#dumb mind problems my head made up 🙄

[eternal-reverie]

got the posting anxiety bad tonight

#click clack #ok a peak into my thought process and anxiety here we go #ok so the art is almost done and up to standard I would post onto my art blog #BUT for some reason the thought of posting art of my ocs there scares me #because even tho it’s my art blog in my mind it’s the equivalent to a art gallery that demands being detached????? from the art #like once I share it there it’s no longer ‘mine’ but to the public #and my ocs (plus the stories that go with them) are like the closest to my heart and relinquishing them feels like a lot #a part of my imagination that I spent so much time with developing over the years to be placed up for judgement… #so then the solution could be to put it here on my personal! the online space cozy enough and filled with other posts that could easily bury #the original posts I put here #but there goes my other dilemma. i don’t want them too associated with my personal for if one day i do muster up something for publication #my big fear is that ppl will find this space and go thru everything. the fear of being perceived and judged 😵‍💫 #all the hypotheticals and anxiety for something that may not even happen #dumb mind problems my head made up 🙄 #anyway writing it out helped lol I’m posting it to my art blog I decided 👍 #I have to work on getting that blog to be comfortable space to post… i should lower that silly self imposed standard I set for myself #and be whatever about ppl being aware of my online presences #maybe… [grinding my teeth] I should post my messy sketches onto my art blog… #I should take my friends suggestion and make a website to feature my ocs…🤔 #idk my only other solution that doesn’t feel viable to mitigate the anxiety is to slowly introduce my ocs in the background of setting art #just a slow drip until they are in the forefront #bleghhh whatever much ado about nothing it’s like I never posted my ocs ever when I have indeed posted them before on both places ( º＿º ) #I’m realizing it happens too when I post too much fanart in a row… I have curator disease??? 🫨 #or something I used to be very particular about what order I reblog stuff like it used to be by color and content balanced out #I still do to a lesser degree… but it used to be pretty bad #post order compulsion???? #the fear of being abrupt and incohesive in between posts… #if you read this far thanks you can now see how much this consumes me 🙃

[rinatic]

hii can i request johnny as a boyfriend?

A/n: first request, hope you like it :)

Johnny as a boyfriend

Johnny was buying a gift for his friend when he saw you

You two were in the store at the same time picking stuff from the same aisle

He saw that your eyes settled on a plushie that you wanted to get but before you can decide, he grabbed it

Laughing in the inside like the little shit he is, you didn't mind it

But it doesn't stop there

"Do you know what to buy for a friend?"

He wanted to start any conversation even though he already picked the plushie

You started giving him ideas by pointing at different things but he's not paying attention

He's staring at you, without hiding the fact that he is doing so

Is highkey flirting

Because he is talkative, you two stand there in the store for good thirty minutes talking even though you're strangers

Managed to get your phone at the end of the conversation

As you two became friends, johnny would always call you to hang out, and you couldn't refuse

Who wouldn't hang out with him?

He would quickly grow a liking for you and starts to see you as a potential lover

Even if he doesn't necessarily 'love' you

But he slowly falls in love, and you become the most important person in his life

So he won't confess immediately, he'll drop hints, make you flustered on purpose and flirt with you more

One day, he decided that he needs to actually confess because you're dumb lol and he's afraid someone is going to steal you

When you guys start dating, he actually stops being too playful because you two are not friends anymore

He pretends to be mature, but as soon as you enter the room, he collapses internally

Bro is whipped

Is so fucking cocky it's annoying lol

Like he's so extra when he introduces himself to your friends "I'm y/n's sexiest, prettiest, boyfriend, simply the best person in her life"

Is so competitive

Like he literally puts himself in weird situations because he thinks everyone is competing for your love

Talks shit about your male friends

LOVES LOVES LOVES making you flustered

How your cheeks turn a light shade of pink and you hide your face with your hand? He lovessss it

He loves seeing you blush easily at his words, it boosts his ego sm

When you move to his house, you find the plushie you wanted there on his nightstand

"I kept it with me because it reminded me of you, but now you can take it." "Oh, what about your friend?" "It was for mork but fuck him jkkjkjkggt"

Head kisses are a thing mainly because of the height difference

Since i mentioned height, be prepared to be teased for it

Like he doesn't acknowledge the fact that he's so big and tall, he thinks you're so small and teases you for it

Can't reach him to kiss his lips? Your problem, when you two hang out you look like a father and a daughter? Your problem too

Secretly melts because of it

You think he's the most annoying when he's being cocky? Meet johnny i-want-your-full-attention suh

Bro turns into a five year old

"Y/n?? You're not even listening.", "i won't say it again, you should've paid attention.", "I'm literally shirtless in front of you yet you still chose to pay attention to your damn phone."

Is so whiney

Follows you around the house like a puppy

This happens mostly when he wants to show you something

Switches between this 🙄 and 😒

Has a saviour complex ????

Like when you get hurt slightly he makes a big deal out of it

"Omg you fell on the couch? Is your back okay?"

Gossip gossip gossip

Once he starts talking about his day

He. Will. Never. Shut. Up

The only solution to make him stop gossiping and talking shit: a kiss

Speaking of kissing, i don't see him as a rough kisser

He's actually gentle and his kisses are sweet

Unless you made him jealous or something he might devour you-

Sorry

Anyways

He's the type to take up all the space on the couch so you have nowhere to sit except on his lap

A littleshit

Judges people with you

"Oh my, look at their outfit, so fucking ugly i could never."

You always tell him to lower his voice but he's loud and probably the person heard

When you stare at him accidentally

"What? Am i so hot you can't stop looking at me?", "y/n is obsessed with meeee."

Neck kisses and bed conversations

Breakfast in bed is a thing

Jokes a lot just to hear you laugh because he loves it :)

Picks you up trom school/work and says it's his duty to do so

"Hello? Your personal driver arrived, where are you?"

So cuteeee

Also, this mf is so unpredictable ???

Sometimes he doesn't like pda and claims it's cringe then other time he literally holds onto you as if you'll run away from him

And people in the street are judging you

Since you're dating johnny, throw away your wardrobe for two reasons

One, because he thinks your style is ugly lol and he's going to buy you outfits that are better in his opinion

Two, he wants you to wear his clothes

Seeing you walk around in his hoodie or a jacket he just lent you

It makes his heart melt

Will often tell you to pick up anything you like from his closet

Don't take him to events

Is highkey hilarious

He won't embarrass you, but your friends will gradually like him more lol

The pranks

You'll never recover from his pranks, you either end up laughing or completely traumatized no in between

At night, you spend your time cuddling

He likes to tangle your legs and wrap his arm tightly

The type to scoff and sigh when you move away while you two are cuddling

But he brings you back to him with his strong arm

He traps you in his shirtless chest

So it's hard to breath because his gigantic boobs are not allowing you to

But you don't mind it

Is a big spoon but enjoys being the small one too

Play with his hair!!! He loves it

"I washed my hair extra well today, touch it! It's so fluffy!"

You know he washed it well so you can play with it and compliment him

No personal space

"Are you seriously going to the bathroom? After i threw away all my work, friends and family behind you chose the bathroom instead of the love of your life 😟???"

Head on chest cuddles...

"You're taking up the whole bed." "Sleep on me then."

Is flexing his body strength all. The. Time

Anyways

Is so goofy when he's sleep deprived so make sure he sleeps lol

Laughs like a maniac at night to scare you

But is so cute so keep him hehe

Da best boyfriend idc 🤷‍♀️

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