#don't like die tho

[booolatte]

My "sister" told me she has cancer and I just said

"I'm a Sagittarius"

#haha #cancer isn't funny #but i fucking hate that bitch #don't like die tho #i'll never hear the end of it from mom #is this insensitive #yes #is it funny #also yes #not sp

[dreadark]

that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them

but. does ivan know that…?

the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others… does he even know that the love he’s felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself

because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and till’s love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesn’t seem to actually want much from her—just that she's still there and still "mizi"

but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he… wants. ivan wants till’s attention, till’s affection—

surely this selfish wanting can’t be love

...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he can’t stand not having anything either, so he does… whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die

but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...

I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)

but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself

#alien stage #alnst #alnst ivan #ivantill #i have a lot of thoughts on till -> mizi too but this is long enough #just attempting to rewrite my twt rambles more coherently #idk why i wrote this so dramatically tho... #'thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions' is going to haunt me to my grave #ivan's character is just a careful balance between his natural freak nature and his extreme depths of self-loathing #making him the most miserable guy ever #...really once you realize so much of what went wrong is thanks to ivan just hating himself too much to even think of them as friends. well #c...can we bring him back... don't die like this..... #(also you know. with the implications of how 'pets' are treated #wanting someone physically must feel... even more wrong

[justcommander]

And that's why Michael got cool shades in this AU.

That feeling when you're just a teenager and already got cataract. Amongst the other things that damn possession and truck accident caused you But John is doing his best all on his own...!

#faith the unholy trinity #michael davies #john ward #my art #i need a name for this au of mine #Father and Children AU #why children? #well i don't like innocent teenagers dying #imma draw Amy too in this au sooner or later fuck that i ain't letting her die #Please do not be like John tho. #Bring people that got ran over by a truck to a hospital don't heal them at home while you exorcise them. #also i love Michael he's just a kid that poked a dead fox and he triggered a red exclamation mark on every cultist in the range of 10 km

[madootles]

there’s just something about a good superior-subordinate professional relationship built upon mutual hate...

#they are both children #edward elric #alphonse elric #roy mustang #fullmetal alchemist #also don't tag this romantically that shit is weird...... #this is a mutually despised relationship between superior and subordinate and it's hilarious #yeaaaa I'm still on this... sorry unwilling followers ily #my art has to be funny because the source material is fucking dark it doesn't need more angst #genuinely I subscribe to the idea that roy and ed care about eachother but I also subscribe to the idea that they'd rather die than say so #mutual respect is the closest they will get #alphonse is really becoming my fave ... like ed is my fave bc idk he has nice fashion and he's very sad but alphonse is just so !!!!!!! #fma 03 #fma 2003 #fmab #even tho that's not what I watch #you are still welcome here I guesssssss :-) #k bye #tw blood

[allerod]

house md drinking game:

take a shot every time wilson appears somewhere where he has no business being

admit yourself to the hospital with alcohol poisoning

#watching ep 4 and screamed out loud 'WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE' at the moment when they're defibrillating a baby #and he's just standing there fully dressed in protective gear. even tho he was not wearing it like a minute ago #my dude. don't you have your own job to do. i prommy this children dont have cancer #does he just like to see people die or #house md #also hhh the flatlining sound? ow ow my aching head. i am purposefully cultivating the pain rn of course but still. ow.

[samanthamulder]

director Rob Bowman on the hallway scene in The X-Files: Fight the Future (1999 DVD audio commentary) — “ 'I need you, I need you.' That’s a theme of the movie – Mulder needs Scully. And never before has he come to that understanding quite so strongly as he does in this story. So she’s running because she’s afraid that he’s going to talk her out of it, and so the best thing she can do is hit the elevator button and go, go, go. She never makes it. That’s her first mistake.

And Mulder also knows that that’s where she’s headed, is out the door. So he’s got to tell her why it is that she’s so important to him, and tell her once and for all that in fact the whole time that the two of them have been together that she has made him better, that she has made him feel not like an outcast, not like discarded FBI trash, but somebody worthy of her friendship, and that, as he says, has made him a whole person. So in a scene filled with such virtue, people expressing their highest thoughts and feelings towards each other, you come to a sort of pinnacle of respect and mutual admiration that it leads to an intimate moment that neither of them expect, or were working towards. It just sort of happens. You just keep arguing and arguing, then suddenly it’s not an argument, it’s 'We’re for each other, we’re for each other.' And we come to the opportunity of the kiss for the first time. But it’s not out of lust, it’s not out of any of the obvious reasons, or typical reasons. It’s out of just absolute overwhelming respect for each other. Out of that respect becomes an emotional response, where you transcend logic and thinking and it becomes more visceral and human. 

The only place for him to go, in my mind, to express the next thought is to kiss her. And how do we do that in The X-Files fashion? Which is, you never give them anything that they want. You just lead them down the road and say 'Ah, that’s all you get.' And then, because of the bee, the moment is abrupt and abbreviated and stops short of the zenith that the audience is wanting. But we don’t want to end by cheating the audience. We’d like to at least add up in parts a kiss. So there’s the idea, in the spaceship where Mulder is trying to rescue Scully, and just when they get to the vent exit, she collapses again, and she passes out and she’s not breathing. What do you do when somebody’s not breathing? You give them mouth-to-mouth resuscitation. So you’ve got the intention of the kiss and the physical act of them touching mouths. I believe in Chris’s mind the idea was you take those two, add ‘em together, that’s a kiss. Sort of in frustrating X-Files fashion that’s a kiss. And I think obviously there’s more gained for the audience out of the hallway kiss, and I don’t think anybody really walked out thinking, 'Well, they sort of did, because if you add the two together…' but it doesn’t matter because the idea is they were going to. As a story point, that counts as the kiss. They didn’t stop themselves, something else entered the scene and interrupted them, so…"

#''in frustrating x-files fashion'' do u hear me laughing? no? that's because I'm not #anyway. I do like what he says here tho <3 #about the moment creeping up on them unexpectedly. the respect for each other as the base of their love. they didn't stop themselves etc. #and in all honesty. 'you never give them what they want' IS the x files fashion. and that's why the scene works this way #'they' being mulder and scully. they don't get what they want (the truth) only little bits of it without real resolve. and #that's why it's good that they didn't truly kiss and I will die on that hill i guess sfkfjs #txf #fight the future #*

[mamawasatesttube]

i do think that despite being the squad's designated nerds, kon and bart struggle to watch lotr together because kon physically CANNOT stop infodumping through any of the movies (and of course they have to watch the extended editions only), but bart's like. you want me to sit in one place and watch one screen for 12 fucking hours. and on top of that you WON'T SHUT UP the ENTIRE TIME? i already can't focus on movies and you TALK THROUGH THE WHOLE THING? im going to fucking bite you--

#rimi talks #i like to hand bart my personal flavor of adhd as in ''it is physically painful to watch a movie-- #--without mental preparation. stimulants. and something to fidget with'' #in some cases someone talking through a thing can make it easier for me to watch it but in others im like broooo shut up 😭 #bc sometimes i just can't get into a story or focus on it if someone keeps interrupting and i have to split my attention!!! #and i think handing that to bart. well it fits. movies make you sit in one place for a longass time and im not even a speedster #meanwhile kon gets neurodivergence brand ''this is one of my hyperfixations/special interests and if i don't tell you everything i know-- #--about it ever at every single opportunity i WILL explode and die on the spot''. which. is also me during lotr marathons #not only will my friends know about the shaving cream used for the caradhras scenes. #they will know about the significance of celebrimbor and narvi's friendship when we see the gates of moria #and i WILL be talking balrog lore even after gandalf is already down the pit and we're in lothlórien #(obligatory break to quote ''a balrog of morgoth.'' ''what did you say?'' @ celeborn tho) #kon #bart

[todayisafridaynight]

rate the outfit

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 2 #yakuza series #yakuza kiwami 2 #yakuza 2 #daigo dojima #snap sketches #see i did it i told you i'd do it #pov: you are at hot topic and trying to find something (he does not work there don't ask him) #segway section into something toally unrelated to people who do not frequent my blog :) #everyone else go away. unless you wanna keep reading 😳 #i watched Not Quite Dead Yet while i was finishing a comm and WHAT a movie #it made me want to call my dad so you know it was good 😭 #IT WAS CUTE THO FR i really loved how all th details of the movie tied in in the later sections #like the password being nanase's name but through the period table's numbers... stop that was cute #feels weird to say that as a highlight but i genuinely thought it was cute 😔 #im not gonna lie tho when nanase was lookin through her dad's phone brother was emo #i think a lot about what would happen when people i love die and i always think of doing that.. like still texting them.. and whatever.. #lemme move on from the somber moment thojVAERLKVA PLEASE when her dad was in the afterlife tho #HER MOM WAS SO CUTE both like. physically and just personality wise #we saw her for ten minutes and i have also fallen in love with her idc #they had to game end her cause they knew if we got to see any more scenes with her and kei i'd start crying i KNOW they'd be cute together #together more than what we got to see anyway... we know what i mean... #THE ENDING SHOT WAS ESP SO CUTE STOPPPP kinda creepy with her just. In Limbo but then she just. DEATH !! 👆 #nanase's song to her dad at the funeral had me :(( too im so weak for dads and their kids reconciling/having a nice relationship stop #big L for her not signing up for a record label tho idc like OK its sweet she's working with her dad BUT CMONNNNN #you can do both queen.... i would prefer you do it alone cause Kid Falls In Line always makes me want to chew glass #BUT i will excuse it this time.. i repeat for The End Shot that was cute and the rest of the movie was lovely so ill let it slide #final note before i use up all my tags again i loved her concert outfit 😔give me them bracelets girl i cant find any

[norstrum-art]

[Image description from alt: A drawing template titled: "Favorite characters in each unit of Project Sekai: Colorful Stage!" Below are six boxes, each one listed with a unit with digitally drawn half body, flat color characters inside. Most are in their original unit outfits. The unit Virtual Singer has Rin grinning and winking, holding a peace sign to her head. The unit Leo/Need has Honami smiling nervously, tilting her head to the side. The unit More More Jump has Shizuku in her "Draw Your Bow in this White World" event outfit, smiling and holding a hand to her chin. The unit Vivid Bad Squad had Toya in his 2023 birthday outfit happily. The unit Wonderlands x Showtime has Emu cheerfully waving her hand in the air out of the box. The unit Nightcord at 25:00 has Mizuki and Mafuyu; Mizuki is smiling with a cat mouth (:3) while making a heart sign with both hands, and Mafuyu looks at them neutrally from behind. End image description.]

*throws this out of my WIP folder* and STAY out!!!! No but seriously this was actually really fun figuring out how to draw everyone!!!

#but also took SOOO LONG #i started this mid september. then spent like 10 days on it and got halfway thru. #took a long break where I did a full render half body and a full render full body and maybe a doodle or two I forget #wild. I was like no fucking way I'm rendring this I'll die. no outline coloring for you either. go be free #what is an optimal posting time anyways. #norstrume art #pjsekai #proseka #project sekai #are we tagging everyone? yes #kagamine rin #honami mochizuki #shizuku hinomori #toya aoyagi #emu otori #mafuyu asahina #mizuki akiyama #i do like how they all came out tho :) #ALSO I DON'T KNOW THE ACTUAL TEMPLATE SOURCE SO LIKE. if anyone knows pls tell me #i tried searching but only found other ppl reposting the blank #which is how I found it #I'll try searching more later #norstrum art

[avisisisis]

i cannot stop thinking about anissa and marky though [COMIC SPOILERS]

how did he react when he learned what his mother did? just like mark, he lived a lie. he thought his mother was kind and nice — the only thing that is true is that she loved him, but now, he has no idea if he should believe it

and. you've grown up being conditioned to believe that violence is peace, and that kindness is a lie and a weakness. you hurt people. by hurting a person, by destroying him irreparably, you found the boy you love most: your son. and you don't regret it. you hope one day, once he sees him, he'll get it. but you still don't regret it. you can't say you're sorry

marky will grow up without his biological father, because when mark hugs him he can only remember his mother and what she did to him. your father can't love you the way your mom did. you can't love your mother the way your father loved his

the worst part is, that it she hadn't done it, you wouldn't have existed. you wouldn't be here. your father will grow to love you. you will grow to accept each other. but you tend to wonder — if he never sees you as anything else other than your mother's son, then who will you have when everyone else you know dies?

#i hate anissa but also her character was done so well #like i hate her #fuck her #but jesus christ. #wow #i feel so bad for marky honestly #when anissa said “i don't regret it. tell him. tell him he'll understand when he sees him” #that shit hurt me #that was the WORST time for you to die girl #i was like “idc about anissa thank fuck she died” but then #i put myself in marky's place. and WOWWW #you gotta be strong to deam with that #YOU GOTTA BE STRONG TO BE ANY INVINCIBLE TBH #LIKE WOW. #thinking about mark now #imagine learning that the person who hurt you the most is a better person now #and that means she regrets kt #but then you learn right after her death that she does not regret it at all #you don't even get to hear an “i'm sorry”. not that you'd have listened to it #then you learn she had a son. with you. named AFTER YOU #honestly i can't blame him for allowing things to be THAT awkward w marky #i am so glad the reconciled tho I don't think I'd be able to live if mark's son hated him #tw sa mention #invincible #invincible comic #comic spoilers #marky grayson #anissa invincible #mark grayson #b4 anyone gets this wrong: I DO NOT SUPPORT WHAT ANISSA DID. it's just that marky's relationship w her is smth i would love to see explored

[shima-draws]

So there's been news floating around that tumblr is "dying" since it's going to be run by a skeleton crew. I highly highly doubt that it's going to actually die out (bc every time we hear about tumblr dying it comes crawling back. Like a cockroach.), but just in case, if you all ever need to find me elsewhere, the other place I post my art is on Instagram :)

#If tumblr actually does die you will find me here. Going down with the ship #I started here and I'll end here. #Shima speaks #Anyway I am SO fucking sore today and I'm so over it. My body feels like a pretzel. #Luckily most of my initial symptoms have gone away. I don't get flare ups anymore #And the pain in my leg is like. Gone now #I'M JUST SORE ALL THE TIME NOW. APPARENTLY. #My back feels super bruised even tho I haven't DONE ANYTHING #GIRL!!! RELAX!!!!

[syncast-err0r]

i don't remember posting this? lol

#the collector #the collector 2009 #the collection #the collection 2012 #asa emory #arkin o'brien #collectkin #my art xoxo #talking abr this in the tags just bc i feel like it anyways I've been watchjng the saw movies #and ik the collector was supposed to be a saw movie but i think it's a good call it didn't happen #bc i would've hated it #i hate jigsaw he's so annoying the collector is way better. bc asa doesn't fucking talk #jigsaw tho talks too much like holy shit just shut the fuck up and DIE #i guess the movies r good but holy fuck I'll kill jigsaw myself i don't care #he needs his mouth fucking shut u guys do not understand how much i want to strangle him to death

[gouinisme]

i truly do not think alice can possibly stop being a character bc of previously stated reasons so now my working theory is the "i'll die down here" is mostly a distraction from "i was born down here" and alice Is some kind of reborn or construct or undead or something in the way that what she Is, her Current form of life was born from whatever weird alchemist shit is going on in the OIAR and the Magnus institute

#or she'll die and come back wrong #this is not me being in denial btw like i probably care about colin more than i do alice and i don't think he's gonna make it very far #alexander j newall said his recordings get weird faster so i think we'll have a little while of spooky happenings before he dies but yeah #i don't think he's gonna make it #but on alice's side i've already mentioned it but 1) the writers clearly know enough about queer horror and the history and tropes of that #representation to know killing off your trans character early is a bad move #trans women in horror have a very weird and usually harmful portrayal and i think they know that #and 2) it would be weird from just a marketing standpoint to kill off one of the official announced protagonists in the first season #if alice does die i'm gonna look so stupid #no actually if alice does die i'm gonna campaign the “this is how undead alice can still win” agenda so hard #alice dyer #alice tmagp #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #? #the magnus protocol #i want people to fUCK with me tho i fear my posts are hidden

[notmoreflippingelves]

It's dawned on me suddenly

And for no obvious reason

That I can't go on

Living as I am.

#esteban flores #elena of avalor #disneyedit #eoaedit #don't you hate it when you have a blorbo; a million song lyrics that suit them; and no photoshop skills to speak of? #esteban flores and pierre bezukov (specifically the version in great comet) would get along great tho #the same bruised desperate heart longing for purpose and overflowing with love but no vessel to put it in (at present) #the same intellectual snobbery as a faulty mask for profound and permanent self-loathing #the same...'survivor's guilt ' isn't even the right word...it's definitely that but it's also just 'existence' guilt #like 'yes; I failed to die alongside those I love on the battlefield. but even before that; I failed at being loved in the way I wanted to' #'which is like the one job we are supposed to have as humans: to love and be loved.' #'once I'd like to think I was worthy but now I know that I am not. I have wasted my chances and made too many mistakes' #of course they both Esteban and Pierre still ARE worthy of love but it takes time and effort and willingness to change to find it #am going to try to also do something with 'dust and ashes' at some point #not to mention like my million BATB broadway; Frozen broadway and JCS lyrics that suit Esteban #myedits #mygifs #obligatory ' I used to be butter; I used to be butter; I used to be butter' joke here

[tapioca-puddingg]

I have something to say

Isa is unironically the funniest character in KH3.

This bitch just casually shows up on the clock tower in Twilight Town (right before the Keyblade War, mind you), takes one of Axel's ice creams, mocks him, then leaves. The fucking audacity™️

And then this bitch still mocks him after he loses the fight AND has the nerve to be witty before he disappears

His pettiness knows no bounds.

#kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 3 #kh3 #kh axel #kh lea #kh isa #kh saix #saix #square enix #this bitch #the audacity #i was watching leighxp's reaction to kh3 and was like “wow he really just did that” #he really ate that ice cream too #you know when your ex-boyfriend comes back and steals your ice cream and makes fun of you #when you fall perfectly into your boyfriend's arms as you die #i did love that scene tho #the keyblade war cutscenes were so good #don't even get me started on the reunions #okay bye

[cosmogenous]

every compliment i get is +10 HP, every insult i get is like -25 though