but that was when i was 12 and i’d like to say that i’ve grown a lot in the past 5 years

97: Had sex in public?

nope

98: Played on a sports team?

yes

99: Smoked weed?

nope, even though i live like 20 minutes away from amsterdam lol

100: Did drugs?

nope

101: Smoked cigarettes?

nope

102: Drank alcohol?

yupppp, i love me some raspberry cider

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

nope

104: Been overweight?

nope

105: Been underweight?

nope

106: Been to a wedding?

yup

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

lol all the time tbh

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

yup

109: Been outside my home country?

yup, however never outside of europe tho

110: Gotten my heart broken?

a few times

111: Been to a professional sports game?

yess, i saw the dutch female volleyball team once!

112: Broken a bone?

nope

113: Cut myself?

yes

114: Been to prom?

we dont do prom in the netherlands lol

115: Been in airplane?

yes

116: Fly by helicopter?

nope

117: What concerts have I been to?

k3 (only dutchies and belgians remember this), one direction, megadeth, and ed sheeran

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

yupp

119: Learned another language?

i mean im from the netherlands and im fluent in english thanks to myself

120: Wore make up?

yuppp

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

yes

122: Had oral sex?

lol yes

123: Dyed my hair?

nope

124: Voted in a presidential election?

not old enough to vote :(

125: Rode in an ambulance?

nope

126: Had a surgery?

nope

127: Met someone famous?

nope

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

nope

129: Peed outside?

a few times lol

130: Been fishing?

nope

131: Helped with charity?

yep

132: Been rejected by a crush?

a few times

133: Broken a mirror?

lol yes

134: What do I want for birthday?

some books, money, cake, more books, makeup

#this was A LOT #im done now #no more questions #about me #asks #tiptoptab

[day-trippin-dreamer]

tinaaa im sorry for the late reply. just got busy for the past days, but anyway! im here again to bother you aha 😌👉🏻👉🏻

i get what you mean! growing up, hugh was in almost every movie i have ever watched like.. because yknow my mom’s into romance and all that. what’s your favourite movie of his? (if u have!). ngl i was shocked by the third installment, i was like why is there a different guy and not hugh haha. his character was such a chick magnet. but yes!!!! me and my mom are both rooting for mr. darcy like dude veiduhcfhdjd. we have a lot in common oh my god. what’s your mbti if you dont mind? im an infp.

thank you so much, tina!!! i’ve been thinking about if i really belong to this program bc i wasn’t fully excelling at it and my classmates are really good and i feel like they have a bright opportunity for the future. so yeah theres that.. but your message? ugh thanks for believing in me even if i was just a stranger! thank you. i dont know what state or mood you are currently in, but i wish the best for you and i believe in you as well <3

that’s nice. are you cool with your current job? i hope you stay safe wherever you are.

hopefully i can try the latte oh my god. what’s your habit of drinking coffee? bc the coffee posts you reblog are funny to me!

yes! i mean presents. sorry to confuse you.

and don’t worry about converting it to fahrenheit, our standard is celsius as well so i got it! :)

how has your day been? 💖

aah hii bestie!! don't worry about it!! i'm happy that you're back because we didn't finish talking and i missed you 😭

so true!! he was constantly on tv lol!! my dad hates him for that it's so funny 😭 my favourite (from the ones I've watched) is probably Bridget Jones' Diary lol! I've seen a lot of his other ones, but that one is just a classic and it's his best era (imho lol)!

i was shocked about that too!!! i haven't seen the movie itself yet (partly because of that) but when i saw the trailer i was so confused haha!! yesss Mr. Darcy!! It's so funny to me he's also been Mr. Darcy in Pride and Prejudice??

We do!! This is adorable!! I'M ALSO AN INFP WHAAT 😱🥺 rip it's a struggle to be on one tbh but at least we're cute 😌

of course i believe in you!! everything will fall into place, i'm sure, don't compare yourself to your classmates because everyone is on their own path i believe and just try to enjoy your program 🥺 and hopefully find some cool, like-minded people!! aah and thank you for all your kind words 🥺💗

i'm cool with my current job yeah lol 🥺

i hope you can!! my habit of drinking coffee is, as ed sheeran recently sang, a bad habit lmao. i drink every day because my body has definitely developed an addiction but for now i'm okay with that because i like coffee lol.

haha, it's okay! I don't really want anything this year, like there's nothing I've been saving for or hoping to get. Maybe a new tattoo lol?What about you??

Celsius FOR THE WIN!! seriously Fahrenheit is so lame ugh 🙄 (american mutuals dni lmao)

my day has been eh :// i didn't get much sleep last night so i can't wait to get home and catch up on it!! maybe watch a movie 🥺 how have you been?? i hope you stay safe as well and thanks for stopping by!!

p.s. are you my joey anon? 🥺🥺🥺

#the only thing good about Fahrenheit is its name i think it's cooler than Celsius #anon treasures #inbox treasures #and I'm just asking because i want to give you your own tag if you're not!! <33 #or give you your old one back lol #the joey to my chandler

[wyrmsandrocs]

*kicks your door down* aLL THE FUCKING ASKS YA BINCH

1. selfie - cant link a photo on mobile but click this lmao 2. what would you name your future kids? - Bob. I have very little idea lmao i cant even name my characters 3. do you miss anyone? - Yeah, but everyone i miss was shit anyway so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ lmao4. what are you looking forward to? - tomorrow bc i can see wyna again lmao ((yes i know you asked but like just saying”when i can see you again” sounds weird in a general post)) 5. is there anyone who can always make you smile? - Wyna lmao 6. is it hard for you to get over someone? - yes 7. what was your life like last year? - pretty good but I was struggling to detach myself from toxic people 8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed? - y e s 9. who did you last see in person? - aside from my fam, @canipetyourdragon and @softbutchnepeta 10. are you good at hiding your feelings? - when I want to, yeah 11. are you listening to music right now? - No but I have Merano from Chess in my head god save me 12. what is something you want right now? - A MOThERFUCKING APPLE FRITTER. PLEASE. 13. how do you feel right now? - pretty good, kinda tired, kinda numb but hey thats life

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you? - like two hours ago when my lil bros hugged me

 15. personality description - ((im guessing this means my personality?)) Stressed, depressed, but well dressed. Anxiety Incarnate. Allergic to chill. ambitious, traumatized, FocusedTM. I’d like to say im funny but who knows. wyna am i funny? most likely annoying. 16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t? - y e s 17. opinion on insecurities. - a normal part of being human 18. do you miss how thing were a year ago? - n o p e im really really happy with how things are now, and I don’t truly miss the way things were

19. have you ever been to New York? - nope20. what is your favourite song at the moment? - Vincent (Starry Night) by Josh Groban. its so beautiful and im sobbing. 21. age and birthday? - ummm i dunno i stopped counting a few ceturies back. it’s been a while and no one remembers it any way so *shrug*22. description of crush. - Smart, funny, kind, a complete dork. Her hair is always rlly curly and it’s adorable but she usually keeps it back in a ponytail or smthn. a ridiculous hufflepuff nerd and a rlly Cool Person. ((disclaimer: platonic crushes only))23. fear(s) - Being abandoned, myself, getting into another bad relationship, spiders, and taxidermy. 24. height - im like almost 6 feet tall25. role model - uhhh idrk if i have a role model. Nina Zenik lmao 26. idol(s) - Leigh Bardugo27. things i hate - Spiders, idiots, assholes 28. i’ll love you if… - you send me asks or buy me cute stationary. 29. favourite film(s) - Fight Club, the animated Anastasia movie30. favourite tv show(s) - Voltron, Stranger Things, and Turn 31. 3 random facts - Polar bear fur is actually clear, the things on giraffes heads are called osocones, and the same opening literary device was used in The Odyssey, Romeo and Juliet, Sweeny Todd, and Hamilton. 32. are your friends mainly girls or guys? - No. most of my friends are nb 33. something you want to learn - To play the piano, to cope better. 34. most embarrassing moment - okay kiddos buckle up it’s story time. once when I was like 9 and on Quotev I saw this comment thread that said “lyric chain.” I thought this meant people were making up lyrics, so i scrolled to the end and continued “She’ll fade out tonight, straight down the line” with “straight down that liiiiiiiiine,” extra vowels and all. It was only years later that a song played on the radio and i did a spit take. this was the song that I had added to years ago. I asked my mother what it was. It was the a team by Ed Sheeran. I have now died of embarrassment 35. favourite subject - history 36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill? - Publishing a book, being fluent in at least two languages, publishing a book of poetry37. favourite actor/actress - okay ngl first thought was jeremy jordan bc im musical theatre trash 38. favourite comedian(s) - umm im not really sure 39. favourite sport(s) - no 40. favourite memory - going to the leigh bardugo book signing in august with @canipetyourdragon @snicksnackknickknack and @a-digital-ace 41. relationship status - very very single lmfao 42. favourite book(s) - anything by Leigh Bardugo, specifically Six of Crows 43. favourite song ever - oh man idk maybe Believer by Imagine Dragons or anything off of Melodrama by Lorde 44. age you get mistaken for - like early 20s 45. how you found out about your idol - my gramma gave me a book she wrote 46. what my last text message says - And in crying bc this isn’t my freddy I love Freddy he’s a brilliant clever puppet master asshole 47. turn ons - um ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 48. turn offs - ¯\_(ツ)_/¯¯\_(ツ)_/¯¯\_(ツ)_/¯49. where i want to be right now - with wyna 50. favourite picture of your idol - ooh there was a rlly great selfie she posted a while ago on insta51. starsign - taurus sun libra moon 52. something i’m talented at - poetry 53. 5 things that make me happy - wyna, books, writing, music, chocolate 54. something thats worrying me at the moment - the future 55. tumblr friends - @sunshinesorbet we dont talk that much but ur great n ily friend 56. favourite food(s) - spaghetti, waffles, cake, and stroganof ((idk how to spell that)) 57. favourite animal(s) - cats, owls, doves, deer58. description of my best friend - amazing and great and kind and funny and wonderful. 100% a dork and i love her a lot 59. why i joined tumblr - bc of someone I dont talk to anymore lmfao.

ty so much for asking ily forever now!

#wyna #freya answers

[janzz]

day 3: its 3:47am on day 4 and i forgot to write my daily post

really really really trying hard to make this a habit (just for april)

so fail but lol

here’s my post for today

i went to a yoga class tonight in santa clara and it was the yogi’s first time and she was so good omg!

not quite as good as my fave instructor of all time (the bae lauren at moxie yoga in sf)

but yeah kimberly at corepower santa clara square might make me a regular!

(which honestly is super great because i went to class with norma and it was awful LOL)  (she played like hardcore edm at a chill class??) (to be fair it was also a level 2 class and i was struggling a little and kimberly’s class was a level 1....)

(oh i went to whole foods in the same plaza right after and ngl im starting to really enjoy just physically being in those fancy ass supermarkets.  i went to a new to me nob hill after orangetheory surprisingly also in santa clara ----theyre just nice and clean and beautiful.  however spending $45 to get way less stuff than a 99 ranch or something still feels way wrong.  i got bananas cashew milk chia seed refill 18 brown eggs (anthony likes the brown ones idk) natural deodorant (cause native has been sucking hard) ginger tofu mushrooms orange juice fancy sprouted bread shredded cheese actually ok when i list that all out its a decent amount for whole foods.  the stuff is just smaller yknow like the presliced white mushrooms were $1 for easily like 3 or so oz less)

anyway i find this funny because when i started dating anthony in 2015 he would go to nob hill markets and always claim it was his favorite market (because the chicken he would buy from there would never go bad etc).  i thought he was like idk rich af -- to be fair he went to stanford 2x and has his masters and is 2 years older so yeah he is definitely more privileged than me.  like i didnt have a preference for cage free brown eggs like i never had the money to spend the extra $1 or 2 on that shit when i was slaving at starbucks AND a second office job.

its really weird how money changes your life.  its 2019 and i finally hit the 100k 6 figure mark.  it’s honestly been a STRUGGLE to get here, but i’ve learned a lot along the way -- primarily that you HAVE to negotiate and generally just get paid more to improve your life.  anyway yeah money doesn’t solve problems but it generally reduces  your mental calories and makes things way more convenient.

before when i was poorer, i would have to go out of my way to make sure i was getting the cheapest shell gasoline in the area (still gotta have standards and not give into that arco bullshit).  i would never go into whole foods or places like that because my dollar had to stretch further.  whenever i would go out with friends before i’d have to be SUPER mindful of what i ordered and i would be EXTRA annoyed when you go out in a group and when splitting venmo people wouldnt pay the extra gratuity and i’d factor in me covering it because as a barista and server its bs when ppl dont tip well

now -- idgaf if i go out to eat a lot or splurge when im out w friends.  dropping $50-$100 randomly cause something is on clearance at lululemon is not a big deal.  im not anal about my boyfriend and i splitting everything exactly 5050 down the middle cause meh whatever i dont need to be given money back for like the minimal difference.  if whole foods is convenient for me to go to after a workout ill go in without batting an eyelash.  

it is weird tho being poor and then having money -- like ill go to lululemon but absolutely CANNOT buy anything full price.  i still like watching movies but 99% of the time go on discount days cause spending $20 when i could spend $9 feels wrong.  whenever i do basic things with my boyfriend, like going to the grocery store or mall, i’m most definitely the most cost conscious -- checking against the value per oz, whereas he just picks whatever and gives no thoughts to it (i think he makes like 240k a year thereabouts, definitely more than double but i dont know the specifics).  i drive a 2015 toyota corolla le he drives a nicer but still affordable more luxury sedan hyundai sonata souped up with seat warmers navigation and he’s installed a dash cam and stuff.  my car is definitely a commuter car that’s just one level up from the s basic model.  when i htink about buying a new car i dont know if i could buy a lexus but yet i sometimes think about getting a tesla instead of a prius

another weird one is getting mad at myself for leaving reusable grocery bags LITERALLY in the trunk and then having to pay the $0.10 per bag.  I’ve easily spent at least $15 on bags prob.  Before i would be kicking myself hard cause i’d need to pinch pennies.  another thing that ive noticed makes me feel “rich” is i can sustain my craft coffee/boba habit just fine and not give a fuck.  before i got more mindful of it i htink my my coffee boba budget was like $100 a month.  ive always loved craft coffee, but it has to be RIGHT if i was gonna spend $6.  when i was living w my parents in san diego going to a new coffee shop and driving up to encinitas or whatever was like THE trip. now i get philz off my mobile app whenever i head out of class or if im feeling like it and its not that special

but yeah, im not rich by any means but it was huge to go from like $16 an hour at my office job/$15.70?? w/ benefits I think that was my starbucks shift supervisor rate/annual salaries of 20k ish to $39k at a law firm in downtown sac (grossly underpaid but at least rent was only $300 at a family friends) back to the law firm job up to $70k.  there i got a raise at the same job from 70 to 80k and then 80k to 86.

THEN cause i was privileged enough to have been able to save money making more when i hated my job i just up and quit (i think i had like no more than 5k in savings at the time --it wouldve been more but i spent 3k on prk/lasik).  anyway yeah i was lucky af and got a new job in a month -- and the offer for this job was 100k base, 10k bonus, some amount of stock (i still suck at this stuff) and a stupid amount of perks like $1000 gym reimbursement and basically free health insurance -- if i annualize all my pay+perks, assuming i get my full bonus, its prob like 120k.

so i have like 5x ed my income in 4 years since graduating from college.

the crazy part is people that were more privileged than me STARTED at 100k as new grads, including 401ks and what not.  im lucky becuase i started mine back when i was 18 at starbucks.

income inequality and access to knowledge/resources has become something ive become more aware about and passionate about over time.  me and my boyfriend clashed a lot earlier i think because we literally were in different planes of our lives and income levels.  we’ve been together 3 years, but have known each other for 4.  we broke up for 1 year in between -- and yeah ngl had i never improved myself or actually reached my income/earning potential we likely would not have gotten back together.  additionally him supporting me when we got back together raised me out of not the poverty level but yeah we met and i made 39k.  i took the plunge and moved out to sf for myself and lets be real for him too and made 70k which was a huge jump.  and in a short 15 months or so i jumped again to 100k base.

im never gonna make as much as he does (men/women blah we can get into that) but yeah even having access to money adjacently is so powerful.  anthony never outright gave me money and im too much of a hardass independent person that ive NEVER borrowed money from him, never intend to.  i really vehemently despise the idea of free loading but because of him just being around yeah my life has been improved.  

when we met in 2015 in our young 20s we were in our have fun phase.  i was too poor to have gone to thiings like coachella or out to a concert.  he got me into music and made it easy for me to experience because he’d buy the ticket, drinks, pick me up and pay for sf parking.  i would likely get dinner ahead of time or something small and generally we would switch so if he got tickets one time i’d get them next.  but he ALWAYS paid for drinks and lets be real the occasional not drinks :P he had introduced me to music in such a way that i was willing to drop $800 or so on coachella + car camping + take pto days even when we were broken up 10ish months or whatever it was the first time we dated but if you think about it he likely dropped at least 1k on me during those 10 months without batting an eye lash.  i made 39k at the time working in downtown sacramento and he made 90k base (maybe 115k total comp) living in SF.

despite just basic things like me being immature for 23 -- a big reason i think we broke up at the time was the income level inequality.  it was both our first jobs out of school (first job out of stanford grad for him, he immediately got his masters out of undergrad).  i did a round of uc davis, community, uc davis.  

he told me he was breaking up with me because when we met i had originally wanted to be a lawyer and then didnt end up pursuing that path and he saw it as a lack of ambition/drive.  what he didnt see was general growing up and not having access to lawyers as i grew up, just me working at this really top tier A+ law firm and feeling out of place as an asian woman working with rich WASPs.  me wearing pencil skirts and having major impostor syndrome.  what he did end up seeing was an insecure version of myself in our relationship with me bending over backwards to make him happy.

when i moved to sf and made 70k it definitely was a huge ego boost to make that additional 30k, but to be real, here in sf and paying more rent than i was in sac and SD/just general living being expensive 70k wasnt that much.  what it did for my confidence though was priceless (i was an ea to a ceo at a tech startup).  i really grew into myself and was more confident in my abilities -- and honestly a lot of that was just getting older and knowing that i was good at things, bad at certain things and i wasnt going through my quarterlife/post grad crisis anymore.  

then those raises to 80k and 86k made me more ballsy.  these things were obvi practiced with anthony as i had a partner to discuss and practice with/an educated thought partner.  at this time anthony was making $150k base or so (after realizing he had been grossly underpaid as a PM for the 90k initial salary)

all of this set me up to basically make my position what it is now AND for it to be 100k.  tbh im a glorified low level coordinator at a big company.  i honest to goodness for the first three months probably worked a total of 2ish hours a day? this role should probably max out at 90k.  and by max out i mean this role likely shouldve started at 75k with incremental raises to get to 90 in like 3 years.  i STARTED at 100 and can likely if i play my cards right be promoted to a program manager in a year (or less).  that’ll prob bump me to a base of 120 or so if i’m aggressive.

i always shitted on sf when i moved here because i hate the tech bros, the elitist ppl, the vcs who think theyre out here changing the world but seriously being surrounded by people that went to ivy leagues or the UC’s that were better than mine have honestly, like my boyfriend, just uplifted my status.  something as small as casual lunch time conversation being more intellectual makes a huge difference for me re: how stimulated i feel and how much more energized ive become because of ppl around me.  i def still have impostor syndrome all the time but its been so much growth from 23 to 27.

30s should be great because ill be well into my career by then and making even more and closing the gap even more w my boyfriend.  its funny too cause hes 29 now AND FINALLY getting that postgrad quarter life crisis.  his privilege was able to offset him to have this crisis later on in life where he made more money and could make smarter choices.  privilege really is the thing that keeps on giving and im grateful to have started poor and really appreciate it.  as i make more money i also care more and more to give back.  if i ever do run for office in my 50s or whatever im gonna push for more access to education and arts.  i had an interest in this as an undergrad but couldnt pursue it because itd be a lifetime of poverty, but yeah who knows.

dang this went long but it is really interesting when i think about money and how much its effected me.  im lucky i was able to raise myself out of the level my immigrant parents brought me and my sister to.  them moving out of the philippines was the best thing that ever happened to me.  the second is them fronting the bill for my university education.  the privilege i have is extremely special and important and i want to honor their sacrifices because im sitting on a 100k because of decades of hard work and frugality on their ends.

im fucking lucky.

we gotta pass on the resources and uplift those around us if we are fortunate.  

...another rant altogether but i wish the leadership in the United States thought the same way. 

(end: 4:36am, why do i do this to myself)