#bc idk if my core is in the right place for some exercises bc my hypermobility and i get like

[svankmajerbaby]

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!! thank u so much for the ask. i love talking about writing......

✨ What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit)

-hmm theres a point in which i have to tell myself not to worry about likes or comments bc what really matters is me getting the practise and exercising my writing muscles and having fun with it... But. i do wish i could get more ppl into my toy story fic. its got a whole bunch of wonderful comments and kudos and stuff, i just feel so proud of it and writing it came so easy and i poured so much of my love into it, i really really wish anyone who loves these characters would read it too.

🎀 give yourself a compliment about your own writing

-english is not my first language so grammar isnt often The Best, but i take a lot of care with using words and expressions as correctly as possible, and I try to always spell words right (i dont think ive ever confused loose and lose, for example, which ive seen confused a few times). some descriptions of spaces are particularly well done, at least to my own criteria, and the song choices are fun (or at least fun to write and picture in my head).

🎈 describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

- honestly, ive no idea. i think i get verbose, and i write long dialogue scenes. i overuse the — to lead into another thought, because thats kind of like how my mind works. i try to be "cinematic" in my writing and always start a scene with a description of a place, its lighting and its sounds, like im used to when writing scripts. and i got the sense that usually the characters often ramble and go on long discussions about stuff that maybe normal people wouldnt just start out discussing so strongly. but honestly id much rather someone else outside my own perspective told me what my writing is like, i would trust them more than my own opinion.

💞 what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

-the characters!! everything is important, and stuff like grammar often jumps out first for me... but i need to enjoy how the characters are written, and feel like theyre real people with genuine motivations and interactions. i dont mind too much if theyre not super alike to canon, as long as they feel true to the core of their personality and values.

💝 what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

-i was surprised to even get comments on my barbie frankenstein one. i loved writing it and it came through so easily and comfortably, but even though i had used that moderately popular meme of reimagining barbie as a gothic protagonist as inspiration i didnt really think it would be anything but something i liked to picture existing. i was so happy to see people enjoyed it too.

🕯️(there are two questions with this candle emoji symbol? i chose the first one, idk why theres two) was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn't think it would take you?

-the tiff fic :'^) ive always liked writing sorta dark stuff, ever since i was little, but this was on another level. sometimes i felt (and still do) feel a bit awkward bc i really do push myself to write stuff i feel a bit embarrassed or shocked by, but i do think that if i want to be a better writer it does me good to make an effort to depict stuff that makes me uncomfortable and seek to write it in a sense of finding a way to both make if effective and relatively tasteful (or at the very least in-character).

🎙️which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?

- i have never heard about pod-fic before, but i guess i can imagine what it is (wonder if its like an audiobook, or if it has sound effects and the like??). i would love to listen to an audiobook of the barbie frankenstein fic mostly bc i would love so so much to hear the dramatic literary dialogue ive written in kelly sheridans barbie voice. also now that i think about it i have no idea what the creature would even sound like... that would be an interesting challenge.

🤲 what do YOU get out of writing?

-practise writing in english, a sense of accomplishment (when i get to finish something!!) and every once in a while some strong validation in the form of ppl liking what i write... all of it is super valuable to me, especially practise and the push and drive to finish stuff to upload, but the validation in particular just really hits that dopamine in my brain i guess

💌 share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

-its from the glen and glenda fic im halfway planning! i got a few dialogues written and some scenes sketched out, but its still a long way to go. im very excited about it tho! ive grown to really love the versions of the twins ive made in my head. hopefully theyre faithful to their screen depictions while also adding a bit more depth and character building ive wanted to take them through.

#. 🦴 #i just noticed a writing mistake in that screencap of my glen n glenda fic fbfnnfjfhdhd #i didnt mention it but im also super proud of my mothers day fic. its the only one i made thats short and to the point #while still being effective like. emotionally. and i like the dialogue i did for it #idk man i love writing so much and even with how much im struggling with writing now #i still get such a rush of being able to make such things by stringing words together

[nordic-language-love]

Hello ma belle! Don’t answer if you don’t want to/have time but since you’re a dancer and (I assume) know a thing or two about flexibility and stretching, I was wondering if you have any advice on upper body strength/stretching for people who are super NOT flexible (like me!!). As a student (especially now since everything is online) I spend a lot of time in front of the computer and my shoulders and back often hurt at the end of the day, and I want to be a little kinder to my body. Thank you <3

Hi! I’m so sorry this took a while (I had a lot I wanted to include but I wasn’t sure how much I should include and then I wanted to get some videos too). Honestly I love talking about flexibility and training and stretching so never apologise for that!

Anyway, here's a little "spine reset" routine I like to do when I've been sat at my desk too long (I do it every 45 mins or so, but you can do it more or less). I kinda rush through it here but I recommend holding each position for at least 15 seconds. Honestly though if something feels good then you can spend as long as 90 seconds in it (after that your muscles kinda switch off and you can start to push too deep into a stretch and hurt yourself).

Written instructions below + another video and written instructions (this gets hecka long so it’s going under a cut)

WRITTEN GUIDE TO EACH STRETCH:

1. Clasp your hands together in a prayer position, then kneel with your elbows on your desk. If it hurts your elbows, pop a cushion or a jumper underneath them. Push your chest to the floor. Neck stays neutral.

BONUS FOR ADDED DELICIOUSNESS (to build some strength in your upper back muscles/really target problem areas): Keep pushing your chest to the floor as you tuck your tailbone under. The goal is not to round your whole back, just shift the stretch more deeply into your upper back. If you do this right, you will feel your upper back muscles working!

2. Place both hands on your desk (or a windowsill/bookshelf/wall if your desk is too low - you can also do this kneeling or with bent legs). Push your chest towards the floor, then move side to side. For a deeper stretch, do one arm at a time, using your other arm to pull your lats towards the floor. Neck stays neutral.

TIP: DO NOT JUST JAM INTO YOUR SHOULDER JOINT, YOUR SHOULDERS ARE FRAGILE AND WILL NOT APPRECIATE YOU JUST RAMMING THEM TOWARDS THE FLOOR. Make sure you shrug your shoulders up by your ears (as if you were pushing your desk away) to help keep them protected and actively think about lifting your chest (like there's a sexy person opposite you and you're trying to show them your boobies).

3. Stand up, take your arms out to the side, stick your bum out and lift your chest to the ceiling (yogis often say "heart to heaven" or something; I usually shout "TITS TO JESUS" at my students). I like to move around a bit in this position as twisting your spine a little is good for opening everything out. I usually do this a couple of times. Head back in this one.

4. Clasp your hands together behind your back, bend forwards and take your hands over your head. I tuck my chin to chest in the video but it’s better to keep your neck neutral. Come back up and arch back like in the previous stretch.

5. Lift one arm, bend it behind your head and use the other arm to pull. For extra stretch, lean over to the side and try to touch your hip to your elbow. Keep your chin off your chest and your abs engaged, otherwise your lower back will once again do all the work when you want to be targeting your shoulders/lats. Make sure you do both sides!

6. Place your elbow and palm on your desk, hand in line with your elbow and elbow in line with your shoulder. From there, push your chest down. If you don't feel it (I never do but idk if that's bc my shoulders are hypermobile), twist away from the shoulder your stretching (I use the chair to help push me further into it). Make sure you do both sides! Neck neutral or looking away from the side your stretching.

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Now for some floor stretches/strengthening exercises. I normally only do one set of any of these because I do them as part of my warm-up plus ADHD means I frankly do not have the attention span to do more than one set of anything, but you can do multiple sets (3 sets is usually good). You don’t have to do them every day but they’re good to add into your workout or to do as a mini-workout on their own (make sure you warm up though!)

QUICK LITTLE THING ABOUT BACK STRETCHES: when doing any back stretches, make sure you think about stretching your whole spine. Your spine naturally likes to bend in 1-2 places (for most people it's the bottom part, other people it's just below the shoulder blades) so really try to think about lengthening your spine and then trying to curl each vertebra individually (this is really hard to actually do, but thinking about it that way helps! Closing your eyes so you can focus on the feeling helps too). 

1. Body waves/spine mobiliser - Moving through child's pose, cow and cobra in both directions. When you lift up into your cobra, try to use your hands as a little as possible (this is really tough to start with but I promise you your back will get stronger!). Take it as slowly or quickly as you like. 2-5 in each direction

2. Back crunches - KEEP YOUR BUTT ENGAGED THE WHOLE TIME, like really think about pushing your hips into the floor. If this is really difficult you and put your feet under a sofa or pop ankle weights on so you can use your hamstrings to help. Again, try to think about curling up and using your whole back rather than just crunching from one part of your spine. Neck stays neutral. 8-12 reps

3. Cobra lifts - These are a little tricky, but they're amazing for building strength in your back. Clasp your hands together, SQUEEZE YOUR BUTT REALLY HARD, then slide your hands down your legs, squeezing your shoulder blades together to lift you up. You may find you don't get anywhere with this at first, but if you persevere your back will get a lot stronger! Neck neutral (I take mine slightly back in the video bc we do that in contortion training). 3-5 reps, hold at the top on your last rep for 5-10 seconds.

4. Supermans - I fucking hate these with a passion but they are good for your spine. Start on your front, then lift your arms and legs (and chest if you can) off the floor. If these are difficult, start by doing just your arms, then just your legs. If this hurts your hip bones, put a jumper/towel/mat underneath. Neck neutral (again I take mine back bc contortion training has me used to doing that). 8-12 reps.

5. Cobra stretch - always start at the top of your spine!! I see so my people just put their hands by their shoulders and push straight up and you miss out on SO MUCH upper back mobility by doing that! Start by curling your neck, then working down your spine one vertebra at a time. Think about pushing your chest forward, then curling round. As you walk your hands back, turn your fingers out to the side to help open your chest out. Again, you can think "heart to heaven" if that helps. Remember to breathe! Breathing is super important.

6. Cat stretch/puppy pose - kneeling down, arms forward and chest to the floor if you can (you can bring your chest more forwards if you find this difficult). Keeping your chest glued to the floor (or as low as you can get it), tilt your hips back and forward. Again, this is to help target your mid/upper back a bit more (if you do it right you'll feel your mid/upper back working trying to keep your chest down!)

ANOTHER LITTLE THING ABOUT BACK STRETCHES: Make sure you strengthen your core too! If you do the above workout, I recommend also doing some planks, dishes or crunches of some sort afterwards to reengage your abs/core muscles and keep your spine protected. You should also round out your spine the other way to reset it (happy baby pose and child’s pose are my faves for this).

I hope that helps! Good luck with all your studying and I hope your back feels a little better <3

#pls enjoy my massive amount of hair lol #not languages #studying #stretching #ask #answered

[cl-oelia]

9/6

I almost actually cried today lmfao. I didn't tell her about the bottle because I freaked out; I'll write it down and give it to her next time. I apologize, as our conversation got really jumbled so it's not all in a perfect order. We started talking about day-to-day stuff. Talked about how fun Nashville was, and then about how I freaked because my sister's friend made a big ass deal out of my sister being bossy to me, so I got fired up and was almost crying because I Ruin Everything yada yada but everything else was fine. I gave her the journal and it was harder than I thought it would be. We talked a lot about how everything is so intertwined and she admitted she's getting a little confused about the significance of some parts, so she suggested next time that we literally map out my thought process and how it relates to the csa/rape and how they created my distortions and how it all applies to every relationship in my life. I'm cool with it; honestly, I kind of knew and felt bad, but I never thought about mapping it out. we talked about how I'm in a better place than I was last semester, but being functional actually stresses me out and literally makes me suicidal because I want to do so well that the thought of failure makes me look to suicide as a way out because I Ruin Everything And I'm A Burden So What's The Point In Trying She said "it makes sense that the beliefs are so related to everything bc they developed when you were just a little thing" and I got really embarrassed??? Like I genuinely cannot accept the fact that I was helpless. I had written about how slow things are in terms of healing/finding blame somewher outside myself/not criticizing myself for every little thing which is frustrating; also how i don't see a future for myself bc I'll end up killing my self anyways. And it's black & white how I see my success. And it's easier for me to just accept that everything is my fault than to wonder bc at least it proves I'm right in my core beliefs about myself. She brought up this self-compassion exercise that she wanted to go over, but not actually do yet, because im so resistant to being nice to myself lmao. She's afraid at this point that me doing it would just make everything worse. I don't know what it is, but I got really emotional because idk like, in my writing I pretty much indirectly asked for more help, and she understood and was offering to me, and actually cared enough to evaluate whether it was the right time??? Like I never thought she didn't care but it was just really nice to be reminded I do have someone helping me.

#p #therapy #suicidal ideation #suicide tw