#binge concerto

[simmer-rhi]

Jingle Bell Goth

Part 10

Soundtrack: Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas by Bing Crosby

With the air cleared and Michael and Siobhan gone, the rest of the Goth family settled themselves into the living room for coffee.

At 8 o'clock sharp, there was a strange noise by the fireplace. Cassandra looked up just in time to see a man dressed all in blue appear out of thin air - what?! Father Winter?!

After her conversation with Cassandra this morning, Bella had been in touch with Father Winter, who they really did meet on holiday in Sulani a few years earlier, and invited him to spend Winterfest evening with family.

Of course, Father Winter's work is wrapped up early, as he delivers presents while all the Sims are still in bed, so he was more than happy to pay a visit to his chums (they still exchange post cards every year).

"I'm so embarrassed..." Cassandra admitted guiltily. "It's just, some of the kids at school said that Father Winter was really your parents. And I told them we'd met you on holiday, but they all just laughed, thinking it was a joke..."

Of course, Father Winter is a right jolly old elf, he's not one to hold a grudge.

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Alexander was elated to meet THE FATHER WINTER (oh my Watcher, all the kids in school would be so jealous), and Cassandra being the best big sister ever, left him to monopolise Father Winter's attentions.

She sat down at the piano to play her favourite concerto - an upbeat melody that made her think of falling snow.

Cornelia drew in closer to listen to her granddaughter play. She was suddenly transported back to when she was a young lady herself, back in Champs Les Sims - she remembered how her parents were trying to push her into a marriage with a certain Mr Straud, that funny older gentleman who had moved into town. On paper, he was everything, but in reality, he had a habit of hissing at the strangest moments.

Cornelia felt it was only right to share this story with her teenage granddaughter. "I realise now, that you must feel how I did then. There are more important things to look for in a partner than a bank balance."

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Cassandra got ready for bed that night feeling pretty satisfied. It had turned out to be a good Winterfest after all. But she had one more fence to mend before she went to sleep.

"Hey, Watcher, how are you?" Cassandra began self-consciously. "I know I don't ever pray to you really, I guess that's what I'm doing now? But I wanted to say... if Father Winter is real, then you must be real too? And I'm sorry I doubted you, and your plan for me. And... well, that's it really. Happy Winterfest."

We all know Father Winter doesn't hold a grudge, but the Watcher? She's a vengeful sort...

The End

Happy Winterfest!

Start - Previous

#jinglebellgoth #ts4 #simblr

[burberrycanary]

Tagged by the wonderful @booksandabeer 😘🍻🥰

Last song I listened to: Brahms’ Piano Concerto No. 1 in D minor played by Nelson Freire with Riccardo Chailly conducting the Gewandhausorchester. 

I listen to a lot of classical music but I have never felt the urge to listen to Brahms much. Brahms, meh. But a friend got me into symphonic music a few years ago and I have yet to recover. I stumbled onto this magnificent recording by chance and I love how it combines the huge sturm und drang scope of this very cap-R Romantic concerto with a startling clarity that balances both a structural clarity about the overall shape of the work and at the same time an equally meticulous clarity about so many of the fine musical details. It’s sweeping, passionate and fun.

Last thing I read: I’m terrible about finishing things and generally have a half dozen books going at once, but the last thing I finished was either Red, White and Royal Blue (I was somehow very much the target demo for the film but not the target demo for the book even a little) or Christopher Logue’s War Music, which I have read at least a half dozen times by now. I am 100% exactly the target demo for this book, a brilliantly idiosyncratic partial translation of the Iliad that Logue worked on for decades, up until his death. If you like Anne Carson’s translation work, give Logue a try. 

Last movie I watched: René Clément’s Purple Noon on a gorgeously restored 35mm print. A recent binge-watch of Andrew Scott’s Ripley happily lined up with a local theater’s Alain Delon film series and here Delon is at his most impossibly beautiful. The film is shot almost entirely on location in 1960’s Italy and the colors are almost too beautiful, giving the film the quality of a fever-dream fantasy. But Highsmith’s cool eye and colder heart are still there, driving the story, right under the sun-struck surface. Delon gives a performance that’s ranging, nuanced and deceptively light. 

Last tv show: I recently finished Ripley, which I liked a lot. The cast is strong overall and Andrew Scott is mesmerizing. The cinematography is often striking and only very occasionally forced. The choice to shoot in black and white works well for the story they wanted to tell. Having such a definite point of view on an iconic and repeatedly adapted novel is refreshing and successful. The touches of black humor are pitch-perfect. One misstep at the end is sadly very much sticking with me—Caravaggio!—but I’ll always have all those fucking stairs. 

And I just started X-Men ’97, which is a must-watch for anyone who saw the X-Men Animated Series as a kid. As a queer kid, the X-men meant a lot to me and so far this series feels like a complicated love letter to something formative I still have a ton of nostalgia for.

Last thing I googled: Setting aside how I use google to look up how to spell things…spaghetti al burro and before that moliterno al tartufo, which are things I am going to eat this week 😋

Last thing I ate: A dark chocolate kit kat 

Sweet, salty, or savory: Savory just edges out salty—but only just. 

Sleep: Who amongst us sleeps well? Or enough. 

Currently reading: To pick one among several, I’m listening to Andrew Scott read Joyce’s Dubliners. Ideal. 

Tagging, no pressure—and if you haven't gotten to this one already— @village-skeptic, @deadalien, @skarabrae-stone, @amoneth-art and @starlightafterastorm

#tag game #about me #this came at the perfect time in a crazy stressful busy week

[fuckmeyer]

Come Nightfall tracklist & album notes

[every song & artist referenced in Come Nightfall]

Chapter 1 - Offer

A Change is Gonna Come – Sam Cooke

"While Sam Cooke's track burst into life, my brush tap-tap-tapped on canvas."

Chapter 3 - Date

2. Devil’s Gonna Git You – Bessie Smith A piano in a Bessie Smith song plinked with fervor.

3. Welcome to the Jungle – Guns N’ Roses "If you think I’m going to subject myself to Axl Rose, you’re out of your mind.”

4. Booze and Bules – Ma Rainey 5. State Street Rag – Louie Bluie 6. West Coast Blues – Blind Blake He tripped over himself explaining the origins of Detroit blues (Ma Rainey! Louie Bluie! Blind Blake!) and the birth of twelve-bar blues, whatever the hell that meant.

7. Lohengrin: Prelude – Richard Wagner “So what's on the menu for tonight?” gesturing with my head to the tiny stereo. “Wagner, to celebrate my being done reading that freak Nietzsche?”

8. Clair de Lune – Debussy 9. In the Garden – Emile Pandolfi 10. Piano Concerto No. 2 in C Minor, Op 18: Adagio sostenuto – Sergei Rachmaninoff “You know what it reminds me of?” I said, patting his knee. “Debussy. With a little Emile Pandolfi zhuzh to it. Or like if Rachmaninov woke up one day and decided to write something a little more understated.”

11. Blue Velvet – Bobby Vinton "You know I like your recs.” “Except Bobby Vinton.” “Fifties trash," I said with a dismissive shrug.

12. Bella’s Lullaby (From “Twilight”) – Carter Burwell “It’s a lullaby. Your lullaby. I wrote it for you.”

Chapter 5 - Party

13. It Had to Be You – Bing Crosby “The last real birthday party any of us had was for Emmett in 1945,” Edward said. “I believe Bing Crosby was on the top of the charts.”

14. I Want It That Way – Backstreet Boys “So,” I said, “Backstreet Boys, huh? Nice.”

15. End of the Road – Boyz II Men Alice knew my secret. As an avid Boyz II Men fan, we’d jam out to 90s boy bands in the car on the way to the mall. It was the only way Alice could get me to the mall.

16. What a Girl Wants – Christina Aguilera Christina Aguilera’s “What a Girl Wants” began to play in the background. Alice danced near a cluster of flickering candles while she snapped a picture of herself.

OCTOBER

17. Thriller – Michael Jackson Red solo cup in hand, I sat beside the radiator. Observing the sky of drunken college kids dancing, chatting, flirting above me. Listening to Michael Jackson's “Thriller” for what seemed like half an hour.

18. Teenagers – My Chemical Romance Angela had confessed her love for My Chemical Romance on the car ride over, but she was never a classic rock fan.

NOVEMBER

19. You Go to My Head – Frank Sinatra Frank Sinatra’s voice chased me down the hall. The cold tickle of Edward’s lips sing-whispering “You Go to My Head” had done it. So soft, so sweet, so irritating, so real, too real, stop, Edward, leave me alone—

DECEMBER

20. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas – Frank Sinatra 21. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas – Bing Crosby 22. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas – Tony Bennett

Chapter 12 - Hunting

23. Hammer Smashed Face – Cannibal Corpse “‘Hammer Smashed Face’.” “What?” “Cannibal Corpse?” “What?” “I’m, uh. I’m sorta into metal now.”

24. Everybody (Backstreet’s Back) – Backstreet Boys 25. Say My Name – Destiny’s Child 26. Smells Like Teen Spirit – Nirvana Not only did the glovebox contain emotional support picks from childhood that didn’t remind me of my ex—Backstreet Boys’ Millennium, Destiny Child’s The Writing’s On The Wall, and Nirvana’s Nevermind, among others—but also a cannister of prerolls and ‘shrooms I’d inherited after the death of Ang’s stoner phase.

27. Still – Geto Boys I flipped the radio on and fiddled with the dial until I found something lively, loud, and safe from memories of him: Geto Boys rapping about picking out our victims when the time is right—

28. Still D.R.E. – Dr. Dre, Snoop Dogg The truck became quiet enough to hear the soft plinking keys of “Still D.R.E.” over the radio.

Chapter 13 - Friends

29. Hey Ya! – Outkast While Jacob babbled, he bobbed his head out of rhythm to Outkast’s “Hey Ya” whispering over the radio.

30. Bennie and the Jets – Elton John The list became longer as quickly as daylight retreated from the garage. No way could we accomplish everything in one summer. [...] Backpacking through China, seeing Elton John live, breaking Kenenisa Bekele’s world record, falling madly in love.

Chapter 14 - Adrenaline

31. By the Time I Get to Phoenix – Dorothy Ashby Dorothy Ashby’s harp plinked in the background.

SATURDAY

32. Hips Don’t Lie – Shakira A poster of a bikini-clad Shakira crinkled under my weight.

Chapter 22 - Family, Part 2

33. Who Am I (What’s My Name) – Snoop Dogg Snoop Dogg rapped softly between choruses of girls singing his name. Jake groaned. “Old rap? You’re on this again?”

34. Complicated – Avril Lavigne Avril Lavigne’s “Complicated” played quietly. I resisted the urge to turn the dial.

35. Doctor Jazz – Jelly Roll Morton Truth was, I fell in love with Edward. Period. Not just the trivialities, like the song he loved to drive to (Jelly Roll Morton’s “Doctor Jazz”), the books he loved to read aloud to me in the meadow (Marcel Proust’s Swann’s Way), or the movies we watched on rainy days (Shakespeare adaptations, mostly).

Chapter 24 - Deviations

36. Voice of the Soul - Death “Death is okay,” Edward answered without enthusiasm. “Get real. Death is awesome.” “As if you would know?” “As if you would know,” I retorted. I pulled it out from the Pre-Owned bin. “Look at this. Tell me this album cover doesn’t scream ‘expertly curated collection of badass metal ballads’.”

37. Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds – The Beatles Posters covered the store, from The Beatles’ Sergeant Pepper’s to handmade CDs ~ Buy 2 Get 1 Free! signs.

38. Beyond the Cemetery – Cannibal Corpse “When I finally get around to exploring the genre beyond Metallica—” I waved the CD case “—these guys right here. Or, ooh, maybe this. Cannibal Corpse. Tomb of the Mutilated. Wow. Yikes.”

39. Meditation, Op. 42, No. 1 – Tchaikovsky, Leonid Kogan “Okay. Are we done casing the joint or what? Do they have it?” “At the front—under lock and key. Now the issue becomes a matter of price.” “Soviet violinist dude has a price?” “A steep one,” said Edward, “and warranted, being among one of the greatest violinist 'dudes' of the twentieth century.”

40. They Can’t Take That Away From Me – Frank Sinatra “We may never never meet again, on that bumpy rooooaaaaad to love.” “How can you be so casual about it?” “Still, I'll always, always keep the memory of…” He spun me around; my sopping shoes squished. “The way you hold your knife, doo-doo-doo doo doo-doo…”

Chapter 25 - Fate

41. Knockin’ On Heaven’s Door – Guns N’ Roses “I’m not concussed.” To prove it, I rattled off the date, the sitting president, and the names of all the guys in Guns N’ Roses.

Chapter 27 - Volterra

42. Orfeo ed Euridice, Wq 30: Dance of the Furies Over the machine’s growl, I could feel the pulse of the frantic string instruments of Monteverdi’s L’Orfeo in my seat—Alice’s unsuccessful attempt at getting me to calm the fuck down.

Chapter 28 - Verdict

43. Maramao perche sei morto* – Trio Lescano (*NOTE: not referenced by name) Music burst from behind the thick antechamber doors, some upbeat Italian swing music on vinyl that sounded straight out of the 1940s.

44. As Time Goes By – Billie Holiday Buoyant plinking piano notes of Billie Holiday’s “As Time Goes By” spilled down the long hallway, filling the somber, imposing space with life.

45. You’re as Pretty as a Picture – Al Bowlly A female server flashed me a dazzling smile, offering her tray of fancy desserts. Some upbeat Al Bowlly song pulsed in the background. Like a statue reanimated after a broken spell, Edward bared his fangs at the enemy.

46. What a Wonderful World – Louis Armstrong We rose above the murder and death, but “What a Wonderful World” still followed us over the tinny speakers.

21:32

47. The Devil Went Down to Georgia – The Charlie Daniels Band* (*NOTE: not referenced by name) "I happen to know the devil holds fiddle battles in exchange for souls."

Chapter 31 - Postmortem

48. Bein’ Green – Van Morrison Leah stared at the portable speaker playing Van Morrison’s “Bein’ Green”, one of Harry’s favorite songs.

49. Bring It On Home – Lou Rawls Lou Rawls played in the background. I choked on a chuckle remembering the way Harry used to dance in that lame dad way of his—the pumping of his arms, the slow shoulder shimmy, the hip bump he’d do to Sue to make her giggle…

EPILOGUE: PRELUDE

50. Vermilion, Pt. 2 – Slipknot

#come nightfall #the time is nigh. #litter alley i will cry when this is over

[madfishyradio]

Sunny ready for his next concerto.

I had recently gotten back into TwoSet Violin and binged watched all the videos I've missed. There was one video in particular that made me LOL every time I watched it. The music in the video later reminded me of someone from OMORI, so I had to get the image from headspace to digital space.

Sunny from the RPG OMORI

References

The pose from The Strad: https://www.thestrad.com/news/twoset-violin-loaned-two-golden-age-stradivari-violins/15543.article

The cursed lofi beat from TwoSet Violin: https://open.spotify.com/album/6NJD8SRDNyqjJ6PS18BYcx?si=zqhQiPTRQV-WXVoDJs-aMQ

The original video and inspiration from TwoSet Violin: https://youtu.be/Ub4PoLklvNw

#omori #omori sunny #omori spoilers #a rather underrated spoiler tbh #twosetviolin

[ross-hori]

Went out for the first time this week. Face is still a bit funny, but I was going a bit stir crazy. And after binge watching #Ragnarok on Netflix, I was picking up a bit of a Norwegian accent.

Anyhoo, these were shot on my Nokia smartphone. Won't bore you with the grumbles about image quality now I've ditched Google One (or whatever it's called these days).

These shots of the Concerto, a ship that cruises the Inland Sea a few times a day, were taken using Pro mode. I had to crank the ISO right up to get anything decent, so apologies for the noise.

Although I haven't been on Concerto, I understand it's a nice trip and worth the money. I'd probably favor after dark.

And if you want to take some better photos, she sails at 19:30 from Kobe Harborland. Bring a tripod.

#写真 #神戸 #Photography #My Photographs #On My Travels #Tourism #Visit Japan #smartphone photography #night photography

[heldhram]

“Get to Know Me” tag

(Wow, I am suprised and flattered that some people actually want to get to know me... but I digress) Thank you @unsimspirational and @nectar-cellar for tagging me!

1. Favourite colour:

It keeps changing. Now it’s this dull shade of Navy (?) blue (#003058).

2. Currently reading:

Hungarian: An Essential Grammar

The Pharmaceutical Journal*

*I read PJ because of work mostly, plus I just got myself an annual subscription; I don’t particularly read fiction nowadays

3. Last piece of music I listened to:

Mozart’s Piano Concerto No. 21 in C Major, K. 467, II Andante - Howard Shelley

4. Last series I watched:

Binge watched Desperate Housewives all the way to the last season

5. Sweet, spicy or savoury:

Spicy and savoury all the way please, I love my salt and chilli peppers.

6. Craving:

Some hot, extremely spicy mala hotpot please. It’s frickin’ baltic here.

7. Tea or coffee:

Ooo... my favourite aromatic Da Hong Pao tea please and thank you.

8. Working on:

Mostly work-related nowadays, nothing too exciting about those. Sims-wise, I’m just messing around with my Gshade preset (called ‘Lost Melody’) and experimenting with in-game lighting (hence that pic of Aubrey).

Tag someone else:

I honestly don’t know who else to tag, I feel like most people have done this already so I’m tagging whoever wants to do this!!

#non sims but it's also sims related #my sim: Aubrey #random random random stuff #thanks for tagging me :) #saviorhide

[spinalembrace]

I furiously binge-watched the two seasons of Wayward Pines (2015–2016) yesterday (missing at least one episode and parts of some, since I couldn't access them at all/in their entirety). Since I was watching alone, I decided to rant out my contemplations down on paper, which I will recount here (spoilers of course):

Season 1

If the Ballingers were revolutionists, why did they rat out Beverly, causing her to get reckoned?

Why on EARTH would they think public executions are the answer in a pseudo-community living off of lies? (See e.g. Camus' Reflections on the Guillotine [1957] for a humanitarian discussion of public executions.)

If putting people back to cryo-sleep is an option, why not use that with the citizens as well? Adults are fertile too — why aren't they such a precious resource to the company/cult as well? And — as long as people are thought of as resources, even in that ideology, isn't it a huge waste to respond to misdemenours with DEATH?

How homophobic and heteronormative is a community so focused on reproduction? (They turned to this question briefly in season 2, answer of course being very. I was not satisfied with the extent this question was discussed — being, it nearly was discussed at all.)

How is the company/cult not eugenic and nepotistic inherently? (It is.)

Why does Theresa show so much resent for Katie, when Ethan is the one who has consciously betrayed Theresa? Misogyny? Internalized misogyny?

The people running the company/cult are adults — on what basis do they then think adults are incapable of habituating to the new situation? Aren't the other adults then just worries about their own monopoly over power? Children might be the future but they are also easier to control — hence the adults leading the children are the ones creating the picture of that future.

Hypnotherapy is bullshit.

2000 years in the face of evolution is merely a blink of an eye.

How white and ignorant do you have to be to think culture = a couple classical piano concertos, classicist home decor, and a few paintings from 1500–1900s?

All the aberrations look have male bodies? What does this tell of the perception of evolution? Or degeneration? (This question was brought up in season 2, really not giving satisfactory answers and continuing to view sex and gender in an overly dichotomized and binary way.)

Why would the aberrations be more adapted to the 41st century? What is the evolutionary biology behind that?

How very lame to do the "evil man listens to classical music in a secluded mansion while others are dying on the streets".

Why does Wayward Pines have so much guns and ammo, if there is only one sheriff and the reckonings are done by hand?

Season 2

The aberrations don't seem that complex or scary.

Why does this season as well have to rely on a white male archetype to lead on the story?

The minute they find a female aberration, they dress them up (sexualize/shame their naked body) and find it even more convenient to abuse them.

Where the fuck did that guy get a twizzler?

There are no artists in Wayward Pines? Yet another depiction of "essential roles in society", where the arts and humanities are left out.

What are the ethics of weaponizing viruses, sacrificing oneself tp kill over one third of another population? What is the use of the evacuation? Don't the aberrations deserve to reclaim their territory, especially since the human invaders can save themselves in another manner? Didn't they learn anything about the possibility for cooperation?

The repetitious clips of the aberrations just screeching at the cliff do not do justice to the complexity of the aberrations. They seem like blood-lusted "monsters" yet again.

This is where my notes end. After sleeping through the night and rethinking Wayward Pines, I find the two seasons very discontinuous. Season 2 beginning with a voice over of Benjamin really set the mood to think they would be the main character — after the season I don't even remember what they did or what happened to them after all? It also was disappointing to see that Theresa's character was not developed further and they became a side character, even though the viewer was engaged to their character from the beginning. Also I can't stand, nor see the value or meaning, of the monogamous heterosexual quarrels happening in both of the seasons.

Okay bye !

#wayward pines #wayward pines season 1 #wayward pines season 2 #look at me trying to be a television critic and all #nah #i was just bored and taking notes actually made the watching quite fun #spoiler alert #binge watching

[makerofrunevests]

Sweet Vendetta Blues cover reveal!

Synopsis: It’s been eight years since Jack left his life in the mafia. Eight years since his adopted father was murdered. Eight years since his own brother shot him in revenge and he had to go into hiding, nothing but a dead man.

When the past comes back to haunt him in the worst way possible, Jack is forced to leave his new life as a homicide detective to flee his faceless enemy, leaving a dead partner in his wake. But the bodies keep piling up and Jack can no longer avoid his past when he finds out that all of the deaths turn out to be connected to one person—The Don of Rosa Nera.

Things get even more complicated when his brother shows up out of the blue, leading his own investigation with information that their adopted father, Paccioretti, had gathered before his death. Despite their turbulent past, Jack and Sebastian decide it’s in their best interests to join forces and fight against the enemy who took so much away from them.

Set in the same world as The New Emperor’s Concerto, this new novel by Hazel B. West contains the overarching theme of family woven throughout a noir adventure with a cross-country road trip for information and justice.

Author Bio: Hazel is an indie author, book wyrm, and coffee connoisseur. She typically enjoys writing books with an unconventional flair, maybe with a bit of mythology or literary symbolism, most definitely with a lot of siblings or found family in them. When she’s not writing, she manages an Etsy shop, drinks a lot of coffee, listens to music, or just holes up like an eldritch horror and binges favorite shows and manga. If you meet this rare creature on the street, she has been known to respond to the offer of coffee and old bookstores.

Website: http://hazelwest.blogspot.com

Ko-Fi: www.ko-fi.com/hazelwest

Instagram: www.instagram.com/modern_bard67

Twitter: www.twitter.com/artfulscribbler

Goodreads Author Page: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/5289626.Hazel_B_West

Add Sweet Vendetta Blues on Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/62088991-sweet-vendetta-blues

Add The New Emperor’s Concerto on Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/49094755-the-new-emperor-s-concerto

Buy The New Emperor’s Concerto in paperback or ebook on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/New-Emperors-Concerto-Hazel-West/dp/1704655757/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=9781704655758&linkCode=qs&qid=1661748210&s=books&sr=1-1

Concerto Preorder Link: https://ko-fi.com/s/e913602a2b

Sweet Vendetta Blues Preorder Link: https://ko-fi.com/s/5d7b408ce5

Ko-Fi Goodies: https://ko-fi.com/s/1b9caad871 Help support the Sweet Vendetta Blues release and get goodies while doing so!

Prequel Bind-up Giveaway: https://www.instagram.com/p/CiIFCGCgnz_/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

Concerto DTIYS Challenge:

DTIYS IG Info Post: https://www.instagram.com/p/Ch2q3cfgZvC/ Coloring Page Download: https://ko-fi.com/s/80bf143e0f

#noir #mafia #adventure #bookblr #books #hazel b west #sweet vendetta blues

[mobbothetrue]

please just know the SECOND my brain starts to work with me and lets me painlessly read anything I will be binging coda concerto. its on my mind all the time. hopefully that day is soon

No rush! God knows I’m slow as anything getting chapters done, haha. Your comments are always a delight but not at the cost of your health.

And no worries about that either!!! My blog is a little all over the place so I never really expect people coming in from, like, ao3 or such to follow me, haha

#mobbtalks #askbox #eggthew #honestly I don’t know how people with focused blogs do it. what do you know that I don’t #I mean I guess I have shadeshadow234 for writing but…. that’s been inactive for a while tbh #I mean I do love my original projects but right now? right now brain full of hedgehogs #anyway yes!! coda concerto isn’t going anywhere and neither am I #so there’s no need to worry about like. missing out

[littlegaysubwayrat]

I posted 408 times in 2022

That's 408 more posts than 2021!

38 posts created (9%)

370 posts reblogged (91%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@swashbuckling-chicken

@mr-me99

@moonriseblueeyes

@concerto-roblox

@dis-a-ppointment

I tagged 223 of my posts in 2022

Only 45% of my posts had no tags

#stranger things - 22 posts

#byler - 16 posts

#st - 9 posts

#strnager things - 3 posts

#fear street - 3 posts

#van scene - 2 posts

#positivity - 2 posts

#murderous - 2 posts

#women - 2 posts

#criminal - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 69 characters

#one time i meant to type /lh but it typed /oh and it was a whole vibe

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

stranger things is so brainrot I can’t even say cool anymore without thinking I’m lowkey flirting

20 notes - Posted August 23, 2022

#4

getting on a plane hoping for good news upon touchdown

21 notes - Posted August 5, 2022

#3

MMMK listen up netflix. I love you. I binge you. BUT STOP CANCELLING WLW LED SHOWS AFTER ONE SEASON PLEASE. its not an issue with viewership, the Saphics got you if you give us wlw content. The issue is netflix continues to promote shows with gay white leads, and while it's progress, it's not enough. It's also with fandoms, I wish wlw ships got as much attention as mlm ones. I'm just saying bring that energy to gnc, queer, racially diverse ships.

Ok thanks for listening to my rant

28 notes - Posted August 8, 2022

#2

Noah whenever anyone mentions byler

35 notes - Posted August 30, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Fave Duo Moments- El and Dustin

part 2 of this series (gonna try to post these on a more regular basis from here on out)

Takes place in 2x09

See the full post

57 notes - Posted October 10, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

[brookston]

Holidays 3.9

Holidays

American Paddlefish Day

Amerigo Vespucci Day

Armored Warships Day

Barbie Day

Baron Bliss Day (Belize)

Chess Prodigy Day

Day of Waiting (Elder Scrolls)

Day to Mourn Slavery

Doctor’s Day (Venezuela)

Eid Al Moalim (Teacher’s Day; Lebanon)

False Teeth Day

Festival of Primal Ooze

Get Over It Day

Hit the Panic Button Day

Joe Franklin Day

Made in UK Day (UK)

National CBDB Day (a.k.a. Central Bank Digital Currency)

National Dishwasher Appreciation Day

National Heroes and Benefactors Day (Belize)

National Lina Day

National Marcia Day

National Music Day (Indonesia)

National Shane Day

National Urban Educator Day

Panic Day (a.k.a. ... 

Absolute Total Nihilists Bang Clang Day (Los Angeles)

Bang-Clang Day

Wellness Permission League’s Panic Day

World DJ Day

World Trisomy 9 Awareness Day

Zangoose Day (Pokémon)

Food & Drink Celebrations

International Spanish Omelette Day

National Cookie Cutter Day

National Crabmeat Day

National Meatball Day

2nd Thursday in March

International School Meals Day [2nd Thursday]

Nametag Day [Thursday of Name Week]

Popcorn Lovers Day [2nd Thursday]

Railroad Day [2nd Thursday]

World Kidney Day [2nd Thursday]

Feast Days

Archytas (Positivist; Saint)

Catherine of Bologna (Christian; Saint)

Cyril VI of Alexandria, Pope (Coptic Orthodox Church)

Dominic Savio (Christian; Saint)

Erotic Dancing Day (Pastafarian)

Farvardigan (Zoroastrian)

Forty Martyrs of Sebaste (Christian; Martyrs)

Frances of Rome (Christian; Saint)

Gregory of Nyssa (Episcopal Church (United States))

Jackie the Orangutan (Muppetism)

Meatball Day (Pastafarian)

Media Hiems III (Pagan)

Millard Fillmore Day (Church of the SubGenius; Saint)

Pacian (Christian; Saint)

Saitousai (Harvest Festival; Japan)

Socrates (Humanism; Saint)

Strinennia (Festival calling birds and spring to return; Slavic Pagan)

Takaosan Hiwatari Matsuri (Fire Walking Festival; Tokyo, Japan)

Lucky & Unlucky Days

Lucky Day (Philippines) [17 of 71]

Sensho (先勝 Japan) [Good luck in the morning, bad luck in the afternoon.]

Premieres

Can-Can (Film; 1960)

Castle (TV Series; 2009)

East of Eden (Film; 1955)

Fort Apache (Film; 1948)

42nd Street (Film; 1933)

The Hotel New Hampshire (Film; 1984)

Joe Versus the Volcano (Film; 1990)

John Carter (Film; 2012)

The Joshua Tree, by U2 (Album; 1987)

Mike’s Murder (Film; 1984)

Piano Concerto No. 21 in C Major, by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart (Piano Concerto; 1785)

The Ref (Film; 1994)

Salmon Fishing in the Yemen (Film; 2012)

Sheep & Wolves (Animated Film; 2018)

Splash (Film; 1984)

State Fair (Film; 1962)

Sword Art Online the Movie: Ordinal Scale (Anime Film; 2017)

Take Me Out to the Ball Game (Film; 1949)

A Wrinkle in Time (Film; 2018)

Today’s Name Days

Bruno, Franziska (Austria)

Fanika, Franciska, Nedjeljko (Croatia)

Františka (Czech Republic)

Edvin, Heido, Heivo (Estonia)

Auvo, Edvin (Finland)

Françoise (France)

Barbara, Bruno, Dominik, Franziska (Germany)

Aetios, Eliana, Filoktimon, Iliana, Lysimahos, Sarantos, Sevirianos, Smaragda, Smaragdos, Vivianos, Xanthos (Greece)

Fanni, Franciska (Hungary)

Francesca (Italy)

Ausmis, Ervalds, Ēvalds (Latvia)

Dominykas, Pranciška, Visgailė, Žygimantas (Lithuania)

Sindre, Sverre (Norway)

Apollo, Dominik, Franciszka, Katarzyna, Mścisława, Prudencjusz, Taras (Poland)

Františka (Slovakia)

Catalina, Francisca, Paciano (Spain)

Torbjörn, Torleif (Sweden)

Flavia (Ukraine)

Keely, Kelda, Kelley, Kelli, Kellie, Kelly (USA)

Today is Also…

Day of Year: Day 68 of 2023; 297 days remaining in the year

ISO: Day 4 of week 10 of 2023

Celtic Tree Calendar: Nuin (Ash) [Day 19 of 28]

Chinese: Month 2 (Yi-Mao), Day 18 (Bing-Yin)

Chinese Year of the: Rabbit 4721 (until February 10, 2024)

Hebrew: 16 Adar 5783

Islamic: 16 Sha’ban 1444

J Cal: 7 Ver; Sevenday [7 of 30]

Julian: 24 February 2023

Moon: 95%: Waning Gibbous

Positivist: 12 Aristotle (3rd Month) [Archytas]

Runic Half Month: Tyr (Cosmic Pillar) [Day 14 of 15]

Season: Winter (Day 79 of 90)

Zodiac: Pisces (Day 18 of 29)

#calendar #Holidays

[brookstonalmanac]

Holidays 3.9

Holidays

American Paddlefish Day

Amerigo Vespucci Day

Armored Warships Day

Barbie Day

Baron Bliss Day (Belize)

Chess Prodigy Day

Day of Waiting (Elder Scrolls)

Day to Mourn Slavery

Doctor’s Day (Venezuela)

Eid Al Moalim (Teacher’s Day; Lebanon)

False Teeth Day

Festival of Primal Ooze

Get Over It Day

Hit the Panic Button Day

Joe Franklin Day

Made in UK Day (UK)

National CBDB Day (a.k.a. Central Bank Digital Currency)

National Dishwasher Appreciation Day

National Heroes and Benefactors Day (Belize)

National Lina Day

National Marcia Day

National Music Day (Indonesia)

National Shane Day

National Urban Educator Day

Panic Day (a.k.a. ... 

Absolute Total Nihilists Bang Clang Day (Los Angeles)

Bang-Clang Day

Wellness Permission League’s Panic Day

World DJ Day

World Trisomy 9 Awareness Day

Zangoose Day (Pokémon)

Food & Drink Celebrations

International Spanish Omelette Day

National Cookie Cutter Day

National Crabmeat Day

National Meatball Day

2nd Thursday in March

International School Meals Day [2nd Thursday]

Nametag Day [Thursday of Name Week]

Popcorn Lovers Day [2nd Thursday]

Railroad Day [2nd Thursday]

World Kidney Day [2nd Thursday]

Feast Days

Archytas (Positivist; Saint)

Catherine of Bologna (Christian; Saint)

Cyril VI of Alexandria, Pope (Coptic Orthodox Church)

Dominic Savio (Christian; Saint)

Erotic Dancing Day (Pastafarian)

Farvardigan (Zoroastrian)

Forty Martyrs of Sebaste (Christian; Martyrs)

Frances of Rome (Christian; Saint)

Gregory of Nyssa (Episcopal Church (United States))

Jackie the Orangutan (Muppetism)

Meatball Day (Pastafarian)

Media Hiems III (Pagan)

Millard Fillmore Day (Church of the SubGenius; Saint)

Pacian (Christian; Saint)

Saitousai (Harvest Festival; Japan)

Socrates (Humanism; Saint)

Strinennia (Festival calling birds and spring to return; Slavic Pagan)

Takaosan Hiwatari Matsuri (Fire Walking Festival; Tokyo, Japan)

Lucky & Unlucky Days

Lucky Day (Philippines) [17 of 71]

Sensho (先勝 Japan) [Good luck in the morning, bad luck in the afternoon.]

Premieres

Can-Can (Film; 1960)

Castle (TV Series; 2009)

East of Eden (Film; 1955)

Fort Apache (Film; 1948)

42nd Street (Film; 1933)

The Hotel New Hampshire (Film; 1984)

Joe Versus the Volcano (Film; 1990)

John Carter (Film; 2012)

The Joshua Tree, by U2 (Album; 1987)

Mike’s Murder (Film; 1984)

Piano Concerto No. 21 in C Major, by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart (Piano Concerto; 1785)

The Ref (Film; 1994)

Salmon Fishing in the Yemen (Film; 2012)

Sheep & Wolves (Animated Film; 2018)

Splash (Film; 1984)

State Fair (Film; 1962)

Sword Art Online the Movie: Ordinal Scale (Anime Film; 2017)

Take Me Out to the Ball Game (Film; 1949)

A Wrinkle in Time (Film; 2018)

Today’s Name Days

Bruno, Franziska (Austria)

Fanika, Franciska, Nedjeljko (Croatia)

Františka (Czech Republic)

Edvin, Heido, Heivo (Estonia)

Auvo, Edvin (Finland)

Françoise (France)

Barbara, Bruno, Dominik, Franziska (Germany)

Aetios, Eliana, Filoktimon, Iliana, Lysimahos, Sarantos, Sevirianos, Smaragda, Smaragdos, Vivianos, Xanthos (Greece)

Fanni, Franciska (Hungary)

Francesca (Italy)

Ausmis, Ervalds, Ēvalds (Latvia)

Dominykas, Pranciška, Visgailė, Žygimantas (Lithuania)

Sindre, Sverre (Norway)

Apollo, Dominik, Franciszka, Katarzyna, Mścisława, Prudencjusz, Taras (Poland)

Františka (Slovakia)

Catalina, Francisca, Paciano (Spain)

Torbjörn, Torleif (Sweden)

Flavia (Ukraine)

Keely, Kelda, Kelley, Kelli, Kellie, Kelly (USA)

Today is Also…

Day of Year: Day 68 of 2023; 297 days remaining in the year

ISO: Day 4 of week 10 of 2023

Celtic Tree Calendar: Nuin (Ash) [Day 19 of 28]

Chinese: Month 2 (Yi-Mao), Day 18 (Bing-Yin)

Chinese Year of the: Rabbit 4721 (until February 10, 2024)

Hebrew: 16 Adar 5783

Islamic: 16 Sha’ban 1444

J Cal: 7 Ver; Sevenday [7 of 30]

Julian: 24 February 2023

Moon: 95%: Waning Gibbous

Positivist: 12 Aristotle (3rd Month) [Archytas]

Runic Half Month: Tyr (Cosmic Pillar) [Day 14 of 15]

Season: Winter (Day 79 of 90)

Zodiac: Pisces (Day 18 of 29)

#Holidays

[chibiranmaruchan]

I've been away for a little while because of my job and I haven't had much time or desire to bake as much as I used to, due to the nature of working in food retail killing my drive to bake and my hands being sore all of the time from constantly handling food, cleaning chemicals and washing my hands constantly. But I've left that job a while back now and I have been baking here and there, such as these lava cakes. Out of boredom I decided to test various lava cake recipes out to compare them to Binging with Babish's recipe, which I made before. I was never a big fan of lava cakes, but after trying Caffe Concerto's, I did like them a bit more. Pictured from left to right is Home Cooking Adventure, Entertaining with Beth and Thecook'nshare's recipes. Personally, I like Home Cooking Adventure's the best and it's the one that reminds me of Caffe Concerto's the most. Entertaining with Beth's is a solid second for a very rich lava cake.

#lava cake #chocolate cake #cake #home cooking adventure #entertaining with beth #thecooknshare #baking #photography

[shiraishi-kanade]

Postponing watching The First Concerto so I can get back at schoolwork after being sick for two weeks but also so I can get myself some popcorn and absolutely binge it altogether and then ramble for 3k words about how Harumichi is Literally Evil no matter what Sega tries to tell me

#jay rambles.txt #when I've first pieced together he was made to play Chopin at age of like 10 and obviously wasn't ready for it nor skilled enough #hoo boy do I have Things to say #^ both as a classical music enjoyer and whose immediate family have some background in classical as well

[medsdegital]

6 Week Plan Ozempic Weight Loss Results

Introduction:

Embarking on the quest for weight loss excellence, the enigmatic 6 Week Plan Ozempic Weight Loss Results as a tantalizing proposition, promising a kaleidoscope of transformative results. As an oracle in the realm of weight management, allow me to guide you through the labyrinthine complexities of this plan, unraveling its mysteries and igniting a spark of motivation to propel you into the abyss of a healthier, more euphoric existence.

Deciphering Ozempic:

Ozempic, scientifically draped in the nomenclature of semaglutide, is a prescription panacea predominantly prescribed for grappling with the complexities of type 2 diabetes. However, its surreptitious dance with weight loss has thrust it into the limelight, casting an ethereal glow on the struggle against surplus pounds. This medication pirouettes on the molecular stage, mimicking the intricate choreography of GLP-1, a naturally occurring hormone orchestrating the symphony of blood sugar regulation and orchestrating a crescendo of fullness.

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The 6-Week Plan Unveiling:

Weeks 1-2: Initiation and Adjustment

Embarking on the Ozempic 6-week odyssey demands a symphony of meticulous measures. The inaugural fortnight unfurls with a prologue of low doses, allowing your corporeal vessel to acclimate to the pharmacological ballet. This epoch, akin to an overture, demands a delicate dance with potential side effects such as the prima donna of nausea. Libations of hydration, the consummation of minuscule, balanced repasts, and an aria of open dialogues with your healthcare virtuoso are imperative during this overture.

Tip: Inaugurate a pas de bourrée of light exercises, such as the brisk waltz of walks or the balletic yoga, to rouse your metabolic concerto.

Weeks 3-4: Dose Optimization

As your corporeal vessel becomes one with the symphony of Ozempic, your healthcare maestro may tweak the dosage, seeking the sublime resonance of maximum efficacy. This is the movement where discerning individuals may notice subtle nuances in their culinary sonnets. The imperative crescendo demands a focus on healthier gastronomic choices, an emphasis on nutrient-dense, whole orchestrations over the cacophony of processed compositions.

Tip: Chronicle your epicurean escapades in a gastronomic journal, a symphonic record of meals, cravings, and the emotional arpeggios associated with consumption. This symphonic self-awareness can be the conductor’s baton for mindful culinary compositions.

Weeks 5-6: Accelerating Progress

By the fifth and sixth movements, the magnum opus of Ozempic on weight loss crescendos into a harmonious symphony. Many virtuosos report a diminuendo of cravings, a reduction in portion sizes, and a fortissimo of satiety. This is the epoch to fortify your commitment to a healthier opus. Engage in a regular regimen of kinetic crescendos, explore new culinary compositions harmonizing with your nutritional opus, and revel in the euphoria of positive metamorphoses.

Tip: Conscript a fellow voyager, a compatriot of kin or kindred, into your symphonic journey for added support and mutual accountability.

The Psychological Sonata:

Weight loss is not a mere physical caper; it’s a psychological sonata. The Ozempic 6-week plan addresses not only the physiological recitative of weight management but also orchestrates a transformative role in reshaping one’s relationship with victuals. The medication’s impact on appetite modulation orchestrates an empowerment, fostering healthier harmonies and emancipating individuals from the throes of emotional or binge operas.

Harmonizing a Balanced Lifestyle:

While Ozempic performs its pharmacological ballet in the weight loss concerto, it’s imperative to perceive it as a movement within the grand symphony of comprehensive lifestyle metamorphosis. The 6-week sonata ought to be a catalyst, a harmonic resonance propelling the adoption of sustainable cadences fostering overall well-being. This entails a perpetual rhythm of kinetic movements, the nocturnal serenade of ample slumber, stress modulation, and a dietary menu embellished with the polyphony of fruits, vegetables, lean proteins, and the allegro of whole grains.

Addressing Enigmatic Concerns and Myths:

In the grand opera of medications, concerns and myths may surface. It’s imperative to untangle the legitimate concerns from the mythological specters. The libretto of concerns often features potential side effects, arias of nausea, diarrhea, or the hypoglycemic overture. While these may pirouette into the narrative, they are ephemeral and can be choreographed with the guidance of healthcare conductors.

Myth: Ozempic is an alchemical potion, requiring no engagement from the acolyte.

Reality: Ozempic, akin to a virtuoso instrument, harmonizes most effectively when synchronized with lifestyle alchemy. Sustainable weight loss demands a commitment to a dietary libretto and the choreography of kinetic movements.

Celebrating Crescendos of Success:

A symphony of success stories resounds, bearing witness to the transformative resonance of the Ozempic 6-week sonata. Individuals ensnared in the opera of obesity and its afflictions have experienced a metamorphosis in both the corporeal and cerebral domains. These sonic success stories reverberate as odes of inspiration for those embarking on their own weight loss journey, illuminating the boundless potential for harmonic transformations.

Conclusion:

In the grand crescendo, the Ozempic 6-week sonata unfolds as a meticulously composed composition, utilizing the medication’s unique ability to orchestrate appetite modulation and invoke sensations of satiety. As a maestro in the realm, I accentuate the importance of regarding Ozempic as a musical instrument within the broader orchestration of lifestyle compositions. Dedication to culinary harmonies, the rhythm of kinetic movements, and the melodic symphony of emotional well-being constitute pivotal movements in a successful weight loss odyssey.

Should the Ozempic 6-week sonata resonate with your aspirations, conduct a harmonious consultation with your healthcare virtuoso to ensure alignment with your health libretto and melodic history. Remember, your symphony is a unique opus, and the key to success lies in the perpetual, long-term embrace of a harmonious lifestyle. With unwavering commitment, the fortissimo of support, and the conductor’s baton wielded by healthcare maestros, the Ozempic 6-week sonata can be a transformative overture towards realizing your weight loss crescendos, heralding the advent of a jubilant, healthier you.

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[redhairandwhiteskin]

Questo 2023 mi ha distrutta, calpestata, sminuzzata.

In questo 2023 ho toccato il fondo, un fondo che non toccavo da almeno 10 anni, e bene si avevo 12/13 anni l'ultima volta che sono stata così in basso.

In questo 2023 son tornata a farmi del male, erano 10 anni che non mi facevo del male, sono tornati i miei demoni.

In questo 2023 son tornata a mangiare, senza la paura di stare male, sono tornata a vivere senza la paura di dover smettere, erano 7 anni che soffrivo.

In questo 2023 ho scoperto che la mia libertà dipende dai farmaci.

In questo 2023 i farmaci mi hanno fatto mettere 20 kg, catapultandomi indietro di 10 anni, ho ricominciato ad odiarmi, ad odiare questo corpo, ad odiare il mio riflesso allo specchio.

Eppure in questo 2023 mi sono anche amata, ho scoperto che questo corpo tutto sommato non é male, certo é imperfetto, ma mi ha portato al mio primo concerto, mi ha portato al mio primo viaggio in solitaria, questo corpo che per 7 anni non funzionava più, é tornato a funzionare, ho imparato a contare sul mio corpo ad avere fiducia del mio corpo, un corpo che mi é sempre venuto meno, gli svenimenti in metro, i collassi in aula, le telefonate piangendo ai miei che non stavo bene. Le nottate passate in bagno mano nella mano di mia madre, piangendo a dirotto con le gambe che tremavano, tremavano per la paura che questo corpo non mi avrebbe mai dato libertà.

Eppure io la libertà l'ho avuta, da quel viaggio a Bologna, dalla clinica, dalla terapia, dal mio dottore, dai farmaci...

Ovviamente tutto ha un prezzo. Ero abbastanza matura per affrontare una terapia farmacologica per il mio problema.

Almeno così credevo.

Ora mi ritrovo in un corpo che non sento mio, un corpo che esteticamente non mi va giu.

Ho avuto la libertà di poter mangiare fuori casa, di poter sorridere mentre addentavo un panino o una fetta di pizza senza paura di stare male, ho capito cosa volesse dire godersi un pasto fino in fondo.

Tuttavia non ero abbastanza forte da potermi controllare.

Non sono riuscita a controllarmi e il binge-eating é tornato all'attacco .

Ogni ansia, ogni gioia, ogni evento, é diventato motivo per abbuffarmi di cibo, senza conseguenze.

Senza conseguenze ho riempito il vuoto enorme che ho dentro, ma la verità é che il vuoto é sempre lì, ho riempito solo il contorno, il buco é ancora lì e sembra sempre più grande, abbuffata dopo abbuffata.

Senza conseguenze... Io pensavo.

E invece no, la conseguenza c'è é solo diversa da prima

Prima il cibo era una punizione rapida, era un modo per autosabotarmi, mi abbiffavo e passavo giornate in bagno o bloccata a letto con tremori e svenimenti.

Ora no, ora tutto tace quando mi abbuffo. Tutto tace tranne la mia immagine riflessa, tutto tace tranne la mia galleria, dove la me di 1-2 anni fa era si triste, ma fisicamente era in forma.

E quindi si in questo 2023 ho capito che davvero tutto tutto ha un prezzo... Soprattutto quando non si é stabili psicologicamente.

Ora mi trovo sul fondo

Non mi va di prepararmi, non mi va di uscire, non mi va di lavorare, non mi va di vivere quella vita che volevo tanto vivere, quella vita per la quale lottavo da 7 fottuti anni. Ora c'è ma non ci sono più io.

Mi guardo e non sono io, mi guardo e mi rifiuto.

Ho tanti buoni propositi, fare la dieta, andare in palestra, rinascere, fare come le tante donne che vedo sui social che in condizioni ben più gravi della mia, cel'hanno fatta.

Ma io ho un disturbo ossessivo compulsivo, una botta di autismo e soffro di ADHD. Non riesco ad essere costante, se non vedo risultati perdo interesse e per ottenere risultati mi annullo. Ergo non sono in grado di avere un equilibrio n'è uno stile di vita perdurabile nel tempo.

Mi sento in gabbia, se continuo a lavorare non posso dedicarmi a me come vorrei, e se smetto di lavorare non avrò i soldi per prendermi cura di me.

Non so come uscire, non so che fare.

Sto studiando per diventare Nutrizionista... Ipocrita da parte mia.

Mi sento come immersa sott'acqua, come nei miei incubi, non riesco a capire in quale direzione c'è il cielo, e continuo a dimenarmi finché non annego.

Credo di aver bisogno di aiuto ma sono troppo testarda ed orgogliosa per ammetterlo.

In questo 2023 ho pianto quasi tutte le notti, da sola, nel mio letto, ho soffocato le urla nei cuscini, ho tirato pugni ai muri.

In questo 2023 sono cambiata, non solo fuori, dentro avevo una luce fortissima quando ero alla disperata ricerca della libertà, della salute, e ora che sembra esserci, la luce si è spenta.

Attribuivo al mio problema di salute, tutte le difficoltà che avevo nella vita, problema risolto, le difficoltà sono ancora lì, questa doccia fredda mi ha preso in pieno.

Pensavo che sarei tornata come prima, solare, felice, senza quella tristezza e quel grigiume che la mia malattia aveva gettato sulla mia vita negli ultimi 7 anni.

E invece no

In questo 2023 ho imparato ad assumermi le mie responsabilità.

Di ogni mio successo

Di ogni mia caduta.

In questo 2023 ho capito che se non mi tiro su da sola, morirò per mano mia.

In questo 2023 ho capito, che io sul fondo non ci voglio più stare, io voglio trovare il cielo, il sole, l'aria.

In questo 2024 ci proverò, ci riuscirò, costi quel che costi. Ho una vita, una vita che tanti non hanno avuto la possibilità di vivere, una vita che non appartiene solo a me, ma alle migliaia di bambini e bambine che in questi giorni vengono massacrati dalle guerre dei grandi, una vita la cui responsabilità è mia. Non voglio vanificarla, voglio trarne il massimo, consapevole dei miei limiti, consapevole delle mie forze, consapevole dei miei problemi.

Ho voglia di ribaltarlo questo 2024, spero che sia la volta buona, spero che tra 365 giorni, qui, ci sia una foto del mio sorriso, e non un altro post dai toni sommessi.

Anastasia, lo devi a te questo 2024, ti meriti di vedere dove ti porta il non rinunciare a te stessa. Per una volta, non smettere di crederci, Anastasia per una volta e per sempre Amati.