#but I felt BAD OK. that’s gonna be my justification when she inevitably yells at me for giving him all these answers

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

Men sure will simultaneously talk down to u while desperately asking for ur help

#this is a me problem I need to stop being nice #but I just feel BAD sometimes #like. I know I’m smart but the fact that I know more than him #after studying for 3 days #when he’s been studying for a month #just tells me that either he’s just fucking dumb or he’s not trying #I’m not THAT smart #I just think he isn’t putting in the effort rlly #but this is his background. he keeps being like ‘this is MY background I know everything’ #and I have to both correct him #and stroke his ego #and u know how difficult that is to do. #I’ve been going ‘well operationally I think this is how it works! I see where you’re coming from but I think you’re over complicating it #because you know so much more about this than me’ #like. I genuinely have to talk like that. to get him to Listen To Me #so he doesn’t fail by saying the dumbest fucking things #but also why. why am I putting in effort why didn’t I just listen to Leah #I need to be better about boundaries probably #but I felt BAD OK. that’s gonna be my justification when she inevitably yells at me for giving him all these answers #I give HER answers too #but at least she’s useful back #Idk I’m being nice I am ensuring the success of my coworkers. but maybe I should stop cause I really really really don’t like being talked #down to like that. the man literally talks to me like I’m a small child in need of handling. #while furiously copying down all my answers #like the cognitive fucking dissonance UGH #I always leave these calls mildly irritated and bitter and I Need to stop talking to him again maybe #one day. I’ll look and sound older #and maybe thirty year old men won’t treat me Like This #it’s actually so funny how the older men who are like 50+ are SO sweet to me and so respectful and constantly tell me I’m so smart and funny #but the ones closer to my age treat me like SHIT while asking me for help. this was the last time I’m gonna stop.