#ayftb

[albatris]

whenever I’m feeling disheartened and need a reminder that Writing Is Fun, I like to go and reread The Phoenix Building Chronicles because when I wrote The Phoenix Building Chronicles I was just following the most ridiculous whims and hell if it’s not the funniest shit I’ve ever written in my life

like look @ this. look at my narration. I just don’t care

also fourth wall breakage highlights

like there’s also this one conversation between Shara, Tris and Marrick that spans like two pages where they’re discussing the logistics of “glass half-full/glass half-empty” with regard to the time paradox they’re all trapped in (re that first quote)

and honest to god it’s my favourite slab of dialogue I’ve ever written ever because it’s just. so unbelievably unnecessary and elaborate i love it so much

my favourite part is when shara’s like “take this seriously!!” as if the discussion wasn’t literally about whether or not the glass is full of bees

anyway it’s under the cut (soz people on mobile), pls enjoy

“So we were just looking at this the wrong way,” Shara concluded. “We were all panicked because the world is in a constant state of non-existence, but it’s also in a constant state of existence. It’s ended, which sucks, but it also hasn’t ended, which doesn’t suck. It’s a glass half-full, glass half-empty thing. Yeah?”

“I suppose it is.” Marrick nodded slowly. “But there’s really no difference. Half-full and half-empty are literally the same thing.”

“No! If you gave me a glass and poured it half-full of water, I would totally appreciate that,” Tris argued. “But if I had a glass that was completely full of water and you just came up and drank half of it, I would not appreciate that. It’s perspective. It’s circumstance. It’s not just a glass in a single point in time. What’s the glass’s story, Marrick?”

“The glass could be a single point in time,” Shara said, “if that glass is at the centre of a collapsing multiverse, trapped in a paradoxical state of simultaneous existence and non-existence.”

“Exactly! So we’re back where we started,” Marrick said. “The glass doesn’t have a story. The glass just is. And we have to decide whether it’s half-full or half-empty.”

“Yeah, but hold up,” Shara said. “What is the glass half-full or half-empty with? Because the analogy only works if it’s something pleasant. If it’s half-full or half-empty with poison, or bees, then it doesn’t particularly matter how full or empty it is. It’s going to suck if you drink it either way.”

“The saying clearly implies water,” Marrick said. 

“Then the saying also assumes the person with the glass actually wants a drink of water,” Tris said. “What if they don’t? What they’re being forced to drink water they don’t want to drink? Then a half-empty glass becomes positive, and a half-full glass becomes negative. Perspective,” he added again, for emphasis. “Circumstance.”

“Yeah, that’s a good point,” Shara said. “Are you even meant to drink the glass? Because if you’re not going to drink it, then why is its contents such a big deal? No one just sits there staring at a half-full or half-empty glass admiring it.”

“What if it’s a really nice antique glass?” Marrick asked. “Everybody likes antiques.”

Tris frowned. “I don’t think that’s true.”

“Take this seriously!” Shara snapped. “What are we meant to be doing with the glass? Why do we even have a glass?”

“Well, according to this metaphor,” Tris said, “we’re living in the glass. Which is great if you can swim but shitty if you can’t.”

“Well, you can’t swim in bees,” Shara said. “What if the glass is actually full of bees? We never established what the glass is full of.”

“Half-full,” Tris corrected.

“Or half-empty,” Marrick said. 

“Is this world,” Shara said slowly, “half-full or half-empty of water or bees? Do we want the glass at all? What if we prefer plastic? Does the glass exist in an infinite time paradox or does it have a story? Is it regarded by the majority of the population as a negative or a positive? What if one person wants a glass and the next doesn’t? What is happening?”

There was a silence.

“I’m pretty sure if the glass was half-full of bees they would just fly away,” Tris said. “I’m not sure why this is even a question we're pondering.”

#''you can't swim in bees'' - shara isha 2k17 #but anyway like yeah tho #it was so fun #100% recommend #just throw ur characters into an apartment building together it'll be fine #also i wrote this quite a while before i started actually putting all my stories into a multiverse so it's just. endlessly hilarious to me #in this story the events of actual serious ayftb are entirely canon and happen in a different universe #but the events of this story were not intended to be canon in any way #but if it *was* #it could be argued #that the phoenix building chronicles were what actually set in motion to collapse of the original ayftb universe #so like #the apocalypse started here folks #this is where it all began #i want to write serious stories with this level of tomfoolery like fuck i loved this so much #when i get the balance of ''this is a serious story about serious things'' and ''narrates like a madman and gives no fucks'' i will #be happy with life #that's my goal #ayftb #logan rambles about things #phoenix building chronicles #atdao

[lmartinezwrites]

6, 7, 8, 14, 15 and 23 for the writing asks! 🌼

6 : What would be the biggest compliment you could hope to receive on your current WIP?

All I can ever hope is that someone out there will one day read any one of my current/future novels and have it be their favourite, or have it help them in some way. Have them dream about going into one of my worlds, or meeting my OC’s and have that have helped them through something. 

7: Answered!

8 : What author would you be most excited to be compared to?

Leigh Bardugo because if I can ever write anything even remotely as good as Six of Crows I will internally combust. 

14 : Do you have a favorite writing-related quote?

No, but I have a few I can share :) 

“There are three rules for writing a novel. Unfortunately, no one knows what they are.” - W. Somerset Maugham

“The first draft of anything is shit.” E.H

“There is something delicious about writing the first words of a story. You never quite know where they'll take you.” Beatrix Potter

15 : If you transport your original characters into another author’s world, which world would you choose?

I mean I’d love for my OC’s to meet the ayftb gang omg but I think Jack’s a little tired of his own world jumping to enter the giant interdimesional craziness of ayftb (although Lyra would so be up for it.) 

But, are there any fantasy worlds that are nice and calm??? Like??? Nope. 

23 : Are you proud or anxious to show off your writing?

Both!Thank you so much for the questions!!

[albatris]

hear me out. here’s some thoughts

ayftb would make a cool backdrop for a story about a character with legit magical powers. like you’ve got these splits in reality (Ports) that make Weird Junk Happen, which I talked about/vaguely explained in that super rambling post from a while ago… uh….

because people as Ports though, that’s a thing, because ports have approximately zero chill and crop up wherever they feel like it. So imagine if your arm or something turned into a Port out of nowhere and suddenly u can hear colours and reshape matter, or whatever other kind of ridiculousness that particular Port bestowed upon you. you could have cool powers or utterly useless ones. probably a bit of both. probably a lot of it would be inadvertent

you would have to deal with the stress of being like “well shit this is kinda neat but could go horribly wrong at any second” because ports are weird and unstable, you’d be worried about what effects it might have on you or the people around you, any kinds of unpredictable junk could happen, your perceptions of reality would be all kinds of funky, and also there’s Phoenix who just. aggressively do not want you to exist. but screw that, ur gonna go fight crime. it’s whatever

like in the story you do get this a little with certain side characters (you may already know some of those characters?? I may have mentioned it or I may not have?? it’s Spoilers), one in particular who at first is like “shit” but by the end of the story is doing all sorts of neat stuff

it’d be cool to do a story like that. I bet there are reality-bending Port vigilantes around in the ayftb world. for sure. like I can assure you that Kai would be a reality-bending Port vigilante if the situation called. it doesn’t call, but like. if it did

idk. the whole thing has story potential. possibly. maybe. hm

#it'd be.......... stressful #can u imagine #maybe i could write it #everything takes place in the same multiverse so it'd not be too wild #if two unrelated stories took place in the same universe at the same time #also. i'll get round to the logistics of ayftb’s name change eventually rip #when i changed it from ayftb to i have to tell you something i never started using ihttys i just remained in denial #ayftb #atdao #it's a weird concept #ports aren't ports in the sense u can use them as portals that'd be weird #u can use them to *make* portals #i.... i explained this i think #in the other post

[albatris]

some noas

i love her so much

#art adventures with logan #noa is........... the best #i'm so proud of her #also she's relatively easy to draw so. good for de-stress art #even if they're just sketches lmao #did i mention that i love her #because i love her #so much #atdao

[albatris]

the tiniest lucas lucas

#i still don't know what colours #-\_(ツ)_/- #so i did him w the funky weird colours i did the first time i drew him #he's mad because he got swallowed by a hellportal #u would be mad too #listen i think he's blond but w/e #hellportal lucas can do whatever he wants #also friendly reminder that i do commissions #(and that i'm broke and bored and largely unproductive in the grand scheme of society) #if u want me to draw u something with actual good quality and pretty quickly then u can..... do that... they're cheap..... #art adventures with logan #atdao

[albatris]

avery is my favourite OC because he’s probably powerful enough to destroy the entire multiverse but instead he’s just like “ok but how do I use these powers for the aesthetic”

#honestly cannot pretend I wouldn't do the exact same thing in his position #also ''avery is my favourite oc'' means nothing i've got like twelve favourites #and i mean in terms of multiverse destruction he has the tragic backstory for it and everything #isolated betrayed scapegoated left for dead #he's chill tho #i feel like instead of avery's tragic backstory making him vengeful and hellbent on destruction #it just made him very exasperated and very dramatic #if he ran into marrick again he'd be like ''look what u've done to me this is all ur fault'' #''I've got a javelin sticking out of me marrick'' #''i look like a goat'' #''a goat marrick'' #although every single part of that is a conscious decision #avery is that passive aggressive ex #art adventures with logan #ayftb #also guess who is finally back in the swing of things #it's me #hello #i've been artblocked #because i've spent all my time on commissions #now hopefully i can knock some stuff off my ''to draw'' list #p sure some people have been waiting like a year for gifts i promised #*sweats nervously* #alternate caption was #''on a scale of luke to avery how well do you deal with being thrown into a hellportal''

[albatris]

????????

@zenith-headmaster @lmartinezwrites u guys called

#juno i'm gonna draw p-diddy i'm keen b) #u may have been kidding but i'm sure not #i take all suggestions seriously #what a cool cat #also @lorena i'm thinking you meant noa juuuust maybe #anyway here's whatever this is #what i do with my spare time #i'm gonna do the rest of the suggestions for sure but my tablet is playing up and i gotta wait for a new cord to come in the mail #ayftb #art adventures with logan

[albatris]

Here are a few for your wonderful OC's - 11, 15, 21, 37, and 41! And some Noa specific if you feel up to it ;) 2, 3, 16, 23, and 34 :) Oops there's loads.

!! Thank you friendo, much appreciated! Sorry I took a while to get to them, and also that I got super rambly because I like to answer for everyone and I genuinely don’t know when to stop :’))

11. what is one strange hobby/talent they have?

ummmmmm

okay alright strange talents here we go and idk if these really count

so Shara is that person with, like, magic technology hands, like your wi-fi isn’t working, she comes along and is like “have u tried this” and of course you have, you’ve tried everything six times over, but it will work for her, without fail, and you’ll look like an idiot

Kai is full of incredibly fascinating but absolutely useless survival tips, like, survival tips for perhaps every single kind of apocalyptic situation except the one that actually happened

Noa is the queen of Car Tetris, basically when you’re trying to fit a lot of suitcases and junk into the boot of your car but you’ve run out of room and everything’s overflowing and you’re crying bc you’ve got like three cases left to fit, give Noa thirty seconds and she’ll have everything packed super neatly with room to spare

Tris is not particularly good with numbers but is terrifyingly good at remembering those horrible wi-fi passwords that are just random numbers and letters?? like when people first go to his house and ask for the password they kind of just stand there mildly horrified when he just recites 30+ numbers right off the bat, usually entirely deadpan. He can also do it with other people’s phone numbers lmao

15. which OC did not sign up for this?

…all of them, every single one of them.

If I had to pick, probably Tris? I mean, the others kind of threw themselves into it at least somewhat willingly to begin with, Noa was all “heck yeah power to the people fight the system!!” and Kai was all “yay adventure and mystery!” and Shara was all “yay conspiracy theories!”

Tris was kind of just like “wait no stop”

I mean, it gets to the point where all of them are like “wait no stop” but god Tris just wanted his front door back the poor kid

21. any mental illnesses?

of the main characters, Tris has schizoaffective disorder depressive type, Noa has BPD, Shara has depression and severe social anxiety, and Kai is just kind of. anxious 24/7 about most things but is under the impression that that’s entirely normal ;-;

37. looks like they could kill you but is actually a cinnamon roll, looks like a cinnamon roll but could actually kill you, looks like a cinnamon roll and is actually a cinnamon roll, looks like they could kill you and could actually kill you, or sinnamon roll

lmao okay this is something that I have actually put a fair amount of thought into re AYFTB kids. and of course no one looks like they could kill anyone when I draw them because of my art style ahaha anyway

looks like they could kill you but is actually a cinnamon roll = Tris (he never gets enough sleep and his blood is like 90% caffeine so he always looks dead inside god bless))

looks like a cinnamon roll but could actually kill you = Kai (a massive harmless loser generally speaking, but is more observant than they let on and is always vaguely aware of the ways in which they could psychologically destroy you. probably won’t, would prefer not to, but could)

looks like a cinnamon roll and is actually a cinnamon roll = Shara (world’s biggest sweetheart in every sense of the word)

looks like they could kill you and could actually kill you = Noa (although to be fair, in that instance you probably had it coming)

sinnamon roll = Avery (chaotic neutral at best, declared himself god of an unreality for funsies, whispers meaningless cryptic shit to people on public transport just to screw with them)

I feel like I have to mention, on the subject of Tris and Noa, in like 90% of situations they put a great deal of effort into looking like they could kill people, it is an incredibly practiced art form/survival skill that is pretty much the only reason they make it through school because kids are horrible and mean lmao

41. cat or dog person?

I feel like AYFTB exists in a universe that is essentially our reality, except everyone is a cat person unless otherwise stated ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

most notable cat people are Tris and Avery, Shara is probably more of a dog person, and Kai is a both person who happens to be allergic to fur so probably more of a lizard person, or that person with a tarantula named Archibald or something idk. If I had to pick between cat or dog for Noa, I’d say cat, but in all honestly I can only picture her and Alice living together with several ferrets

aND OF COURSE I’m up for Noa specific questions all the time always

2. describe their personality in three words

passionate, adventurous, driven

3. how tall are they?

5′3!

16. who’s their favourite person?

I mean it’s probably Tris bc they’re BFFs and for ages and ages they didn’t really have anyone except each other, they’re super close and p much both ride or die at this point lmao

23. what are their flaws?

uhhhhh well she’s generally pretty closed-off and mistrustful of people especially when she first meets them, so she tends to shut people out even when she doesn’t want to because she struggles with letting herself be vulnerable. She’s a textbook perfectionist and holds herself to a ridiculously high standard, so she frequently pushes herself too hard and burns out, is like “wow I’m never doing that again”, and goes on to do it again like two days later. She can be super blunt without meaning to and sometimes lets her sarcasm go too far. She’s got terrible self-confidence and doesn’t really believe anyone would make the choice to be around her even though she’s literally such a delightful person I could go on and on

also, she’s got the worst sleeping patterns in the entire world

34. how old are they?

17 and a half

#anonymous #oh god this got so long i'm sorry #whoops #longer than probably was necessary #ayftb

[albatris]

aw man I keep seeing people making these cool aesthetics for their characters and I want to join

here’s avery aka king Unbelievably Extra

#everyone who ends up going into this ridiculous hellportal has arguably the worst time of their entire lives #except avery who just kind of goes. hm. yep. ok i live here now #declares himself god #has a grand time #lives the introvert dream #just hanging out in an unreality by himself doing sick backflips because gravity isn’t real unless he says it is #marrick's like ''what the fuck happened to avery'' #avery's fine #ayftb #atdao

[albatris]

you guys are in full support of the delirious 3 am decision that was Lucas Lucas apparently so I guess that’s an official thing now

#overwhelming support for lucas lucas #nice #the only reason i refer to him as luke is so i don't have to deal with apostrophes #also he's the only character that refers to tris as tristan #probably so he doesn't have to deal with apostrophes #did i ever post that rant about apostrophes or did i imagine that #ayftb #logan rambles about things #thank you for your messages last night

[albatris]

this is like half an unedited scene with no proper beginning or end but I mean. you can read it if you want. excerpts yay. it’s some Tris and Kai shenanigans 

I’m v tired and have very little impulse control, there is no way Awake Logan would upload this, it’s obviously not my best anything but fuck I had fun with it so whatever.

there’s a readmore here but let’s face it tumblr mobile will just do whatever it wants

Once inside, Kai examined the ceiling fan by standing on a chair and poking it with a fork. Tris wasn’t sure whether Kai had gotten the fork from his kitchen somehow or whether Kai was just the type of person who carried forks with them just in case. Kai seemed like the type of person who would carry all manner of oddly specific objects with them just in case. Tris could respect that.

The ceiling fan was emitting a high-pitched staticky shriek somewhat akin to a dying radio turned to the fifth layer of hell, and it jumped sharply in octave when Kai tapped the fork against it. Kai tapped the fork against it several more times, for good measure.

“Yep,” they said. “That’s a Port.”

“How can you tell?” Tris asked, feeling remarkably short standing next to Kai standing on a chair.

“It’s a ceiling fan, and it sounds like a dying radio tuned to the fifth layer of hell,” Kai said. “Do you use this much?”

“Not much in winter,” Tris said. “Not at all since it started screaming. It’s a little off-putting.”

“I hear you, I hear you,“ Kai said. “So you wouldn’t be opposed to me removing this ceiling fan from your ceiling? Making it just a fan?”

“Um,” Tris said. “Sure.”

“Great.” Kai beamed. “Now, are you opposed to me bringing a saw into your house? Because I do have a saw. Which would help me remove your ceiling fan from your ceiling. But I can understand why you might not want me to bring a saw into your house, and I can do this without a saw, if you have some scissors and a hairdryer around.”

“Some scissors and a…” Tris squinted. “Look, I don’t mind if you use a saw, just be careful with it, okay? Don’t wave it around too much. And stay away from me.” God, that made him sound like an asshole. What an asshole thing to say. “Stay away from me with the saw. You yourself are fine, but… the saw.” A nice save.

“You don’t even have to be in the room,” Kai said, jumping down from the chair and heading for the window. They paused on their way out. “Unless you’d prefer to keep an eye on me, in which case I will definitely not wave any saws around or point them at you in any capacity.”

“Thanks,” Tris said. “Appreciate it.”

“I’ll be back in a sec,” Kai said, and disappeared.

Kai was back roughly forty-five minutes later, climbing through Tris’s bedroom window with a saw.

“Sorry, man,” they said, dropping down from the windowsill into the room. “Van was not where I parked it. That happens sometimes. You know what old cars are like.”

Tris did not.

Kai propped the saw against the side of the chair and climbed back up. The ceiling fan screamed in unholy anticipation.

“This should only take a minute or so and your house should stay firmly in this plane of reality, but don’t quote me on that,” Kai said, looking up at the ceiling-fan-turned-Port. “And then you can hold the saw if you want, if that would make you feel safer. I mean, I’d let you do the actual sawing, but apparently that’s an oc health and safety hazard.” There was a pause. “You’re quiet. What are you thinking?”

Tris was sitting down against the wall with his legs crossed. “I’m thinking that this entire escapade seems like an oc health and safety hazard. Why don’t you have any backup? Where’s all your equipment? Does anyone even know you’re here?”

Kai peered around the ceiling fan from several angles, then picked up the saw and went at it. “Ah. Well, you see, Phoenix has certain rules when it comes to dealing with and disposing of Ports, and let’s just say… this is breaking about twelve of them.”

Tris would have been alarmed, but he’d already hit his alarm quota for that day and resigned himself to feeling vaguely exasperated instead. “Twelve rules. Starting with the fact that you’re not even a real Gatekeeper?”

Kai gritted their teeth. “Who told you that? Did Noa tell you that?” they asked. “That traitor. I’m a real Gatekeeper, more or less.”

There was a firework crack of sound and a shower of sparks as Tris’s ceiling fan crashed to the floor, breaking into several pieces. Wires twisted and popped and a shrill ringing threatened to split the room in two. Tris and Kai stared blankly at the mangled Port for a few long moments.

“Probably less?” Tris said.

Kai nodded. “Definitely less.”

Real Gatekeeper or not, Tris couldn’t argue on the fact that Kai did get things done, and with frightful efficiency too–albeit rather dubious safety precautions. He’d take saws and frauds and jagged holes in his ceiling over Phoenix’s awkward sidesteps and it’s all in your head mantras any day.

“Here, I promised you could hold the saw,” Kai said, and they climbed down. They put the saw back against the chair and gathered the remains of Tris’s ceiling fan into their arms. “So you bring that with you, and I’m going to take this and put it on a table so we can poke at it and cut it up and see what happens. Sound good?”

“I… it’s important to me that you know I do live in this house,” Tris said. “You can’t break reality here. I have to live here. I don’t want any more doors disappearing. I need those. Kai–”

But Kai was already halfway out the room. Tris grimaced at the saw and hovered over it for a good thirty seconds, mildly concerned it would somehow decapitate him just by being in his general vicinity. Then the concern for what Kai might already be up to in the other room won out, and he picked up the saw as carefully as he could. He did not feel safer.

“You look like a legit apocalyptic action hero holding that,” Kai mused as Tris joined them in the living room. “The Hello Kitty socks really complete the look, I reckon.”

Tris the legit apocalyptic action hero suddenly felt rather less uncomfortable about holding a saw.

They sat on opposite sides of the table, the Port sprawled between them, sparking and flickering and looking about as menacing as should be expected from a Port. The scream was less of a scream now and more of a pitchy gurgle. Kai cracked their knuckles, and appeared to be enjoying this somewhat.

“Please don’t destroy my house,” Tris said.

“I have never destroyed anything in my life,” Kai replied simply. “There are some safety goggles in my backpack there, by the way. You might want to put those on.”

Tris had seen Ports before, of course–it wasn’t as if you could exist in this day and age without seeing them, especially in a city like Oric. He’d never seen one up this close though, and he’d certainly never engaged in the deconstruction of one. Don’t deconstruct Ports was one of the first things you learned in school, right alongside don’t touch Ports and stay as far away from Ports as humanly possible. But curiously enough, instead of anxiety all he was feeling now was fascination, and a ridiculous desire to be cool. There didn’t seem to be anything all that dangerous happening. Kai seemed to know what they were doing.

“I’ve never done this before, so bear with me,” Kai said. “I don’t know exactly what we’re doing or what we’re looking for, but we’ll definitely know when we see it. Do you want to just smash it open with the saw or should we pry it like responsible adults?”

“Yes,” Tris replied, distracted.

#readmore #tumblr mobile shruggery #that's not a word #asdjfhdjkghejfernfc #ahsidhferhfiweuhfiuqherfiqef #ayftb #logan rambles about things #i like sleep deprived logan #they write things with no perfectionist filter #that ceiling fan is relevant to the plot in some truly magnificent ways #bless #it's described in the first chapter as sounding like a whistling kettle crossed with a stressed coyote #being whacked into a wall #i don't know about the scissors and the hairdryer though i just made that up lmao #some macgyver shit #idfk #it's an oc health and safety hazard to let some kid saw off a ceiling fan but not an oc health and safety hazard #to let him smash it up #good work. seems safe

[albatris]

camp nano day 4

4567 / 30000

here have some excerpts

my personal favourite from the day

In terms of the End Of All Things, certain cities had been hit worse than others. That was to say, certain cities were so barely affected they refused to believe an apocalypse was taking place at all and not just some horribly belated April Fools hoax, and others had been swallowed in their entirety by a giant flaming hellportal (and subsequent unreality). Santaburg was the former, Henwin, the latter. Oric sat somewhere neatly in the middle - while it was unlikely, there was always the slight possibility your hands would morph into fish while you were sleeping.

and this

There was a silence. It would have been an incredibly deep, serious silence, too, had they not both been hanging upside down off the back of a rainbow Avengers-print sofa.

and the biggest bullshit line I have ever written in my entire existence as a writer

Lucas Harbridge considered himself a responsible person.

I actually got a fair bit done today, which I wasn’t expecting. There have been too many hours in the day though, I think there have been some extra ones, I genuinely don’t know where the time came from

I reckon I’m just gonna bounce from coffee shop to coffee shop for the whole of this month, I’m not going have One Specific Writing Place like I usually do. I’ll be elusive, unpredictable, mysterious

shoutout to “If This Ship Sinks” by Birds of Tokyo for being today’s ultra-melodramatic angsty Tris anthem, calm down u edgelord for christ’s sake it’s not that bad

#camp nano #ayftb #it's 11:51pm so the day's not technically over #anarchy #logan rambles about things

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camp nano day 2

2065 / 30,000 words get pumped

in today’s AYFTB adventures:

Francis says some insensitive shit and everyone is vaguely uncomfortable

Tris’s ceiling fan goes rogue

Deaux is mentioned by name and if you listen very very closely you can hear the jaws theme starting up in the distance

“his front door was a wall the same way most walls were walls, in the sense that they were not doors”

what the fuck is going on

I’m still getting the feel for things and struggling to meet my goals but I’m gonna make it damn it

Shara and Kai still haven’t made an appearance which makes me sad but that’s probably happening tomorrow which makes me less sad

also I had some #thoughts about Kai’s backstory so I’ll explain those, once I’ve explained the plot, which I am totally definitely absolutely getting to at some stage, because I can’t talk about much without explaining the plot because……….. the plot is the reason things happen the way they happen and without it nothing makes sense………

shoutout to “The Nothing” by Freelance Whales for being today’s plot-relevant jam, for blessing me with the lyric “the atmosphere will shake and shout, it’s cracking overhead”, and for blessing me with the rest of its lyrics which I won’t pretend for a second I even remotely understand

#tris and becca are about to spend 8+ chapters climbing in and out of windows #i haven't decided whether i'm bringing their door back yet #they could use their back door or their laundry door but that's so much effort and it takes longer #they're all the way over the other side of the house and it would involve climbing over the back fence #camp nano #eyyyy #at least I'm keeping up #ayftb #logan rambles about things

[albatris]

current draft of ayftb is titled “the interdimensional adventures of tristan james brycen’s deconstructed ceiling fan”

#tris's deconstructed ceiling fan is my favourite recurring character #i can't decide whether it counts as an antagonist or not #it doesn't exactly have a consciousness but it sure has an ominous agenda #-\_(ツ)_/- #listen #i do enjoy posting shit like this with no context #it's one of my favourite things to do #ayftb #camp nano

[albatris]

throwback to the prettiest picture of Shara I ever drew in my life ever like damn why did I never actually upload this

#this is queued because.......... i'm sick and i don't want to be around but also i'm starved for attention #every time i'm not around i'm suddenly like......... ''but wait'' #''who will i yell to about my drawings'' #fuck u brain #think ur so cool.... think ur the boss of me #anyway shara isha patron saint of floral dresses and wildly implausible conspiracy theories #i did upload a tiny version of this once in some context but it wasn't finished and she was in different clothes #i love her??? #best protagonist #she honestly put up with so much lmao she's 90% the reason everyone survives the story #without her they'd all be screwed #i spent so long on that floral pattern that i used it for like a year whenever i needed flowers #art adventures with logan #ayftb

[albatris]

Shooting star, psyche, and hobby!! (For the oc ask meme) 🌼

Thanks for the questions!! I’m answering for various AYFTB kids at random, and heck this got really lengthy because I have no filter :’)

shooting star: if your OC(s) could have one wish what would it be?

For Kai it would probably just be for their friends and family to be safe and happy. Or to hug several thousand kittens. Could go either way.

Tris would wish for the sweet embrace of death god knows what, it would probably change on a daily basis, he’s ridiculously indecisive and would want to get every single person’s approval before he made the final call like wishes are a big thing ok

Noa would wish that she didn’t have to work so hard just to be taken seriously, the energy that she puts into making her voice heard when her coworkers and superiors go out of their way to ignore it is energy that she wants to be putting towards so many other things 

Shara would wish to find her place in life and have a clear direction of where she wants to go, or a way of telling for sure whether she is on the right path

psyche: what’s their head space like? do they have any mental illnesses? how do they process difficult or emotional situations? what are their coping mechanisms?

Tris comes across as super relaxed and go-with-the-flow but he’s p much screaming internally at all times, he likes to have everything planned out to the last detail and will cry when things go even slightly awry. He’s got schizoaffective disorder depressive type, with auditory hallucinations and paranoid delusions, and he generally deals with his problems by blatantly pretending they do not exist lmao. He either just amps up the positivity tenfold like “everything is fine!!! :D :D” or he just entirely isolates himself from everyone and everything. The responsibilities can’t find you if you straight-up stop existing amiright

Likewise, Noa is also p much screaming internally at all times. Apparently it’s a theme I have. Anyway Noa has BPD although she doesn’t have the name for it (also I know I poke a lot of fun at her so I do feel obligated to say that 90% of that fun-poking is literally just me poking fun at myself in roundabout ways rip). She has a lot of pent-up anxious energy and usually just goes on super intense exercise sprees to get rid of it all, and she basically just pours herself into work and study to distract herself/burn herself out

hobby: what do they love? what captivates them? what are their passions?

man okay so Noa is super into music can spend hours crafting specific playlists, and she’s a major gym junkie. She can also sleep for twelve hours straight so honestly I think I can count sleeping as one of her hobbies, and definitely one of her passions.

Shara loves fantasy novels and would definitely, definitely run a book blog, and she loves exploring and discovering new places. She’s just… ridiculously into conspiracy theories as well, she doesn’t really believe them that much but thinks they’re fascinating

Tris is not much into video games because he doesn’t have the concentration for it, but has an ongoing competition with Noa and his sister Becca where they play mario kart while lying upside down so…. I guess that’s a thing. He also can be found drawing, loitering in coffee shops, and enthusiastically befriending other people’s pets

Kai is into travel and crafts. That’s basically all anyone knows. Kai is a ridiculous enigma. Their life is one massive roadtrip and they have a particular knack for making knitted tea cozies.

#alittleyellowdinosaur #someone else asked me psyche so i'll be answering for shara and kai in that one! otherwise this one would've gotten too long ^^; #i promise i am getting to the other asks #there were rather a lot of questions so they're taking me a while aaahh #probably tomorrow after my shift maybe #ask #ayftb