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( 😶 - Nazuna, Marionette dududu )

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I had always know what I had brought myself into, agreeing to join a unit with a weirdo who drabbed in a beautiful fabric jumped from the window on the second floor. I was lucky enough to get away, still it seemed like our fate strings was tied together. Though you still had the same exceptions as other had all through my life. That because of my face, people got weird around me with my speech. The way I said I.(Ore)

I want to be able to laugh loud and act like a rough boy too, not that it was only expect of him. Everyone around me expect that I acted more girly. So why did I get so angry when I was mistaken for a girl by another one in the same year as me?

Aaah, at least I could have fun on stage together with Oshi-san, the warm I felt when the people in the audience applause. I was truly glad that the string had tied us together, even if the golden seemed to wrap higher and higher up my arms, wrapped around my throat.

And here we was in our second year, a new member join us, surely if this tight feeling in my throat is going to keep going... Then surely this one will be able to help us and keep us floating?

‘Nazuna-nii~’ ‘Nito’ Here I was, and I don’t know which one of those names was used the most. Often I was zooned out enough to not noticed what was talked about either way, worry had already clouded my head with worry after the first few playbacks lives, this wasn’t Valkyrie at all, and my vocal cords was working against me. A boy should only go through puberty once, and surely a guy like me with such kind of face.. The new voice didn’t fit, I was fumbling and stumbling over it. There was even no help for me to get or explanation.

Wasn’t I the one holding them back? Here I stood most days with my stoic expression, watching them while being quite, I had sown my own lips together, to not ruined the impression people got of me. Staying like this was for the better, even if I couldn’t bicker along them, like the first year when I actually talked back to Oshi-san. Now I could as well be placed in a museum of old artefacts. At least I could be blessed with hearing how genuine how pretty I was, even if most way was really really grossed when Oshi-san formulated himself.

I want to be able to laugh along with them, to share memories and make them, instead when dreamfes came. I - I laughed truly, one last time with the two people I cared about. My facade was broken for a single day.

Had it been a mistake? I don’t know, I couldn’t help but feel anxious from there, the sewing room atmosphere wasn’t the same, it felt cold, unwelcoming. Every time I looked over at Mika, it seemed like golden thread was tied around his arms and legs, it looked like blood was running a long the shimmering thread. Still we both danced and practiced again, again and again for the challenge against fine.

What a horrible day that was, I had never felt so hopeless in my life when the music stopped, there was no sound. The strings there had so deeply cut into my skin the last few weeks, seemed to ease the hold on me, even lightly on the neck. Enough to aid Mika, enough to give a horrible performance. Fuck, I hated listen to this new voice, it no way fit the aesthetic. I hated, hated, hated it. Even if I had trained it hard to fit in, days after nights. It wasn’t the same.

The strings was cut, still I hold on to the red string of fate so tight in my hand, no matter how much it cut, I wouldn’t let go of it, even if I was left alone after the incident, even if I had to wait. I would stay in this castle build of sand even if it would burry me with it.

I would wait, no I will wait. No matter how long, I can impossible do anything in my life unless I am told too. That is the role of a ‘Marionette’. To do what people expect of you, still the new school year has just begun. I had hoped to find those purple eyes, blue and yellow between the students, instead I am met with nothing, The cherry blossom is in full bloom, I had chosen this path for myself, and I will walk along it for eternity. Unless if something stupid is going to happened today, but that seemed without reason. I am not an anime protag.

#entelexcheia #Nazuna ~ Marionette~#Nazuna ~White Usagi~#This turned much longer then I wanted. But it just weent brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr #Insert Wataru HIBIKI!!!! and Tomoya for the last part. I have not written first person in other than danish #So I guess I die #'short drabble' It turned to me brrr about Nazuna past

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