#don't trust grades

[dyinglikeastar]

GOD Bulletville makes me FUCKING insane.

Trusting each other and working together and being so damn good at it because they've been here before and this is what they do and who they are except now one's a lawman and one's a criminal and yet Boyd still goes to him when he's lost and yet Raylan still trusts Boyd to have his back. Raylan knowing Boyd's not going to use the gun he hands him against him and Boyd knowing Raylan's not going to pull on him because they dug coal together.

Motherfucker, this episode.

#the trust #the TRUST!!!!!!!! #the falling back into old patterns and old habits like no time has ever passed #the FUCKING TRUST #I'M FINE #Justifiedfx #bulletville #raylan/boyd #otp: we dug coal together #otp: i've known you since the third grade #what's it called when you hand a guy who's a known criminal and murderer a gun and trust him to have your back and then let him drive off #and don't do a thing to stop it #hmm #raylan x boyd #boyd x raylan

[shochet]

I think one of the most horrific little girl experiences is when a guy would come up to you randomly and be like "my friend thinks you're cute" and be laughing and pointing at a group of boys that's also laughing and one of them is violently yelling "NO!" and gagging at you. I just think that really colors your entire view of the world forever actually especially when it happens to you constantly

#growing up a little girl the most violently awful shit in the world especially if you're a 'fat' little girl i had this shit happening to m #since like 4th grade #now when people do flirt with me i think im being delusional & shit like i don't trust compliments at all or any flirting i just think i'm #being made fun of or being insane and taking everything wrong

[sturnmad]

Chris getting a little too relatable w his fear of commitment now

#i have a lot of complicated feelings abt dating. like on one hand even the thought of being in a relationship icks me out #but on the other. i want to be loved lol #& its not like im incapable of romantic feelings. but ive never liked anyone enough to seriously consider dating them. #im not a very likable person & i don't like most ppl. i tend to get bored of new friends within a year & i dont want to do that to someone. #it takes a long time for me to form a bond w someone & to this day the only ppl i truly care for r my besties i met in 4th grade #i cant imagine myself in a relationship. i cant imagine liking anyone as much as i like them. #& i especially cant imagine trusting anyone so completely #so. looks like ill be single for a while if not forever #madspeaks #i think that's why i get so many celebrity crushes. they just look hot & dont expect anything from me lol

[pttucker]

"Ahjussi!" Sensing the danger, Shin Yoosung had her [Chimera Dragon] spew out its Breath. And when she did, all aquatic creatures hiding below the water's surface rushed out, as well. Gyaaaah-ooooh! Monsters screeching out viciously pounced on the battleship's hull. However, the island was simply far too large for them to stop. The loud noises of monsters being crushed could be heard next. The wide expanse of the ocean vibrated heavily and the tsunami wave rolled out. "Hyung, take a step back! Hurry!" "Kim Dokja, disappear to the back already, will ya?!" My companions surrounded me as if to protect me and began desperately fighting back. I was aware of why they were doing this, of course. And I also knew what they were scared of, too.

He's so precious to them. 😭💖

#it's been a month since I last read this novel so I'm desperately trying to remember if dokja is currently injured (I don't think so?) #or if they're literally just that worried for him even though he's literally a myth grade constellation now #honestly with his history it's probably the latter #they can't trust that dokja himself won't throw himself onto someone's blade to protect them #orv #orv spoilers #orv novel chapter 477 #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv liveblog #kdj #kdj crew

[astriiformes]

Talked about this with the counselor I've been seeing at school earlier today but my intense, desperate need to leave a mark on the world (not even in a fame way, in like a "I need to leave this place better than I found it in a big, tangible way" one) and the fact that I only value myself when I feel like I'm adding good to it paired with the fact that I've been an insane perfectionist since I was a very young child and tear myself to shreds and lose all my confidence over tiny mistakes is literally going to kill me some day

#had been thinking about applying for a leadership position in our university ostem chapter for a while now #but psyched myself out of it last night before applications closed #because with everything that's gone wrong in the student group i was involved in this year i no longer trust myself to be a good leader #or frankly even a good person #i also had a slightly soul-crushing talk with a professor yesterday about my grade in her class #because even though she clearly thinks i'm brilliant (and basically said as much) i missed like two weeks of class #specifically because something happened with another student who i know i managed to make upset #(on accident. but it seems like she found my apology wanting) #and i feel so awful about it that i decided the only way to handle this was to avoid her so i didn't make her uncomfortable #so now my grade is suffering in a class i could've gotten an 'A' in #and it's just like. what am i even doing #i care so much about making the world a better place but i feel like such a bad person and trying makes it worse #and i know i'm under no obligation to put myself through this kind of stress but i don't know how to value myself if i don't #lately i feel like i'm beating myself up for being too fragile and unstable to even make a good martyr #and i know it's not healthy but if i try to step back i just get sad #like how now i feel awful about not sending in that application. and at least half dozen other similar things #i just want to make a real impact but it feels like the only thing i'm good for is making things worse #i'm not even fun to be around most days. i'm just.... sad

[ojamayellow]

I think theyre gay but say no homo to each other a lot cos they don't actually realise they're gay for each other. Goodnight.

#Kit.txt #Source is transformers cybertron #If they get any gayer during my watch I'm gonna have to make a compilation video #Ransack is definitely the eyyyy I'm just a birthday boyyy from that one twitter post #Kinda. Obsessed with him? And Crumplezone. Thundercracker too they're just my sillies #Like my faves are jetfire hot shot override and vector Prime but #The sillies??? The sillies....they're super special #Might get more faves later on I FORGOT ABT LEOBREAKER #also optimus primes super mode fucks. #Starscream is. Starscream. Don't ask about him please don't I'll be inconceivable. Is that. Word #I had the highest score in English grade 12 trust me I'm just sleeping..f.. #D.dd.dmdmd..D #..snzzzz

[camcorderrevival]

god just....11 tossing amy an apple (the apple) in a scene where he asks her to believe in him again and the “throwing an apple is a declaration of love” stuff, so the scene reads as him saying “I love you, believe in me.” 

And then there’s the fact that he throws her the apple as a way of proving himself, so the scene is both “I love you, believe in me” and “believe in me because I love you”

And Then there’s amy’s apple necklace, a symbol of both her faith in 11 and his love for her, and the only time it shows up (if memory serves me correctly) is in a scene where she calls him back into existence, calls him back to her, by the force of her belief in him....and all of that ends up looping back to the Doctor laying out the things she needs to remember and putting his faith in her to bring him back (I found you in words, like you knew I would.)....so the apple becomes both a symbol of her faith and a symbol of his....and their love for each other is bound to that faith, emphasised over and over again:

BUT THEN!!! all that faith is unstable, Amy’s lying to him in the first scene, saying all the right words so he does what they ask him to...and for all his promises surrounding Demon’s Run, Amy never gets her baby back...the Let’s Kill Hitler scene is the TARDIS’s projection of Amy, echoing the lie she told him at the start of the series to give him the strength to not die....every interaction of faith that they have in S6 is warped and twisted.

All of this obviously coming to head in The Girl Who Waited and The God Complex. In TGWW, Amy falls back into trusting the Dr when he promises he can save both of them, only to have him shut her out and leave her for dead and in TGC, he asks her to abandon her faith in him. The declaration shifts from The Eleventh Hour’s “I love you, believe in me” to “I love you, stop believing in me”....and Amy does, at least momentarily...

Because they kill the Minotaur and get out of the labyrinth but the episode closes with the (deleted, but it’s so real to me) line “because you still love me” and a shot of Amy looking up out of a window (a shot that is almost definitely referencing the earlier scene, where a younger amy is depicted in her TEH clothes, looking out a window, despite the fact that the real version of her waits in a garden).....and if Amy’s love for the Dr is tied to her faith in him (a point emphasised by TGWW, where Amy loses her faith over the 36 years and announces that she hates the him) then 11 leaving her behind because she still loves him is read as him leaving her behind because she still believes in him.

#don't know what point I'm trying to make here #it's really just a train of thought.... #anyways 11amy's weird faith/trust complexes are so so so important to me #and they make me so so so sick #also I think there can be an argument made about amy's waiting = a lack of faith #rather than complete faith #she never really believes that he'll come back but she waits anyway #and even when he's there she believes he'll leave #and she chooses rory because he isn't going to leave #because he's better than ''loving and losing the dr'' #there's so much about them that makes me ill #Doctor Who #Amy Pond #dw meta #<< sort of - don't think it's as well thought out as it could be #getting a bad grade in dw essays sorry #2: run away with me anytime you want

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i'm going to reward myself for doing one project on time by doing another project that i've been neglecting

#i have like. a 10 page paper i haven't even made a thesis for. oops #and a 5-10 page paper on a personality disorder which i have yet to choose or start #but i'm feelin obsessive compulsive. maybe. or narcissistic #idk personality disorders are hard to choose bc i don't really trust them as a diagnostic tool #well. kinda #there's so much overlap and confusion in the dsm that i don't think they're understood enough and that #the lines drawn between them are the best way to separate them #it's a whole thing but whatever i'll just pick whichever speaks to me #and oh fuck i have a fucking wrongful convictions final paper that i totally forgor about lmao #damnnnnn i have shit to do #and they're still assigning busywork. by they i mean my art history professor who wants us all dead. she's assigning weekly papers till #the final day. why. they're like. 3 pages minimum and i know she has too many classes to be reading/grading that many #she's still weeks behind. why do you do this to yourself? why do you do this to us? #ugh. i shouldn't have taken italian renaissance this semester but i was made for bad impulsive choices #anyway. i will be sharing my presentation with you all later. it's gorgeous i prommy #she took 10 minutes to load in the assignment dropbox #that's how you know she's good :)

[its-paperd]

okay.

i can't hide everything.

mom's not gonna be happy about it. she's definitely gonna scold me.

scared. but.

it's fine.

it's the internet!! there are things that can't be blocked or hide. it's fine.

it's going to be fine. just try not to panic. just don't panic.

you're old enough to handle things. stop crying.

#💧damp paper'd. #things aren't going well for my grades and she's planning to take it away. #listen. i think it was about time anyways. don't blame my parents. i got too addicted. #still. i'm worried about my friends. chair. third. all my followers. my mutuals. #i'm scared that i'm gonna lose them at some point. i. #i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. i just had to get this out somewhere. #i'm scared. i don't wanna lose everyone again. it was hard enough to try and stop clinging to them. #again PLEASE don't assume my parents are bad. they're great and i love them with all my heart. it was bound to happen. trust me. #i'm... okay. i have a great family. i'm fine. just.... slightly panicking. #sorry. sorry. i'm so sorry. #i just don't wanna lose everyone again. #don't reply #maybe i need some reassurance. idk. i'm just scared.

[opaleyedprince]

OH i named my gojos as well hehe

#opal.txt #oc lore tag #nagisa and her pride and joy hokuto #nagisa inherited both clan techniques of course but everyone thought her child had not - and she was perfectly fine with that #she didn't want a child for a soldier she wanted a piece of family to call her own #not that hokuto's dad ISN'T in the picture i just think he's not a huge part of it. around but nagisa is doing the raising #nagisa is like i turned out fine and she doesn't trust anyone or anything apart from herself and her child #the classic i do what i want attitude combined with surviving for years despite special grade status and a healthy dose of paranoia #she keeps hokuto's own inheritance of the techniques under close wraps for as long as she can so she can train them #make sure NOBODY will be able to touch a single hair on their head #which is how you end up wiiiiith hokuto! who cares about nothing and no one after their backstory hits #nothing matters! six eyes is for cheating at poker. why fight wars they don't care about when nothing can touch them ever? #deadbeat sorcerer. they graduated and went 'my job here is done' and left

[ishouldsleepbut]

do my parents just not trust me? do they just not trust me, is that it?

#veero vents #might delete later #idk they just shut down my phone #i can't text anyone other than them #i just i thought i was good #i don't argue that much #i get good grades #i listen to them #our relationship is good i thought #but they just don't trust me #why not #why why can't they just trust me

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

decided to just be a bad person and ghost my group. sorry. well it's not ghosting when i already told them what i was doing and that i didn't want to do this stupid thing tonight. those were my first and final words peace and love i will contact you when i have written and submitted this stupid fucking essay on fascism and gender. like not to be horrible but i cannot deal with them today i'm beyond over that cunt sorry for using that word. but she's acting like a high schooler that only cares about getting an A. you are an adult can you chill with the academic pressure.

#can't believe they're still making me write essays. writing essasy should be illegal after a person turns 20 #beth.txt #she like. very much has a vibe of only wanting to pass the class and do well grade wise. and she doesn't actually care about what we're doi #we are supposed to be making a short film girl why do you only care about grades #yeah ok you could argue that i'm the one that doesn't care because i'm not doing the assignment #but i don't need to be making a moodboard ass presentation four days before it's due #i know what the vibe for the film is. i know what i want it to look like. very Dude Just Trust Me #this girl does not trust me it's insane. and when have i ever given her a reason to believe i can't do my shit. never. i've done everything #i wrote the fucking thing. literally just trust me #whatever. have to start an essay. and eventually eat something ig

[thenerdcommander]

I'm 5 fucking seconds from choosing to be homeless and live out of motels lads

#the abusive family is at it again #on this episode of My Family Is Shit: brother gripes that frozen food I made wasn't a 5 star meal; same brother shits all over my education #and r slurs me despite having graduated + college courses and he's nearly flunked 2 grades and gets most of his “knowledge” from Andrew #Tate; both brothers bash me for wanting sterilization claiming it makes me an awful person then proceeding to tell me that 'no one would #ever *want* to rape me' when I brought that up as a concern and that I 'need to trust people more' #when in fact we are in one of the reddest states and they haaaaaaaaate childfree AFABs here plus I get perceived as a lesbian a lot #I'm sorry but you don't get to decide what I do/don't do with my body and me not wanting kids by ANY means at all does not make me a bad #person; I DON'T owe anyone trust when they haven't earned it; and fuck off with your degrading comments about my weight and appearance we #aren't playing the “you owe men conventional attractiveness” game #I owe no one a baby ESPECIALLY not abusers #and on the note of the food I owe no one a good culinary experience. This is not a restaurant; I didn't go to culinary school; and you're #not Gordon fucking Ramsey so shut the fuck up fr

[emile-hides]

Another Holiday Season another year of trying to sell you internet randos on my Polar Express Overwatch AU

Hana as Main Character Kid

Lucio as Main Girl Character Kid

Brigitte as Billy

Lena as Fourth Main Character Kid I am making up

Jamison as Annoying Know It All Kid

John “Jack” Francis Morrison as Train Conductor

Gabriel “Reaper” Reyes as Train Ghost

Reinhardt and Torbjorn as Train Engineers

Ana as Santa Clause

That’s it that’s the pitch.

#Overwatch #The Polar Express #I don't think I've made this post sense 2020 but it rattles in my head every year lemme tell you #The Polar Express but all the kids are from different countries and none of them speak the same language #I'm always back and forth on Ana as Santa because she's the only one I trust to be good at the Santa gig #Or Winston as Santa because that's perfect and amazing and so incredibly funny #This year we land on Ana Santa #Next year who knows #I wanna explain my attachment to the Polar Express really fast okay so like #I saw the movie for the first time around when I was the same age as the main kid alright #7-9 range where you start to question Santa for the first time #And my little dumb brain saw the 'I believe' scene and the Bell rings for all those who truly believe thing #And Violently Refused to stop believing #Santa was real there was nothing that could take that belief away from me #I wanted to be one of those train kids SO badly #It does not help that we live fairly close to an active train track #No one could talk me out of this I WAS going to believe my way onto the Polar Express and meet Santa and get a sleigh bell of my own #Then in like. 5th grade. Some asshole kid in my class and I get in an argument about Santa Clause's legitness #And I.... You know... MAY have... Beat the living shit out of him for it #LOOK MAN HE WAS BEING MEAN ABOUT IT AND WOULDN'T STOP SO I DECKED HIM WHATEVER #Anyway I got like a day suspension from it and my mom left work and took me to lunch that day and just #Told me out right Santa isn't real #I still believe tho don't worry #The Polar Express could still come for ya boy trust me on this besties #You know I think now as an adult if I'd actually gotten aboard that train #I'd be that little annoying kid with the glasses like. 100% for sure. #When Santa himself tells this kid to Cool It. Jesus Christ I would have simply cried #My favorite little piece of animation in the whole movie is that scene #Just for the way the Conductor puts his hands on that poor kid dkgjfdkjgkfd #Buddy I get you I too was Autistic with no filter and no understanding of an inside voice