#because honestly i was already on thin fucking ice being the nerd(TM)

[wisemushroomeyes]

Ugh... I just saw that my former school-nemesis is on „princess Charming“ and I think I have a sexuality crisis rn even though I‘m usually really grounded with that :(

#so story time #this girl went for 8 years to the same school as I #we had a few classes together but that’s not important #in like... seventh grade she had a relationship with the boy i had a crush on and I didn’t really like her because of that #but heck we were like 12 yo it wasn’t that important to me #but slowly... i got more and mor aware if my position as the ‚smartass nerd kid‘ #and dhe was also clever but she became one if THOSE populat kids ya know #EVEREYONE loved her #or st least it felt like it #and i didn‘t like such kids... for obvious reasons... she was (actually) the #cheerleader‘ #and THEN #when we were 16 or so #she came out as bi and i got even ...angrier? at her #i know she struggled.... #bit with 16 it didn‘t look like it #cause she was sll popular snd dtuff and overall people just kinda sccepted it... #and i never told anyone in school when i realized i was bi #because honestly i was already on thin fucking ice being the nerd(TM) #and NOW I don‘t like to admit it but obviously I was just SO jealous #and I kinda liked her and she‘s so PRETTY gosh #and know eith her being on this TV show and all... i feel like i should not again hide and like... date a girl already #but I‘m in love with a man #which is fine #he‘s awesome (though not sure if he feels the same) #but i feel a bit jealous all over again #and wanna be bisexual and #you know #SHOW it