#dont ask what compelled me to make this

[atlaskrr]

Kavetham headcanons

Not gonna go into detail but based on Alhaitham's idle animation, the way the keys are tangled shows that they most likely use a key dish (like wtf that's highly domestic)

A lot of people think Alhaitham specifically made a new key in gold for Kaveh but I'd like to think Kaveh took Alhaitham's key and asked someone to make another one in gold

Continuing the point above Alhaitham was highly pissed as he thought he lost his key and he was going to make Kaveh one anyway before it got stolen by non other than Kaveh himself

Kaveh is a top and Alhaitham is a bottom (I will not elaborate further)

Kaveh definitely just hiding pain with a smile (huh know someone who does that *coughs*)

Related to the point above he feels useless so sometimes when he's doing nothing he just thinks about what Alhaitham says when they bicker even though he tells himself Alhaitham doesn't mean it

Alhaitham is emotionally constipated so he doesn't realize his feelings until he talks to someone (maybe cyno) about how he is annoyed with the way Kaveh makes him feel which he tries to brush off as annoyance but then the person is like uuhhh dude, I think you're in love

Alhaitham denies his feelings for months

Even after reading books to research about love that tell him YOU ARE IN L O V E

Kaveh knew about his feelings early on and became more annoying to hide it

Kaveh has one condition to scold Alhaitham which is when the man is over working himself

Kaveh is stronger than Alhaitham (I mean my man is an architect and uses a claymore, still looks so dainty though)

Kaveh has multiple products for showering with exfoliator, soap, shampoo, conditioner, those hair vitamins while Alhaitham just wants to get it over quickly with shampoo and soap

Kaveh introduces him to all the different products and now Alhaitham shares soap and shampoo with Kaveh (totally to "just save money") but doesn't use the rest of the products

Same goes for skin care with Kaveh having toner, cleanser, lotion, sun screen, hydrator, hyloronic acid, niacinamide, face masks, salicylic acid and what not (like this is extensive skincare people)

Alhaitham buys a basic cleanser after Kaveh pesters him to, going on and on about the benefits of skincare (he's doesn't want to share his)

We also all agree that Alhaitham pays for all of the aforementioned products above (he's an unintentional sugar daddy)

Kaveh uses makeup (mainly eyeliner and lip gloss, just the basics) to be extra ✨✨✨✨

Alhaitham does to since he thinks it makes him more presentable (still won't do skincare though since he thinks most of the products are marketing bs)

I mean he's not wrong but-

Sometimes Alhaitham helps do Kaveh's hair

Alhaitham's love language is acts of service

Kaveh's love language is words of affirmation

They make it work

When they first start dating Alhaitham doesn't say I love you a lot and yk Kaveh is just "is he having doubts" "he doesn't feel the same way" or smth like that since he just freezes as well when Kaveh say I live you since my guy is flustered but after some drunk situations, they communicate

Drunk Kaveh is really soft, emotional and sappy

They share bottles of red wine

Alhaitham is deaf in one ear and hard of hearing in the other

Kaveh learnt sign language just to continue to talk to him or as it really is bicker with him after he turns of his hearing aid headphones (jokes on you Kaveh, he can close his eyes)

Alhaitham gave Kaveh a sumeru rose and Kaveh gave him a padisarah (let your imagination give you context to that)

Kaveh makes a huge mess with his sketches all over the place but organizes it after his creative rush

Alhaitham is the same but stays in his organized mess and it pisses Kaveh off

They both work themselves to sleep

They care for each other but forget to do for themselves (more Alhaitham)

We know what that high collar is for Alhaitham (it's to hide something called a hic-)

Kaveh has calloused fingers

Alhaitham has scuffed palms

They fit each other nicely

Alhaitham is flustered by physical touch at first but grows used to it

Rubbing comforting circles into each other's shoulder blades

Rubbing thumbs over the back of each other's hand

They both pulled each other by being autistic

Kaveh is stronger than Alhaitham but he doesn't have the muscle shown because

1. Long sleeves

2. Muscles do not equal strength

And 3. It's like tubbo who's very strong but doesn't look like it

#kavetham #haikaveh #genshin impact #headcanon #genshin headcanons #brainrot #dont ask what compelled me to make this #i update this list often

[lapiseditscorner]

kfc (klug fried chicken)

#puyo puyo #klug puyo puyo #dont ask what compelled me to make this

[intotheelliwoods]

lmao @dianagj-art @sharkfinn

#its them #the besties #no I dont know what compelled me to make this #why do you ask #could I have done something more productive??? yes......

[lemon-pilled]

happy pride gamers

#dialtown #phonegingi #karen dunn #oliver swift #randy jade #dont ask me what compelled me to make these i dont know either

[whitefangz]

photo of two mice creeping around in your cupboard

#dont ask me about the caption i didnt know what to say. What is there to say. theyre creeping around. Ok? #art #whitefang art #my characters #corrin #amaia #dnd au #i was compelled by god to not use a single reference making this and i think it kind of shows. But its okay. its for me #Have you noticed how cleric amaia's like casual clothes look different literally every time i put her in them #its cuz i like cant be fucked to remember what they look like so i just start doing whatever #anyway yea. Idk. Guys

[ladysqueakinpip]

the only thing my sister and i have to offer to the rise fandom is theories about how lou jitsu's dna recombined with the turtles

#i think about this a lot. like an embarrassing amount actually #i also think about what sorts of enzymes draxum mustve thrown into the ooze to trigger it all #i think there was probably a mystic factor as well #like a mystic catalyst #the turtles (and now splinter) would be considered transgenic organisms #and i dont have a whole lot of background in transgenic techniques so its a little harder for me #there are a lot of ppl at work who are experts on making humanized mouse models so i should ask them LOL #most of my research is on rna and protein expression and not dna modification #still compels me tho #megan we should try to find if anyone has sequence aligned turtle and human dna #im curious how similar the genomes are #and also what genes and consensus sequences are shared between reptiles and humans

[wizzardhat]

Im rereading nona and i am baffled anew by people who listen to jod recount every single agonizing step in his slow and terrible descent and are like, "wow John was always an awful irredeemable liar and his reluctance to admit that he set off the nukes was not, in fact, him struggling to accept the magnitude of how completely and terribly he failed and became the very person he was trying to stop, but was just another calculated lie because he's a Bad Man. if it were me i would have simply not done that." I have to assume these are the same people who read "**When our backs are against the wall and everything is falling apart we rarely become heroes" and were like "huh i wonder who thats for"

**approximate quote from memory because I cannot for the life of me find the exact excerpt but it was one of Wake's "letters" that only Harrow could read while they were in the bubble

#people get very defensive about this too like if you even imply that john's actions were individually understandable #or that the person he is in harrow the ninth is different from the person he was 10000 years prior immediately after the world ended #or if you suggest that sometimes. a person can be genuinely and truly traumatized by a tragedy of their own making. #and being traumatized is not a mark of moral correctness or victimhood but a neutral reality of human psyche separate from morality #or and this is a big one #suggest they consider genuinely what they would do at each step of that journey #and dont take Well I simply woudl not have nuked the earth or #Well he's a liar so most of that was probably a lie anyway #as an answer #well #people dont like that lol #john being indefensible seems to be so important to people #that to suggest that John's downfall is an interesting and compelling study in how a person with good intentions can still end up the bad g #this will immediately be taken as Defending Him or Justifying His Actions and they will get Quite Upset #i know its asking a lot for people to appreciate the moral complexity of a well written villain who isn't like. a sexy meow meow or whateve #but it just amuses and annoys me #how people desperately need to flatten the complexity of this series #this is probably the reason why people who like TLT then turn around and recommend the shittiest books ever written as comparable #generally on the basis that they are both about Sword Lesbians #which is like. true on a superficial level. #But like. TLT is about sword lesbians in the same way that EEAAO is about a lady doing her taxes #these tags are longer than the post sorry lmao. i have Opinions about these books.

[the-acid-pear]

also check this out

never mind I had an ascii spamton ready because I noticed you like deltarune but the way asks former stuff made him all mangled, sorry.. I’ll give it a try anyways

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i Hope that worked YOURE really cool have a nice day

in my inbox is super mangled and fucked up WHICH TO BE FAIR. IS VERY FITTING LIKE FUCK YEAH THATS SPAMTON LMAO but ill try to see if its normal when posted

also hehehehe picking you up and carrying you like a cat for calling me cool. if you even care <33

EDIT: NO ITS STILL ALL FUCKED UP BUT ITS OKAY I APPRECIATE IT REGARDLESS AKGJNGHNKJN

#luly talks #i was gonna say like baby jesus because thats how i carry my cat domingo but i realized that would sound too insane #i am mary coded tho i mean CELIBACY #i dont know whats compelling me to make these statements anons got me acting goofy and silly #asks #anon

[todayisafridaynight]

i love rewatching mine cutscenes cause even if he tries to be about as emotional as a boulder there’s always at least one single frame of him where a thousand words couldn’t really encapsulate everything he’s feeling in that moment

#rgg #yakuza 3 #yoshitaka mine #snap chats #spam bots please dont touch this blog ty #utterly compelled to draw him again so heres my warning for mineposting later Potentially #BUT NO LISTEN HE'S SO FUNNY HE'S MY FAVORITE #i love that in characters when their feelings are so Blink And You Miss It- it makes it fun to spot #like i was rewatching the last cutscene of Y3 because it tickles my brain and also daigo makes me cry #but on that note like.. when daigo just asks mine if hes ok and doesnt really care too much about the situation at hand yk #like granted he probably just assumed the cia banged them up but he really doesnt even look for an explanation #he's just going off that assumption Presumably and so when he asks mine- totally none the wiser about what ACTUALLY happened- #and you just see the /slightest/ twitch in mine's eyes- like mine's expressive through his eyes i find #or maybe ive lost it but i feel like thats where you find his feelings best #my man's about to cry right there and then for almost killin the dude he loves and that kills me every single time #another instand i like with mine's Displays Of Emotion is that scene with him and kanda #where kanda just demands money and men from him and mine grimaces #like kanda can wreck all the shit in his apartment for all he cares but that line from kanda just plays into mine's mentality #of only really being perceived as useful if he can provide something material #it just makes it more evident that the matter's severe enough to him to shake the stoicism #i could vomit about mine all day i just think he's fun to look at under a microscope #i finished Y3 a long long while ago but it's still rotting my brain and at this point i should just replay it- but the blockin....

[violentdevotion]

I had multiple dreams last night.

I had a bf </3

someone in my family got bit by a zombie </3

some guy made me explain narrative structure to him </3

#ameera speaks #1 expanded) it was someone ik in real life 😔 which sucks soooo bad anyway he was at mine and we were watching a movie in my bed on my #laptop < (loser behaviour) and okay so im lying by referring to him as my bf bc we were just friends in the dream but then he started like #acting well intimate and i wasnt not into it so i was like hey whats going on here and we had a talk and then i had to sneak him out of my #house. dream 2) zombie apocalypse im in my room my nephews and nieces come in and i usher them out. the world is the samw just + zombies. #like think covid when it was dire but schools were still open? (my dream was a commentary on the countries failures to manage covid) so i #usher my neohews and nieces out and i make a comment to my sister in law like ooh im scared one of them got bit and my nephew was like some #girl bit me at school today and i told his mum and i stayed in my room and like an hour later i rang her like whats the update #and she was like oh yeah and came into my room to find my journal on zombie stuff and sge was like should i just cut off his arm and i was #idk try but if that doesnt work youre gonna have to... and she was SO CASUALLL !!!! and as she was leaving she started like picking things #up off the floor and i made a comment like your sons dying and youre sweeping and she was like way harsh tai and i woke up #that one was a commentsry on covid and also how i might be too mean to my sister in laws sometimes #3) i was in a library with friends researching smth and some asian guy sits on our table turns his back to us and talks to his friends. #then he starts playing music loudly from his phone and i move back to my table and as im walking he stops me and starts talking to some #girl on the table next to mine who he knows and is like hey i have an assignment due where i have to write a compelling narrative from my #own life ur clever can u help and she was a stem girly and went highschool with me and she pointed at me like ask her she does english #and he was like no u just tell me and she started helping him but i felt the advice she was giving was.. bad. so i interrupted like dont #you think that you should do __ instead and we had a discussion about it till i woke up. < that dream was a commentary on how useless my #degree is and how i wish it wasnt useless

[thwackk]

Omg, you are single-handedly getting me into Halbarry, can you please tell me which comics or media I need to consume to get more of them! Thank you so much ur so cool!!!!

i’ve infected you with the virus omg i’m sorry to tell you there is no cure. uhhmmm… only comic i can remember off the top of my head is the flash and green lantern: the brave and the bold! it’s short and fun and just real wholesome. good content

#i actually havent read that many comics that focuses on those two specifically and i dont think there are that many out there #what’s compelling abt them to me and leads me to love shipping them is the closeness they have with each other #the chemistry is there #but for me it’s about unconditional love #u can take that either as platonic or romantic it still applies both ways #it’s so sweet to me it’s beautiful #it’s the you’re my best friend and i would do anything for you and i’m also not afraid to call u out on shit #it’s also the hal being a better person around barry because barry makes him want to be the person barry believes he is #and the barry feeling like he doesn’t have to keep everything to himself around hal he doesn’t have to do it all alone #they make each other better #hal reminds him to not live in his head so much or he’ll think himself into oblivion #asks #thankyou for the ask!!

[dxlltears]

Glad to see the black butler fandom is all mutually being destroyed by the ending of the recent chapter.

#i dont know what this fucking image is please dont ask me why i felt compelled to make it #doll my beloved #this arc is going to destroy me #but doll my beloved #kuroshitsuji spoilers #black butler spoilers #❥︎ black butler #tw blood

[dirt-str1der]

I keep thinking of that writing prompts post where its like my daughter asks daddy why cant we go outside anymore ? But she already knows , and one of the comments was like Then why tf did she ask ?? , like yeah ... why ..... thinking shout that might produce even scarier horror concepts

#Listen to my problems #why did she ask when she already knows ..... are the twi of us forced to enact a scene over and over ..... what compelled us #is she asking because she wants to force an answer out of me ... make me say what i dont want to ... #you know the works

[diegoshargrieves]

no one cares stop watching if you don’t like it

no one cares stop reading my crit if you don't like it

#fan behaviour much? #but in the most genuine way possible. my friend. #why does somebody making a valid criticism abt a piece of popular of media anger you so much that ur compelled to send anon hate over it? #my friend. i dont know how to tell you that its a GOOD THING to criticize your media. #im not the only one that feels this way. blindly consuming media and placing it on a pedestal is inherently harmful #and besides. if i wanted to say i didnt like the romance in the superhero time travel paradox show then so what? whats wrong with that? #its called having an opinion. and that is healthy. repeat after me anon- it is HEALTHY to have opinions. #anyways if you're still bitter then get well soon ig #asks #anon

[baberoe-archive]

top 10 insane bucky moments?

god where do i start.

perhaps basic of me but getting drunk and then saying he's fine then asking curt to punch him in the face and then howling. perhaps number one bucky moment for me. just absolutely falling apart. i hear that brother. do you ever think about how eps 1-3 he never really lets buck see this side of him. and its only when curt dies that buck is privy to it. yeah i dont think about that either

"maaaaaarge...." is to me far more insane than scissoring in the yard. like at least when he's provoking fights it can be written off as restlessness, but mocking your best friend for taking comfort in his sweetheart's letter with the most sickeningly jealous expression in the world AND right in front of everyone's salad.......... this man is a medieval peasant self-flagellating in the street.

trading his sheepskin that buck hated to go on his first mission after buck went down. he didn't even think about it he just saw jack and ran over and did it. and then when brady asked him about it. he just straight up said "buck always hated that jacket" bitch WHAT

provoking col harding for no reason unprovoked. in front of the men!!! his self destructive tendencies and distaste for authority compel me

also when he starts yelling at that nazi guard on the march. that's such a good moment i get the impression that most of what bucky does is (to some extent) calculated like he knows hes being a dick he knows he flying too close to the sun and thats what he wants yknow he wants to egg people on but this moment he just completely lets go thats the pure thoughtless rage thats been simmering the whole series. god.

offscreen moment (forgive me) but not letting them send bucks footlocker back to the states. and then the 100th kept it for a full year like what did he say??? how desperate was he that no one could bring themselves to move bucks footlocker after a year???

stalag baseball scene. when you put on your off-putting and hard to be around-sona because you feel yourself to be so abandoned and abused that any semblance of gentleness would make you bare your teeth and bite. when you want to bite. when you dont want to bite.

willingly got a dart thrown at his face so he could give his boy best friend a bike so they could bike around together. ohhh my god bitch. down so bad its pathetic

whatever the hell he did to get on the regensberg mission and also the regensberg mission in general. pushing one of the gunners out of the way cause they were going for buck. "reserve command pilot" or whatever. i know what you are.

i dont remember the scene exactly but before the mission when they are getting their gear and hes like "call me sir" and crank goes "none of the people we're bombing today shot down buck" and then he just goes. absolutely silent. nothing to say to that. outline in the shape of a person moment.

#not necessarily in order of best to less better but i think you can tell which moments i spin around in my head lol #ask

[madamevirgo]

okay so i have an idea for a lady jessica x reader fic, where the reader is one of the fremen and supports and protects jessica, around the time when paul and jessica join the fremen. She is still pretty vulnerable and even a bit scared but only shows that side of herself with the reader.

obviously you dont have to write that :)

Mine to Give

Pairing: Lady Jessica x (f!)reader

Words: 2.9k

Warnings: none? Terrible writing, softness.

A/N: I took this and ran with it ijbol. I’m a little rusty, so I apologize, but I hope you’re happy with this. Thank you for the request!!

You looked up from the stillsuit that you’d been working on repairing for the last hour at the sound of rushed footsteps moving about. 

Although it was not uncommon to hear commotion about the Sietch, these sounds were different. The footsteps were rushed and had a certain urgency to them that compelled you to follow them. As you got closer to the communal space, you heard voices laced with equal parts anger and anguish. 

“What’s going on?” You asked a little boy who almost crashed into you as he was pushed back by the large crowd that had been formed. 

“Stilgar is back with the others, and they’ve brought two outsiders. One of them killed Jamis” he replied hastily, before worming his way into the crowd once more - like a little desert mouse. 

You frowned as you watched him go, trying to make sense of what he’d just said. Jamis was dead, killed by the strangers. Why would Stilgar - a man you knew to be wise and calculating - risk endangering the community by bringing the foreigners here? He wouldn’t. He had a motive and a reason, you would find out. 

—————

“I’ve been gone for weeks, and you don’t even make an effort to greet me upon our arrival.” You turned around to see Chani leaning against the entrance to your room. 

“I didn’t hear you enter the yali.” You said as you approached her with a smile and claimed her in a hug. 

“What had distracted you enough for your acute senses to have been so diminished.” She asks, and you follow her as she sits at the edge of your bed. 

You take a moment to collect your thoughts. “These outsiders that you and Stilgar have brought, what do you make of them?” 

She looks ahead, her eyes seeming to lose focus as she thinks of an answer. “They’re the last remaining survivors of the Atreides family, our latest oppressors - slaughtered in the night by the Harkonnens. The woman is a Bene Gesserit and Stilgar believes the boy to be the Mahdi, the Lisan al Gaib. You know how I feel about these prophecies that have been written to control us.” You put a hand on her clenched fist to placate her. 

“Calm yourself, my sister.” You start quietly. “I know you are suspicious by nature, but you must not let your anger cloud your vision. Trust that Stilgar knows what he is doing. Give them a chance.” 

“If I am too cynical, then you are too trusting. I fear that your heart will get you in trouble.” She says with a slight smile, making you bump her shoulder with yours. “I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to trust strangers. And this prophecy - the Lisan al Gaib is supposed to be Fremen.” She said as her eyes once again regained their previous harshness. 

“I’m an outsider,” You replied pensively. “Yet, Stilgar saved me from the desert and raised me like his daughter. Feeding, clothing and cuddling me. You have done much the same, claiming me as your sister and teaching me to fight like a Fedaykin amongst other things. So tell me Chani, by your logic - am I Fremen or an outsider.” You held her gaze awaiting her answer. She looked down with a frown, before answering.

“You are Fremen. You learned the way of our people.” she says with certitude.

You put a hand on her cheek “I am both. He too shall learn, much like I did. I know you and Stilgar will advise him - just like you did me.” You finished gently. 

“You truly live up to your name.” She said with a smile, before getting up and extending a hand to you. “Now come, the others are waiting for us and I haven’t had a proper meal in three weeks.

———

Dinner had been a very interesting affair. You got the chance to get a better look at the duo, more the boy than his mother - as her back had been turned to you. That only served to increase your curiosity and you found yourself oddly disappointed when Stilgar came to collect her. 

If you thought Chani was against them, this was nothing compared to the way Shishakli felt. The badmouthing, paired with the sight of the boy who was desperately trying to ignore the stares and the taunting comments had effectively cut your appetite and forced you to excuse yourself to go on a walk. 

You’d been wandering for a while, not paying attention to where you had ventured when you bumped into someone coming from the hallway to your left. It was only your quick Fedaykin reflexes that allowed you to grab her before she could fall. 

“I’m so sorry.” You said and as you settled on the face of the woman standing in front of you, you recognized her to be the woman outsider. A slight movement of her hand caused your attention to deflect to her growing belly. “Shai-Hulud strike me! Are you okay? I should have been more mindful of where I was going. Please sit for a moment.” You gently guided her to a resting corner that was often used for prayer. 

“It’s okay, no harm no foul.” Replied the woman as you both sat down. “I am afraid I got lost. I tried to find my way after meeting with Stilgar, but these hallways all look similar to me.” She said quietly. 

You were finally able to get a good look at her and two things stood out to you. She was insanely beautiful and the sadness that covered her features looked like it was swallowing her whole. 

“I’d be more than happy to help you find your way back to your son.” You said as you stood up and she followed suit gratefully.

“Thank you, Stilgar left pretty quickly and I didn’t get the chance to ask for directions.” She explained as you began to guide her towards her intended destination. 

“He means well, but he is a bit scatterbrained at times.” You responded with a smile. 

“I’m beginning to see that. I would’ve asked someone, but most people here look at me a certain way.” You looked at her from the corner of your eyes and saw a glimpse of sadness in her eyes. 

“You have to understand, that they’ve never met anyone like you and are weary of outsiders.” You explained as neutral as possible, not letting your need to protect your people get in the way. 

“I do understand,” she responded, probably sensing that she had hit a nerve. She was a Bene Gesserit after all. “It’s only normal under the circumstances, but still, it stings a bit.” She finished quietly. “You are different.” You inclined your head, signalling you were listening, but keeping your eyes forward. “I sense no distrust in you. You have only treated me with kindness so far. The only other person who has done that has been Stilgar.” She finished 

“That’s one of the qualities that makes my father such a great leader. As for me, I believe that everyone should be given trust and respect until proven otherwise,” you said proudly.

“You’re Stilgar’s daughter?” She asked with veiled surprise. 

“Adoptive, yes. My name is Y/n, but my people call me Amela,” you explain. 

“Y/n.” She whispers as if testing the way your name rolled off her tongue (rather well). “I’m Jessica. Amela means ‘One who hopes’, does it not? That’s a beautiful name.” You got a weird feeling in your stomach at her compliment. 

The rest of the way was completed in silence as you both were lost in your thoughts. Her more than you, as you couldn’t stop your eyes from wandering to her. After a few turns, you arrived at the communal area where you had been eating. 

“Mother!” You looked to see the other outsider approaching you at a hurried pace. “Where have you been? I was worried sick.” He said as he finally reached the both of you.

“I got lost after meeting Stilgar. Y/n here was kind enough to guide me back.” She said gesturing to you, and the suspicious look he had been giving you wavered. 

“Thank you for that. I’m Paul.” He said, extending his hand. You accepted the foreign greeting before letting go.

As you stepped away, you noticed your father in the distance and it suddenly occurred to you that you had missed him. 

“I should go greet Stilgar.” You say as you step away. Before you could leave completely you spared Jessica one last glance. “Welcome to the Sietch”. 

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The next time you saw her, she was the Reverend Mother. You hadn’t been one of those who’d waited outside the cave where she met with the previous Reverend Mother, the thought of her potentially not surviving the ordeal made a cold sweat travel down your back. 

You were sitting in a corner in the communal area, quietly working on a defective fremkit, when you felt a figure looming over you. 

“Glad to see you survived drinking worm piss.” You said in a teasing tone. 

“Barely.” She said as she took the greeting as an invitation to claim the seat next to you. “Are you some kind of engineer?” She asked as she watched you work on fixing the fremkit. 

“I’m a Fedaykin by trade. Fixing things is just a pastime.” You explained. 

“How come you’re not outside with the others?” 

“They’re more than capable of dealing with the spice harvesters. Besides, from what I hear, your son seems to be more than enough extra help.” You closed the fremkit and handed it to her. “A gift” You explained. 

“I doubt I’ll need it, but thank you,” she says thankfully.

Her response reminded you of a conversation that you had with your father. “I intended to go find you after I finished here actually. You said as you fully focused your attention on her. “I’ve been assigned as your personal guard, by Stilgar.” you watched her for any discomfort as you uttered the words. 

“That is a bit useless. I’m sure you’ve heard of the weirding way. Much more effective than any fighting taught across the universe.” she said with disdain. 

“I’ll try not to take offence to that. Fedaykin’s fighting skills should not be discarded,” you said slightly colder than you intended. “I don’t see how me protecting you is any different from the treatment you had as a Duke’s bound concubine. But if it’s my presence that makes you feel unsettled, I can promise to not let myself be seen.” she went to argue, but the look on your face must have dissuaded her. 

“Fine, but I still think this is a waste of your time.” she relented and you let a satisfied smile appear on your face.

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For weeks, you followed the Reverend Mother around. Watching as she continued her Bene Gesserit propaganda amongst your people. You should have been angry at her brainwashing your loved ones, but you couldn’t help but focus on her more appealing qualities. 

Her beauty for one. The way she walked, sometimes seductively, sometimes like a fearless woman. You also grew protective of her, admonishing anyone who dared to utter negative words about her. And when the day had been long and the weight of her responsibilities and precognition seemed to crush her, you felt the urge to take her in your arms and tell her that you would take care of it all. But you couldn’t; you could only watch and make sure she was safe physically. 

You didn’t talk much, just like you had promised; and she did a good job at acting like you didn’t exist unless necessary. A hard task since you had been given a room in her yali. It had been a month since you’d been appointed as her guard when your relationship took a more personal turn. 

It had been a particularly long day. News from the Fedaykins had come of another successful mission, but many had been lost. Too many. Every time we received news that Paul was still alive, she cradled her belly and let out a breath. She had spent most of the day mumbling to herself, or rather her daughter. Something she seemed to do more when she was anxious. You wish she’d talk to you instead.

You were in deep sleep when a scream had you immediately jumping to your feet and running to her room, your Crysknife drawn, ready to defend your lady. You arrived and quickly surveyed the room for any imminent danger, when you saw none - you approached the bed where the Reverend Mother was trashing about. 

“Reverend Mother!” still she didn’t wake up as you avoided getting hit in the face by her wild arms. “My lady! Jessica!” finally, her eyes snapped open and she looked around in panic, before meeting your worried eyes. 

Once she did, she burst into tears. “It’s too much.” you didn’t think twice before gathering her in your arms. You understood what she meant by that. You’ve seen the toll her new position had taken on her in the past month. 

Your heart broke for her and you felt more useless than ever. You cursed the Bene Gesserit for making her this way, you cursed the Harkonnens for having disrupted her life, you cursed Paul - for whom she was doing all this, you cursed Stilgar for having entrusted her into this position, but above all - you cursed yourself for not being able to do something about it. As she cried, so did you. You who had been taught not to give your water away - you let your tears fall freely for Jessica, as you let yourself echo her pain and sorrow. 

“I’m sorry. Shh, I’m so sorry. I’m here.” you repeated these words like a litany as you held her. 

Eventually, her sobs turned to sniffles, and to hiccups before she fell asleep. You don’t know how long you stayed watching over her like a vigil. Sometimes she would whimper in her sleep and you’d pat her back softly until she was calm again. Soon, sleep also claimed you, and you fell asleep where you sat on the floor with your hand in hers, and your back against the nightstand. 

When you woke in the morning, it was in a very soft bed. The pillows smelled of something fresh. You’d heard about a place in the universe that was full of greenery and water. They called it a forest. You think this is what that must have smelled like. This is the type of comfort that it must have brought. You didn’t want to move, but when you remembered the event of the night, you couldn’t get up fast enough as you ran around to find the older woman. 

Your heart was beating in your chest, chastising yourself for having been sleeping so deeply. 

“You’re awake,” you turned around to see her coming out of the bathroom and let out a sigh of relief. 

“You weren’t there when I woke up, I thought-” You shook your head to get rid of the bad thoughts. 

“I didn’t want to wake you up after last night. Besides, it wouldn’t do any good for my bodyguard to be falling asleep on her feet.” she teased slightly, you kept your face neutral, still trying to get your heart to calm down. 

“I’m sorry”

“Thank you” 

You both spoke at the same time and you looked at her in confusion. 

“Thank you for what?”

“Why are you sorry?”

This time you allowed myself a smile to accompany hers. 

“You first, my lady.” You said gracefully 

“I am saying thank you for the comfort you provided last night,” she hesitated, before adding “For this past month, really.” she finished almost bashfully. A look you hadn’t seen on her face before. 

“I haven’t done anything worth acknowledging. Not last night, and not these past weeks. All I’ve done is follow you around.” You shrug. 

She crossed the room in three long strides before taking your hands in hers softly. 

“I know it’s been hard at times to watch me work. You don’t agree with how I’ve been spreading my doctrines - but I’ve never caught any judgment, hatred or disgust from you. You’ve been more of a companion for me.” she looked to the side and frowned, before capturing your eyes once again. “The path I’m on can be lonely, I’ve been thrown into a new culture and position with no time to adapt, collect my bearings or mourn. I’m scared, terrified actually; but it’s been a little easier with you watching my back.” she finished.

“I’ll always have your back,” You mumbled earnestly

“I know.” she taps her head slightly with a finger, to show that she can see it, and you laugh. Of course, she can. “This is only the beginning of something beautiful for you and I.” the way she looks at you causes heat to rush to your cheeks and to look away from her mesmerizing eyes. 

“What does that mean?” You ask with a nervous laugh. 

“All in due time. But please, don’t give your water away for me again,” she says softly, her hand on your cheek as if catching the tears that had fallen last night. 

A shiver runs down your back. “It’s mine to give.” 

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Part 2

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