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Christian Yu: The Eve

x Christian Yu x

Note: Read at Your Own Risk ~~ (ง⌐□ل͜□)ง Type: One Shot [ masterlist ]

A/N: This is a request from an Annon. I know it took a while but hope y’all like it. BTW. Happy New Year friends! ♥

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'Is she not coming to work?'

"Hey, Scott!" Christian called his friend when he saw him walked past his door from the hall.

Scott walked and stop to peek at Christian's studio.

"What's up?" he asked while still looking at his phone.

"How's the photoshoot yesterday?" Christian asked about the shoot scheduled for Live and you are one of the editors.

"It went according to our theme. But it lasted longer than expected because it suddenly snowed a little during the shoot." Scott explained. "Why?" he managed to look away from his phone screen and look at Christian.

"Oh, so, what time did you guys finish?" Christian asked not answering Scott's question.

"Maybe around 3 am," Scott answered. He decided to sit on the sofa inside Christian's studio - thinking that this might take a while. He knew Christian and asking questions without answering his - only means that somethings going on.

"I see. So I guess most of the crew will not be coming today since you guys finished late." Christian said while taking a spin at his chair.

"Not really. I think they'll be here doing the edit and all." Scott said still looking at Christian.

Christian tried to avoid Scott's gaze.

"Really? So maybe I can take a look at the scene later with Y/N." Christian said and turn his back from Scott to face his monitor.

'Smooth.' Scott thought and can't help but smirked at his friend's childish game. He's avoiding directly asking about Y/N because of the drunk accident happening before.

*** 3 weeks ago, the crew decided to go out for a dinner then drink after to celebrate Christian's debut. But just as everyone getting ready to go home. You're so wasted that you confessed to Christian without minding the few people remaining outside the pub.

All were shocked because they didn't expect you to confess at all. All of them have an idea that you have feelings for Christian for years - but Christian's so dense and treat you as a little sister at that time. He did not expect it and he was so dumbfounded that he laughed it out and saying that he only sees you as his lil'sister.

"Thank you, Y/N - but you're my little sister that I never had. I'm sorry." Christian said as he rubbed the back of his neck.

Yes, you were drunk at that time. And you wished you forgot everything that had happened to that point. But it was impossible. Now you know that it was all a lie when people said they forget everything that happened to them when they're wasted. LIES!

But even if you remembered everything - you acted that you forgot about it. It was not like you, but being rejected face to face - it fvcking hurts!

You can't afford to lose your dream job just because of your drunken mistake.

You acted that everything is good between you and Christian - but it is noticeable that you're putting a distance between the two of you.

****

"I think you can check the raw ones with her assistant later." Scott get up from the sofa and was about to leave.

"Huh? Why her assistant? Where's Y/N?"

"She's taking a rest for the day. I think she catches a cold during the shoot. I'm planning to check on her later. We know how she can be when it snows. You're welcome to join me if you want." Scott dropped a teasing tone towards Christian.

"Ah. Okay. Just call me when you're going." Christian said not noticing Scott's teasing.

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Christian can't focus on his work. He keeps ending up thinking about you.

He looked at his phone - checking if Scott text him about going to your place but he sighed when he sees nothing.

He can already admit that this is not like him at all. He told you that he only sees you as a friend - he even regards you as his little sister. But something inside him disagree.

'Do I like-love her?' Christian questioned himself. But it was cut-off when his phone rang.

It was from Scott.

"Hey. Wait a sec - I'll just save my files." Christian said right after answering.

"About that, I can't go to Y/N right now. Mr. Ahn called and requesting a meeting with Dabin." Scott said.

"Did you call Y/N?" Christian asked.

"Not yet. I tried calling to see if she's alright but she's not answering. Maybe she's just sleeping. We can visit her later - after work."

"No. I can check her now since I already shut down my PC." Christian said as he walked out from his studio.

Scott smirked because he knew well that Christian never shutdown his PC at his studio.

"Okay. Call me when you get there." Scott ended the call.

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You were dreaming about someone was knocking at your door and keep pressing the doorbell. The doorbell gets louder every time that it woke you up.

Then you realized that it was not a dream but someone really is knocking at your door.

'Maybe it's Scott. He did mention that he will drop by'. You thought as you tried your best to get up.

You opened the door.

"Are you planning on breaking my door Sco-C-Christian! How..?" you can feel your face burning up.

"I came instead of Scott," he said avoiding your eyes.

"I see," you said. Both of you just standing there between the door. 'Okay, this is awkward'.

"Are you okay...?" Christian asked and managed to meet your eyes.

It's hard for you to stop the cough because your throat is just itching.

"I'm okay now, so you don't have to..." you looked down. Not really wanting for Christian to see you at this state. But suddenly your vision got dizzy and that made you lean forward.

Christian caught you.

"You're not okay at all." He said.

You can't tell if he's mad or worried. He guided you to your bed. And you keep coughing all the time. You want to stop so he can't see but it's really not that easy.

'I'm here now, but I don't know what to do for her. I can feel that Y/N doesn't like me here, I'm sure this situation is stressful for her'. Christian thought. 'I guess I need to try and help her feel better...'

"Did you already eat something?" Christian asked you while you're fixing the pillow at your back to sit properly.

"No," you said.

"Good thing I brought rice porridge. Eat this, then take the medicine." He said while taking out the porridge from the paper bag he had.

"I'm fine." you insisted. You just want him to leave and you can sleep. But for some god's play - your tummy decided to protest.

"Just eat." Christian tried his best to not laugh. He handed you the container for the porridge.

"Okay..." you said helplessly.

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"Thank you for the porridge..." you said as Christian took the container from your hand.

"Now take the medicine, and go to the hospital tomorrow for an IV drip." He said as he hands you a glass of water.

"A-*cough* cold like this will be over once I slept on it. I don't have to go." you took meds and the glass of water.

"You're not going to go? When you're this sick?" Now he really sounded worried.

"I'm really all right, Christian... You can go now..." you insist as you tried to put the glass on your side table but he stops you and leans forward to get the glass from your hand. And put his hand at your forehead. You automatically closed your eyes when you felt the warmth from his hand.

"No way. At your condition right now..." Christian said. "You're burning up..." he was shocked because he was not expecting you to be this sick.

"I'm fine..." you opened your eyes. Then there you realize how you and Christian's face is so close. You can't help but blush.

Christian realizes the situation and immediately put away his hand from your forehead. "J-just go to the hospital. Darn it!"

You can't help but smile a little. You find him cute.

Christian stands up. "Try to lie back down. I'll go get a wet towel for you."

"Okay..." you said. You guess that it's no use arguing with him. As you lie down. You can't help close your eyes as you tremble. "Ugh... it's cold..."

"You're cold?" Christian saw you.

You opened your eyes and he was standing at the end of your bed. You got up.

"Just a little... I just need to put more clothes on." You said as you tried to get off the bed and walk to your closet.

"No." Christian stopped you from getting up. "You have to bring your fever down. All you need is to change into a T-shirt and shorts instead. Wait. I'll get that for you."

"Huh? W-what?"

Christian walked towards your closet and as if he owns it, he easily finds your clothes and throws it at you.

"I'm turning the light out." and he did turn off the lights.

You have no choice but change. You felt that your clothes already wet from your sweat. When you finished changing, Christian sit beside your bed and gently put the wet towel on your forehead.

"Ian, you should really go now..." you said in between your coughs.

'How can I go when you're like this?' Christian thought as he looked at you.

You felt him get up. You closed your eyes. 'Finally, he's leaving.' you thought.

Christian sighed.

"Move over a bit." you heard him.

You opened your eyes not really understood what he said. But the next thing you know that Christian slip his body beside you - in the bed. Your body automatically moved from the side to give him space.

Now Christian is hugging you from the back. If the two of you are dating - then this might be normal - cuddling you as you're feeling cold. But the two of you are way far from dating!

'Shit! What is he doing! What is he thinking?! I don't know if this will help me or it will make it worse.' You can't help but worry. You need to calm down because you're not sure if Christian can feel how your heartbeat is running wild.

"You'll be less cold like this," Christian said. Every word he said, you can feel the warmth of his breath from the side of your ear.

"C-Chris-tian... you don't really have to-"

"Just stay still. I'll leave once you fall asleep." Christian said firmly. "You'll be asleep soon since you took the medicine."

'How in God's way can I be still in this situation?! God-someone please save me!'

"Y/N. Close your eyes and go to sleep," Christian said.

You closed your eyes. But really not know how you can fall asleep with the fact that you can feel his body heat.

You don't know if it's the fever or because of him, but you feel dizzy and your mind is a mess.

But one thing is clear.

Your heart is beating so fast and the warmth from Christian's arms that you don't feel cold anymore.

You tried to close off your heart - as best as you could. But Christian's warmth is slowly melting down the walls you barely created.

"Christian Yu... why are you doing all this for me? It's like... as if you love me... How can I push you away if you're going to be like this?" you froze when you realized that you voice out your thoughts.

Christian's arms around your waist tighten.

"You're right," Christian said as he leans closer that you can feel his breath from your right ear. "I do love you and I was a fool when I denied that fact - something that obvious. I know for a long time that I treated you differently from anyone else. I'm sorry if I pretend and fight what I was feeling just because I don't want to admit that what I said before was wrong."

You tried to move to face him but Christian stopped you and buried his head between your neck. He also holds your hand and tightens his embrace.

"Please. Let me hold you like this as you fall asleep. I promise I will leave as soon as your temperature goes down."

You said nothing and just pulled him closer to you.

'I think this is a good reason to love the snow season.' You slept smiling while at Christian's embrace.

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20yearstostart · 6 years

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Sunday 19th August, 2018

Dear Blank,

I don’t know what to say... I am not okay or maybe I am, but I’m not feeling enough so I’m not okay.

I don’t even know how I’m feeling.

I found a boy.

He is my friends with benefit, and he is so sweet. He is the one who can shuffle cards, and he cuddles me and holds me, stroking my hair, and for those few minutes, I wish I could lay like that forever. It’s been so long since someone took care of me, it’s been so long since I felt someone’s body against mine, I feel so overwhelmed.

I want to run away from it, and I want to hide in him at once.

But he won’t let me run away, because he’s holding on to me tightly, but he won’t let me hide in him too.

I don’t love him or like him romantically, but I feel like just by being with him I am dragging into a mess that he shouldn’t be in. He is just a fucking kid, and I’m telling him the deepest shit from my life... He is just a kid, he will be so upset once he finds out how truly fucked up I am.

I am on call with him right now, because I am so stupid, and clumsy and can’t do everything right, and I messed up and sent him the wrong snap. And he screenshotted like he screenshots everything, and then became nosy, and was like hoe, whats this?

I tried avoiding it but it didn’t work, and now its 2:35am on a Monday, and I feel better.

But the thing is, this is momentary. It will fade away, and I’ll go back to feeling like I’m trapped in a life that doesn’t belong to me.

I’ll make this one about him, the handsome, intelligent and amazing kid. He told me not call him a kid, because he is just childish, but is more mature than me. I’m rolling my eyes, Blank, and I’m sure so are you.

He is adorable, sweet and so so innocent.

Also, I don’t think he realises when I call people kid, I’m actually making them a permanent part of my life. Almost like I’m letting them in, ya feel, Blank?

Sometimes I get so scared he’ll think that I’ve started to love him. The thing is I won’t and if I do, I’ll fall out of it in an instant before he could even realise it, because my brain will tell me how wonderful and beautiful he is, and how I’m nothing compared to that.

He is so kind to me, and he kisses me. He holds my hand even though his potential girlfriends might see just because I like it. But I take my hand away because I don’t want people to know that something is happening between us. It makes him look bad.

He snapped me a picture of myself, ordering coffee, and I was repulsed by it. I woke up the next morning, looked at it, and still felt like puking when I saw how much of the screen space I took. But he, he took that picture, tried my drink, kissed me and then made out with me in the park on a rainy afternoon.

How could he do that?

Is he really that desperate?

But he is so attractive and tall. His laugh is cute as well, and his brain is super smart, and his funny. He can easily find a girl, but he sure does know how to pick’em. I’m not faking about Crim girl, Blank, she’s cool. I’m about quiz, and she pisses me off.

He pretends to be all tough, mean and judgmental, but he is the softest little puddle of puppy cuteness you’ll ever find. And his adorable puppy dog eyes are just proof of that, but that goddamn girl. That girl is using him.

But I got mad at him tonight, so he told her it was the last time he was “helping” her. Help? She was honeybaiting him into doing her quizzes, and he is stupid enough to do it in the name of friendship.

The thing is I have friends, we are friends. But I don’t ask him to take a quiz for me, even when we have the same classes. No, instead, I would ask for his help and then work on it.

He is a great friend though. He is always paitent, and listening. His words can sometimes seem harsh, but they are always made with the warmest of intentions, that make it smoothly sink down your throat sweetly.

Also, he gives me his scarfs because: 1) I get cold, quicker than a freshly landed grandma from fiji. 2) I love the way he smells, so he gives it to me so I can sleep with it.

The last time I went to his house, we fucked.

It was amazing, he was amazing.

He loves seeing my reactions when he fingers me, and I love sucking his dick lmao. I didn’t know I’d be a dick sucker, turns out I am.

He is so perfect, its so hard not to fall in love with him, but it’s easy for me not to.

I won’t ruin a good friendship and fuck buddy, because of the new shiny thing is momentarily blinding me from the reality of love never really existing.

I mean, love does, just not for me.

Blank, I sent an application to the counsellors; I am scared now. I am so afraid, I don’t know what to do. And I have exams coming up but omg, I don’t think I can do it.

Fuck, Blank.

It’s almost as if I’m ruining my life, myself.

Also, he says stuff that I need to hear. He makes me believe him, and I don’t like it. It will end in pain anyways, it’ll hurt less if this stopped now, but he won't let go.

At least not yet, I am still shining and fresh out of the package. I still smell of plastic and factory chemicals, but once the smells disappear and my colours fade, he’ll leave. It’s just a matter of time; for him to leave, and for me to get myself ready.

Btw, he is amazing, handsome, smart, tall, intelligent, can play the piano, is funny, makes the best fanfics, and has three hands Blank. He is truly wonderful and I hope he finds a girl just as amazing.

THE SKY:

I haven’t seen much of the sky recently, but the last I remember was in his kitchen. He was washing the dishes, and I was cutting the ingredients because he wanted to make food together. I remember looking out and seeing a clear blue sky with the fluffiest whites clouds, and his face in front of it.

His adorable sloping nose, and short eyelashes. He is truly beautiful, and when his dark brown eyes meet mine, it makes my tummy stop, and then he places his hands on my waist, pulls me closer and kisses me.

It makes my tummy churn, and I ask him if he feels the same in his tummy. He says no, and I look out the window and realised it was a cloudy day after all. It was raining when I came over to his house.

I am always the silly one.

omfg, blank, i swear i do not like him.

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#my diary #fwb #boy #sky #I don't love him I swear #he's just really really nice

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