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stillcominback · 9 months

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𝚆𝙴𝙻𝙻, 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝙳𝙸𝙲𝚃'𝚂 𝙸𝙽: as a lot of you may know by know [ if you've caught any of my previous posts about it ], i'm moving with my parents back to california from texas -- where i've been for about 30 years -- because overall? it'll be good for me. i'm sick of texas for the most part, i literally can't afford to live on my own [ and honestly? i like being near my parents and would just have more security and better quality of life in CA ], and i just think sometimes a change is good!

i've been waiting to see if my job will let me keep my job [ and continue to pay me dirt, even! ] ... all i was asking is that i can live in california and work remote. well, the owner has decided he will not allow me to do that. is there a good reason? in my opinion: no. he's framing it [ in his conservative white man rich business owner brain ] that I'M the one making the choice to move because i could apparently just as easily stay in texas and get my own place etc etc etc. so it's on me! unfortunately, it's just not that simple, but i guess from a guy who runs a family business and has multiple homes, it's just hard to really grasp that concept.

i'm literally so furious and so heartbroken at the same time. i know it's not the best company, and yeah i guess, we can say this is for the best in the end? but that doesn't make it hurt less. i've been there for almost 11 fucking years. my ENTIRE career out of college. through ups and downs, i was always working my ass off and being a great employee ... shining reviews and reputation with literally everyone. it just hurts that that ultimately means nothing when i'm finally asking for something in return. i take the poverty wages, take the working in the office when i hate it for the most part, i've taken having to hear misogynistic, homophobic, transphobic, every-phobic thing over the years ... then i ask for ONE thing in 11 years [ that's literally not even a big ask ] and it's a ✨no✨.

i feel so lost. like i don't even know how to be without this job, and as much as people tell me YOU'RE SO TALENTED! YOU'RE SO GREAT! YOU'LL FIND SOMETHING SOOOO MUCH BETTER! i wanna believe it, but my brain just ... doesn't. maybe it's imposter syndrome or just how fucking down on myself i feel right now. i still appreciate it because i literally don't know what i would do without my friends and family's support right now like ... even if i can't see it for myself, it means the literal world to me.

plus sides [ i guess ]: i should be able to keep my laptop [ but i'll lose adobe cc so ... i may need some recs or help on how to at least get photoshop cause idk how i'll carry on without it lmao ]; my manager who is a literal saint and one of the best people i know [ she actually pissed the owner off going to the mat for me lmao "he doesn't like to be questioned" ... insert the biggest eye-roll of my life ] ... but she said she would help me with literally everything from linkedin to my resume to a portfolio, and i know that'll be like everything to me while i just .... try to navigate all of this ON TOP OF trying to move.

ALSO: i think i can work until i leave, if that's what i want to do ... i'm still trying to figure all of this out because honestly? even though it's not much? i need the money. but then i'm also like i don't wanna do the owner any favors by having me work while they maybe start putting out feelers to replace me, yknow? BUT THEN AGAIN, i'm hurting my boss more than him [ and that's the twisted, frustrated thing about all of this ... it hurts us way more than it does anything to him but he still gets to make the choice for us ]. SO! i dunno! i may just use all my PTO and see how far that gets me lmao but i feel like at the end of the day, i have to look out for myself and maybe just trying to pull in as many paychecks as i can [ since we also don't have a hard 'we're moving!' date at the moment ] is the best idea ... even if the idea of going into the office and acting normal like literally makes me so ... 😤 but i dunno! my brain is a mess! afjhksdfda

SO YEAH. i just wanted to update you guys because i do consider you friends. whether we talk a little or a lot, i appreciate all of you so much and just wanted to keep folks in the loop with where my life and my head's at right now. not the best but ... just trying to keep it moving. honestly nooooo clue when writing is gonna happen here again??? i do miss / enjoy the distraction of plotting and talking about all this stuff so don't be shy, i just don't know when i'll have the time or capacity to just write here [ maybe once we move and stuff settles a little bit? ] -- but yeah, in the meantime, please come chat with me, let's plot dynamics and all that shit because it still makes me so happy and lets me take my mind on a little vacation lmao love you all, truly! ❤️

#** reblogging on some of my blogs to pass it around but! applies across the board: you can find most of my blogs in my pinned post here! **#been on and off crying since like 4PM yesterday so it's been a ride lemme tell ya!#nothing like feeling like you wasted over a decade of your life at a job that never really cared about you #like MY boss does but stupidly she doesn't get to make all the decisions for HER own team #even though the owner is barely present and doesn't really know anything about us or the day to day so ... very cool of him #to make big decisions that can hurt a lot of people (and don't affect him one bit either way)#he just really doesn't seem to give a shit at all that it makes our lives so much harder for NO reason #it's just that he literally doesn't “like” remote working and doesn't want to set some kind of company-wide precedent #even tho i'm like moving isn't THAT easy lmao people aren't all just gonna mass exodus out my guy #(also we have a C-level employee who lives / works from new york but ... apparently that's SUUUUPER different because she lived there when #she was hired ........ *stares into camera*)#anyway!!! i'm just really frustrated and hurt and fucking terrified #and i appreciate literally anyone who bothered to read all this! lmao #i'll be around on mobile as per usual ❤️❤️❤️#00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

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sassyhazelowl · 13 days

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Me @ the local exotic bird fair: I'm way too white for this -- oh *gasp* ITS A CHICKEN *immediately bypasses the emus and parrots to see the modern game bantams and old english games in the back*

#my bird talk #its one of those things were you look around and go well someone is the odd one out #it was me #I'm very obviously white super white and woman-presenting #in a large exhibit hall of hispanic and se asian men #it didn't particularly bother me - I mean I lived in Korea for 3 years but I found it funny #the funniest part to me is the chicken sellers were also white women 😂 and they were the only white vendors other than the supply table #white women and hispanic men - biggest fans of chickens unite #I've actually purchased birds from the mom in the mom-daughter duo before #I desperately wanted those chickens tho #and the old english games in the table next to them #2 of my 3 fave chicken breeds the 3rd being sebrights #sadly I purchased 2 diamond doves and that's it #I wanted new colors/blood on the doves and 1-2 button quail roosters #but I was too slow on the button quails and someone else got them while I was buying a dove #next year after I build a bigger aviary and sell most of my canaries I'll try some finches #the new owners of the bird show must be allowing poultry/gamebirds now #b/c there were 2 chicken booths and coturnix and bobwhites and pheasants and mandarin ducks #usually the only birds like that you'd see would maybe be a pair of fancy pigeons or some ringneck doves #the only thing I don't like about that is chickens and ducks carry a lot of yucky things #like theses birds all looked very well taken care of b/c they were clearly showbirds #but I don't know how much vetting they do of the vendors and all it takes is one sick bird

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sensitivegoblin · 3 months

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Vent

#I need a hug #I just feel like hopeless shit tbh #I wanna do something to cheer myself up but I'm just so depressed nothing feels worth it #I don't have any crochet inspiration #my hair is in a cloth so makeup would look good/feel worth it #anything I wanna write is sad #I just want something to make me happy rn but I'm not gonna get it :(#I don't even have the will power to do basic skin care rn #usually I feel a lil better after but ugh #I just...don't feel like i care about anything #I wish I could go completely nonverbal so that I wouldn't anger the people around me #all my life is consistent of is listening to people but no one listens to me #my dad thinks we talk a lot but really it's HIM talking and me going 'yeah' every now and then #he says its not true but it is #I never get to talk to anyone I never get to go off into my autistic rants like he does #my moods really fluctuating between feeling nothing and feeling like I need to c*t and d*e #I need a hug that I don't have to fucking ask for........#I'm either dazing and nothing or I'm barely holding in my tears #I wanna take a Tbreak cus I feel like that doesn't help #but it's really hard to NOT smoke when in pain #I dunno man my life just feels like it's never getting better.#I wanna be saved but that's never happening I'm not pretty enough to even hope that someone will finally give me my big break #feeling just hurts I wanna shut off but it's driving me mad

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falsiliar · 1 year

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@howthesleeplesswander || cont.

See? He liked this grown-up. Or... psh, as if! *Tolerated.

He wasn't boring like the rest of them, and a captain of the Knights of Favoni-whatever, to boot! So, not only was it his job to keep the—yes, you're right—City of Boredom safe from monsters and troublemakers alike, but he did so in a way that wasn't immediately a yawn. (Not that the stick-up-her-ass ponytail lady wasn't fun to annoy just because of her stupid justice schtick, but y'know!)

When theatrics were met with theatrics, Kokichi's prideful smirk only stretched, followed then by somewhat of a dismissive snort. Puh-lease, Captain! There were soooo many people in the world to entertain him! He absolutely did not miss you at all!

"Aw, you're so cute when you think you're actually wanted! I almost feel bad for raining on your little parade!" His head cocked to the side, innocence blossoming in his smile... but dashed by the spark in his eye. "Buuuut, it's a villain's job to crush dreams, so... Oh well!"

Kokichi studied him expectantly, as if waiting for a reaction. Or, it would quickly appear, for a question. "So, are you going to ask me where I've been? You must be dying to know."

#howthesleeplesswander #🎲||► v: genshin impact #🎲||► prose #the two MENACES are together and causing chaos again fjhadohna #and kokichi is already here being a bully as usual 8')#he bullies everyone--don't care who you are nhjaoghajo I AM SORRY KAEYA #YOU DO NOT DESERVE THIS 8'D #but then again no one deserves to put up with kokichi so ig...#someone had to take the bullet v.v #thank you for that lovely reply to the ask! c:

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welcometogrouchland · 7 months

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I've decided I need to post at least some of my DC art backlog or I may actually explode and die

#ramblings of a lunatic #i have things I'm cooking #it's always weird when a new obsession takes me bc it usually is so intense that it blocks out any ability to think/talk abt-#-whatever it is I've been posting about for the past year or two #and I'm always afraid that I'm like. alienating anyone who views my blog on a regular basis #which is stupid! i know that this is my house and I can post whatever i want!#it just feels odd #especially bc enjoying comics isn't like enjoying other stuff for me. it's complicated #GAH anyway. I'm currently following along with bop + batman and robin rn (+semi following the flash??? a lil???)#(I'm one of the sickos who's actually looking forward to beast world exclusively bc of the tie-ins (like the flash). i know I'm a freak)#but like. that's two monthly series. i have to sustain myself with day dreams #and then i don't know how to externalise the daydreams. also i feel like i know too much abt canon to exist soley in the like.#the corner of the fandom that's just an echo of the source material (which is valid imo as a separate off-shoot of fandom)#but also i always feel like i don't know Enough (nor do i have enough bitterness in my soul) to occupy the mainstream more hardline-#-comic fan spaces that adhere much more closely to canon #ergo i never know like. who I'm making a post for in that sense bc I'm not sure i could slot comfortably into either camp yknow?#i should value my own opinions and interests enough to just vote for myself. and yet #and yet...#anyway. it's probably gonna be the usual slew of redesigns and doodles of C...nay Z-listers that i care about #if it does happen. which like i said. if it doesn't. i esplode

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theabyssgazesalsointoyou · 1 year

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my bmc character designs are not trt or bw but a secret third thing

#they're my own designs #influenced heavily by trt ofc but they're mine #no my jeremy is not will c jeremy or will r jeremy he's just. jeremy #i barely know anything about the actors i don't care that much about the cast #i'm just here for the characters not the people playing them #wanted to get that out of the way since musical theatre fanartists usually seem to accurately portray a certain actor/cast #not me lol so don't call me out on my designs

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loneliii-aura · 1 year

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Hm, how do I put this. I agree with most of the stated opinions of "pro-shippers." However, just because I don't think people deserve to be mobbed online or persecuted by the government for their art does not mean I think those same pieces are undeserving of criticism or expressed disgust.

#Art regardless of quality evokes emotion #Sometimes that emotion is throwing a book against a wall!#I've done that!#I do think there's a specific context for where it's decent to express that disgust and to the author is not usually it #For multiple reasons: a) it's wildly hurtful #b) they don't care #c) they become defensive and react MORE in the way the person expressing disgust does not want them to #Usually the better move is not to talk to the author of whatever piece you find offensive and talk to the potential audience #And point out the flaws in the work you see #And not necessarily make value judgements on the author but just engage with what their words actually reflect #You're more likely to elicit change AND you might realize in the process that the author actually agrees with you

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dbphantom · 1 year

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Are you a well adjusted individual or is ur fave character dynamic between two brothers one where the first is deathly serious all the time and the second is just some Dude who is trying his best

#Cruddy rambles #Which of my fave pieces of media am I talking about?#.... Yes.#Which. They're all very different character dynamics between each of them (ranging from I'm going to kill you to I'd kill god for you)#But you know. A Very fun platonic relationship dynamic to play around with #So I get why it's so popular #My favorite moments are when the dynamic is flipped around #And the serious one loses their shit #Or the usually flippant one has to take on the role of serious guy #Preferably at the same time #I don't care how cliche it is. It's my favorite #Something something showcasing the influence of the other something something #Also just the tiny moments. Like jackpot.#Yeah im mainly thinking of d/m/c but theres tons of other media I like with this dynamic too. Like f/f/x/v or even tri/gun

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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i'm so sleepy

#🌙.rambles #really wanted to do so much more today but. i did a lot #i'm really happy w yk yeah bio n literature earlier n then #earlier hehe me n apollo were chilling in our parents' room bcs our dad was playing the 1975 music out loud. bonding over music c:#n then. talking w my friends a bit but.. specifically i'm really happy i managed to. hmm. hopefully those words reached her #i know my friends well i think. more than it seems on the outside #so i really want to do things for them n i know how to convey it in such a way that it wld at least resonate with them more #but i really do hesitate that i'll do it wrong yk? or i'm low on energy myself #but. i'm just. personally proud that tonight at least i managed to tell help her a bit. i really had a feeling she hasn't been doing well #for. the past months. i'm so sick of hesitating i just want to reach out but i really get afraid sometimes n i'm sorry #sincerity n authenticity n honesty mean a lot to me but. my friends aren't usually. as Open yk #goddamn i can't write it well enough bcs i cld write how i perceive it specifically for each n every single close friend of mine #n i really just want to help in any way i can bcs i really do care #i'm. also just really for the friend i said earlier. i really just.. know how it feels to have that hope crushes n for it to #ah. i don't know how to write it but the words are in my head. i really wish i cld just call or hug my friends anytime to just reassure #them or listen or just be company. bcs i know how it feels all too well n when i'm managing a bit better like i am right now i just #want to make the most of it but.. sigh #i'm more. yk more of a writer than your average person. but #writing is just so hard at times isn't it? but i really want to do as much as i can #n then. i don't know i think i need to cry i think. i want to do so much #yk that horoscope.co thing. i'm not too big on astrology i just find it interesting but w scorpio sun & capricorn moon (bcs that's me)#read it again n it a bunch of not rlly resonated with me :^) ffs i just want to do so much n it hurts #bcs i want to be kind to myself but i'm in a constant battle of. yeah really trying not to push myself but it's so hard #when people are put in the picture. humans are social beings. it's inevitable n. it's just so.. it just feels so helpless for me i think.#bcs there's so much in me that wants to just be freed like. i want to be who i am with no restraint but.#there's just.. a lot too but.#thinking of earlier today n how i overcame my anxiety. n we. we bought the tickets. for the 1975. doesn't feel real but my motivation rlly #yeah. n then. fuck the pain i'm channeling that energy to my motivation instead but #i really.. need to sleep. i'm sorry i can't do more right now. i really want to. tomorrow. i hope. i will do more. but i'll rest now.#..n tonight somehow maybe telling you to rest wld reach you somehow. probably not but i'll just leave this here.

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hauntedpearl · 2 years

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#I'm thinking about like. how anxiety can cripple my articulation again like. when put on a spot. i don't feel like j express myself as well #as i can. and then i feel guilt over it especially when people end up picking irresolvable arguments with me because i feel like i #overexplain myself and the other party just straight up categorizes me as the Bad Person ahdgjskd which makes me more anxious aggsjddk #(yes this is about the thing i elft tumblr for in part but not fully. like ik it's been three months but it was v traimatizing lmao)#(like every time i start thinking about it i know im on the brink of an anxiwty attack again and then i just. shut down ahgshdke FUN IT'S #SO FUN!!!)#anyway. my point is. im very. like. careful with how i curate my space on other social media because i feel like there's ~ c l o u t ~#involved and it's also some weird sense of obligation that i can't shake. i put it down to self-importance honestly bc i don't have a big #platform or anything but i feel like even the ability to influence someone in a small way is like. RESPONSIBILITY.#with tumblr i dont feel that responsibility. i don't actively follow people who are spouting hate or have beliefs which are honestly #really fucking outrageous. like. terfs can die i wouldn't feel bad. samr for racists lmao. or nazis. the usual fodder right #but i tolerate aphobia to an extent. bc *I'm* ace and ive interacted with the group #and most of them never actively say anything. the ones who do are ignored but others im like. i will take yoir jokes but nothing else.yk??#it's a strange system but it's very stress-free for me and i curate it that way for whatever reason #even now i feel like I'm not expressing myself properly. like.. it's not about agreeing with a certain belief. it's about my personal level #of comfort/discomfort. and how much im able to tolerate from a person before i say enough is enough.#also i can't bring myself to like block people bc again weird problems but i curate carefully enough that that's never a problem for me #all this bc i saw some post about kids being afraid to consume certain media bc they're afraid of being ousted from their social circles &#LIKE YEAH. I MEAN. IT HAPPENS FR. AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL? SO??.#HMM ANYWAY. i don't even post desinatural anymore that used to be my thing it makes me so sad :(#personal lmao.#dony even reply to this this is Nonsense ™#i have friends outside i am okay it's just a trigger so im ranting #bYE

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rxkuyo · 2 years

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can y'all believe I haven't touched a videogame in over 2 weeks ? feels bad man :')

#I miss ER and HFW #but taking care of this sick horse is taking up so much time of my day #I usually get back home from the stable at like 11 pm these days #then force myself to eat something despite it being too godawful late for food at that hour #followed by me taking a fucking shower and then spending like two hours at the pc #doing nothing because I don't have the energy to like play games or make edits or whatever #and part of that IS my horrible fucking time management skills like I am aware of that #and that makes it like 100 times more irritating #but it is also fucking summer which means it's too hot and disgusting and that alone already has me #a) irritated at all times and b) literally drained of all energy in the first place so like :)#me: what happened to me I literally had this same routine during the entirety of winter and it never burned me out #summer: hi #me: oh right :)#it's so warm y'all I hate it #fucking 22°C in my bedroom at night like how do you expect me to sleep ??? I need that shit between 10-15°C max or I die #and that's the coolest room in my flat b/c the sun only hits it for like 2 hours in the morning #like I am SUFFERING and it's only just may #literally feeling like shit just want winter and my energy back please and thanks #also I stg I never had problems with allergies before but this year my eyes are constantly watering and my nose is runny like stooooppp #fucking stooppppppp fr #personal

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snz-thoughts · 3 days

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17 for saphyre?

This is an interesting question for sure! Ty!!!

— Do they tend to run fevers? How do they take their temperature?

Short answer is yes! hehe you'll see. In the world most of my ocs live called Animalían even if they've human-like body types they're mostly regular animals/mythological beings and such stuff ('Cause there's only 7 half-humans who exists there, one of them is Snehan).

So, Saphyre is a spider: they're ectotherm or "cold blood" animals whose temperature regulation is determined by external elements of the environment. She hates summer a lot 'cause of the heat and she tends to be very feverish at times. On winters too, she tends to caught terrible and miserable colds as the temperature goes lower.

As she's part of the royalty (literally a princess), she has some knowledge about magic and she can identify her health state by using a tactic "generic wellbeing factor" that displays a whole "clinic analysis" of the user. Most times she knows by her instincts, meteorologically speaking, when the environment is changing. That would explain how she can take care of herself properly on either situation or to acknowledge a disruption of her own temperature (she's pretty unmindful at times tho,, that's why she can't escape being sick at least two times a year).

#ty for the ask once again!#i love grambling abt my ocs sm <3 #saphy is kind of clueless but she has 2 partners that adore her no matter what and that are there to take care of her #specially Snehan tho #'cause they're a sorcerer “mastered” in healing arts #Squalo would probably sob or have a heart attack every time she falls ill tho #as she tends to have long-term fevers than the usual symptoms of a cold or the flu #but also 'cause Squalo had been sick like... twice in his fcking life #he's a shark so yeah! bless their immune systems 🙏#spiders don't get sick as much tho irl but i just COULDN'T RESIST THE URGE to make her vulnerable to sicknesses #with the NOSE SHAPE she has. like.#it would be a waste of potential #and it fits her character too so this stays >>>#snzblr #sneezeblr #snezcanonasks #saphyre o/c

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hiperchile · 4 months

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rewatched antes de perder... still movie of all time. my girls!!!

#l #like usual watching it gives me the acute urge to write a chiamen au of it lmao #like jana & di are the closest you can get to c&c on tv idc idc #it's the love at first sight behavior!!!#gd if only a woman would go on the run with me after robbing a gas station.....#escaping to brazil together.....#this is the height of romance i don't even care like #need me some of that thelma and louise shit fr

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sant-riley · 6 months

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[Touchy feely] [tf141 headcanons]

(Romantic impied Task force 141 boys x gender neutral!reader headcanons :))

Summary: Being the sweetheart of the task force means the boys are not shy about the fact that they're all simps and always want some sort of contact with you at all times.

Consists of romantic/suggestive headcanons for each of the guys and little things they do with you <3

Words: about 1.5k (this was supposed to be short, whoops)

Warnings/Info: Can be read separately but it is intended that they all harbor feelings for you at the same time, possibly out of character for everyone, some swearing, the guys manhandle you, as always, let me know if I miss something!

Thinking about how each of the boys is so touchy with you, it doesn't matter where you are or who you're with, they're shameless.

Other units and teams who will sometimes share the base with 141 know better than to ask questions or directly say anything to one of the guys or you for that matter. Not that they could anyway, seeing as you always have at least one of them attached to your hip.

Price:

Anyone who walks into Price's office late at night to turn something in is used to seeing you next to the Captain on the little dingy loveseat he has in there.

John is usually smoking a cigar, taking care to not blow smoke your way while your head is resting on his shoulder. Your eyes closed as you hum at his words. It's terribly domestic for a military base.

John likes to gently play with your hair while he speaks about missions he's been on, always somehow trying to braid despite not knowing how to for jack shit, whether it because it's you or just the mindless motion, he's not willing to say.

John will usually walk you back to your room after dinner or time in his office unless he's swamped with work.

A small hand on the small of your back while he leads you. It's always a respectable touch, though he tucks you into his side, nodding at everyone you may pass.

If you're comfortable with it, he likes to press a kiss to your head, smiling that goofy ass smile, and tells you to get a good night's rest.

He lets you help him trim up his beard, he won't let you do all of it but he likes the closeness of it, him sitting down while you gently shape it up, tilting his head up and he tries his best to not stare directly at your chest.

The fact that he's letting you this close to his neck with a razor is a sign of trust, maybe small for others but for a man that doesn't drop his guard and doesn't truly trust others, it speaks volumes.

The first time he let you, you were barely putting any pressure and he grabbed your hand in his and showed you. "You're not gonna hurt me, put more force into it, yeah?"

Don't get me started on going out on walks in London with Price, he wraps you up in his beanie and some big leather jacket he has that dwarves you, helping you move through crowds by once again holding the small of your back, or taking your smaller hand in his. (He doesn't correct anyone if they mistake you as married)

He likes to kiss the back of your hand and laughs when it makes you blush and sputter out that his beard is scratchy.

Ghost:

Ghost is a subtle one, he won't actively reach for you or your hand but he does have some part of him against you most times.

Whether it be his leg, arm, or thigh, anything works. A normal place yall will be seen together is in the dining hall, you've both learned to ignore the stares from everyone else.

Simon never eats there, just sits with you until you're finished and then you both move on to either his quarters or somewhere else so he can peel his mask up to eat a bit.

However, while you're eating and telling him about anything under the sun, he'll lean over and wipe some crumbs off of your mouth with his thumb softly, which again, you're used to so okay whatever but Recruits always are taken aback in their seats.

Ghost's reflexes kick into overdrive with you. His hand going to cover a corner of a table 9/10 times before you completely wreck your shit, but when he does miss (sometimes on purpose).

He'll bring a hand up to rub at your head for you, chuckling under his breath before cooing down at you "That hurt pretty? Sure look like it did."

Whenever you two specifically are paired onto a mission, doesn't matter if any of the guys complain, he will share a cot/tent with you. He claims he runs the hottest (he doesn't, it's Johnny but he will not lose on this) and can keep your body the warmest.

He pretty much lugs you on top of him and wraps his arms around your waist, he'll press a hand against your head if you keep fidgeting, rasping at you to go to sleep. He takes great pride in the fact that you're usually out like a light very shortly.

I've said it once and I'll say it again, Ghost likes to hook a finger into your body straps and pull it really hard and let it smack you to get your attention if you're not actively paying attention to him, he'll soothe the area but he's smirking behind that fucking mask.

On that note, he definitely does the "You got something right here." And points at your chest and immediately pull up to flick your nose hard as fuck, he KNOWS his own strength but sometimes your eyes water and he immediately feels bad.

Ghost rests his head on your chest a lot, he finds your heartbeat to be soothing and reassuring, also grunts if you don't wrap your arms around him in return, bro literally shoves his head into you and groans

This is a grown man but it's cute so you let it slide bc he'll never ask for it outright, he just assumes you'll cradle his head.

Soap:

Johnny is the most shameless motherfucker here, I'm talking about draping himself over you, grabbing at your cheeks, ruffling your hair, kissing you dangerously close to your lips (it drives the others mad), he's the most unapologetic about it and will gloat to the others.

Manhandler #1, isn't above grabbing you by your hips and picking you up to move you somewhere, he's literally gone and grabbed you from some rookies side to come stand next to him with a smile and you're just so used to it that you just shrug and go along with it. (He gets slightly jealous, why would you stand next to some random ass dude and not him??)

Throws you over his shoulder, or likes you to cling to his front or his back and just carries you, he says it's a comfortable weight. If you ever dare say you're too heavy, he's gonna go to the gym and work out even more to PROVE to you that he simply doesn't care, he will carry you.

Extremely bad habit of sneaking into your room to fall asleep with you, Price has come into your room many times to see Soap sprawled on top of you, he's drooling and snoring and you're knocked the fuck out (he's like a glorified weighted blanket).

I've touched on this before but he only wants you to cut his hair for him, yeah he can go to the barber on base but he much prefers you and loves it when you scratch at his scalp. He also likes to just have his head in between your thighs but that's something else for another time-

Soap specifically slings you over his shoulder a lot, especially off base where he truly doesn't have any fucks to give.

You're not going to bed because you have other work?? Too bad, shoulder time you go. You're not willing to get up and make yourself food? Good thing he's here, either pick what you want from the kitchen or throw some clothes on bc he IS dragging you out of the house.

Johnny likes to draw on you a lot, it ranges from scribbles, to sometimes his name if he's feeling cheeky (he's drawn it on your thigh before and you didn't notice until Gaz shot you a look), to intricate drawings of whatever he can think whether it be a landscape or an animal.

He always holds you steady and it isn't uncommon for your limbs to fall asleep but it's worth it, if only to see him smile.

Gaz:

Gaz is probably the most secretly clingy person out of the four, he CAN function without your touch but does he PREFER to? No.

His first instinct in any situation is to grab you and shield you, he's the fastest of the four so his body moves without thinking and it's saved you more times than any of you would like to count.

The one mission where you both fell out of a moving truck, he tucked your body into his despite it costing him his shoulder popping out of the socket, you couldn't help but freak out while Ghost moved to pop it back into place.

"Why the fuck would you do that? Look at your arm!" "It's nothing." "Garrick what the fuck-"

When you're out anywhere off base, he's holding your hand, good luck trying to pull away bc he is not letting go. Too bad so sad, resign to your fate.

I think Gaz is definitely good at dancing, at least with you and when the right music is on, you cannot tell me this man wouldn't twirl you around and shit-fight me on it. He'll even lift you off your feet, laughing when you scramble to grab at his shoulders.

He goes stark still if you rest your head on his shoulder, not because he's nervous but because he's worried about waking you up when he knows you deserve a rest.

He'll usually wrap his arm around your shoulder to hold you in place so the heli ride doesn't jostle you so much, gentleness rubbing his knuckles along your arm to soothe you.

Gaz is the one who holds you when you have nightmares, on rare occasions when Soap isn't in your room and you just need to be held with no talking, you always without thinking find yourself in Kyle's room, his arms wrapped around your waist as he tucks your head under his chin, no questions asked.

He'll maybe hum a tune to help you relax but other than that, he lets you lead the way.

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