#but god the memories attached to it.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I was *not* longing, I swear.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wen ning #If you have not listened to this scene in the audio drama I am *pleading* for you to #It's so funny. Oh my god the voice actors nail the part. Plus the music cutting out abruptly #Genuinely incredible comedic timing. #WWX voice: 'I was almost caught having an (unidentifiable ) emotion. How embarrassing. It will never happen again.' (lie) #wwx has unlocked: aesthetic attraction. He is now starting to develop emotional attachment. #This is a incompatible program with the current version of WWX. He requires an additional update #Please note that the actual countdown is *eight* seconds before passing out. My memory was fallible when I did my blocking #pd-mdzs lwj gets an extra 2 seconds. One for each bunny ear. #This comic kicked my ass a little. Normally I don't re-do comics unless its pertinent #but I struggled with getting this one 'just right enough'. And I'm happy with it! B*)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i guess Eddie is just a gay as fuck name. who would'a thunk

#1st we have eddie diaz from 911 #then eddie munson from stranger things #and now eddie dear from welcome home #the only reason im not including nygma from gotham(fox) is because he went by ed. #but. oh my fucking god its four isnt it. four queer-coded eddies. a queer quartet. FUCK LMFAO- #(and yes. yes i know eddie is canon not coded. However he technically fits and the others arent canon so Sh. shshshshs hush) #stg next time a character is named 'eddie' in whatever i watch/read #im Immediately gonna be side-eyeing them. I Know What You Are. #scribble salad #absolutely unprompted #im getting way too attached to eddie dear tho #i just know something bad is gonna happen to him #if it Hasnt Already yk #and after what happened to munson... idk if i can take it #(jk i can. my favorites always die so i go into enjoying a character Expecting Their Death) #its just... dear is just like me fr (blatantly lying) #i just sympathize with him real hard. having memory issues sucks ass!!! #and i lowkey hope that plays into a big part of his personal horror! bc it Is scary! very fuckin scary! #anyway three queer-coded eddies. lets goooooo #*four. fuck. sorry. #i cant believe its four eds....

[starryemeralds]

do you ever think about how aziraphale fell in love with crowley because of his love for the earth; and crowley falls in love with the earth because of his love for aziraphale?

i think about it often actually.

#it’s the way that aziraphale was appointed protector of humanity by god and dedicated himself to it to the point of going against her plan #it’s the way that he’s attached to all of the simple pleasures of the world and for the community humanity naturally yearns for #it’s the way that aziraphale has begun to see crowley in all the yellow on the earth #in the walls of his bookshop in the fairy lights of the shops in the bentley in the flowers in the sunrise #it’s the way he can look up into the night sky and see crowley’s creation — even if it isn’t all of it #it’s the way that crowley didn’t know about the earth until aziraphale told him about it #it’s the way their their paths continued to cross on it over time… something about the earth pulling them back together #it’s the way he created part of the universe.. but the earth was theirs to own separate from heaven and hell #it’s the way that crowley watches aziraphale joyfully indulge in all of earth’s pleasures.. fondly watching him dine at the ritz #it’s the way that for crowley.. all he wants is to be with aziraphale so running away from armageddon is okay because they’re together #but it’s the way that to aziraphale.. the earth is where all their memories live and where they fell in love #and it is the way that he’s making his biggest sacrifice by leaving earth.. in order to make heaven deserving of crowley #it is the way that in his eyes.. this is his biggest act of love because while ‘nothing lasts forever’.. their love can #it is the way that these two have down the most human thing imaginable… falling in love. #good omens #good omens spoilers #i just have so many thoughts rn and no capability of expressing them thoroughly #i don’t even know if this makes sense.. bare with me

[lokh]

does anyone actually build a detailed linkedin profile. you've got to be fucking with me

#💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 #we are at the stage that i am literally looking up 'how to write a good cover letter/resume' #and then some of the tips are literally 'networking' #bro i swear to god. has job hunting always been like this #why do u gotta be ur own fucking marketing team these days just to get a job. god #im speaking as someone who basically has no experience LMAO </3 #and thr experience i Do have. i dont have any metrics to attach LMAO in some cases thats on me #didnt realise i had to know this shit lmao. also my MEMORY IS BAD AND I NEVER SAVED ANYTHING

[goldkirk]

.

#I wasn’t treated the way the franke kids were #but when I was locked in a room for a while on a regular basis that one school year #I hated it and it felt like I was such a problem to be contained and such a failure for needing them to resort to that #I already believed I was a liar and a failure and it was in the middle of my descent into believing that I really must #have fucked up enough that one of the times I exposed myself to the near occasion of sin I DID get a devil attached to me #etc etc #this is a lot to be trying to stuff back into the memories closet while work is so busy and my health has gotten rough again #shh katie #for it to be as hard as it was for me to consider running from a much tamer situation and while I was the healthiest athlete point of mylife #I am so. so amazed. more and more each day. that R Franke escaped that house TWICE #even when he believed he’d be put in JAIL #that took so much strength along with the desperation #what bravery he conjured to be able to risk the known consequences of being caught a second time #god. #tw: abuse

[moe-broey]

ALSO when it comes to Takumi concepts I'm just posting this like I'm writing on the fridge for later but --

Something I DEF wanna explore more and maybe invent my own canon about is how, (depending on when you downloaded FEH), Takumi IS the first Hero from another world to arrive (not counting the summoner themselves).

And depending on how long it takes for the summoner to like, have the resources/get the hang of yanking Heroes to Askr, Takumi may have been the only other Hero there For A While. Which I think WOULD put him in a really unique position, where he becomes familiar with Alfonse, Sharena and the summoner, in a way most Heroes after him don't get the opportunity to.

In my head, I like to consider Takumi to be like. An honorary fourth (fifth?) member of the OG Heroes.

And it IS really disappointing for me that he hasn't really had much connection or relevancy in the broader story (esp in Book 1 where mainline characters would play big roles, like Xander) -- but also that aspect I acknowledge like. The ORIGINAL original first Hero was Virion LMFAOOOOO so it wouldn't have made much sense there anyway (IMAGINING. A world where Virion plays a major role in Book 1. Maybe that would have saved him popularity-wise, kind of Reinhart-core KSKSLKSKSK)

#fire emblem #feh #funny deeplore is i actually downloaded feh before i was into fe as a franchise and got the virion experience #and i wouldn't fully get into it UNTIL i transed my gender needed a fresh new game w no memories attached #and for the second time my sister was like. well i know a game. you could try. <- avid fe fan for years #and so (after deleting feh for space/not quite getting into it) (and after becoming deeply obsessed #changing the trajectory of my life forever) i redownloaded feh and got the takumi experience #WHICH. HONESTLY. THANK FUCKIBG GOD. no hate towards virion BUT. #LITERALLY THE ONLY COPIES OF TAKUMI I'VE EVER HAD ARE THE FREE ON AND THE RESPLENDENT. THAT'S IT. #i would have been waiting YEARS for one (1) copy of him. it would have made me DERANGED #anyways. i need to head out soon LMFAO #fe takumi

[spurgie-cousin]

thank you everyone who took the time to respond so thoughtfully to my post about my childhood bff's dad ❤️ i got something out of every response and especially appreciate the people who took the time to talk about their own experiences w/ someone close to them passing, that was super gracious of you.

he passed last night and I haven't fully processed it yet but once I have I'll be making my way back to my hometown. it is very hard to wrap your head around the fact that someone who's been so present in your entire life is just not here anymore, even though I've gone through this multiple times before, it's weird, you never get used to it really. But I appreciate y'all so much ❤️

#my shit #death cw #ok maybe this is inappropriate but the first thing i saw after i got the news was a fan edit of our flag means death set to #a Fleetwood Mac song. and i thought oh god this is always going to be attached to this memory now #from now on when i think about receiving this news my next thought will be gay pirates kissing to The Chain which #i guess it could be worse. i love that show

[sl1ghtly0dd]

I mean this time last year I was excited about seeing the cure and violent femmes in the same week but I’m not even that level of excited to see the piano man himself in October, like pfffffr the cure? That’s nothin compared to the #1 of all timeeeeeee pfffffttt

#I mean I literally saw all of my top three fave bands last year! and that does not compare to how excited I am to seeeeee Billy fucking Joel #that man is the sole reason I love music the reason I got interested in music in the first place my first fave musician my first fave son #I have sentimental attachments to every one of his god damn songs his albums have raised me his music has literally come through for me #a million times and more! I know every word to every song! I can name a memory attached to every one of his songs! #there is no one on this planet who I am a bigger fan of than Mr Joel

[fridayyy-13th]

well i'm having an evening, certainly

#friday chats #it's one of those days where every little misfortune piles up and then you feel like shit #the most recent being i noticed i chipped my 3DS. when it's closed on the hinge side right below the right camera button #three little pieces have cracked off. and i have them still so i'm inquiring to a friend if i can superglue it #but i know how it cracked and it's my own fault #(kept it in my backpack's side pocket w/o its case and setting said backpack down too hard must've done it) #i've had this thing nearly ten years and it's still in pretty darn good condition! i'm really upset that i've chipped it!! #it's got a ton of memories attached to it and i still use it all the time!!! and it still works perfectly fine i turned it on to check #but i've tarnished something important to me and it sucks knowing that when i've taken such good care of it for this long. #and i know i'm kind of focusing on this one thing #but it's like. a tangible thing. not the intangible worries and stresses i'm dealing with. so it's easier. if that makes sense? #bc good GOD do i have plenty of intangible things on my back right now #just. eugh. hopefully tomorrow will be better :/

[seldaryne]

ngl as someone with The Memory Issues TM the smaller 'adjustments' to the game canon that larian makes kind of bug me on a level beyond being annoyed that it feels like this is just part 2 of the beta. when i replay it, am i remembering a part of the game wrong, or has something really been altered? like to be clear i'm absolutely not sitting here accusing larian of gaslighting Me personally or anything because that would be ridiculous, but it just feels sort of bad knowing that i can't really just reference something with absolute certainty unless i'm pulling up like. scripts & code diving & comparing patch notes.

i do agree some things need to be changed (quality of life, bug fixes, the really glaring parts of wyll's arc where you can absolutely tell something is missing/cut [was the bulk of that in the upper city? & for that matter, why does his route seem to have so many intersections with karlach that don't go anywhere?]), but that makes up maybe 1/4 of the alterations & i feel like even that's being pretty generous.

idk. i always end up making small tweaks for myself when it comes to my own ocs & what they have going on in games etc, especially since i've been writing oc fanfic for what seems like most of my conscious life, but it feels really :/// when it's coming from the actual studio & it reads to me almost like they're not as confident in the product as they Should be.

#i have no idea if this is relatable content #nor am i saying its That easy to gaslight me into believing fanon because im definitely the person who will check notes lmao #but when the notes are unreliable its like where does that leave us?? #& off the top of my head i cant think of any completed single player games who have this problem post-final release #mmos i place in a bit of a different category since by nature i see them as more 'living entity' projects #anyway idk. still love it still gonna play still attached to my ocs & what im doing but its disheartening to see a patch coming & be like #oh god whats going to happen this time. its NOT that serious but it feels similar ish to false memories lol #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[dreamlogic]

...

#shit chat #family cw #parents divorcing: dad moved into tiny apt & doesn't want anything. mom moving to kentucky in a few weeks? months? w/ new fiancee #brother sick of the drama; doesn't want anything & isn't talking to my mom rn (understandable) #so i'm. pawing through 30 years of my parents' junk trying to sift out & salvage childhood relics #the leftovers mostly bc my mom has already laid claim to most of the things i have a strong attachment to #and currently having an existential crisis on my bedroom floor sorting through xmas decorations to keep/donate #like damn my childhood has so much substance in my memory & these objects seemed imbued with so much magic #and looking at it now there's a few things that still have a glimmer of life but mostly it's just cheap old shit. #i don't want any of this; i just want the sense of comfort and love and security of a functional loving family #but the divorce is also dredging up a lot of shit that i'm further processing in therapy #and i'm coming to the very depressing realization that a lot of my childhood kinda sucked ass #not all of it! and looking at photos i still feel strong positive emotions towards my past #but there really isn't any legacy to speak of. heirlooms consist of a few sentimental tchotchkes & a box of old picture books #also my mom kinda fucking sucked as a parent in ways i'm only just now allowing myself to admit & examine #like i don't think i could ever hate her or write her off completely and i did get certain wonderful aspects of myself from her #but she hasn't consistently been a Good Mom to me. p much since my brother was born when i was like 5. #more like a very mentally ill fair-weather friend who was also partially responsible for raising me #god this sucks. but at least i have a box of delicate sparkly glass baubles that i can smash on the pavement for catharsis sometime #anyways. friends if it seems like i've been more hermit-y and avoidant than usual lately– this is why #i've been estranged from most of my extended family for years & used to be really close with my immediate family. #which is currently a reeking dumpster fire that's choking my life with noxious smoke #and p much all of my energy & free time is going towards not letting actively retruamatizing current events nuke my brain #brother & i agreed that the current Vibes are like... #trying to cut loose the life boats from a sinking ship and get clear before the water displacement sucks us under #but i finally have all my shit out of the house except furniture that can't be moved until my mom moves #so the gaping chest wound is slowly starting to scab over and i can start actually clearing out some of this shit & #tracing the panicked exodus back to a more grounded stable version of myself #ugh.

[halfelven]

lied in the tags. watching the lion the witch and the wardrobe tonight 🤍

#gilp! < god i love piracy #though this story has so many memories attached #it always hurts to watch #🥺 #personali #txt

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

Pokémon Horizons Episode 26 spoilers under the cut!

OH SO WE WEREN'T BEING JUST DELUSIONAL,,,,,, THEY'RE DOING IT,,,,,,,,,,,, THEY'RE ACTUALLY DOING IT,,,, , ,

#fluff binges !!! #not a spoiler but can we talk about how they also switched Liko and Roy's parts and added new verses for the ending rap it was SO cute 🥺💖 #I'm also gonna miss the first opening since I got attached to it but OH MY GOD THE NEW ONE............ SO INSANE. ACTUAL PEAK. I KNEEL. #ok with my spoiler tags in place now I can AKJSDHAJSNDKASJKDFNSJDFSND #OH MY GOD THEY'RE ACTUALLY GOING TO DO IT THEY'RE ACTUALLY EXPLORING MY ANGSTY SON'S CHARACTER HOLY SHIT #AMETHIO BBY PLEASE I KNOW YOU'RE BROODING RN AND BEATING YOURSELF UP MENTALLY FOR THAT LOSS BUT DON'T PUSH YOUR LOVED ONES AWAYYYYYYYYYY #ZIRC AND ONIA ARE WORRIEDDDDDDDDD DO YOU SEE THEM WONDERING ABOUT YOU THEY EVEN TRIED TO TALK TO YOU BUT YOU WOULDNT BUDGEEEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭 #I need a moment where Amethio gets to be hugged by these two fr they're legit his guardians at this rate #Amethio also only seems to open up about his vulnerability to Ceruledge from the looks of it and something about that makes me So Insane #WHAT WAS HE TRYING TO SAY IN THIS SCENE ACTUALLY LIKE . IS HE APOLOGIZING? DOES HE BLAME HIMSELF FOR THE LOSS??? #IS HE AFRAID OF LOOKING WEAK TO HIS PARTNER MON OR IS HE DOUBTING THE TRUST HE HAS IN THEM................... #/head in HANDS #we're gonna get to see the explorers together again next episode and it seems like Spinel and Hamber reacted to something Amethio said #is he proposing that he go after Terapagos himself? that the others don't interfere because it's a Personal matter now from that loss? #they're not gonna like that if that's the case........ Hamber might insist on reinforcements or pull extra strings without Amethio knowing #everyday we get one step closer to Amethio redemption #(or alternatively corruption like can you imagine this all weighing on his mind and just twisting it in all the wrong directions) #(though now that I mention that it seems more like a possibility for Spinel --- I still think he's the most capable of betraying everyone) #(like he seems the most malicious at this rate and his capabilities can be quite terrifying- he may as well decide to-- #--erase the other explorers' memories and make them work for him if he was pushed hard enough . Like . Can You Imagine.......... /deranged) #I'm rambling at this rate ASKSDJHSDKFNSD but this series gives me so much serotonin and I'm so grateful to have started it 🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖 #pokemon horizons #anipoke #pokeani #amethio #explorer amethio #amethio pokemon #zirc pokemon #onia pokemon #ceruledge

[rouge-the-bat]

*for the SA2 gardens, feel free to consider either the original or the battle version layouts.

#chao #chao garden #sth #i probably played the hero garden the most on sa2b tho i think the original dark garden is my fave #its so over the top edgy lol and i like the little hill and cave it has #tho the neutral gardens music will always make me soo happy :3 #i never played the chao garden as much on sadx but i do like how more unique the layouts are #but since i played sa2b waayyyyy more im more attached to its gardens. even though the original sa2 gardens were better :( #i want that little blood pool cave god damnit #also actually jumping back to my earlier tags. iirc actually i think i played the neutral garden most by now #but when i was younger i played the hero garden more iirc #my memory is fuzzy tho lol #i need to return to my chao garden.... i still havent completed my goal of making a chaos chao yet!!

[natsumepilled]

my friends have been asking for this since. checks watch. january the year before the last one. i thought since i dropped him here too i'd post it here as well.....

#he/they insanity #WAIT HE'S LIKE 2 YEARS OLD ALREADY. FAINTING #anyway yeah we have like our own little group of characters and they kinda do things and i can't believe i had this mf for so long and #i Still. am attached to him. like sometimes i remember him and i'm just like... ohmy god. it's them. #and sometimes i go visit my friends and then we're like. Oh My God Do You All Remember So And So and i'm flooded with memories #fun fact they originated from like a fucking minecraft server and okay it's a ride and you need context #we had a silly podium where we'd meet up and talk about things. and somehow it turned into like a fucjing president altar and we had like #a president. and like politics. and like judgements and trials and banishments from the land #and this guy was like a catboy maid president. like that was my minecraft skin. and it'd be like. nya! politics! BANYASHMENT #and then i made him go through fucking hell.

[redrobin-detective]

*slaps self* you can fit so much anxiety and trauma in this bad boy

#love june as a concept #the weather is perfect #summer is here! #but like fucking clockwork every 1st I proceed to drown myself in misery and anxiety over my birthday #I am working hard to undo that trauma response so i can enjoy my bday and june in general in peace #but god did I spend a lot of today just fretting and feeling sick and anxious #like I do every year the calander hits june and i realize 'oh god its almost here I need to plan shit' #thank GOD this will be the first year I'm out of my parents house and will not be seeing my mother at all #I refuse to #i dont care if Im just sitting home alone I will like my Ass off to avoid seeing her #I will not let her traumatize me for the 29th fucking year in a row #anyway oopsie #personal #will delete Im just stressed #I have broken out in a cold sweat haha #i hate feeling this way but god this day has so many bad memories attached to it I spend the whole month just steeped in dread #why'd I have to be born at the end of themonth #cant I have been born earlier get the trauma out of the way and get on with the rest of june??