#because the seasonal depression is kicking my ass rn and maybe this will help my other S.A.D. babes!

[hyperfreaksating]

Oh simpy ive been feeling down. Can I request some simple headcanons on how the clown would be around someone that has been feeling depressed and tired for a few weeks? Not just „Oh it’s a bad day“ depressed, but „God I am trying my hardest right now and try to stay optimistic but I just can’t get to a point where I feel genuinly fine and not drained and tired and it shows .“ type of depression.

(*also disclaimer: while I’ve been feeling like this I am also not in any truly dangerous mindset dw. Seasonal depression is currently just kicking my ass rn)

hanw so sorry to read this ! I'm not in the best mood either so let's have some comforting buggy as a medicine. (I giggled at being called simpy lmao ! I like it but you can call me Sid if you want)

Buggy find out you're depressed - headcanons

Let's imagine that, in this case, the person not feeling well is one of his crewmates. You're one of his favorite drinking buddies and one of the few person on earth he's proud to call a friend. Maybe there is a flirting touch, maybe not - that's up to you.

He couldn't help but notice you were way less invested in your chores on the Big Top last few weeks. Indeed you seemed to be really really in a bad mood, and he saw you cry sometimes in reclued corners of the ship.

Obviously his first thoughts are that you're mad at him and you hate him.

One day, you're sitting on the desk, looking at the sea, your head on your knees when an anxious and annoyed captain Buggy D. Clown come by your side.

"EH!! Y/N !!! Why are you avoiding me ??? just tell me the truth !!!" he yell, pointing you with an accusative finger.

"Bugs... it's not you it's just..." (you start explaining how depression is hitting you in the gut)

His face collapse and he feels like shit for yelling at you.

He falls on his knees next to you, trying to comforting you.

His hands float in the air around your shoulders because he's not really sure if he can touch you, if this could help or if this just would make things worst...

He would probably be pathetic and useless and saying the worst thing possible but he's trying so hard to make your smile and he's so cute that it's kinda work.

(waving his floating hands in the air next to you with a nervous grin) "Come on come on Y/n my sugarcube you will see better day and why being sad when you could just be happy ???? have you ever try to... not... being..... sad ? ARGH let your sweet old buggy give you a hand to feel better !!" (saying so he pat your shoulder with one of his hands)

He's trying so, so, so hard to be nice and caring but he's really not good at this ! However, seeing him like this make your laugh genuinely for the first time in weeks.

"Uh ? wh... why do you laugh ?" he ask, puzzled face

You smile at him and shake your head "You're so pathetic"

Usually, he would explode in anger hearing this kind of comment but right now he's just happy to see you smile and laugh

While the downpart of his body is still on the knees next to you, his upper part float in the air and he point his chest with his thumb in a theatrical way, his captain coat floating around him.

"Well if this makes you feel better, the great CAPTAIN BUGGY will be the most pathetical clown ever for you !"

You smile warmly at him : "Thanks Bugs, that - surprisingly - helps."

He smile while reattaching his body, and his expression shift to concern suddenly as he hug you really strong to his chest.

"I hate to see you sad, Y/n..." he says, grabbing you like you're the most precious thing on earth.

In the following days he will do everything to make you smile again, including self humiliation. He will try to juggle for you but will fail pathetically, he will litteraly throw Richie to your laps and order him to purr to comfort you, and you will be exempted of all your chores on the ship.

He's kinda emotionally constipated so his affection / love languages are mostly act of services and gifts. (And bad puns. A lot of bad puns.)

He will also make it one of his main quests to check if you ate, showered and drunk water. Will probably throw you water glasses if you didn't, tho.

If anyone else in the crew start teasing you or being mean with you while you're not going well, they can say hello to a chop-chopped fist right in their nose.

#buggy simp #buggy the clown #captain buggy #buggy one piece #op buggy #buggy #buggy x you #request

[pettyprocrastination]

I feel like I have to go to college to get a good job, buy I know that if I do ill have a ton of debt, so I enlisted in the military (🤢) because they'll pay my tuition. Problem sort of solved. But I have no idea what I want to do so I feel like I'm wasting time. Also seasonal depression is kicking my ass rn, I'm sad and I want to stay in bed all day. I'm also behind in one of my classes but the only way to catch up is to write two ten page papers by next Friday. And next week is finals week. Also my family is taking a trip next week and they're mad that I might not be able to go, but I can't control when my finals are.

In summary, cosmic forces, please turn me into a rock <3

ah im sorry love. I know school can definitely be rough. While I can't give advice on joining the military for school (and what advice I do give please take with a grain of salt cause im no expert on anything I'm a twenty year old college dumbass) I will say there are a metric ass ton of scholarships available for anything and everything under the sun that you can apply for! I'm lucky enough to be attending a college a twenty minute drive from my home so I can pay my tuition while not worrying about rent, but depending on where you wish to go im not sure if that's a possibility for you.

That being said, college isn't a necessity for all careers. While it does open doors, as does internships, trade schools, and just networking/reaching out to the right people. You don't need a college degree to live a good life, but for some its a section of their journey in life that helps them greatly. That being said, its okay to not know what youre doing, most of us don't. My professor told me when he went into college he planned on being a high school history teacher and to coach wrestling, and now he's a college literature professor! Nobody has their life figured out before they finish college. And a lot of us don't even have it figured out afterwards. It's okay babes.

That being said, try to figure out what career options/subjects you enjoy most! Not anything concrete, but just potential jobs/majors that interest you most and see what they can.

I think those papers are completely possible for you to do! If they are double spaced MLA format, then you just have to do a bit each day and before you know it you'll have them done! If youre struggling to figure out what you're writing on, reach out to a friend who enjoys the subject and brainstorm thesis ideas off of them. But I think ten pages by next Friday is completely doable, just take it step by step.

As for vacation, its hard, but not your fault. You aren't in control of when you have your exams, especially if they are something that you must be in person to do. If they are online exams and you have internet connection and a laptop, maybe you could do it over the vacation, but I don't know what your education set up is so you know more about the options of that than I am. Either way, its not something they will hold against you, you don't control when your finals are.

All in all, take a deep breathe, you can do this.

If anybody else has some advice on college/college funding/majors and career choices or some good resources for anon pls drop them below!!

#ask #asks #rock anon #also i sincerely hope that you being in school but not being in college means you aren't a highschooler/a minor #because then im afraid you will be getting blocked srry love #once more- my advice is just my personal opinion so take it as a grain of salt #ive bounced thesis ideas off of mutuals countless amount of times!! reach out to a friend or mutual and brainstorm to them

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4/18/17 6:36am - changes

God DAYUM it’s fucking gorgeous outside right now. I could get ussssed to this.

So obviously I didn’t find time to catch up while I was at Dar’s this weekend. Ended up grinding another like 15 hours of BOTW and got a fuckton of sleep and ate a quart of ice cream. it was spectacular.

General update - Dieting had a relapse this weekend for easter, but I hit another benchmark when I weighed in on Friday. 139.8! Finallllly cracked that mark. Gained back up to 144.8 this weekend but that’s just food weight. I’m fucking pumped! Only gotta get down to like 135 and then I can gain back up to where I am now and it’ll be fucking perfect. I look beautiful. My hair lightened up a little at the beach, too, pretty gorgeous lol. Smoking a lot these past two weeks though. Gotta take better care of my teeth to make up for all the candy too. 

So I guess I’ll start with work. Tony dropped a bomb on me two weeks ago that they were moving forward with the Burlington location and that I would be moving there, possibly permanently. Much to my chagrin if I want to drive to work from home I now have an hour long commute, and no pay raise, AND my work days are switching to Thursday, Friday, Saturday. It blows. Went into a little mini depression that my social life was ending, had to cancel a bunch of weekend plans coming up, and fretting about all the gas money I’m gonna be spending and shit. It sucks. I’m at least trying to get compensated for my gas, hopefully for my commute to work, too. That would be fucking sweet. And working alone will be p cool too, hopefully the office will be isolated enough from the patients that I can get a cube setup in there and grind out some solo practice.

But tbh I’ve been kinda taking it easy from melee the past three weeks. This thursday I didn’t even go to the tournament because I slept through it lmao. The week before was sweet though, played dubz with Slip and pocketed $25 for winning the tournament. Money in the bank, pimpin ain’t easy. Then Saturday I played a little mini tourney at Chi’s and me and Jimmy tied for first in a teams round robin. Got kinda bodied in singles though, Had a decently close set with Chi that I flubbed. But really I’ve been focusing on BOTW it’s no skin off my back. Kinda happy to have the break for my hands.

Anyway so I’m fretting about this job change when Ashleigh hits me up out of nowhere. She had been catching up on my blog (shouts out) and wanted to hang out. So friday we went on like a friend date kinda deal, I met her new guy, we got these delicious tacos, played some Magic, and hit up Boxcar. Wish the gun for House of the Dead 2 hadn’t been broken, would’ve loved to kick the shit out of that game again. And then like a deus ex machina, we’re chatting about work and shit, I mention this job change, and she says that I’m welcome to crash on her pullout couch any time I have work. Fucking amazing, at least the commute will only be 30 mins instead of 60. And I’ll get to hang out in gboro more, too. Excited for a change in scenery.

This date I had for that night (herpes girl) flaked, which was perfect because I forgot it was board game night, and I stayed up late hanging out w/ Broscious and Jonny and Irene and Joe. Pretty excellent. Wish broscious had gotten high with me but so it goes lmaooo. one day.

So I went on a date with the herpes girl saturday after the chi tournament instead. (probably played worse since I was trying to dip to see her too lmaoo) Probably shouldn’t keep calling her herpes girl but it really doesn’t matter. She was supppper nice, and we got along kinda well, but we had like Noooothing in common. Outdoorsy type vs me. I was getting this weird vibe from her fairy sleeve tattoo, like it was some kind of message. Looked just like something Darlin would have in her house, but reminded me of my mom lol. Idk so she was nice and all, and her body was rockin, but she had this butterface of an old lady I swear it was so weird lol. We smoked and watched some rick and morty and played some botw but she couldn’t do anything with a controller to save her life. Said she liked the show a ton and wanted ot keep binging it, but it kept bothering me that she was like laughing at the wrong times and shit. Like she didn’t get the jokes or something but knew it was humorous hahaha. So we like made out a little that night and I got to second base and nothing more like we had agreed, and it’s probably all for the best tbh.

Anyway it made me realize that I’m done dating for a bit. I’m sick of trying to meet people and catch them up with my nerdy shit. I don’t want to binge rick and morty again, I want to jump into shouting in jokes at each other lol. I don’t have the patience for it anymore. So I’m just taking a break. Especially while I have the chance to get my finances straight (they’re doing excellent) and I don’t have free time on the weekends anymore now anyway. Rip.

Then last sunday I got to chill out with Dan, was pretty great. 

Worked an extra shift Friday to help Jaime and then headed out to Dar and Pa’s. They made me a ton of food, they took me out to sushi, I got to lounge around til monday, it was wonderful. 

So now I’m almost done with BOTW finally. Almost all the armor is upgraded, I’ve got all the shrines, done enough of the side quests to be satisfied enough I think. Might try to do a few more horse things but yeah I’m like getting ready to finish this weekend. In perfect to train up for my last thursday maylay. On 4/20 no less, it’s gonna be sweet. Gonna team with either Ian or Jimmy, too, I’m pumped. 

Jimmy and I talk like all the time about BOTW and dating and shit. I’ve been feeling a little lonely lately, thinking bullshit like I’ve been kinda lacking a best friend, and moping that I really lost that hard when Christina and Manu had to start doing baby stuff, Oliver moved back to Charlotte, and Kailey exited stage left. I guess Jimmy is probably my best friend right now? Maybe just the gang as a collective, but I don’t really Talk to them about stuff with them I just spend the most time with them.  But what hanging out with Ashleigh did was alleviate all of that. I feel great, my friends care a fuckton about me and I care a fuckton about them. She said she wanted to do good on promising to buy me drinks and make me feel pretty and goddamn did she ever lol. Nice that things weren’t awkward at all now that we’re just friends, really excited to spend more time with her.

Ok whew I feel like I just shotgunned all my thoughts hopefully I got everything. Working in burlington should be weird, dunno when I’ll update next but you’ll hear from me when ya hear from me.

Oh and I talked to Tessa on Easter w/ dar on facetime. She’s doing this crazy ass coconut diet, hasn’t eaten real food in like a month. Made me feel like a fucking baby that whenever I smoked the past week and a half I started feeling horrified like I was starving to death. I’d start feeling my wrist and be like “OMG IS IT SUPPOSED to BE THIS BONY??” and just get in my head until I went out and ate something lmao.

But I feel really content rn. Super satisfied even though things are taking a not-too-sharp right turn. Super satisfied with myself even though I’m not chasing tail. Reeeally excited to finally finish my game and start training to kick some ass at melee again. Gotta get some more combo vid material before the season’s over, I’ve got some dubz shit that’s gonna go in that’s pretty fucking fire. 

Anyway, peace. Gonna enjoy this second weekend with a snap and some BOTW.