#but i also sympathize with myself

[matbaynton]

"we need more complex female characters" y'all couldn't even handle leah rilke from the wilds

#very funny that the character i can sympathize and relate most to is also the one who get's the most hate 🤡 #like i GET it she's not the easiest character to love most of the time #but y'all need to learn what mental illness is i am begging you #(also she is a TEENAGER) #i couldn't stand her at first either but once i realized why that was #(seeing the things i struggle with and hate most about myself being exhibited by her) #i was like ....... oh🧍 #people genuinely seem to think she goes out of her way or has any control over the way she thinks and some of the things she does #when that's so CLEARLY not true #anyway #obviously i'm taking this personally lmao #sorry if the original text post has been said before i only started watching a couple weeks ago #* #the wilds #leah rilke

[8rujaa]

i just saw ur going back to work and not feeling like a person post and im going thru the same thing rn, i have to start working soon but ive been unemployed and basically not interacting with ppl since october... how did u do it?

man i don’t know, i was scared the whole time, it caused me to become dissociated and even more unable to act like a human… it took me a whole year to be able to get out of that. i really don’t know how, i think just being patient with myself, not beating myself up, and trying to find the root of where that fear came from helped a lot. i had deep-dived into self care and wellness, also had downloaded an app called “circles” and joined their support group for a few months and it really helped me feel less alone. my best suggestion to you is to simply be patient and gentle with yourself. if you do a little bit of work everyday to get closer to who you want to be, eventually you’ll get there. this was the mentality i basically had/have:

#i know it’s not easy and i sympathize with you and am sending you a lot of love #if you’re able to find a support system even online…. communal support has always been the key to healing #i’m these moments is when we feel the most alone… and it’s when the support of others is most helpful. #you’ll find that there’s always communities where you belong… finding those safe spaces can be fun #also at first you’re most likely going to deal with a lot of trial and error… remind yourself it’s okay and you’re one step closer to #feeling like you again #i had pushed myself to do things i loved more and more everyday and then one random tuesday i woke up feeling complete… #if you get lost in things you love eventually you will feel fuller :•) #im not the best at giving advice and i’m not sure if my words will be helpful but if it means anything; i’m rooting for you #and i hope you feel like a person again soon 🫂 #inbox

[tatoasting]

As a disabled Taurus dating a Scorpio, I'm finding reading homestuck to be a bit troubling.

#x.x #actually just. as a disabled person its troubling to read #but in an engaging way I guess #like I really feel for this boy. Tavros is doing his absolute best but he is a scaredy cat!! #hes just being put into these situations and being constantly antagonized and ostracized and traumatized over and over #I've been there!! thats what being 13 is like!!! life is still like that a lot of the time!! #its just tough because Vriska is like. everyone who has ever hurt me including myself. all of these things she does has happened to me #and I know what its like to be Tavros entirely because of that #(plus also again. I have limited mobility just like him!!) #so its tough for me to want to sympathize with Vriska because I know what its like to know her #iiiidk. ramble over I wanna keep reading!! #Tav has entered his second gate so those two are like. sharing physical space now. #i wanna know how that goesss #pg 2380~ #<-4 ref

[happy10thousandyears]

whats your opinion on avery?

I personally don't really care about them but I have a mutual who likes Avery and writes metas about them... so by proxy I'm interested in them as a character (as are my attitude towards most DoL characters tbh, I see someone drawing art or analyzing them and get interested!)

#replies #but also the rich guy sugar daddy type doesn't inherently interest me #my ex fandom love to characterize my fave from there as one of those when he was NOT #so this type of characters are not exactly my cup of tea..? #but currently I do like jordan/eden/morgan/landry+mickey #but if I see character metas I would read them and consider #but Whitney is one character I could NOT get myself sympathizing with

[hystericfae]

I am so sad tbh when the game has blood gore and guts but no sex. Like I'm thankful none of the love interests rape or assault the mc (as far as I know) in the otome I'm reading...... (ahem.... kanato .... laito... ayato... subaru...shu.....shin...any DL character other than azusa ever. Still can't believe Carla ASKED yui if she wanted him to rape her? Like that was a mistranslation, right???) But we can get a little freaky, can't we..?

#chloe shush #tbh I think that ....like DL is a different kinda abusive dark #then again lucas strangled the reader then...also smashed her face into a bloody mess ahem #in one ending...but #none of the characters are perverted which I appreciate actually. it makes sense here for them not to be #but I for one would love more than just kissing and killing each other #I need them on their knees #.....well no they get on their knees a lot but usually for coughing and puking up blood #there are plenty of otome games where the LI DOES indeed rape the mc like pifiore I think? #uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm #I always felt oddly that rape was a more unforgivable sin than murder until I found myself forgiving kanato for it #and then sympathizing with laito 💀 #shin I don't fucking like you #ALSO LUCAS AND LAITO SHARE A VA. so wild to me #tw rape #tw rape mention

[sovamurka]

Black Hound 🤝 Balor

🤝- teaching their women witchcraft and then realizing in horror what kind of monsters they created

#re-reading Black Hound and Queen of Rot's backstory and it's... oof. I like the plot. I like the drama. and I don't like the attitude. #Alexey is really good at magic and really bad at understanding what it can lead to. #found myself accidentally sympathizing with a one-chapter character Iraida. #she's a middle aged lady whose son was fighting in afg han war at that point. so I understand her point of view. #I mean. she was portrayed as slightly antagonistic because she did not approve of the underground metal concert. #but hey. judging by the lyrics that band was trash anyway. #now back to comparison of two demonslayer pairs. #it's so sexy of them to parallel each other in fusing into a scary fucked up abomination <3 #I am also very ashamed to say that Balor actually was a better teacher to Yana than Alexey was to Nastya. and it's embarassing. #demonslayer #бесобой #bubble comics

[cogcltrcorn]

love the fact that kendall is like. the most unlikable guy ever. charisma -50000. he opens his mouth to expunge a normal thought and something happens between his frontal lobe and his vocal cords that turns it into the most cringefail pathetic combination of words known to man. 10 out of 10.

#full disclosure I am like. on s3 still. so I do not know everything. #also this is said by a kendall liker. not calling myself a keldall girlie bc at the heart of it??? I am a stewy sympathizer #also I am pretty sure stewy experiences like. an almost visceral sense of shame every time kendall speaks. #his main problem is that it gets him hard. also emotionally invested which is to him worse #succession #kendall roy

[raiseyourgoblet-of-rock]

my toxic trait is i can tolerate roger waters' control freak tendencies because of his lyrical genius, if he gets inspiration from terrorizing his band mates, idc keep doing it lmao

Lmao if this ain’t me

#bro has a vision #I also sympathize because I’m the same way #I work very hard on my own things by myself and when other people join it it’s very hard for me to compromise my own visions #yet #Roger was better with David

[elytrafemme]

posting actively anti KOSA stuff on my instagram account which i know is followed by at least one person who is explicitly pro KOSA... who i also work with...

#nightmare.personal #his post regarding it is deleted so i hope he has changed his mind but #man. you have GOT to understand the harm KOSA is going to do #when will people stop looking at censorship as something where you can throw exceptions at it #and expect it to work #if you give them the power to make the internet safer then you give them to power to make the internet more unsafe #& if you look at our cultural context... well. you have three guesses to figure out which it's going to fucking be #it's ALWAYS 'oh we shouldn't censor... EXCEPT' and 'oh this is illegal... EXCEPT' #how are the people going to find out they're exceptions? how broad are these exceptions going to go? #i know playing with absolutes is a dangerous game and censorship is CONTENTIOUS on this site #but holy shit i am begging these people-- begging this man really-- to realize what we're working with here #i have been irreparably scarred by the internet but the terrifying thing about it is #the places that scarred me looked alike to the places that healed me #overwhelmingly queer spaces in both conditions #and so i can sympathize with the terror but also you cannot strike out what hurt me without effectively taking out #what has gotten me this far. that's not something we can do as people. #i wouldn't trust myself with that #and i most certainly would not trust the government.

[pepprs]

ok two things. #1 i am IMPOSSIBLY exhausted. just took a nap for a couple hours and have been awake for a bit but i feel like ivr been whacked like a punching bag like good god. and #2 is gonna have to make me delete this post later bc i feel weird and bad and paranoid abt saying it lol but. it’s just fucking weird and bad kinda bc im literally 2 years older than / removed from the students who work closest with us rn (who i spent most of today tabling w) and it’s so awkward bc we’re at the same-ish life stages and ik we totally would’ve been friends if we’d gone thru the same programs together as students but they ignore me / don’t and can’t talk to me like we’re friends bc im a staff member and my attempts to talk to them are lame and weird so idk. it’s just a lot and stressful and sobering

#purrs #aldo one of the interns who will be working w us this year just found a living situation that is like… EXACTLY the kind of thing i think i #would want and she was telling me all abt decorating her apartment and getting / buying stuff for her cat and having all this freedom and… #RRAUGHHHH im so proud of her and happy for her bc her situation was rly hard before this and she told me all abt it and it’s exactly what #she needed and deserves but it’s just so WEIRD bc i need the exact same thing and still live w my parents and share a room and can’t drive a #and am literally like… ‘in competiton’ w students im working w for resources and also im about to be a grad student and idk how to act #arojnd undergrads or if i get to / should sympathize with them or like talk abt anything bc im also a staff member and a semi-supervisor of #theirs and i know things they don’t and have power over them and it’s like. aughhhh it’s just bad. i feel really horrible saying this but i #just need time to pass. i need to not be going thru the same life milestones undergrads are going thru. i need to be 3-4 yrs in the future w #where no one ever knew me as a student (a couple of them did just as a senior when they were freshmen etc!). so that it’s not weird anymore #and there are no blurry lines that make us confused abt how to interact w each other or make me feel so fucking bad abt myself lol #<- which i literally shouldn’t like i have no reason to and it’s ridiculous and childish to. but idk. imjust depressed and exhausted i think #delete later #also for the second semester ina row im about to be an instructor of a class with someone i literally… took a class with as a student in the #class 💀💀💀💀💀 like she and i were classmates in spring 2021 and my co-instructors were O UR instructors and nowi am also an instructor. and #its just so fucking bizarre and uncomfortable aughhhhh #i just feel very lonely abt all of it. and im isolating myself again which isn’t helping esp bc the guilt has been gnawing at me hard lately #not to say this but it’s even weird on here. like a lot of you guys are in college rn and… i work for one. and it doesn’t matter but also it #just feels weird and i feel weird abt complaining abt the semester or being like yeah the semester is so hard haha fellow kids. which im not #bc it legitimately is hard for staff too it’s just… a lot. idk. idk how to explain it

[honeysuckle-fic-creator]

So, honest question

Please understand I mean this as politely as possible (I admit I can be something of a Takahashi apologist at times), but

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN THE NEXT 4 EPISODES THAT’S GOING TO WRAP UP THE PLOT IN A CONCISE AND SATISFYING MANNER????!!!!

#kamen rider #kamen rider geats #like #I am so goddamn confused #i am hopeful however that Keiwa gets the shit kicked out of him #and look #I *like* Keiwa #I really do! #However I can't bring myself to sympathize with him #the second he decided to leave any and all morals he had behind #and work for the frog Yakuza that believes suffering builds character #which it doesn't btw #and then decided to also work for the guy who *explicitly* makes endings that kill everyone he knows and cares for #is when he loses my sympathy #not to mention he *had* to have figured his plan would backfire #did his first game teach him nothing? #not everyone is like him or ace or neon #ugh I do enjoy geats but if I can level with you Keiwa fans #I cannot see why y'all do anymore #'What about Michinaga?' hes an asshole and a hypocrite yes #he even admits to it iirc #however at least he doesn't actively engage in victim blaming and pretend to be more selfless than he really is #Both of which Keiwa has done both at the beginning of this arc and throughout the show

[favroitecrime]

i don’t go to the yellowjackets fandom actually so correct me if i’m wrong but if IIIIIII were barely surviving and was throwing a fit over one (there’s a 100% chance there’s more btw) person not helping but then i also find out someone is pregnant, my priority would shift from murder and cannibalism to questioning why you’d choose to still be pregnant actually

#cause hmm they’re gonna eat the baby! #and then the mom if she dies! #also if you’re barely surviving and you’re going kookoo why would u think someone around u being pregnant is a good idea #so much can go wrong with a pregnancy #and then there’s all of you exchanging making sure the baby is fed and is sleeping and is well taken care od #and then that puts at least two peoppe out of commission #one of them from my understanding being the one doing the skinning of the animals #so idk why would u not be more upset that someone is deciding to bring another mouth to feed when you’re upset someone isn’t doing enough #or like why wouldn’t u be more upset that now you’re gonna have a harder time rationing cause someone’s got two mouths to feed now #i don’t even go here i’m just hung up on the cannibalism and them leaving her to die from my understanding like hmm maybe if i watched i’d #sympathize with them more i suppise but rn i’m wondering why i don’t kill them myself #tag: i speakth #anyways this wasn’t the enemy making post

[unproduciblesmackdown]

in passing saw a scene and a half of Young Sheldon like in this day and age can a new series (didn’t it start like idfk. last year. maybe the year before) where clearly a premise is audiences being familiar with your “we all know people who are just Like That right” character archetype it’s like. writers have to be at all aware that so much of that always overlaps with like unknowing caricatures of autistic people, right. and you’ve also made a premise the Young part so like, now the butt of the joke is like 7 or something

anyways from what i immediately gleaned the episode’s bit had to do with 7 or something young sheldon being preoccupied with trying to reconcile inconsistent details of lotr lore. in the first half scene a teacher remarks in front of the whole class that it is bad enough to be around young sheldon for an hour a day. in the next scene some [the comic book store guy who is a hippie and lore nerd] is listening to young sheldon and i’m like oh nice so this will be about how something uninteresting / weird to some is not universal and this guy will act normal to young 7 or something sheldon. the guy does and gives a knowledgable response & then you know, there’s young sheldon basically just clearly expressing the response in an involved / specific way some would find unusual, and then the punchline is comic guy having whatever revelation about getting to be normal now b/c he’s like gosh do i sound like that to other people

and i mean you know, given what we get when it’s like, this character is Textually Autistic. or even when like it’s a reality show and people are autistic and everything’s framed in xyz way. out here where sometimes winston [clearly of that “we all know people who are just Like This” genre] billions is given such verisimilitude / there are certain details at times that make it like, could anyone on the writing side of things be aware that this Could be a “oh, parodied Autistic People here” situation, but how then it’s like well would you even want them to know if the fundamental “punching bag / butt of jokes” status isn’t changed, which hasn’t yet ever changed for winston (though he is also a plot device in others’ character arcs, so he can get material re: that sometimes which lets him Not be currently punched / treated as a joke) so kind of have to presume it won’t. wherein like the highest hopes here even re: “you realize this is an autistic character, inadvertently” does in fact hinge on letting winston’s idiosyncracies simply ever be invoked in material that is at all sympathetic / just treats it seriously or you know, more matter of factly ever. where now it’s like well if winston & tuk being friends continues to be anything rather than a momentary joke to get winston, a third of tmc, out of the other two thirds of tmc’s way for a while, that’ll be the closest to winston being treated normally / sympathetically / matter of factly but probably only b/c tuk Also can be given [punching bag / butt of the joke] material so it’s like, well two wrongs make an amicable interaction....penning an open letter short essay to the writers that just goes “why do you think a character based at all on A Way Actual People Can Be would be universally regarded via a perspective that firmly Others him” like why are we never ever given winston any arcs for his own sake examining his emotions & motivations when this is a series about that, and not bringing up that i think he is autistic b/c then it’s like, well i’d just expect any incorporation to be like, we know winston is textually autistic, while characters & the material are as dismissive to hostile as ever lol, like well especially if the material itself operates the same, that is a bit worse. however if i was talking to will roland or his mother i would be more open about it all. or any other actors perhaps lol. if i had brian koppelman on the line i would ask for david levien but still be skeptical.

#just classic occasion when my bbt watching mom (who may be autistic? i can only Theorize myself) volunteered the info that she apparently #Better Understood my disliking hugs through old sheldon....like okay lmfao #two sides to the joke of that in that (a) i don't necessarily dislike hugs but Was touch averse w/my parents naturally and (b) this supposed #new understanding did not actually result in any change in approach lmao. so again like okay lmfao #i suppose that lines up though lol she did also hold the principle that if everyone simply refused to Accommodate anything then the person #would of course simply be forced into normalcy. ''accommodation'' may also include a mere lack of a hostile reaction presumably.... #why isn't the organic / diy ABA everyone's throwing at winston making him finally choose to Just Act Normal.... #winston billions #cue how many times some like behind the scenes / word of god type response to an interpretation of a prominent / main character as autistic #is basically like ''well yes i recognize that they're a real weirdo. But. they can't be autistic b/c i still sympathize w/them in ways'' #like oh didn't you notice they have feelings (that i understand) #or even just other traits that are Aspirational which in a way is inherently sympathetic too #vs [textually autistic] or [autistic caricature] characters' emotions are inconsequential and/or nonexistent obviously and any abilities #that Would be aspirational / valuable are like basically really a Curse. the Mechanics of their brain outputs math but god at what cost 9_9

[biblicalhorror]

My mom posting about the depp v heard trial and gently implying that she too has been a victim of dv at the hands of my father... idk how to feel about it

#i have watched my dad yell at my mom & gaslight her a few times during his battle with alcoholism #but i also watched her scream at him almost every single day for 10 years before his drinking was ever out of control #in addition to constantly screaming at and belittling myself and my sibling #the truth is i sympathize with both of them in different ways #after my sister died they really should have both been in therapy and then maybe things wouldnt be so bad #personal #absolutely do not reblog this #venting here bc its the only place none of my relatives will see it #and i mean like #my mom has told me some of the awful things my dad has said and done while blackout drunk #and i absolutely believe her #but none of it happened in a vacuum #and if i had literally ever heard her admit fault for anything at all i might be more inclined to believe that she was the true victim here #but she has never acknowledged nor apologized for any of the shitty things she said or did to me as a child #or even any of the things she said or did to my sibling who shes much closer with #so like... idk

[munamania]

hm. it’s now been a week since i was supposed to see her last shit sucks

#like whatever man #maybe she really didn’t want to come. i’ll prob never know. i really think it was the bf #and it’s like. yr gonna stay with someone that controlling? sigh ig i don’t know for sure #now i think she like hates me or whatever or doesn’t want to see me and i thought that a few times before class but now i won’t know till #august lol and like. i’m prob not gonna be the one to talk to her yk #she’s like. the ball is in her court even just in a friendship way yk i initiated a lot #and she seemed to like talking and hanging out and then completely falls off the face of the earth #if she doesn’t lit have to be in proximity to me so. why am i wasting my time worrying abt her #i mean she chose to hang out after class and stuff and didn’t seem to want to split #but beyond that yk. #it’s like why should i bother if she wants to stay with him and loves him then clearly yk there u go #just because there’s something there doesn’t mean she’s going to or wants to like act on it idk #and like. whatever. ig her best friend wouldn’t talk to me if she like hated me lol #it’s all just so dumb and confusing i don’t get her and prob should just keep my distance #at least until she sorts her shit out #bc. i’ve put myself out there plenty. again even in a simply platonic way #i still kinda wanna punch his face but like. i also don’t hate him ig idk #and like honestly who the fuck were they to even look at me twice for being on my own fucking campus #sorry u think u own this shit just cause idk ur an annoying couple lol #i think. i think i’ve sympathized a lot w her bc i really Really think she’s repressing some shit #not just bc i want her to like be gay with me lol i just do based on talking to her #but that doesn’t rlly give her an excuse to toy around w me like this. like why did i not know he was in the picture till after our last #class. not that i’m entitled to that info but if he’s gonna be mad based on how we interact ? and completely blame me #like. idk did ur gf tell u she didn’t exactly tell me to back off at any point whatsoever #and like maybe i was a dick for not completely backing off after finding out. but i also didn’t like. get as completely flirty as before lol #yk? whatever. i’ll accept where i was maybe an ass about it shdhdhshdhd but i just think it’s shitty #if she’s never gonna have the space to explore other feelings bc. they lit lived in the same building #and were around each other Constantly and she didn’t seem to see her friends much #like it seems so suffocating… not to mention constant texting when they weren’t together #like who am i to judge as an outsider with yk biased intentions ig but like. it’s weird it’s fucking weird

[fairuzfan]

I think something that also drives me up a wall is that people like don't realize that you don't get fired or blacklisted or ignored for being a zionist or a zionist sympathizer whereas if you so much as wear a palestinian flag pin you get fired or in trouble like no actually i constantly have to watch myself irl to make sure I don't have my words potentially misconstrued because the entire American sociopolitical system will come at me if I so much as accidentally say one word out of place I can't even say "from the river to the sea" without being accused of genocide meanwhile people publish literal thinkpieces about how an overwhelmingly Muslim town famous for their sweets is a center for terrorism like come on. Like there's a levels of fuckery happening right now and we have politicians openly calling Palestine protests as "Russian funded" I'm sorry but Palestinians, Arabs, muslims and people racialized as from these groups are in pretty immediate fucking danger??? Like??? Can you not see the fascism unless it directly happens to you????