#bc media does Fake Fantasy Drugs using like

[swashbucklery]

Oh noooooo Netflix Shadow and Bone is a lot of things but qualified to tackle jurda parem absolutely not

#this is turning into a hard tv squick for me #bc media does Fake Fantasy Drugs using like #american pop sci twelve step under standing of How Drugs Work #which is and i cannot stress this enough not how drugs work #like was it absolutely balls to the wall absurd #when they grossed me tf out with a slow mo sequence of every single extra in that chapel vomiting blood #and alina having a Dark Smile (tm) to the sound of the ominous fantasy trombones #of course #do i want these baby actors to tackle anything approaching this #so very much no #i was so relieved when they skipped the ice court and just sprinkled the crows in however they pleased #like yes we'll just blast on through to fjerda and chew through king of scars and NEVER DISCUSS IT #i was also hoping they'd skip the weird darkling tree thing #but alas #like i know the point here is that i am not the target audience for this show #but i wish i was #so they would make it in a way that pleased me #shadow and bone feelings #shadow and bone spoilers

[sahirmohan]

.･:*:･ﾟ’ twenty four year old cismale sahir mohan was made in brooklyn and attended st. jude’s. he still resides in new york, and is currently a model / aspiring musician. they are warm, moody eyes, vintage leather, smoky, whiskey-tinted kisses tattoos done in trashed hotel rooms, a tab of acid on a capable tongue. onlookers say they resemble zayn malik. ( g, 22, she/her, pst ) 

hiii so the truth is i am a greedy fuck?? shout out 2 becca for recruiting me into this group and giving me a whole new place to be one? so this fool is a brand new muse of mine and not that well fleshed out yet but i think that’s okAY bc it leaves a lot of room for development :’) tbh i just wanted all of the opportunities to plot with u fine folks so i decided i needed *dj khalid voice* anotha one

ight so his parents came over to the US from the UK (tower hamlets, one of the poorest parts of london) when sahir was still pretty young like ten or eleven, and it was kind of a weird adjustment to him but like? not really? especially since they moved to brooklyn and the overall environment wasn’t much different from the one he’d grown up in before that yikes

they opened their own pizzeria because they thought it would be a successful business venture and they’d be able to make a living for themselves in the city that way, but the truth is they struggled to do much apart from barely scrape by paying all of the bills and hardly breaking even each year

his upbringing and watching his parents hardships like that really fucked sahir up, and he found himself growing more determined to make something of himself that would allow him to give them both a comfortable lifestyle with each passing year

at freshly eighteen right after graduating from st. judge’s he started getting help from different benefactors (wealthy men ok) , they were paying for all of his rent, utilities etc and he was saving as much as he possibly could. by the end of that year he was able to start helping his parents out with their debts and that made him feel a lot better but! he couldn’t keep doing the sugar baby thing okay my boy felt weird about it

luckily one of his benefactors was kind and pretty influential in the high fashion world, and because of him sahir was able to have a rather late ~discovery~ and be swept up into it himself, becoming a highly sought-after and extremely popular model in just a couple years time

there’s just one problem,,, as grateful as sahir is for everything his career has brought him, namely the ability to get his parents entirely out of financial dire straits and give them something much more along the lines of the life he’s always wanted them to have, he fucking hates modeling rip

to him it was exciting at first, being fully considered one of manhattan’s elite despite where he came from, getting to attend all these lavish parties and big events, having all this attention, but he quickly realized that modeling isn’t something he’s ever going to have a real passion for

*big fat cliche voice* his real ~passion~ is in music, namely singing and writing his own original songs, so now he’s trying to work out a plan to use the social media following and regular attention that being associated with a lot of big brands and designers has earned him, in order to launch a career in music (his vc is zayn obv) 

he’s really not trying to get Help from anyone but lord knows my boy probably isn’t going to be able to make it where he wants to be if he doesn’t :( 

doesn’t like too rely too heavily on anyone, especially given his past of actually being fully financially dependent on others and feeling that power imbalance; apart from enjoying getting fucked up, he always likes to feel in control

bisexual &, unrelatedly, an abominable thot

a moody artistic little shit

my boy loves getting tattoos + tattooing, doesn’t have his license to do it but hit him up to give yc them anyway ok

TW: SUBSTANCE USE very much lives his life in the vein of ‘i’m here for a good time, not for a long time’, especially once he was introduced to a life of luxury and no longer having to constantly worry about money- does too many drugs, smokes too many cigarettes, drinks too much booze, fucks too many people

TW DEATH: he has this (ridiculous) fantasy that he’s going to be part of the 27 club someone stop his fake deep ass like my guy not only are you already 24 but are u really tryna die?

this is pretty much all I have for now but I’ll likely add to this as time goes on, or at least the version of it I’ll keep on his page here. you can also find his almost completely blank connections page here! can’t wait to plot w/ u guys :’) 

#xointro #this is such a flop especially compared to liv's but like it's easier to read so i feel like I'll be forgiven #gonna go workout for an hour or two and then i'll be around to late night lurk and FINALLY get to all my IMs here and on discord #ily pals #like this or hmu to plot