#but now she's just GONE AGAIN!?

[s-lycopersicum]

#i don't know how it goes from here (don't tell me) but #IS THAT ALL THAT THEY GET? #all that they went through #they only get to spend A SINGLE NIGHT-- no-- LESS than that #but now she's just GONE AGAIN!? #before they at least had some reassurance from the workings of the dungeon and the behavior of the dragon #now they don't even know where or how-- #and the little time she spent with them was so amazing and fun-- GOD ARGH #dungeon meshi #falin touden #laios touden #marcille donato #gif

[thefirstknife]

The thing about the final lore tab is that, besides the fact that I'm devastated in ways I can't put into words, the way Saint was affected by this whole thing is unique.

This is obviously primarily Osiris' trauma that we can't really properly comprehend, but Osiris wasn't fully conscious for most of it. It fell to Saint to wait, and hope, that Osiris would be brought back and that he would wake up. There was no certainty for him there. And even before that, he watched "Osiris" being strange and distant and acting weird but obviously nobody could even begin to speculate that the person he interacted with wasn't Osiris at all, so the trauma went from there, from learning that he lost Sagira, then to the shock of Osiris being kidnapped and then the quest to bring him back and then him being brought back in a coma and then the 9 long months of waiting until he woke up.

The state of constant anxiety he experienced for almost 2 years total is nervewracking and gutwrenching. I don't think we can fully understand the impact of that on someone. And the best, or worst, thing is that Saint is infinitely patient. He is infinitely emotional and merciful and opts to be the better person and to wait and wait and wait. And hope that it can be fixed.

Except it can't. It can't be fixed. And not only can it not be fixed, but there will never be justice for it. It's impossible. There isn't a way to truly punish Savathun for what she's done. There is no relief or catharsis for Saint. While Osiris can mostly move on, Osiris did not really have to go through what Saint had to go through. Their traumas are different and Saint's is the type that no one can really understand and there is nothing he can do about it.

A younger Saint would've killed Immaru and then Savathun, 100%. But now he can't, because he isn't that person anymore. And yet, the grief and trauma remain and he has no outlet for them and nothing that can be done to enact any sort of justice. So he settles for pure rage, letting himself essentially vent that anger out, but still leave everyone alive. And there's really no true release here. He got a brief satisfaction of killing Savathun over and over, but at the end of the day, she will walk away and nothing will change and there will be no fix.

Which is why he comes back and just cries. As he said, this wasn't for Osiris, it was for him. It was his outlet for anger and nothing else. After that, there's nothing else left to do but cry. No one can really help him carry the burden of what he's gone through and besides: he's a Titan. He's the one carrying other people's burdens. Which just added to the trauma because for so long he's only cared for others, mostly for Osiris, and never really let himself fully grieve or talk about it. Saint never really processed the horrifying ordeal of constant concern for his loved one, then the realisation that his loved one isn't even with him, then the desperate search and then waiting for months and months for the hope that his loved one might wake up. Then Osiris is awake and we're forced to play allies with the person who traumatised both of them in an incomprehensibly terrifying way. Saint had no other way of attempting to make his peace with the situation.

Year of processing grief. I'm in shambles.

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 spoilers #season of the witch #season of the witch spoilers #saint-14 #osiris #o14 #i haven't stopped thinking about this and i never will #i genuinely cried like a little baby reading this #the whole time of this ordeal it's been told through saint's patience and devastation about the situation #so we know just how much he stretched his limits here #again. a younger saint would've gone apeshit months ago #but now he has a limit and he's more patient than ever and literally no one can help him #i'm in tears over this man he doesn't deserve any of this bullshit #i could go on for approximately 17 more hours about this #if i see savathun again she will die by my hand

[loupettes]

thinking about how these two conversations happened only hours apart :(

#doctor who #NO but imagine him getting asked that question again by Donna #like only a couple of hours after Rose asked him the very same question #and with Rose he had to suck it up and say the last thing he wanted to say #and he probably knows its unlikely he'll ever run into Donna again #but he's had enough goodbyes today #and he has to hold on to at least something #because #he can never see Rose again #he was finally letting himself believe he might just be able to keep her forever #and now she's gone #so the next time he meets somebody who gives him a reason to carry on #who gives him a reason to believe in good again #and even if he *doesn't* think it's likely he'll see her again #he smiles and hopes for it to be true #because he knows his luck with Rose has run out #lord give me strength #is this #hold on #is this a LOUPTAG #loup.tag #its a christmas miracle #in my FEELINGS #tenth doctor #rose tyler #donna noble

[fintan-pyren]

anyone else getting nervous about the lack of info about the book 10 title?

#she ALWAYS GIVES US A DAY'S WARNING #and she ALWAYS ANNOUNCES IT ON A WEDNESDAY OR THURSDAY #so if she was planning to announce it this week she would've said something by now #right? #and in the past when she's gone past feb 1 without announcing the title it's because there isn't a normal book coming out #unlocked/the graphic novel/no book #this book has already been delayed a year so i don't think she'd delay it again but she DID just have a new baby #maybe she'll do the book of short stories that she's mentioned wanting to do? #i'm extrapolating based on extremely limited data though #so there's no reason for me to be coming to any conclusions #but i'm the king of overthinking

[joyflameball]

What in the goddamn did they put in Don't Starve to weave so much grief throughout it. I know I've posted about this before but I can't shut up about it. There's so much grief permeating so much of it, so many characters. Grief in the loss of a loved one. Grief in the loss of home. Grief in the loss of yourself. I'm gonna throw up

#cassie rambles #dst #don't starve #i'm serious when i say the grief is everywhere #you could run into it out of nowhere. but you'll run into it. it's unavoidable. #there's grief with charlie. in the loss of who she was #in how winona came to the constant to find a dead woman. one who's just a flicker of who she was. who can never become her past self again. #in how wx destroyed their past self lost their friendship with wagstaff and hated feeling about it so much they tried to destroy that too #and they couldn't. they clearly couldn't. #there's grief in wendy with how she lost her beloved sister and fell into horrifyingly and heartbreakingly deep depths of depression #grief with webber losing his family because he wanted their attention #grief with wigfrid losing herself because nobody wanted her until she was the valkyrie #grief in how warly just wanted his mother to remember him. and now he'll most likely never see her again. she won't even remember his name #grief in maxwell. in how he destroyed his past self because of his desire for power. in how that power started to destroy him too. #and in how that power imprisoned and tormented both him and his love. changing them both forever. #I'M GONNA EAT GLASS #THIS IS THE SAME GAME WHERE THE MAIN CHARACTER SAYS LINES LIKE ''LOOKS LIKE YOU'VE GONE FROM DAPPER TO SLAPPER'' WHY IS IT MAKING ME SO SAD

[ryllen]

"Bran is practically my brother's cat" - is what i would like to think

#astral chain #astralchain #akira howard #platinum games #cat #fanart #i didn't write it on the tag back then #but what i was thinking when i made that past piece was him reflecting how it would be if he lost both her father and sister #he would truly be alone so on his free time he just spent time sitting beside that window mindlessly while thinking what could have been #like his sister could have knocked the door and come in any moment now #his father would came in with warm take outs for them to eat there #but then i just read recently that the sister he has in the end was one of the clone with memories planted by dr. brenda #and then suddenly i am sad again :'^\ #i thought it was just one of her magically left out & appeared somewhere & have the noah memory fragments lost #but now i thought of it as when akira was heading back he found one of the pod was still unopened #and so they took her in #it makes much more sense but then it makes me think of how much a fake replacement she is now #i wonder if it's kinda painful for him to look at her now #knowing the original one who went through all that things with him is truly gone #and this one just starts things with him without actually did all those things with him before #just by getting some memories handed to her #me: i wish there are more astral chain fanarts #astral chain: *being the game that has characters with difficult attributes & legions to draw* #i find guys with this kind of haircut is cute #♡

[rapidhighway]

#okay sorry for venting but i’ve been processing that session for months #like im the one who fucked up that session because i couldnt make myself say anything and actually naming any problem i have #felt like im begging to have a bunch of excuses #and god that paychologist really made me feel like i imagined all of that for attention and now im back here again and im once again #realizing my brain is just fucked up and what do i do now because if i went to a session now #i would be in the same situation where i can’t say anything that actually bothers me #so i guess im in deep shit forever or at least until i stop having some fucking mental block or whatever #im just fucking tired bro���…. #she told me everyone is a little bit autsitic and that’s it WHAT #bro if i had little enough symptoms of whatever that i could do stuff by myself anyway i wouldnt fucking be ghere paying 200zł for the most #ruining hours of my life thank you so much. #instead i have to use everyone in my life as a crutch because i literally just can’t function without help IUOUOUGHHH #god im so sorry okay im gone im just really going through it rn #vent

[lokh]

oughh i wanted to do a cute laishuro take on the blu ray extras (what if laios had been eaten instead) but lets be honest. they absolutely would not have made it as far without laios

#they wouldve died. badly. #unfortunately ive lost the link saw it on twitter but i think laios gets knocked unconscious and imagines that it had been him that got ate #and not falin. and falin is the only one to advocate for them going back #but no one wants to go along with her presumably because they dont care for laios that much #(or at least this is laios' perception as this is just his imagination) #but also because she doesnt know as much about monsters and couldnt come up with a good argument for going back in #<- didnt know about prolonged digestion in red dragons and marcille assumed the interval was the same as in humans (1-3 days) #BUT...................... when everyone leaves falin turns back and goes in herself. and laios realises that shes always been that sort #of person and theres no point in ruminating over what could have been. #now. i want to believe that had they known falin would turn back without them. that at the very least shuro would have gone in with her. #theres no way he would have let her go on her own. and frankly i dont think he would have assembled his retainers #to go save laios rip... #marcille would have gone if she had known falin would turn back. and honestly i think she mightve known her well enough to guess this irl #anyways what i was GOING to say was maybe as they venture thru the dungeon shuro gets to learn more about laios thru falins view #maybe they get to know each other more and he opens up more about how he thinks of laios and like. falin is able to explain more about him #diffuse tension and give him a better understanding. like yeah hes still annoyed at him but he has a better view of how laios is #they get close and become better friends but maybe it also helps falin make up her mind and let him down gently............................ #and maybe they go and save laios but the dragon thing still happens to him #and its again a 'you felt like that all along??' situation irt him wanting to be a monster but it turns out ok and they (laishuro) #open up to one another in the end......................... #but. again im gonna be real. they would not have made it that far LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO laios the goat for real

[starrysharks]

wip

#zeno's art #ultimate x-calibur #wip #optico #nova starbridge #paro chroneko #dj v con #clyde blacktooth #hrm.... you lot are looking a lot more geometric than usual.... #paro stands out amongst all these spikeys ive gotta round out nova a bit more #but yea here are the new designs! once again less of an overhaul and more of a natural progression as theyve developed with my style #let me explain some design stuff : #here in this new rewrite of the story optico is actually a star sailor AI #programmed to take the nimbasa galahad students to the academy dome (which orbits merlienete) #and so has floaty hands to use the control panel . he can “summon” more hands or just go without them #nova is basically unchanged but her hair has been a little altered so she doesnt have that middle part thingy #(it was hard to draw) #and also her second ahoge is gone #paro is more circular and has a longsleeve undershirt now #his bag is hammerspace and can carry huge tools! #vcon is also mostly unchanged but now has starfish stuck to his pants #because i thought itd be funny if her pants were so long that stuff got stuck to them #clyde is the only one 100% unchanged save for hair #alright im sleepy

[moveslikekeithrichards]

its so hard to talk about how traumatic it is to watch somebody be claimed by dementia without going "well i cant complain because at least i wasnt the one losing my mind (for now)" but that shit fucks you up so much. that ghost is going to haunt me for the rest of my life and all i can do is hope it Stays a ghost

#tiddytaco #b #thinking about it rn bc today while i was driving my mom home from pt #she saw someone she knew from years ago driving & was like FOLLOW THAT CAR & we met them in a parking lot #& the conversation turned to 'hey what the hell happened to your parents' pretty quickly bc our families hadnt been in touch #& it was a long conversation in the hobby lobby parking lot #& idk if itll ever Stop being fresh in my mind but now its Extra fresh in my mind #that whole time period was just so insane & awful #bc it was like Ok we're caring for both grandparents #& then my grandpa died #& all our pets at the time were very old #& when he died it occurred to me that we could easily lose both grandparents and all 3 pets within the year #it turned out to be like a long drawn-out year & a half from the first to the last #& looking back it seems impossible that is was that short a time period bc it felt like an eternity #we got off easy with grandpa bc he died before it got too bad but with grandma it just kept getting Worse #& the climax of the caring experience was traveling to take her to my uncle bc he wanted to take his shift caring for her #& that was so . So bad. SO bad #like it literally could not have gone more smoothly and it was SO bad #just thinking about it i feel like im there again i get so stressed out

[zootopiathingz]

No bc theoretically what would happen if Charlie died? She’s a hellborn but apparently she has a soul, so like if she were to be killed, would she just come back? Maybe she would have a different form? Would she defy the odds and just straight up go to heaven? (because let’s be fr she’s the one amongst the few characters who actually fucking deserves to be there)

#wouldn’t it be so funny if she just shows up at the pearly gates again like ‘uhhh so?? I think I’m in the right place now’ #and sera is just as horrified as she was when sir Pentious showed up #meanwhile Emily’s having the time of her life seeing her bestie again #they would become roomies instantly #sorry for this dumb question lol I’m assuming realistically she would just. be gone for good #hazbin hotel #charlie morningstar #lady luxo rambles

[cedarw00d-the-fourth]

redeemed Gort au....He gets tadpoled instead of durge....hregrgrggrr...

#so many thoughts about this au #he meets Karlach and she tries to kill him but he's like “woah there i have amnesia I'm sorry for selling you” #and she's constantly weary of him despite him doing good actions #and sometimes scamming people but he's still good #he meets Ketheric and bro starts having war flashbacks because now that gort is back he has to deal with gort and lythe making out again #OH YEAH LYTHE #lythe gets visited by bhaal and bane and bane is like #“yo you're kinda swaggy and my chosen is gone #wann be my new chosen?“ #and lythe says sure and lets orin take her place as Bhaal's chosen #and then gort gets to Baldur's gate and lythe goes fucking crazy and tells him “kill my sister” and he goes “ok” because bhaalspawn pussy #goes hard #anyways she's archduchess of Baldur's gate and reminds gort that he's chosen of bane #and then gort goes to kill orin and then tries to go to the iron throne but the keyword here is tried because #lythe catches him and leaves him and the gang to die #but he leaves and then finds Lythe at the morphic pool with the netherstones #and she's fucking crazy so she tries to kill him #but fails and disappears #and then they save the world YIPPE #Sorry for the note rambles I'm just autistic #bg3 #enver gortash #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #cedar rambles #bg3 gortash

[chalkrub]

Pixie had to be put down yesterday and it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced, she was such a special gentle little girl and I’m going to miss her so fucking much it’s hard to really comprehend right now. I’m so thankful I got to spend 20 years of my life with her, which is basically as far back as I can really remember – love her more than I can say

not sure if i'll post more or less art over the next while, depends on how i cope with it but heads up either way.

much love, give your pets a kiss for me

#not art #i never really talk about this stuff here but the last few weeks have been so hard for multiple reasons #it was so fucking rough seeing her decline over time. she went blind when we were on holiday in august and never really recovered #been literally sick with grief since yesterday and have headaches from crying so much it's horrible #i just can't believe she's gone and i'll never see her again or hug her or get kissed by her or anything. she's just gone #and the house is so full of her right now like all her things it's so hard #animal death//

[posletsvet]

When Geto goes searching through the Time Vessel Association's facilities one by one, who or what is he looking for, exactly?

He knows Satoru is dead. Riko, too. I can't possibly imagine what it could've been like -- to come back to your senses and be hit with this realisation all over again. What thoughts raced through his head as he traced his steps back to where he'd left Satoru? As he approached that site of slaughter which Satoru's promise had become, how did he prepare himself to see his best friend's corpse? And then he saw nothing but the clearing torn through the ground like a ragged wound in Gojo's frantic attempt to keep the enemy in sight, buildings adjacent to the main shrine ripped out by their foundations and blown to smithereens. A splatter of sickening crimson where Toji landed his final blow. A few bug-like fly-heads still lingering. No bodies left.

How could Suguru make sense of Gojo's body disappearing along with Riko's? Did he think of his closest friend's corpse getting sold on the black market as an honorary prize and feel his nerves clench close with desperation and anger? Did he make peace with never being able to mourn Satoru properly, or was it a thought thrumming in his head like blood in his temples? Was that what he feared to reveal while rummaging through the Star Cult's scattered buildings?

And what if it was an imperative from Jujutsu High?

For Shoko to be able to patch Geto up, he must have made his way back to the college after his confrontation with Toji. And I can hardly imagine Suguru, being as deligent and rule-abiding as he was, not reporting the failed mission -- and Satoru's (presumable) death, too. And as we know, in order to prevent a sorcerer from turning into a curse after death, they should be eliminated using cursed energy. And Gojo was killed by Toji, who, bound by Heavenly Restriction, had no cursed energy.

Does this mean that immediately after being healed by Shoko Geto got sent on a mission to confirm the state of Gojo's body and potentially deal with the consequencies of him turning into a curse? Judging by immense amounts of cursed energy that Gojo holds, the curse born after his death would be extremely powerful, with Geto likely being the only one on par with it as the other half of the strongest duo. It's only natural that in case of something like that occuring Suguru would be the one to be sent to deal with it. Even if that means purging a curse once known as his best friend.

So Suguru asking 'Is it really you, Satoru?' is not him taken aback by Gojo being alive (well, this, too, but I'd argue that a different reaction would be better fit to express this sort of disbelief), but rather him inquiring about the nature of his friend's resumed existence after he was announced dead by Toji: 'Is it you as I know you? Or is it a cursed apparition that came into being with your death?'

#jujutsu kaisen #should i tag this as a theory? #jjk theory #jjk meta #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu #shoko ieiri #riko amanai #toji fushiguro #it's painful to think about the prospect of both of them experiencing the fear of not being able to mourn their loved one properly #and instead be expected to deal with what they have become after death #i also think how receiving the news that satoru is dead from geto must have felt like for shoko #having one of her friends in front of her bleeding out in such terrible condition #and hearing that the other one is gone #and then she's left behind at jujutsu high because she's never sent out to dangerous missions #what a struggle it must have been to take up her now ever-present cynical attitude and accept that all she could do is the dirty work #of patching up her fellow sorcerers just so they could be assigned new missions #and get hurt and wounded over and over again #it's genuinely terrifying #and i also cannot stop thinking about how jujutsu high was just a walking distance away from the tombs of the star corridor #and still no soul was there to meet gojo and geto and kuroi with riko #the potential backup was so close #and yet all that happened still happened #it's driving me insane #and also i think the reason why geto drained himself so much by trying to carry out his duty with missions so meticulously #was partly because who could not allow himself to cut slack and relax after what happened during spvi where they absent-mindedly #indulged themselves with having fun #they were kids they were just kids no one should go through such horrors without support #let alone someone their age

[sqlmn]

Lightning, water, and fire! Like forever before the plot starts. By the time the plot starts, the lightning and fire deities have been subjected to punishment by the two gods that picked them.

Oh (the fire deity) is first to be punished. They basically decide that since they're going to live for a long time, gotta set some long time goals! And they opt to be the wrath of the gods since most of the other deities are too 'soft' in their opinion. So Oh just. Smites humans. This isn't really a /good/ thing and in their defense mentally, they do it to help Ymber since he's the softest of them all. So their punishment by the gods is to be split in two, effectively halving the power of one into two. (Now they are in a male and a female body and use both male and female pronouns apart since they together make they but apart it feels weird to be they. But prior to the split they use they/them. Also the split bodies go by the names Ohiwe and Ohime.)

Fulj is the second to be punished. She falls in love with a mortal woman and that is a crime according to the gods. Mortals and immortals are not to be together and it will only bring suffering to both sides. So her punishment is her memories of the woman are stripped and her body basically broken to the point she can't remain physical all the time.

Ymber, unfortunately, is the one who blames himself for the discoveries and punishments. If he had only tried to restrain Oh more then maybe they would have chilled out and stopped before being punished. If he had only tried to persuade Fulj to not continue seeing the mortal woman so often perhaps she wouldn't have been punished. So he's just increasing the guilt on his shoulders every day that he remains unpunished since the elder gods have both laid down to rest. They can't enforce their laws anymore and none of the deities are keen on harming one another at this point. They just want to continue existing in peace.

#the daily life of a deity sucks #and then ymber falls in love with a human and is like welp this sucks and i understand fulj now #i also would have accepted the punishment for this #and fulj doesnt even remember the woman she was punished for and doesnt remember how she was before #so she is like hey ymber please just go and kiss the weird human i dont even like him but youre being mean by not kissing him #and ymber is just having the worst time of his life being encouraged by someone who used to be so happy #who he also encouraged to be happy once upon a time #also ohiwe and ohime pop up in the water city to bully ymber sometimes but its still in the way of #dude we like you please grow a spine its been a thousand years please grow a backbone and tell us to piss off #and he never tells them to piss off #also fulj has a long braid here but you cant really see it #and she loves to braid ymbers hair and he gets to braid hers when shes giggling and chatting about love #and a short while after the punishment fulj chops the braid off and ymber is like welp my friend is officially gone #and then he cuts his own hair and leaves to go develop his city alone in seclusion #and he sometimes just cuts it really short because hes still sad and soggy and thinks of fulj braiding his hair #and then she shows up one day when hes debating how long its getting and she smiles #and tells him he looks good with longer hair #so he kinda keeps it a messy short then it gets to be medium and he decides he can survive with medium but he couldnt do long again #but once again fulj is the reason for his life choices (and guilt) #also before anyone asks yes all the deities have a collar #its very important actually that they are collared its lore information thanks #and for what it matters - after oh is split both forms are just as tall #theres just two of them at half power but they are both tall

[elisedonut]

just had the dumb thought of a time traveling Percy looking Penny dead in the eye and saying

Penny you are a lesbian. Thats why this feels so strange to you.

#percy weasley #penelope clearwater #Alot of time travel fics have characters waking up like in bed in the morning but my brain was like #What if it was legit just in the middle of a make out session just boom now young Percy is gone forever #He panicked #he didn't think he'd wake up like this #He's just like I'm 28 please don't kiss me again #and says the first reason in his head why she shouldn't since he cant just say that #I normally hc her as bi but like most hcs i have nothing is permanent and the idea of this is funny to me #and thats more important to me than consistency #She's just like oh for real? #She just needed someone else to say it