Friends to Lovers!Kim Donghyun
member: kim donghyun // mxm
genre: fluff
writing type: bulletpoint
word count: 1.4k
a/n: lol im either gonna edit a bunch of my writings or just copy and paste so sorry if some look nice and some look crusty // this one is rewritten btw!
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so it all started when you had a project in your first year of middle school
it was kinda big for a middle school class so your teacher randomly assigned people
and wow what a coincidence you got the one and only kim donghyun!!
you had no idea who he was so you assumed he probably went to another elementary school
meeting him wasn’t too awkward?? he was super smiley and spoke kinda loud but somehow you found comfort in that
ofc since you were partners for a project, you went to meet up at the library to do research
but like that ended REEEAAAAL quickly bcuz yall are too loud lol
first of all you werent even completely focused bcuz donghyun kept making super bad jokes that were funny as a middle schooler
you’d both be laughing so fuckin loud that the librarian would have to kick you out
well ok looks like you’re going to your house to do continue the research i guess
your parents were like “omg you brought a boy home is this your boyfriend” bcuz yeah boy + girl hanging out = dating according to everyone
you looked really disgusted and donghyun looked awkward
yall basically just met so why would you even think about that!! plus you’re in middle school you don’t care about dating yet
“guys you havent even said hi to him but you already made him uncomfortable he’s just my partner for this project we have to do in class”
even tho he felt awkward, he still kept his happy, polite self and introduced himself to your parents
since it was probably a bad idea to go back to the library, donghyun would frequently come over to finish the project
your parents grew to like him more (and so did u ;) ) and him coming over would be normal now
even after you finished the project, you guys basically became super close and you would hang out alot outside of school
every year, the both of you would be praying that you’d be in the same class
if you werent, you’d be late to your classes bcuz you dont want to separate yet
until the bell rings again then you’re dashing your ass down the hall
now it wasnt until you got into highschool where people were more serious and fuckin drastic
being the major flower boy that he is, he snatched the hearts of so many girls in school
this means a shit ton of chocolates on the day of valentines !!
for him atleast lol
you never complained about not being able to get chocolates because he always shared the chocolates he got with you
but like you also knew that some girl would be brave enough to call him out to confess to him
you may have accidentally walked in on some of them mid-confession
slams door open
“donghyun where the hell are you we need to get the limited edition plush at the arcade and you know damn that’s gonna take fore- oh”
oops awkward for all of you
aaaaanndd since this is highschool some girls are petty as hell and will be like “i’ll do anything it takes to be with oppar11!!!1!1″
so you occasionally get bullied
frequently
woops they spilled juice on your notebook
woops they thought your textbook was trash
oh no where did your bag go- its outside?? and the window is open??
it took a while for donghyun to notice that you were getting bullied by his fangirls
ok in reality he only noticed because you started to distance yourself from him because of it
dh: y/n? where are you? i thought we were gonna go to the cafe
you: oh right sorry i had to go to the library for hw
dh: library??? homework??? ok its super obvious thats a lie where are you
you: wow can i not be responsible without being suspicious im just trying to pass highschool
dh: :/
dh: i know you’ve been lying alot lately y/n whats going on
you: well idk if youre just blind or stupid but your dumb fangirls are getting in my way and its annoying having to deal with them
dh: fangirls? what have they been doing? why do you have to stop hanging out with me?
you: ok youre just dumb...
dh: omg are you getting bullied
you: yes you idiot those fangirls of yours are brutal
dh: y/n..... im sorry.. i didn’t see that
you: yeah i know its been happening for months
dh: well i’ll treat you to food to make you feel better so hurry and get to the park
you: but im at home
dh: you live 3 minutes away from the park
you: im already in bed with snacks and netflix
dh: ok fine i’ll come over then
you: wait get ice cream before you come back
dh: yeah yeah ok
you wait a good 8 minutes and hear your door slamming open, your bed bouncing from donghyun whale flopping onto it
“you got the ice cream?”
he holds up the bag and says “right here”
“ok good lets make a fort now”
“why?”
you stared at him blankly
“perfect reason i’ll get the blankets”
he gets up and runs to the hallway closet, grabbing the extra blankets your family keeps
you get up to find as many extra pillows so that you can use it to support the fort
takes yall a good 25 min to do but its worth it
you snuggle up under the fort and start to eat your slightly melted ice cream
after like 3 movies, your eyes start to get heavy since you’re warm under the blankets and donghyun’s arms
donghyun was pretty immersed in the movie so he didnt see you slowly drift off to sleep
it wasnt until he was going to make some sort of witty comment to you about what was happening in the current scene
your cheek was pressed against his chest and your arms balled up in front of you
he smiles to himself and grabs his phone next to him to snap some pics of your sleeping face
he figured he should just go to sleep too since you arent awake to make dumb comments about the movie anymore
he closes your laptop and gently holds you to place your head on the pillow and shimmies himself to lay down as well
boom now you’re both dead asleep and snuggly
ok fast forward in time
its your senior year and yall r kinda burnt tf out bcuz of college applications and scholarships
but wow its valentines again!!!11!
you were prepared to see donghyun struggling to carry a ton of chocolates but instead you were greeted to him holding a bouquet of roses and a bucket of fried chicken
“did someone give you chicken for valentines? is that their way of not being like everyone else and giving you chocolates”
he lets out a nervous laugh and steps closer to you
“no, but its my way of not being like everyone else”
he holds out the bouquet and chicken in front of you
you stare at him like ??? lol ok
“wow is this finally my own gift of appreciation this year”
“in some sort, yeah”
“awwww thanks best friendddddd” you lightly smacked his arm and took the things from his hands
before you could take the time to look at the roses, donghyun grabbed your wrists and looks at you dead straight in the eyes
your heart sped up but you tried to make a joke to make it look like you werent nervous
“what do you want me to share the chicken?”
“y/n can i kiss you”
“wait what-”
he just goes in and plants his lips on top of yours
not too roughly tho
it was like a soft pillow on your lips and you did not pull away or complain at all
you leaned forward a bit to deepen the kiss since you couldnt really grab him or anything
cuz yaknow
ya got chicken and a bouquet occupying your hands
donghyun got the hint and hesitantly placed his hands on your hips
eventually the both of you couldnt breath so you pulled away and stared at each other
“im sorr-”
“shut up you absolute dork i cant believe you kissed me first before even saying anything” you teased
he shoved his face into your shoulder out of embarrassment and laughed
but it was all a scheme
he used that chance to whisper right into your ear:
“i love you y/n”
now its you shoving your face into his chest from embarrassment
“i hate you so much kim donghyun,...”
me too y/n, me too.....
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I am Not doing Well
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