#as if it was my fault for being upset at the seriously dehumanizing shit she just said inches from my face

[starszinhis3y3s]

I'm so dead 🤦🏽 this older white lady im associates with (im friends wit her daughter, theyre a packaged deal unfortunately) told me last night the most racist conspiracy theory ever!!!!

okay, so basically this woman thinks that housecats were artificially created by Ancient Egyptians (cuz they were all aliens dont u know? they brought this technology from their homeworld!). she legitimately thinks that Egyptians created housecats by combining SNAKES and LIONS. she acted like i was stupid for not knowing this, when shes basing all these lies on that cats are the "only mammals" that have slitted pupils 😐 like....wtf. please hop off the fucken youtube conspiracy theory train girl.

ik she'll never see this but like heres some actually correct knowledge for ya hannah!!!!

the following mammals ALL have slitted pupils:

goats, sheep, deers, most snakes, all cats smaller than a bobcat, etc. pretty much a shittonne of herbivores, reptiles, insects, and predators that hunt close to the ground! literally hundreds of animals, the only distinction between herbivore and carnivore/omnivore slit pupils is horizontal (helps prey animals live) versus vertical (helps predators move in darkness)

WE HAVE CATS CUZ HUMANS DOMESTICATE EVERYTHING WE GET OUR HANDS ON 😭🫡

Egyptians were COLORED FOLK NOT ALIENS WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. they were all just people, like we are!! they just happened to live a long time ago. now i will say, the Egyptian Empire was so long lived, and not documented super duper well (time is a bastard lol she'll have us all) that we will never 100% know what happened and/or what all technologies they had. that being said, it was period appropriate technology 😭 please get off the fucken misinformation trail.

hey bitch guess what?! being a transbian dont excuse/erase your rampant bumpkin ass midwestern ass racism. "theres no racism in Kansas! racism is like soooo different in kansas, it barely exists! oh i black family and friends who all tell/encourage me to say the n word so its okay!" BITCH IM FROM TEJAS ILL FUCK U UP IF KEEP ON WIT THAT SHIT IN MY FACE THEN ACT LIKE *IM* THE FUCKED UP FOR BEIN UPSET😒

#ion even know that much about ancient egypt. i jus know enough not be a colossal fucking bigot about shit #no but fr i canNOT spend time with this woman alone 💀 the last time i did she said the hard r in front of me #then got upset and defended her “right” to say it when i was whoa wtf u cannot be sayin shit like that!!!! #shes done the same racist bs so often 😮‍💨 (defending “her right” to be racist) that im seriously starting to consider dropping my friend #poor girl tho /: her mom keeps driving away her friends &now they live together so...idk it would be so shit to S but i legit cannot stand #her mother. like fr this woman gets so mad at me for saying “hey thats racist stop” when im an entire multi-ethnic brown person #last time i was over she said some anti asian shit and im sittin there like😐ik you know im part malaysian that makes me uncomfortable&her #ass went “when it comes to my kids im allowed to say/do whatever tf i want” #as if it was my fault for being upset at the seriously dehumanizing shit she just said inches from my face #this the bitch that gets pissed when i was hesitant to try Mexican food she ordered (it was nastly btw)cuz i legit cannot find decent ethnic #food where i live now (when it dont come from a 🫳🏽 kitchen)

[ashintheairlikesnow]

"i'm not sure"

CW: Dehumanization, accidental whumping, med/lab whump, mentions of finger whump, kinda

BAHRAM’S NOTES

October 13th, 20XX 11:15 pm Mer in Residence: 10 Days I’ll have to go back and fix this later, to read how Dr. L wants everything and take all my emotions and stuff out of it, but honestly right now I just need to tell somebody and I CAN’T tell anybody, so here goes. 

I’m not sure, but I think I just seriously fucked up trying to build a rapport with the mer. Which, you know, is what happens when you hire someone whose field of study mostly involves bloody reptiles, but I needed a paycheck and told her I could keep a damn secret so this is really my own fault.

At least the pay is really good. I wonder where she’s getting the money to pay for the facility and everything? It can’t be coming from any scientific institution, no one would touch this with a thirty-foot pole, this is breaking like seven laws. But Dr. L seems so certain she’ll be able to publish it without repercussions. 

Probably better not to ask.

I’m doing nights right now, and we did the first blood draw earlier which did NOT go well, and I’m already in it with Dr. L for not noticing he’d got his ropes loose until she came back. At least his muzzle is locked where he can’t get it off himself, but he tried. He tried and tried. 

It was hard to watch. Miah was there for part of it, she just put the camera down and walked away. She’s pissed, and her dad told her to stop being involved if she’s so mad about Dr. L’s methods, but she keeps coming back, anyway.

I want to switch with her and have HER do overnights, but her dad thinks it’s “too dangerous” since Miah wouldn’t hear if someone broke in. I don’t think he knows his own daughter that well if he really means that.

Anyway. I need to figure out some way to deal with the nights, because I am going to lose my mind from the crying.

It cries all bloody night, and I mean ALL. BLOODY. NIGHT. It’s not like I can’t nap during the day, but I figured night watch would be nice and easy. Lay on the couch and doze, right? No. You can’t sleep listening to him cry and cry and cry. It doesn’t SOUND like crying, of course. It SOUNDS like these sort of whistles and screech noises drilling into your damn eardrum. Right through my earplugs, I could even hear it through these headphones I got. 

The headphones were cheap, though, so maybe I just need to invest in the really good ones.

The poor thing is calmer when the overhead lights are on. I can’t figure it out, except I think it’s scared of the lights in the tank that turn on when the overheads are off. I’m going to have to ask Dr. L about that.

So last night it was doing its fucking thing again. Crying and crying.

I kept talking to it, but it hid from me in the cave and wouldn’t come out. Which, I don’t blame it, we stuck a bloody big needle in its arm and I can tell it’s never seen one before. Plus, to catch it you pretty much have to get it starving and then bait it with fish, and nothing on earth is in a BETTER mood after getting a catch-pole round their neck.

So, you know. I was listening to it because I can’t do anything ELSE except muck around on the Playstation that I technically don’t have here, and it was crying, and I realized the sounds it was making were the same as the one we used to lure it to the boat the first night we got it. The exact same.

So I went and got my computer and got the speakers set up and I figured, you know, maybe it’s like a mer lullaby. Dr. L says they have kind of a rudimentary culture. Honestly I don’t know much about mer at all, although I guess i’m learning what I DON’T know now...

I set the mersong to play, and it started up, and I’m thinking the mer will just sing along, right? Sing itself to sleep. Something.

Well THAT was the worst idea I’ve ever had.

The mer LOST IT.

Like, slamming itself against the tank’s walls, screaming, screeching, trying to claw through them. Just absolute bloody lunacy. It broke some of its claws trying o bash through the wall and now there’s blood in the tank again. Which the filtration system will take of, but still. I’m going to have to explain THAT to Dr. L.

And Miah.

Honestly I’m more scared of telling Miah. 

I turned the noises off figuring that would stop it, but it only got WORSE. It felt like an HOUR went by with it just throwing itself from one side of the tank to the other bashing itself on the walls, climbing up the rock and trying to jump to the platform to get out, just. Pure fucking madness. Absolutely out of its mind.

I keep thinking of an animal in a trap, because that’s all this is, but also I keep thinking like I’m the fucking bad guy here. I did something to upset it, playing the noises. Maybe I just reminded it that we stole it? Maybe it wants to climb out and fucking kill me. 

This is a bloody horror movie and I’m the dumbshit at the beginning who gets his throat torn out, aren’t I?

I’ll rewrite this later for filing, and it’ll be like four paragraphs long at most, but. 

Shit, I feel like the fucking bad guy here. 

It gave up on its fit, finally. It’s back in the cave, and of bloody fucking course...

It’s crying again.

I KNOW Dr. L says they don’t ‘cry’, and that’s an emotional word I should keep out of all the official documentation, but... this is definitely a crying sound.

It worse now, somehow.

Maybe just because I’m the one who made it happen.

So, fucking note to self - don’t play the stupid mersong recording again. 

Second note to self - find a way to ask Dr. L exactly why it went mental about it.

Third note to self - DO NOT TELL MIAH ABOUT THIS. 

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