#but i couldve used a mom when i was a kid

[kummatty]

back home . this weekend was driving 12 hrs to redacted, getting ready in a rush in full langa voni (half sari) jewelry bangles etc in the hotel (probably took us 2 hrs bc hello), attending my cousins engagement party from 6-11, getting back changing repacking going to bed at 1am, waking up at 7 getting ready and driving 12 hrs back

#😷😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 #we couldve flown thats for sure but idk if it wouldve been any less hassle #the actual event itself didnt have as much drama as i thought it might #theres a lot of history w this uncle (father of my engaged cousin) #cant get into it now but i hate that man #funny thing is the ppl (my family) are saying hes regretting stuff hes done in the past as hes getting older #namely how he treated my mom and aunt (his sisters) #im not qualified to say whether its real or not bc i dont know him in any real way nor do i want to lmao #anywayy i was kinda surprised my cousin has as much sentiment for me as she does #i mean we are 8 days apart in age and spent a lot of time together as kids when my mom and i first moved to the us #cuz my uncle helped us out a lot (also exploited my mom a lot so) #but then he cut contact for 10 yrs so i didnt see my cousin again til i was in hs and we worked at the same place #i literally walked in one day and i was like is that ?? #wild #and now again we havent seen each other since hs until yesterday like. #anyway its cute and im gonna get coffee/drinks w her when im in nyc #mostly cuz im curious to see who shes become as a person :) #i suppose i did get into it lol

[seal-berry]

listening to game grumps remixes and realizing it been 10 years since i was a sad 16 year old incredibly fucked up deeply closeted suicidal kid stuck at my parents house and being taken back to that particular headspace is insane. i feel like i havent changed much its more like ive just slowly stripped away all the religious trauma and poorly managed anxiety but its insane that 16 year old me was like. haha. everything is absolutely awful and i want to die but if i get my 20-40 minutes of internet funnyman time daily i will be ok. it was definitely just refreshing and nice to hear from adults out there living and not constantly talking about Our Lord Jesus Christ and why Everything you do is Wrong because that was basically the whole bubble i was stuck in. (holy shit i barely think about it now but before i truly had enough self confidence to deconvert it literally felt like i was living an awful double life between irl and online, which i think is probably a common sentiment but god i forgot what its like to be in that constant self-monitoring place.) i think a lot of it was just wishing i had anything deeper than surface level friendships at the time and ALSO a deeply entwined gender envy for both arin and dan getting to be career silly guys. truly the funnyman was in me all along i simply had to nurture his feral puppyboy spirit and also build the habit of beating the shit out of neurotic thoughts. which all does still go out the window if i have to do socialization in person but hey ill take being able to be an actual person in any capacity or medium ngl being locked up in your own head and having literally nobody take any interest in your real opinions or personality if it falls outside a very specific kind of wanted behavior is a slow and painful internal death. the way we raise kids in this country is deeply fucked ngl anyways thanks game grumps remixes for perfectly dropping me back into 2012 at like midnight on the computer in the living room constantly watching over my shoulder so nobody would see me watch a guy say fuck and then cut off my internet access and my ability to make art and all my social ties

#game grumps #autism #idgaf abt getting personal on here so ill mention #my mom got suuuper pissed when i tried to talk to her abt how this fucked me up #and shes been receptive to mending past hurts so i was hopeful but she was like i could not have known it would be devastating for you #and its like uhmmm you definitely couldve if you had fostered any open communication between us #or showed any interest in me aside from checking in just enough for me to show her i was ok enough for her to feel ok #to be fair our whole family was drowning i think she literally didnt have the capacity to deal with any of my problems #pray away the anxiety kid i know ur dads on wellbutrin and has had lifelong anxiety but i bet youre neurotypical #anyways dont have kids if youre gonna raise them in church #the web is fucked up but its also absolutely a spiders thread out of hell and can expose you to people who dont hate themselves wowie!!

[masonsystem]

ill only talk abt this once so it doesnt bear repeating again and again and again in my fruitless mind but that fucking.....TWEET... where jin says kano would become a cop in the future. a cop. a cop.... yes i think jin is a pretty good writer in spite of various plunders (unfunny misogyny-tinted jokes + lack of a proper ending), but all things considered i think he made a great narrative especially considering how overworked he was like the sheer amount of works churned out by jin and sidu in like a 7 year timespan is not a pretty picture. but still.. A COP.... kano fucking shuuya becoming a cop as an adult.... yeah thats a plunder. obvs jin as the creator understands his character the best (THEORETICALLY) but like this is an instance of idk differing politics or whatever. bc in what world would a child who grew up wary/fearful of welfare states intervening in his family issues become a cop. a child who hid and kept his powers a secret with his friends because they were fearful of possible detainment. a child who runs away to live in some abandoned warehouse instead of contacting authorities when their father figure endangers them. AND also idk how well-developed this aspect of kgpr is but like i think its subtext that saeru-possessed kenjirou had other people working under him so like kano wouldve been privy to the amount of corruption present in systems as well.... if his time at the facility with kido and seto wasnt enough already to show him that. LIKE WHY WOULD HE EVER BECOME A COP........

#literally most insulting thing jin couldve ever said abt kano like uwhfjdkfshjkd #its so embarassing. soo so embarassing. like not even shintaro and hibiya being creeps is as embarassing as the idea of kano becoming a COP #like ohhh my god yes my character will be so good at being a loser who enforces rules and follows orders XD #like come on respect ur characters a bit plz. pls. please. #like is kano good at following orders? yesss yes he was when he was with his abusive mom and dad thats sooo healthy and COME ONNNN #anyways. iiiii think kano good ending would become an academic :) #hes a smart and analytic kid. he is talented at manipulating people bc hes able to assess and gauge their emotional states and all that #so hes smart and all... so it would be fitting to see that intelligence used in like a less harmful way for both himself and others #personally i think hes the most likely of his siblings to continue ayakas and kenjirous studies ^_^ #he can like publish reports about azamis folklore without incriminating the mekakushi dan or azami herself #that would be so awesome. instead of being a fucking... COP #being a bartender would be cool tho i guess. #kgprambling

[afternines]

.

#IJBOC (i just burst out crying) #just realised my fam is just a bunch of nd losers with gifted kid burnout #my dad . can make any piece of wooden furniture my mom requests from him by just looking at it n he collects wood machines n bikes like #theyre pokemon cards??? #mom. has perfect pitch n played 482647 instruments when she was a kid. is hsp and has like 3 mental other illnesses n 17 kinds of trauma #wishes she could escape society n live in the forest with deers and sheeps and a cow or two #brother. unmedicated adhd with anger issues n a gaming addiction #me. LLLMMAAAOFIJSHXJDHXJFK #were all . nd and mentally ill and have/had some kind of addiction n it fucking kills me #we couldve been so great. but instead were all doomed #im so fucking sad. we all deserved the very best but instead were living This life #what did we do to deserve this #why didnt we get a chance at a normal. a Good life #god. #i dont even want kids anyway but this is just another reason why. i cannot guarantee my child a better life #i know im not the only person n were not the only family out there with this issue but god. life is so unfair #because its so clear we want to be happy and we want to enjoy life. but itll never get better than this. #if theres a god then hes cruel cause why would u put us on this earth just to suffer #just to live a life full of missed opportunities and possibilities #what did we do to deserve this.

[bigendershadowthehedghog]

to the person in my askbox trying to accuse my mom of child abuse for homeschooling me: reevaluate the way you interact with people online please. also why do you phrase it like texas is the only place to exist

#not posting it because theyre off anon and i dont want anyone going after them this isnt a big thing and i dont want them getting harrassed #also im sorry if i come off rude here but like #in the tags of the homeschooling poll i literally said i dropped out because the TEACHERS were abusing me #like my mom had me drop out because none of the teachers followed safeguarding rules and i was actually in danger #i was having severe blackouts and getting out of school and none of the teachers did anything about it #even though anything couldve happened i couldve gotten hit by a car someone couldve kidnapped me ect ect #and none of those things happened but i dont know what went on in those blackouts so anything couldve happened in that time #and when i wasnt having blackouts the teachers were lying to both me and my parents #and they did this with another kid too #like i get your point but i wouldve been in more danger if i stayed #and i couldnt have transferred to another school because all the ones in the area have full waiting lists or are notably WORSE for safety #so i promise you my mom is not trying to homeschool me to isolate me i actually felt more isolated when i was in school than i do now #she has her issues sometimes and i can rightfully point those out but i promise she is definetly not abusing me #i know theres a whole different culture arround homeschooling in america but like i even said i dont live in america. i live in the uk #i also never mentioned texas at any point idk where you got that from #i understand that homeschooling CAN be used for abuse however this is not the case here

[anissapierce]

Kinda funny to grow up in an Extreme thrifty household n then be an adult n find out tht vera bradley is not like a high end luxury brand in the likes of Gucci n its selling purses in the price range of 80 dollars .... Which like is too expensive for your tastes as an adult but damn it puts shit into perspective

#again i didnt grow up .... poor #but my parents were lower middle class when i was a kid #on assistance etc #but my mom got a job n tht shot us up to being more comfortable but we still were paying for morocco trips #without those trips we couldve lived a middle class life #but bc of them my sense of how much shit cost was so warped #like yeah having multiple new barbies was rich kid shit in my childhood eyes #when like...the trips to morocco cost was more n i value them more thajn a toy

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

I was thinking about stuff from elementary school again

So like

At my school we weren't allowed to bring stuffed animals to school unless we saved up enough gold slips to have that as a reward for a day

I regularly disregarded this rule and kept a stuffed animal in my backpack without my teachers knowledge

But there were a couple instances where I got ratted out or one occasion in second grade where I'd let my stuffed dog have its head poking out of my backpack and because its head weighed more than its body it fell out and another kid grabbed it and I was sobbing and had to tell my teacher about it

And I got scolded for it every time

HOWEVER

Not only do I think that rule is just fucking stupid

But as I was thinking about it

Having a stuffed animal in my backpack was like 90% of the reason I didn't just try to fuckin bounce at recess some days

Like I may not have technically lived within walking distance but I still KNEW how to get home from my school. Go down Princeton til you get to the big 4 way intersection. Turn left. Go straight til you get to the gas station. Turn right. Walk past the gas station. Turn right again then BOOM theres my apartment.

So there were days when I strongly considered just making a run for it at recess. Realistically I probably wouldn't have made it very far before they caught me. But my fear of getting in trouble might not have been enough to stop me from trying if I hadn't had a stuffed animal in my backpack that I would be leaving behind if I left then. And that was a distressing enough thought that I never actually tried it.

#hell i got left outside once cuz i didnt hear the whistle and was very absorbed in what i was doing so i didnt notice the other kids going #in and i noticed after my class had already gone in and i ran up to the teachers before they could direct the other 2 classes in #and that was the only reason they noticed i didnt go in with my class #so if id just hid out for a minute until they all went in i probably wouldve had a good 5 minutes before anyone realized i was gone #and couldve made a break for it #probably couldve made it at least to the end of princeton before anyone caught up to me #oh and there was that time in middle school when my science class did ''a walk through the solar system'' #where the teacher had marked out to scale how far all the planets were from each other within like...idk a mile? 2 miles? from the school #and made us walk there and back for the class #and me and my friends werent super athletic so we ended up getting left behind on the way back #one of my friends called her mom to pick her up #but the teacher just straight up left us out there #that was another time id considered just saying fuck it and going home #and while i didnt have a stuffed animal in my backpack at the school waiting for me my anxiety was much higher by that point #so that held me back then #but i still considered it #honestly if i hadnt been so worried about getting in trouble i probably wouldve accepted my friends offer to ride #back in her moms car with her lol #one time we got my friend althea to ask the security guard at our middle school what hed do if we all just made a run for it #during our outside time we got after lunch #i dont remember what his answer was tho #anxiety also kept me from bouncing at lunch in highschool lol #we got to leave and go to any of the fast food restaurants near by at lunch and we usually had our backpacks with us #ik there were kids that did just bounce at lunch #but there were cops everywhere so i wouldve wanted to go home instead of just hiding out somewhere til the end of the day #and i didnt have a car til the last week of senior year #like yall were lucky i have anxiety otherwise i wouldve just peaced the fuck out when i wasnt feeling it #my dad certainly did #my dad is me with far less anxiety #except i probably wouldnt have ever set the bathrooms on fire

[bukuoshin]

Holy shit, I saw my father at the funeral and??? What the fuck is that thing? Like, fully, he looks like he's 90 wtffff

#rae rants #dont become an alcoholic kids it fucks u up all bad style wow #also. we were the only ones in semi-formal clothing. cuz i jump at the chance to play dress-up and my mom started to as well. #and like. the whole thing was weird. the chick from the graveyard who did the prayer cried but none of us did??? #also my 2nd cousin fully did not recognize me and was all super surprised when he was told who i am. like excited and shit. #and thats sticking with me. like i know ive changed a lot since i was 11 but rarely do i get such a big reaction. #to be fair. i could figure out who he was thru process of elimination but i couldve been anyone. so it could be more surprising #OH. MY FATHER IS STILL ALIVE. HE JUST LOOKS LIKE SHIT. THATS IMPORTANT CONTEXT.

[knxfesck]

i think part of the reason i'll never be that close with my brother is because he gets and will continue to get the life of a white man and i'm never going to.

#L + oldest sibling + burdened by genetics #he's just so young and oblivious its maddening #I mean he's also straight but he just gets to opt out of whatever cultural reconnecting he feels like and nobody in my family questions it #like he doesnt have the same web of generational issues regarding college and when he's bratty its just a personality trait #all because what he has blue eyes and freckles #he never got the ''you'd better not be a dissapointment to your grandparents or they've come here for nothing'' talk or the unspoken #''you'd better follow through with the catholiscism or else'' talk #and he never got backhanded or told he had to be smarter than the ''other'' mexican kids at fucking 9 years old #because my mother couldnt bear to accept a child that reminded her of the kid she couldve been #because she's always needed to be more and what better way to become the ultimate white mom than have the ultimate white kid #she ofc denies any of this happening to me because it makes her think of a version of herself she doesn't like bc its too similar to her #mother and her mother's mother before that #idfk this is just a vent because i found my old rosary and remembered that I went to catholic elementary school and had to learn everything #prayer related in Spanish and English #vs my brother never had to because my parents gave up on that and had us go to public school by the time he wouldve had to do that #i always write the most personal shit on my morning commute for no reason this is shit you tell a therapist 💀 #personal #tw physical violence #(?)

[casual-socks]

HI IVE BEEN MASSIVELY HYPERFIXATED ON TMA FOR ABOUT A YEAR AND IVE SEEN MAYBE ONE (1) SINGULAR PERSON TALK ABOUT THIS and i am not even kidding when i say its been a passionate topic of conversation for that entire year. people know me for this. it comes up and my entire friend group SIGHS AUDIBLY because they know the 20 minute tangent i Will be taking

WHATTTTT IS GOING ON WITH GERARD KEAYS NAME. what. what???? okay i

youre telling me jonathan sims went to oxford college (relatively prestigious if my memory serves me correctly) for RESEARCH. for, to put it simply, READING. and he looks at the name gerard and goes Yeah looks like jared to me lets go with that!!! HELLO?? NO?? not even mentioning the fact that he is being what could easily be called possesed when reading these statements which leaves us with two options

1. the ENTIRETY OF ENGLAND CANNOT PRONOUNCE THE NAME GERARD.

2. jonathan sims is so monumentally stupid that he is somehow breaking this possesion for the 2 seconds it takes to say the name gerard (i love him i swear i will sound so so hateful for this entire post but its out of love)

and like??? its not even that EVERYONE is calling him jared? elias and gertrude have both called him gerard and thats just off the top of my head. i also think jon said it correctly ONEEEE SINGULAR TIME. Just the once.

now i feel it necessary to mention jared hopworth here as well. because why, why on gods green earth, would you name a character gerard. pronounce it jared. TURN AROUND AND GO. lets make another jared but this ones made out of meat and is sort of implied to not be too fond of gay people. Yeah he steals peoples bones. Yeah.

SO LIKE GERARD KEAY IS THE OBJECTIVELY SUPERIOR JARED EXCEPT HES NOT JARED HIS NAME IS LITERALLY GERARD?? FUCK YOU SO MUCH

so okay. sure whatever this podcast is sooo british that a bunch of people are just completely failing to pronounce gerard. sure. whatever you say.

GERRY?????? HIS FUCKING NICKNAME IS GERRY???????????? NO!!!!

NO. no. LOOK ME IN MY EYES. LOOK AT THE NAME GERARD. GER-ARD. AND YOURE TELLING ME YOURE GONNA CALL HIM JARED. SND THEN YOURE GONNA CALL HIM GERRY WITH A G???? gerry with a g. that is utterly ridiculous i cannot even believe this that is monumentally frustrating i cannot even begin to describe to you all the anger i have experienced over this particular bit because why on earth would you take that particular extra step??? gerard -> gerry. sure. thin ice, but sure. jared -> jerry. sure! yeah! makes sense! GERARD -> JARED -> GERRY? you must be playing some sick joke jonny sims. seriously. you are a cruel and usual man

now this is when i start to wind down, but far from where i finish. lets take a moment to really pause and soak in his actual name here.

gerard.

that is so unfortunate already i mean really, gerard is such a…. a name…. i mean his mom skins people and puts them in books and the cruelest thing i think she ever couldve done is honest to god name her son gerard.

keay.

now dont get me wrong. theres nothing seriously wrong with spelling it keay on principle. but god, really? youre gonna shove all this gerard gerry jared business in front of me and tell me his last name is just key but gone the extra mile. really feels like the cherry on top of a shit cake.

now if you consider gerards character i truly feel as though thats the deepest disservice here. gerard keay is an incredible character whos short appearance is so memorable and charming, and despite his VERY little screen time he still has an intriguing and well fleshed out character. really, gerard keay is so excellent character wise. But, every time i think about him for any more than 5 minutes, almost this exact rant is being told to whoever is unfortunate enough to be near me at the time.

another thing i think also really adds to this is just the nature of gerard keay. everything you can say about that guy could be ended with “and everone calls him jared for some reason”. hes emo and everyone calls him jared for some reason. his hair dye job is so miserable that EVERYONE mentions it and everyone calls him jared for some reason. he has mommy issues and everyone calls him jared for some reason.

okay i need to wrap this up before i start just repeating WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY for thousands of words but heres a graph i made for my friends in october 2022 when i was going on about this in the middle of my spanish class 👍👍

#tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #gerard keay #gerry keay #im so passionate about this #fun fact about the spanish class thing #my teacher honestly thought i was angrily ranting about gerard way for like 20 minutes #the people need to know about this. #jon sims #please excuse how messy this is i am so tired

[jennaissantes]

sillage — yjw

sillage: (n.) the trace of someones perfume.

SYPNOSIS: yang jungwon knows youre pretty. hes always thought you were pretty. just how long can he manage to keep that to himself? OR the five times you catch yourself lingering on jungwon.

PAIRING: black cat!jungwon x golden retriever! reader [gn but a bit fem implied i think]

WC: 1.2k

GENRE: fluff!!! friends to lovers. sort of clumsy reader and jungwon who always takes care of them.

WARNINGS: none i think oh em jees

NOTE: happy birthday wonnie 💗💗💗💗💗 thank you for being such a wonderful leader and being with enha ☹️ pls take care of urself ilysm ☹️❤️❤️❤️ i hope u guys like this fic huhu 😅😋 do reblog!!

jungwon knew you were pretty.

he had always thought you were pretty, ever since the first time he met you, which was at jay’s house party. 

your hair under your baseball cap and pretty lashes peeking out, he knew he was in trouble. He wondered if hed ever be able to tell you how pretty you were.

i. 

“mom ill be home a bit late today! ill be at jungwons for a project, love you bye!” you shouted over your shoulder as you struggled to carry all your things through the door. 

your bag, along with a half eaten sandwich and your wallet and a book in your two hands, anyone could tell that you were running late. but you couldn’t care less, you just really needed to catch the bus on time and see jungwon. 

seeing his smile in the morning was something you couldn’t start your day without. 

you ran to your bus stop, thanking all the gods in a silent prayer when you saw your usual bus arrive.

“just on time again huh y/n?” the driver smiles warmly at you and you laugh at him in slight embarrassment before nodding and going inside.

you move towards the back of the bus, and sit at your usual place, smiling in excitement as you see jungwon boarding the bus. his eyes search for you and when he spots you, he sends you a smile, and you let out a sigh of happiness, returning the smile.

he walks up to your seat, eyeing all the things you were holding in your hands. “do you want me to hold a few of your stuff while you try to put them in your bag?”

you dont need to answer him as he takes your book and wallet from your hands so you can open your bag with your now free hands.

he helps you keep your things inside and sets your bag on your lap, looking at you. “rough morning?”

you look at him “yeah. oh god i missed my alarm again! how could i be so forgetful, really.”

jungwon just smiles at your ranting and gives you one of his airpods as he plays your favourite song. 

you try not to blush when you notice his lingering stare on you.

ii. 

you rushed out of your class, just almost tripping over your untied laces. it wasnt often that you fell down so why bother?

you were excited to see jungwon after that horrendous physics lesson. you had no idea how jake sim managed to love the subject so much. maybe someday youd ask him for his help.

you enter the cafeteria and your eyes search for jungwon. it was very crowded but you managed to find him, sitting by your usual table, with one seat reserved for you. he smiles at you and waves at you to come over.

“saved you a seat. how was physics?” you sit down and take out your lunch. “oh gods it was terrible. i will never understand physics.” jungwon smiles at you.

“anyways we should probably eat quick, riki said he wanted to show us something.” you raise your eyebrows. “that kids probably up to no good again.”

“as if you didnt sneak out with him just last week to go to that concert. i couldve bought us tickets you know?” you giggle at him “it was soooo much more fun to sneak around. you shouldve been there won. if only you didnt have to stay home that day.” you pout.

jungwon ruffles your hair, “its okay we’ve got so many more we can attend together. properly this time, not by sneaking around.” you feel your cheeks heat up at the thought of going to concerts with jungwon, alone.

“okay lets go, riki must be waiting.” jungwon walks next to you by the hallway, noticing how you try to match your steps with him. adorable.

“wait your shoelaces are untied. ill tie them for you.” he stops you and bends down before you can even say anything. “won its okay. its not like im gonna fall down anyways.” 

he gets up after tying them, a satisfied smile on his face.

 “still”

iii.

“you are such a dumbass. i swear to GOD y/n you have got to stop calling me at 3am to go shopping with you.”

you can only laugh at his tired frustration. of course no one liked being woken up at this hour, but you really wanted to go on a midnight convenience store run.

“i should. but i think we both know that i wont.”

he can only roll his eyes at you fondly. 

you drag him to the ice cream section and gasp when you see your favourite flavour at the top. but before you can grab it, you see jungwon grabbing it. 

“this is your favourite flavour isnt it? lets get this one and share.”

oh. he remembers your favourite flavour. 

you stand there, unmoving, as jungwon moves towards the cashier and pays for the ice cream. 

“y/n? arent you coming? i already paid for it.”

“what? oh. oh yeah. wait up.”

iv.

you were about to combust.

holding hands with jungwon was new. not a bad new, it was good. 

what if your hands were too sweaty and he felt disgusted? what if hes just being nice? you did feel cold after all. him holding your hands and putting it in his coat pocket was just.. normal. it happened between friends all the time. right?

“you feel any warmer?” his voice breaks you out of your train of thoughts.

“yeah i guess.” you dont look at him, opting to look at your feet and walking in sync with your best friend.

you think that he would let go of your hand now that youve told him you feel better. but no? he only tightens his grip on your hand.

your already red cheeks feel even warmer at the action.

if only you had taken a look at jungwons face too, youd have seen a small smile on his face and his adorable red ears.

v.

“how many times do i have to tell you to not play in the rain. youre going to get even more sick if you do.”

you had finally faced the consequences of playing around in the rain when you should have stayed in. jungwon had rushed to your place the moment he had gotten to know.

you looked at him apologetically, before you felt another sneeze coming up your nose. jungwon looked at you in worry before getting up to make you something hot, to help with the cold.

“you dont have to y’know.” you say to him weakly. jungwon was the only person who took care of you during times like this. he appeared put off to others, because he didnt like talking to many people. but only you and a few of his other friends knew how he really was.

“oh but i do. if i dont, whos gonna take care of you?” he says, giving you some tea.

you dont know if it was that particular lighting in your room, but you really wanted to kiss him. you were almost sure that he liked you back. or at least thats what you thought. either way it didnt hurt to try right?

“can i kiss you won?”

what. 

how could you just ask him that so casually?

“what?” he asks you, his heart stuttering in his chest. jungwon thinks hes never liked someone as much as he likes you. 

“can i kiss you jungwon?” you repeat your question, your heart beating out of your body in anticipation. 

“yes.” he manages to get out. but before you can do anything, he stops you. “but not now okay? youre sick right now. do you want to get me sick too?” he smiles at you pouting.

“no .. but… ok fine youre right. then id have to take care of you too.” you roll your eyes playfully as jungwon carefully slips into the bed next to you, and places your head on his shoulder.

“i really like you y/nnie.”

“i really like you a lot too won.”

and now jungwon knows he can never let go of your lingering perfume smell around him. ever. 

i.

jungwon thinks youre pretty. maybe even more than before. but this time, he lets you know how pretty he thinks you are, always with a kiss.

#yoi #jungwon #k-labels #enhypen fluff #jungwon enhypen #yang jungwon #yang jungwon fluff #yang jungwon imagines #yang jungwon scenarios #jungwon fluff #enha fluff #enha jungwon #jungwon x reader #jungwon x y/n #jungwon scenarios #jungwon x you #enhypen heeseung #enhypen x y/n

[heartss4matthewq]

COULDVE BEEN (c.s)

warnings: angst, fluff, self harm

summary: you and chris grew up in Somerville together. when you guys grow up things change. chris isn’t the same.

(at the beginning yall are kids)

—————————

*FLASHBACK*

“chris stopp” you said as he kept tickling your sides

“oh my gosh get over it y/n/n” chris said laughing

you and chris always got along when you were younger.

chris was the only person who understood you. sure, nick & matt loved you and you loved them. they weren’t chris though.

your guys’ parents used to joke that you and chris would get married one day.

“i have a surprise..close your eyes, okay?” chris said jumping off of the small porch you were sitting on

“chriss what is ittt!!” you exclaimed, excited to see what he had planned

“you’ll see” you can hear the autumn leaves crunching around you

you’ve been walking for 3 minutes and still have no clue what hes doing.

“okay were here” he stops you in the middle of the ground. “open”

the smell of old rain fills your nose.

you open your eyes and see chris on one knee next to a big tree with a strawberry ring pop.

“will you marry me mrs. y/n/l/n” chris says, a cheesy smile on his face.

“yes!” you say puckering your lips jokingly

chris puts the ring on your pointer finger.

“wanna go play on the swings y/n sturniolo?”

“that’s not my last name chris” you say smirking

“we’re married so now it is, you know how your moms last name is your dads? well yeah that’s how it works”

“oh okay”

*TIME SKIP*

chris has been gone for who knows how long.

the last time you saw him was in high school and you miss him like hell.

him & his brothers have blown up in their career on youtube since then.

you guys tried to stay in contact but it didn’t work.

you knew chris’ busy schedule so you didn’t blame him for getting distant.

although what no one did know, was that you and chris were “talking”

now, chris was not a player

chris had commitment issues & this hurt you a lot.

📞

“hii chris”

“hey.”

“um are you okay why do you sound annoyed?”

“yeah im cool just trying to chill right now”

“okay, when do you wanna make things official?”

“not soon because of my work and stuff like that”

“oh okay”

“yeah i’ll talk to you later though im gonna go film”

“okay have fun love you”

“mhm”

📞

you shut off your phone and put your face in your hands.

you started bawling not knowing why chris was like this.

one day he’d love you the next he would be so dry and barely talk to you.

why did he pretend you were something, you guys were nothing.

as you picked yourself off the floor you went and grabbed a razor blade.

you slid it over your wrist a couple times before putting it down and laying on your bed.

this was a new thing that chris never knew about & he would never find out.

as you laid there, you scrolled through chris’ instagram, and wow he looked happy but here you are sad and alone.

if chris knew what you had become since he left he’d-

slam.

“y/n?” chris exclaimed from downstairs

a million thoughts came through your mind.

“why is he here? when did he get back from LA? what if he sees me like this?

before you could even think about throwing the razor blade away he opened your door.

“chris wai-“ you said about to start crying again

“y/n. what is that?”

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omg i’m so sorry if that triggered anyone. i made sure to put warnings and i hope this was good!! also this is a series.

#chris sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #christopher sturniolo #matt sturniolo #nick sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo #spotify #sturniolo smut #sturniolo triplets smut

[strawbs-screaming]

☆ How The Boxers Drive ☆

made this bc evil (im running out of excuses) this has been rotting in my queue for a while now

Glass Joe

- Really paranoid, i dont blame him cars are really flammable

- will panic if even one scratch gets on his car

- Just really careful with where he parks & when he parks

- if anything suspicious is on his windshield he'll panic because what if its used to mark him for something

-you know how moms go "slow down your gonna crash!!" if you speed up while driving? Yeah thats him

Von Kaiser

- unhinged driver, he'll go 50 kilometers a hour with the most bored expression ever

- put on your seatbelts because he loves to take sudden turns

- you have to hold on for dear life to anything because he doesnt understand what the words "slow down" means

- do not turn on the lights, just dont or he'll literally hiss at you

- driving like hes in a police chase, damn peepaw slow down

Disco Kid

- blasting his ears out + also going ridiculously fast

- you better hope the radio stops after a crash or you'll die to california girls

- doesnt do sudden turns thankfully

- drives even faster at nighttime, disco is really out for blood

- dont even bother honking at him, he cant hear you over his 92827298272 hour playlist

King Hippo

- he cant drive, what are you all on

- no literally, even if he could find a car to fit him, he still wouldnt be able to operate it

- too overwhelming for him anyways

- He gets carsick too easily

Piston Hondo

- actually responsible & obeys traffic laws (LIKE A LOSER!! BOO TOMATO TOMATO TOMATO RUN OVER PEOPLE INSTEAD!!)

- cant listen to music while driving, it just doesnt work for him

- if you honk at him he'll stare into your soul

- actually reading the road signs (LIKE A NERD!! BOO TOMATO TOMATO TOMATO THE LAW SUCKS)

- overall responsible driver

Great Tiger

- another driver from hell

- honks to communicate with people, at some point you'll have to consider ripping off the steering wheel or your ears

- blasting his music, he has damaged hearing because of that

- speed limits are for cowards,he'll gladly go 100 in a 30 zone

- reading road signs but not caring at all

Bear Hugger

- oh no.

- okay driver but wont shut up, bear we get it you shouldnt piss off or piss ON a moose you couldve ended it there

- eating snacks in the backseat makes him do the ultimate dad move™ (the hand thingy dads do when you eat snacks)

- "yeah you can push those to the side make yourself comfortable" as his backseat is filled with maple syrup bottles, a pair of moose antlers and the weirdest shit you can imagine, bear im really sure you dont need a entire ass stop sign

- doesnt speed but takes sudden turns way too often for your stomach to stay in one piece (can we get much higherrr, so highhh)

- also honks to communicate

Don Flamenco

- this fucking menace needs to be stopped

- He sings in the car, Don nobody needs to hear you sing poker face please dont crash

- unintentionally speeding, always 5 km over the speed limit

- holy shit he needs his license taken away

- He texts while driving, how worse can you get??

- you know "get in loser, we're going shopping."? yeah thats him whenever he comes to pick someone up

- Does more singing than driving

Aran Ryan

- wait what

- He actually obeys traffic laws & is okay with speed limits? What a switch

- He knows how to shut up too

- He may be a nuisance but he keeps it off the road because nuh uh no one is dying in a car crash today

- has sobbed in his car multiple times (mostly while driving) thats the most you can get him

- him & his car have been through thick and thin, he has laughed in that car, cried in that car, screamed in that car, sung in that car, he has went through everything with his car, it legally counts as an artifact

Soda Popinski

- license, on the kitchen table, NOW.

- he used to drive when drunk when he was a alcoholic (hence his past name, vodka drunkenski)

- doesnt use any kind of navigation when driving, he uses his gut feelings & they either: work, fail miserably or have you end up in a seperate country and either way its concerning

- has crashed into multiple signs & trees

- speeds when bored

- oh my god this man is a mess

Bald Bull

- calm the fuck down

- same deal as kaiser, unhinged driver with the most bored expression ever while asking you "how was your day?" like dude please slow down

- hes the reason the term road rage exists

- will gladly get out of the car to fight someone

- honking at him is a one way ticket to fucking die - land

- i hope awkward conversations are your thing because he'll try to do a icebreaker and ask stuff

- keep the lights off unless its the night or he'll chuck you out of the car like you're a McDonald's™ napkin

Super Macho Man

- jail.

- hes driving on the sidewalk. DRIVING ON THE SIDE FUCKING WALK.

- drives even if hes tired

-suprisingly brash with his car considering it costs a fortune

- He didnt hit the street lamp, it hit him

- blasting the worst music ever as he goes through a quiet neighborhood at 3 am

Mr Sandman

- oh my god finally a good driver

- hes a law abiding citizen

- hes the only one allowed to drive

- the only thing you can get him on is slamming his car door a little too hard but thats better than going 92827281962629912619916281972729229 in a 30 km zone or stopping halfway through to fight someone

- will not talk, ever.

- hes the first option when the wvba needs to ride somewhere and cant find a driver

#punch out #headcanon #punch out wii #punch out headcanons #don flamenco #bald bull #piston hondo #glass joe #aran ryan #great tiger

[thejavavoid]

i will FOREVER be an Ezekiel defender in TD. It wasnt fair he got voted out so fast. Yes, he make a lot of sexist remarks, but it is so painstakingly obvious that those things came from his parents views (mainly his dad's). And in WT, he really did try and change. He didnt even get voted out for a fair reason that time, it was just because he lost their teams stick?? And because in Lovin' Time he was singing out of tune? Like, he only LOST the stick because he was trying to HELP THEIR TEAM NOT GET EATEN BY CROCODILES?? I mean come on, why'd the team decide to put him on defense when he was already holding onto the stick? thats just a bad move on their part.

and then theres just. everything that chris did to zeke. the kid was a literal human puppet during WT. i mean, for gods sakes, the guy was starving to death while hiding as a stowaway until he literally got sick and went INSANE. Chris literally LOCKED THE GUY UP IN A CAGE AND USED HIM AS PART OF A GAME IN ONE EPISODE?! SIR THAT WAS A HUMAN BEING THAT IS LITERALLY A CHILD. He was only EIGHTEEN.

And the worst part of all of that is his parents. i mean it's obvious that his dad wasnt a good influcence on him at all, and even if he had a good relationship with his mom? they NEVER found out what happened to him. as far as they know he just disappeared. and lets say they watched the rest of the episodes after he was 'booted off'- he was literally turned into a monster who was probably unconscious of most of his actions after that. he was reduced to a twisted sort of animal and even if his parents KNEW about it, they did nothing. nobody did anything to try and help him. as far as we know, he's still on that island on his own, just getting more and more feral and animalistic. or he could be dead even. we have no idea.

i will never not defend this kid, because if at least just one person in this series had been on his side, things might have been so much better for him. he may not have still won, but he wouldnt have been reduced to what he is now. he couldve had the actual chance of a good life.

#this poor kid literally makes me cry #like how could anyone hate him hes a victim too #ezekiel total drama #total drama

[sallytwo]

The fact that wesley lost the chance to have a relationship with his little brother years before he was even born, while jack has no idea why his brother whose a god hasn't shown up. The tragedy keeps on going.

HI ANON!!!! HI!!! FOR FUCKING REAL. like we see very clearly in when the bough breaks that wes is really good with kids and i’m sure jackie boy couldve used an older brother growing up especially with picard out of the picture. and it gets into this warped tragedy cuz everyone is wondering why wesley wouldn’t come back. but he didn’t even know he had a brother . or even worse if he wanted to come back and saw that HIS MOM LITERALLY REPLACED HIM WITH A NEW SON like… what would you do there.

also with jacks upbringing roaming around on the run from the law i’m sure he was super envious of wesley growing up relatively more “stable” on the enterprise. and for wesley who dealt with the oppressive force of starfleet since he was a kid and never got super close to his mom cuz they both had issues about jack 1 (and she sort of abandoned him for a year when she went to starfleet medical :/ ) (sorry women) he would give anything to have grown up away from starfleet and with his mom. jack growing up in this shadow of the fucking. tragedy of wesley disappearing (which definetly led to bev being more paranoid and cautious) and jack sort of hating him for that but wesley not even being able to come back and not knowing he even had a brother.

and yadda yadda picard being wesley’s surrogate father figure for awhile and jack who’s picards actual son but never had that relationship with him. wes who never got to know his father and jack who chose not to have a relationship with his. JACK BEING NAMED AFTER WESLEYS DEAD DAD THAT HE HAD(HAS?) ISSUES ABOUT.. It’s Clinical . I don’t get why they won’t let these two meet because they’re like designed to play off each other SO WELL!!! star trek picard please it would be geniuenly so narratively interesting to bring wesley into this drama. come on.

#sorry sidenote i always think it’s very funny there’s a welsey episode named when the bough breaks. #looks uneasily over that famous prophets (stars)… giggle. #but yeah i know i am the wesley guy. and i would advocate bribing him into ANYseason . #but this one in particular GOD!!! ITS SO INTERESTING!!!! #even having him be absent from the season if they make that absence noticeable. if we get to hear jack and bevs thoughts on his dissapearanc #picard

[juni-ravenhall]

we were out for 1 hour looking for a missing 3-4 year old in our neighbourhood, i saw the mom screaming when i was coming back from the store, several of us out there joined in to search. everything covered in thick snow and getting darker.

police showed up, we ask them if the kids found yet and if theres any more information what to do because the mom was obviously panicked and all of us barely got anything out of her so we just took off searching. we asked if theres anywhere we should go search.

police lady, in flat dead voice: "well, its nice you all are searching but no we cant say anything else. its a 3 year old [the mom told me 4] in a black overall [the mom told me blue jacket and not enough winter clothes]." i asked "will there be any search leader or anything?! we dont know what to do or how to know when he's been found." police says "no not for now."

so we just went uh ok???? and kept searching. i called the news and asked if they would put it on local news so we can hear when the child has been found or not, since nobody is telling us anything, there is no search leader or anything. i called my mom and asked her to keep an eye on news and call me if they say anything so we know if the child was found.

i went into the library in the neighbourhood, made sure the librarians knew and in there were also more ppl id met while searching who asked me "did they find him yet?" i told them police said no but also gave us no more info. went back out and kept searching.

on and off i run into the others that ive met who are also searching, we all ask each other if theres any news or just more info, nobody has anything. we do see that there are more police cars coming around.

eventually i see one of the police again so i go up to them to ask, at this point its been 1 hour of searching where the police gave no help to all of us (they were searching yes, but no help to give us accurate information or guidance, for this 3-4 year old who couldve died in the snow if not found)

this police smiles and says "yes we have just now found him!" i say oh thats great, ok, we can go home. "yes, merry christmas!" merry christmas.

on the one hand ofc we are very relieved now that the kid is safe. its getting dark and below 0 celsius. but wtf man, i cant believe how disconnected the police were when all of us were trying to search, and this was a time sensitive thing. they couldve at least put out a person as a search leader to ask for info or told us and let us pass it around or anything. but at least they did bring in more cars so they did do something.

#nonhorsgaem