#clearly I didn’t

[goldhairwithagentlecurl]

So far this year I have read 15 books in total which is the amount of books I’ve read in 2021 and 2022 combined and this month alone I’ve read 8 books which is more then I read in 2022 alone! I am so proud of myself rn!

#les personals #depression is a bitch #it made me think I stopped loving reading #clearly I didn’t #currently reading #Heartless by Marissa Meyer

[brookheimer]

shiv was not being altruistic nor intellectually self-interested when she voted against kendall. that was pure raw visceral desperation to maintain some semblance of dignity that she felt kendall being ceo would shred her of. sometimes people do not act in other people’s best interests or their own best interests. sometimes people do the wrong thing for the wrong reasons just because it feels like the right, the only, thing to do. shiv could not let kendall be ceo. she just couldn’t. not because she wanted to sacrifice herself to “stop the cycle,” not because she made a calculation and decided tom was her best interest — because the thought of kendall being ceo and acting like That the rest of their lives when shiv earned that job, she fucking earned it, that was too much to fucking bear. watching him sit in dad’s chair, conduct that vote, grin with entitlement and cockiness and certainty — seeing that elicited a visceral painful all-consuming sensation not dissimilar to overwhelming nausea that, summed up in two words, would simply be: fuck. no. she couldn’t live with that. she just couldn’t. it’s not kind. it’s not smart. it’s just human. painfully, destructively human. because sometimes, that’s all there is to it. not just for shiv, but for everyone. god knows roman and kendall have had those same feelings, made those same self-destructing yet necessary-feeling decisions throughout the show. why does it have to be different for shiv? why can’t she be painfully destructively human, prone to impulsive ill-conceived viscerally felt actions, like everyone else? why are we incapable of allotting her the same nuance and humanity (the good and the bad), the same trauma-informed self-destructive life-ruining hamartias, as we do her brothers? why can’t we fit a whole woman in our heads?

#very surprised to see so many ‘shiv stopped the cycle on purpose blah blah blah’ takes like that didn’t even cross my mind as a motivation #of hers #it wasn’t calculated — i mean kendall winning would be to her benefit in terms of power and respect. that would be best for her #it wasn’t just jealousy or anything either; it wasn’t a coherent thought or plan #it was just I Can’t Fucking Do This #i can’t sit there while he smiles like that when he sits in dad’s chair and hisses that’s fucking right under his breath when someone votes #his way. not when that job was fucking MINE. it was MINE. i can’t- i can’t fucking do it #it’s about preservation of emotional dignity #it’s about self-respect #it’s ironic though because there are few things more undignified and less respected than being a quiet betrayed trophy wife to a weak ceo #husband who earned his position even less than kendall #but she’s not thinking clearly. she’s not Thinking. she just acted because there was this visceral need to act #succession #succession spoilers #shiv roy #100 #500 #casey shut the fuck up about shiv roy #1000

[i-ate-the-rats]

hi i’m ur new biggest fan. i need to devour your art neeoooowww. - @dialrchives

be careful with your expressions, mate. (love u sm)

#Hobie is clearly delighted with this information #“FYM THIS WAY” #“this. way.” #“... I didn’t understand you or understood you I don’t understand” #Noir can't fucking see without glasses cant he? #hobie brown #spider noir #atsv hobie #atsv #spider man noir #spider man: across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #noirpunk #punknoir #spider punk

[thewinchestah]

and that’s a wrap guys!! I’m not okay!! But at the same time I’ve never been better!!

#alastor swearing is my religion #im Brazilian I use cuss words as ponctuation #also I love that he clearly cares for Charlie and the hotel but they didn’t make him a Good Guy TM #that motherfucker still has his schemes and im here for it #ALASTOR DANCING #ALASTOR SAYING I KNOW SOMETNING YOU DONT #“you look and absolute mess Charlie #HE JUST GOING LITERALLY INSANE VANESSA LOPES LEVEL OF INSANE IN THW RADIO TOWER #I WANT HIM TO BROACAST VOX’s DEATH WHILE I SING ALONF #HIS FIGHT SCENES WERE SOOO GOOD #EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT #alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #the radio de on #O ALASTOR TA VINDO AÍ E O BICHO VAI PEGAR VOX É O CARALHOOOOOO NUNCA BOTOU O ADAM PRA AMAR

[shima-draws]

Ghost Cora AU where he’s actually been following Law around ever since he died but nobody has been able to see him, so all he’s able to do is watch Law get hurt and suffer in silence. UNTIL, miraculously, the battle of Dressrosa ends, and for some strange reason—through some supernatural bullshit or maybe just fate—one person is finally able to see him.

Law is sitting on the deck of the Yonta Maria watching everyone party when Luffy comes trotting over to him. And Luffy plops down beside him and says, “I’ve been meaning to ask, Torao, but who’s that really tall blonde guy with the funny makeup that’s been following you around?”

And Law’s just like

#Meanwhile Cora is absolutely THRILLED. LMAO #Eventually Zoro calls Perona over and since her devil fruit power deals with ghosts. She makes it so that Law can see Cora too #(And by some bs he’ll probably be brought back to life somehow idk) #One Piece #Trafalgar Law #Donquixote Rosinante #Cora #Corazon #Luffy #Law: Ha. Haha. #Law: You’re shitting me right. #Luffy: ??? What? No? #Cora: LAWWWWWW 😭😭😭 #Luffy: He’s crying your name this guy CLEARLY knows you Torao #Law; having a mental breakdown: Uh. Uh-huh??? #Shima speaks #Sorry I’m coping. I’m coping really hard rn #Actually. I feel like I was more upset about Cora’s death than Ace’s. WHICH LIKE. YOU’D THINK IT WOULD BE THE OTHER WAY AROUND BUT #I’m very. Very weak for the unsuspecting father figure who dies trope #(Sideeyes Tony and Harry (who didn’t even die anyway but it was still Traumatic for Eggsy to watch)) #COUGHS

[hellavile]

nicki is the prime example of an older bitter woman. she need serious help fr. like to hear her on live stuttering and going on and on about megan and her deceased mother is sickening. she stooped low af fr. all over one line. megan ain’t even say that girls name and it got her yapping out her mouth like somebody grandma. and she’s only proving everyone’s point about her nasty ass husband. now if megan say sum bout her father or brother???? don’t go crying to kenneth or papa about how everyone’s against you cs you’re the queen of rap blah blah.

#and don’t get me wrong. ADORE nicki’s music. i was too a barb. but time and time again has she lessened her value #she continues to bash every woman she collabs w #she has beef with EVERY WOMAN IN THE INDUSTRY. she’s clearly the problem. #she hates seeing anyone be great or do more than her. #i hope megan say a lot more about her lil ass. talking about a mother like that would get a bitch STOMPED in my city #also her doing this dr seuss ass rhyme #LMAOOOOOOO. #giving one fish two fish #talking about her foot but didn’t you say she was lying??? so you agree??? she got shot? oh okay. #៹ ࣪𖥔 ━━━ ꒰ 𝑚𝑜𝑐ℎ𝑎’𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠 .ᐟ ꒱ #megan thee stallion #nicki minaj

[bardace]

just watched a promare video essay where they said that they knew that the fandom shipped galo and lio but they didn’t personally see it, and while I respect not interpreting relationships as romantic, I don’t really understand how you could interpret two guys saving each other and then getting shirtless in order to “combine their wills” and exploding into a heart-shaped flame as just guys being pals

#promare #galo thymos #lio fotia #galolio #and like. that’s only part of how gay they are #I didn’t even get into galo de lion/lio de galon #or the cpr scene #or the symbolism of lio’s clothes #THERES SO MUCH #SO MUCH THERES AN ENTIRE FAN WIKI PAGE ON IT #clearly they just aren’t as ill as I am about boy meets fire

[movedtodykedvonte]

Simon correcting Beth that Casper should have known better is so important cause she was giving him an out and he rejected it.

He of course repeated it all again but realized the change the very last minute when he realized he created his own lack of options. He could’ve let Betty take more charge like Casper should Nova but he didn’t and he accepted that. He didn’t repeat the cycle.

It’s also important that Betty didn’t hold it against him either. She says he was a wonderful experience and clearly wished it didn’t have to end it this way but accepted this was how it was gonna end long before he did, maybe cause she already did all the sacrificing.

#I like that Betty didn’t make Simon feel like it was his fault #they were in love but they weren’t functional and that okay #Betty was obsessed and Simon was over his heals for hee but one clearly was more give and one of course had to be the take #it’s good he learned and it’s good she accepted they both made mistakes #fionna and cake spoilers #petrigrof #adventure time #fionna and cake #betty grof #simon petrikov

[foryoupeko]

drawn by @hajihiko

I would like to remind everyone the main point of this comic was that Fuyuhiko is a sweetie true yakuza boss who has the inherent desire to take care of people!

#danganronpa #sdr2 #fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Peko pekoyama #hajihiko #imagine if we didn’t #give shit to ppl #who clearly don’t care about gender #and English isn’t their first language #btw I am a strong proponent #of trans fem chihiro #with internal transphobia #but I also like non-binary chihiro #and I believe #in not leading a witch-hunt #against ppl who think differently #honestly chihiro gender discourse #doesn’t hold a candle to #the transphobia in #twitter one piece discourse

[hamable]

It’s really interesting to me how elusive Kipperlily Copperkettle has been throughout what is now the first half of the season.

She’s the closest thing we have to an identifiable Big Bad. She gets established in episode 3 to be constantly vigilant, capable of eavesdropping on anything and everything.

And then she’s physically MIA (iirc) for seven episodes, barring her scene with the food trucks at the start of episode 7. I think she’s said to be present at the assembly this most recent episode (ep 10) but she doesn’t appear to be an active participant in anything. That inaction is eating away at me… bc I know she’s doing something.

Talk about haunting a narrative… I’m constantly aware of her nonexistence. I’m paranoid. With every episode that we don’t hear from or interact with KLCK, she grows more terrifying to me. Brennan made sure to establish right away that she could be listening at literally any point. Riz tried to keep that at the forefront of his mind initially, but even he let that idea fall to the wayside as stress built up and time passed.

I think we’ve settled into a false sense of security in this respect. I think that at any point Brennan can and will drop a KLCK bomb on us and oh boy it’s gonna be deliciously messy.

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #kipperlilly copperkettle #brennan lee mulligan #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high spoilers #I didn’t even mention that Aylwen is somehow working for her??? #KLCK is clearly pulling threads behind the scenes and I can’t tell how or to what extent and it’s fascinating #yknow that idea that like if someone went back in time to change the past no one would notice bc to them that’s just how it is? #it’s like that to me. she could just a That Bitch at school or she could be the Mastermind behind the curtain and I Don’t Know Which!!!!! #she fascinates me #I want to put specifically her character’s influence under a microscope

[transmascissues]

hey i know your post about your mom was mostly just a personal vent, but i have to say, do you realize that also happens with trans girls and their fathers? literally happened to one of my friends. i’m not trying to downplay your experience or something but i found it strange that you seem to think this is something that only affects transmascs

i have one question for you: so fucking what?

i don’t doubt that trans girls have experienced similar things and yeah, that’s bad too, but what the fuck does that have to do with me and the specific things i’m facing as a result of being a trans man? i never said “look at this thing that happens to ONLY trans men and NO ONE ELSE,” i just said “hey, isn’t this thing that happens to a lot of trans men, including myself, fucked up?”

i would also like to point out that what you’re talking about is in fact a different (albeit similar) thing. the way cis people treat trans people can differ dramatically based on the cis person’s gender because their commitment to gender roles is, like, a major part of problem. the specific way a cis mother reacts to her trans son’s transition is often going to be very distinct, while a cis father will likely respond to his trans daughter in a different but equally distinct way.

what i’m talking about is a very specific kind of ownership and control and self-victimization and total lack of boundaries masquerading as love and care and maternal concern that cis women (i would argue white cis women in particular) project onto their transmasc kids when we do literally anything to our bodies. i’m talking about a phenomenon which is closely related to the way moms often pass eating disorders onto their daughters (or children they view as daughters) because they see a body that looks something like theirs and project all of their insecurities and ideals onto it. i’m talking about a form of parental transphobia and projection that’s specific to the dynamic of a cis mother and her child who was “supposed to” be her daughter.

if you’ve never felt that, you’re not even remotely qualified to tell me shit about how i should be talking about that experience, and if you couldn’t recognize that experience when you read my post, i’m guessing you probably haven’t experienced it because the replies to that post made it very clear to me that anyone who has experienced it firsthand immediately knew exactly what i meant.

like, yeah, cis dads also project onto their trans daughters, but are they likely to have a reaction like running away with actual tears streaming down their face? do you expect them to passive aggressively make comments about how sad their kid’s transition makes them, how it’s such a difficult emotional time, how it’s so tragic because their kid’s body was so beautiful before? do you think their go-to transphobic reaction will be weaponizing their emotions? i’m sure there are some dads out there who are like that, but i think we can agree they’re in the minority because that’s not how cis men are taught to react and parents like this tend to be pretty damn committed to following the gender roles they were taught.

and even if i’m wrong and our experiences are exactly the same, let me reiterate that i never said this was an experience exclusive to trans men. all i said is that it happens to us. that’s just a statement of objective fact.

this started in my life when i got my hair cut short for the first time almost a decade ago and it has not stopped since. i’ve watched my mom cry over me changing my name and respond to being asked if my happiness matters more to her than my name by saying “i care about both”, i’ve watched her melt down in a mall over me getting a suit for prom and give me the silent treatment for days after, i’ve heard her plead with me to stop t because it “looks unnatural” and she’s just so “concerned for my health”, i’ve watched her stare at me post-op and say “my poor baby” over and over like she’s looking at my corpse in a casket. i’ve watched her turn herself into the victim of every single aspect of my transition. i’ve had to live with this for 9 years and spent the early years of the pandemic literally locked in a house with it. this has been my entire adolescent and adult life, and the question of if i’ll have to cut her off someday (and maybe never see my cat or my little cousins who i love more than anything in the world ever again as a result) haunts me every single day.

who the fuck are you to tell me how to talk about that?

#i hope you weren’t expecting me to take this in good faith and give a nice measured response #because just so we’re clear you didn’t have a chance in hell of doing anything other than pissing me off #like in case you forgot i am a real person who this is happening to #in what world did you think i’d care about how an anonymous stranger feels about how i describe it when im the one who has to live it #idk man. some of y’all clearly do not see me as an actual person capable of emotion and it shows #also like. using a friend’s experience is wild bc 1) how do you know it was the same if it didn’t happen to you #and 2) would that friend really want you using their experience against another trans person experiencing something similar? #anon hate #ask answered #examples of transandrophobia #transandrophobia #transandromisia #transmisandry #virilmisia #virilphobia #anti transmasculinity #transmascphobia #trans men

[teleport-warning]

My poor, mad, cursed Knave.

#Genshin impact #genshin fanart #arlecchino #genshin arlecchino #as opposed to commedia arlecchino #although there are clearly some similarities #I didn’t want to love her but unfortunately I am a sucker for a character that looks like a pants role #teleport warning draws

[heroesriseandfall]

Fanon mischaracterization of the Drakes is how I end up making a post defending Tim’s parents from baseless fanon bashing only to immediately after make a post complaining about their canon parenting.

#they’re pretty terrible parents most of the time but not like THAT #jack drake did not literally call on the U.S. government to save tim from a war zone only for 1000 fanfics to claim he didn’t care abt tim #neglectful and abusive parents can in fact also love their children! they are not devoid of emotion! they just don’t know how to parent #ALSO. they CLEARLY cared about Tim more than about status! they were just way too caught up in their work to pay enough attention to him! #/end complaint #not really done complaining I’m just gonna stop myself before I keep going #tim drake #jack drake #janet drake #drake parenting #heroesriseandfall #canon vs fanon

[otaku553]

A certain first encounter

#genshin impact #demon slayer #crossover #kaedehara ​kazuha #shinazugawa sanemi #first chapter is in progress for the fic lmao I just felt like doing a little drawing of their first meeting #why is sanemi so hard to draw actually #I love the idea of kazuha seeing the demon slayer uniform and just noping the hell out of there #not shown because I didn’t plan this comic out great: sanemi has just seen kazuha killing demons with a broken nichirin sword and #nichirin swords are generally only within the corps— but Kazuha’s not a demon slayer clearly #which means to sanemi that he must have stolen the blade somehow or picked it up from a corpse somewhere #which sanemi will absolutely get angry about #anyways their second meeting both of them are definitely more eloquent but also no friendlier with each other #really pushing it in the fic with how sarcastic and passive aggressive I think kazuha can be #never seen him interact with Raiden directly sadly so very little reference to go off of on kazuha interacting with people he doesn’t like #I’m determined to believe that kazuha would be extremely petty but in a classy way if someone pushed his buttons enough

[milf-murdock]

Ghost accidentally elbowing you in the face during sexy time

The mood obviously broken, but goddamn the profuse apologies and general tenderness that ensue might just be worth it

When he gingerly presses the ice pack to your nose, double, triple, quadruple checking you’re okay 🥺

That’s it, send tweet.

Definitely Not based on real life experiences tonight

#lowkey bummed I didn’t get my back blown out but hey #what can ya do #the sweetness afterwards really did make it almsot worth it though #and I can just SO CLEARLY SEE the concern and horror in ghost’s eyes as he realizes what’s happening #and then those big ass hands being so gentle on your tender skin #ugh it’s fine I’m fine I’m so normal about this man #simon riley #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader

[miamignonette]

some of you really refuse to believe anything taylor says. i just saw a video of a fan saying “umm there are really people who think that bejeweled is about taylor’s boyfriend not putting her first?? 😂” yeah girl i have ears with which i listen to the song and eyes with which i read the lyrics

#i didn’t check but i just know she’s one of those people who screams pr at everything taylor does #that’s so irritating like why are you HERE if you clearly don’t like her as a person lol