#but the chocolate she gets is mostly mud and theres so much of it that sifting around for real chocolate is not worth the effort

[fizzingwizard]

the type of bot followers I've been getting recently are different from the old ones

they old ones were called something like "kayla95573735" or other conventional female name, or they were "vik558dfght" absolute nonsense. of course, you click them, and there's a semi-provocative banner image of a woman, and then either nothing at all in the blog itself or a few scattered reblogs of random stuff.

now i get "keith5684564" "edwardjfkghhg" and even though the names are now typically male ones the images are still of women various women in the typical provocative poses and entirely empty blogs

I guess the bots realized no one believes they're really women so might as well make a sham attempt at credibility and just announce that oh yeah they're run by guys? (which of course they're bots soooo lol)

or maybe the bots were getting too many messages for "kayla" and thought that if they're "keith" instead at least people won't message them so much

kind of funny imagining a bot getting so overwhelmed by the sheer amount of "hey baby dm me" in its inbox that it redesigns its identity hehehehe

#tumblr #totally off topic but #actually tbh this is what i wish men who try to meet women online would sympathize with a bit more #i get it sucks to message women and get nothing back when presumably those women are getting a lot of messages #but speaking from experience yeah you get messages if you present as a woman but the messages are awful #its like why do i not get any chocolate? she gets so much chocolate #but the chocolate she gets is mostly mud and theres so much of it that sifting around for real chocolate is not worth the effort #and the fact of the matter is most of the guys who message you arent interested in you. theyre just blanket messaging all women in a radius #and if any reply then they consider whether they actually like them #so i never took he messaged me as proof that a guy even looked at my profile back when i tried online dating haha #just saying womens experience with online dating isnt less frustrating and demoralizing just because of the different amount of messages #it sucks to get no response and it sucks to get a lot of spam response #but whenever men online talk about online dating they always bring up how women get sooo many messages and its not fair #here dude you can have mine lol. please take them. i dont want them. no woman wants them lol #also its just weird when you make a first time account and suddenly there are 20 people all messaging you calling you baby #lol im not your baby... not yet... thats why we're here... to figure that part out... but dont jump the gun k it doesnt win you any points #hey baby dm me hey baby dm me hey baby dm me hey baby dm me hey baby dm me why dont u respond baby why u such a bitch

[purrfurnax]

okay so heres how all my kintypes and fictives ‘became’ mostly for me to keep track but also if youre curious

wyvern awakening: i met my spirit guide whos a dragon, i started to get all these ideas about the world and a bunch of morals humans thought were weird, looked all that stuff up and most of it was either written in books/info sites about draconic paganism or things from dragons channeled by energy workers (people say dont trust that stuff but some of them are trustworthy and i have that same experience)

i had dreams in an order that told a story, dont remember what most of them were but they ended with a cloud that was sucking the life from every being, i got sucked into it and came out my wyvern self, after that i started to feel wings that werent realy there, mental shifts, those beliefs i had intensified to what it is now (not that its a good thing because im constantly fucking pissed)

i told a friend about it, she said i could be dragonkin, i looked it up and it said basically everything i felt on draconity.com

horse awakening: when i was little (8ish-15ish) i always used to pretended to be a horse, collected breyer horses, rode horses, sometimes would gallop or paw the ground, and neigh at other horses

this was like wayyyyyy before i even knew what otherkin was at all but i kinda remember feeling ears and pinning them back when i was mad or nervous and sometimes feeling like there was a body trailing behind me, sometimes still do and i have a few memories, sometimes i jsut have this weird thing where i crave ‘horse food’ like oats/oatmeal, granola, carrots, apples, pears, any leafy food, bitter things like dark chocolate and red lettuce, always had that during mental shifts and normally i dont really like those things

after i found out what otherkin was im just like ‘yep definitely a kintype’

raptor awakening: i thought it was just weak wyvern shifts or something, but my toes as a wyvern are more like a chickens than a raptors

i always had shifts mostly when i saw pictures or info about raptors, and realllyyy straong when i watched jurrassic park and stuff with them

then i had memories, the first one of chasing some little black flying thing, then one of laying in the rain paralyzed 

khajiit awakening: this ones kinda blurry and its mostly phantom and mental shifts, everyone was telling me ‘what if you were just a normal cat’ and i was kinda going like that but i didnt walk on 4 legs at all 

i started having memories of that, one where i was drunk in a tavern and threw a chair at some guy then passed out over a table, and one me and paar share of us looking at each other (also we used to call ourselves literal dovahkiin before The Gatekeepers tm started trying to make us explain with their own beliefs and he didnt want to anymore)

im also kinda questioning some kind of bird kintype 

okay how paar came to be: i thought i had what was a really strong mental shift one night, forget exactly where we were but it happened a few more times enough for me to think i was fictionkin

but your kintypes ARE you, he was separate and could talk to me

he was in my dream one night, he was meditating on this cliff mountain thing by a lake, the sky was pink and purple with stars and planets everywhere it was all wavy and moved, turned out to be our headspace, called ‘the lake’

the lake has this completely empty stone castle across from the lake, the ground around the lake is different in each ‘area’, one place is made of cement and sharp gravel, the place on paars side is mud with yellow grass and lavender, the castle has really soft warm sand, sometimes random dragons just fly over the lake

then goris’s place is just a hole in the side of the hill the castle is on with a wooden door and the inside is all metal and theres fucking books everywhere even outside what the fuck goris clean your house

how i first heard about him was on shamchat, someone was rping as him, i had no idea who he even was but after that he just started developing the same way paar did, he has way more control when he fronts than paar, i started looking up stuff about him 

then there elision, ugly fuck from dragons dogma who  keeps coming here jsut to be like ‘what am i doing here, i hate you and i hate looking in the mirror’ then just leaves idk what thats about but he needs to just fuck off for good

and yeah thats everything pretty much sorry this is so long

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