#as I'm sure you are all well aware

[gottagobuycheese]

Quick Life Update

Hello hello, my fellow internet urchins! I know activity here’s always extremely sporadic, and that’s not gonna change in the near or moderately distant future (unless I suddenly acquire incredible time management skills but...ha), BUT I figured since I’ve got an impromptu day off it might be worth sticking an interim update here in case I go months without a peep, so here’s what’s been happening lately:

Moved countries and continents again!

Started a new job for better or for worse lol

Found and am currently wading between at least three new(-ish) obsessions (which will hopefully surface here at some point instead of staying on the backburner indefinitely) 

Forgot how to draw :(

RE-LEARNED HOW TO DRAW

Smooched death on the cheek twice in completely unrelated events of varying degrees of stupidity*

(...Okay that’s a much smaller list than I expected, it feels like it’s been a year but I guess it’s only been a bit under two months XD)

Anyhow, expect some long overdue reblogs coming this way as well as some artwork, old and new! It will probably be irrelevant to pretty much all of y’all who are still here but if you’ve been here a while I trust you know this is part and parcel of this blog skjdhfsk

#*the first incident was objectively the more stupid and avoidable one and I'm still smad about it #but less of a ‘smooch death on the cheek’ than a ‘standing at the crosswalk and the hooded figure with the scythe across the street— #‘— winks at you just as a bus passes then disappears’ #I'M SORRY VAN YOU DESERVED A BETTER END THAN THAT #the second one I'm PRETTY sure was not my fault #but the river gods demanded a sacrifice and my brand new glasses took up the mantle in my stead #thanks a lot river gods >:/ #I only had them for two days and now the case is all alone... #but the river guide said I got Extra Cool Points for not freaking out and giving them a thumbs up while the rapids were spinning me around #so I'll take that as a win #I'm glad I wasn't the one watching though it would've been so stressful from the other side haha #anyways all that to say that if I ever learn how to WRITE again I'm definitely using that sensation it was super interesting #Cheese's personal molasses #anyways the new obsessions are sxf and orv #and also pokemon but that's more of a long-term one that comes and goes #anyways #as I'm sure you are all well aware #general current global events are Extremely Present and Stressful at All Times #so in the interest of not becoming puddle of anxiety and existential dread some of that won't be here for the next while #because while I'd like to keep up with current events both offline AND online I would also like to actually Show Up for my job #and at the moment that is taking up more mental bandwidth than expected #so for the time being this will primarily be an escape #with the odd bit of Relevant Life Stuff here and there #ANYWAYS THAT'S THAT HOPE YOU'VE ALL BEEN WELL OR WILL BE WELL #AND I'M GLAD YOU'RE STILL ALIVE

[localguy2]

Suddenly got the craziest fucking idea I've thought of yet:

Zane was originally going to be made to help the elemental alliance in the serpentine wars, per the alliance requesting Julien for something so technologically advanced it'll end the war.

and so Julien started working on Zane during the conflict, and with the elemental alliance providing him with the necessary recourses to create Zane. (metal, wires, screws, schematics and blueprints and other small supplies, a suspiciously powerful and most definitely magical power source, etc).

But the war ends, and the serpentine are sealed away.

So now Julien is left with a half finished robot that wouldn't even have a purpose if it were to be alive, but Julien decides he's going to give it a new purpose.

"If it's not going to be a weapon of war, than it's going to be a weapon of peace."

So he stars reprogramming Zane, from "Mostly human machine designed to fight." to "Almost human machine made to protect those who cannot protect themselves".

He starts adding in extra features for Zane, stuff like breathing, blinking, eating, so he comes off as more human.

he codes in what would be the nindroid equivalent of someone developing a new hobby and getting good at it.

Such as cooking, or perhaps making ice sculptures or even learning how to ride a snowboard considering how he lives in a frozen forest (last one was from Quest For the Lost Powers book).

But he also adds in other stuff to help Zane out in his purpose of protecting, such as a battle ram mode to bust down doors, a lamp head mode to help light out dark areas, being able to shoot out cold air from his hands to cool stuff down without the usage of ice powers (last one was from the start of season 3).

And eventually, he gets so attached to this project of his, that he starts viewing it as more than a machine made to prolong the peace, and by the time he actives Zane for the first time ever, he can't feel but view Zane as a son.

Zane was Julien's life work, "Machine" doesn't do the nindroid enough justice, it doesn't feel right, and it isn't right.

So, even his plans of making Zane a weapon of peace change, and now he views Zane as a son, and as his own person.

Look, I don't care if this headcanon/idea breaks Canon, fuck if I care, but the opportunity is too great, it would would give us an answer to a good number of questions.

one of them being: What was Zane's old power source?

#ninjago #zane julien #dr julien #Currently losing my mind over this idea #And I hope you are to #I'd be a really good to characterise Julien #A natural human way #The bond between a creator and creation is strong #And it couldn't have been better with Zane and Julien #Yes I am aware of the memory switch thing #And Echo as well #And yeah I'm willing to admit that those are pretty bad things #The first one is definitely a balme on Julien #But the second? I'm not even sure because it sorta goes against everything we knew Julien for #Like *why* would he leave Echo all alone? #It doesn't make a lot of sense when considering his character #That's just my opinion tho #Dunno about yall #Anyone gonna go back to brain rotting in the corner #Edit: also thought of something else #This hc answers how Julien got the materials for Zane in the first place #It makes total sense how he creates Zane with all these features if he had almost an endless supply of material

[bluejaybytes]

Every day I live in gratefulness that the Splatoon wiki rules and has literally everything you could posssibly need easily accessible. Need 15,000 references for this one single pair of shoes? They've got you. Also here's a list of every time they've been seen in promotional material and background characters in official art. Kissing Inkipedia on the mouth

#splatoon #thank you well managed wikis... WARRIOR CATS WIKI DNI #please. warrior cats wiki. go independent. im aware it needs more than just getting off of fandom to be good. but thats one of the biggest #literally the splatoon wiki has only failed me like. twice. which is that 1. they seemingly? DONT? have all tableturf cards uploaded #(They have the CHARACTER IMAGES from Tableturf cards- which is great- but I want the FULL cards #and 2. They don't have the exact numbers for gear ability exp I'm pretty sure. I might be wrong on this one though #anyways best reference ever i love being an insane nitpick when it comes to my OCs and I know the Splatoon wiki always has my back

[franeridan]

i KNOW that oda is aware he's drawn some extremely gorgeous ladies since he obviously does that on purpose (though i believe he's unaware of just how beautiful some ladies he's drawn that stray too far from his usual model are), but I'm, like, pretty much convinced he has absolutely no clue he's also drawn some of the most good looking manga dudes out there. I'm sure he has no idea. He puts down lines and then he's like "???? why are people so obsessed with this guy he has barely shown up ever????" while we're all sitting here going heart eyes or whatever. It's been twenty-six years maybe it's time for him to get on with the program. It's like his experience with benn and ace in the very beginning taught him absolutely nothing

#all due respect to benn's actor in the la but he's the reason why I'm sure oda knows nothing #benn is THE og one piece sexyman how could oda do that to him in the la #in the very first volumes he got submerged by questions about him and he was like “why do you guys love him so much” #cause you made him hot and cool oda keep up!!!! #but he has not kept up #tragic truly #does oda know mihawk is one of the hottest guys ever appeared on jump? #is he aware crocodile makes heads spin? #did he know what he was doing when he drew ace? sabo??? #zoro's post timeskip design????? #bet he drew smoker and didn't think he was doing something insane for even a minute.... #90% convinced he thought he was drawing just a random hobo when he drew shanks #didn't think twice about iceburg the absolute FREAK #i need to stop i could keep writing names for the rest of my tags space and still have a hundred left #i DO know he knows exactly what hes doing when he draws law though #im sure he had no plans for it but the moment he drew him the first time he was like oh 👀 this guy's gonna do numbers #AND HE WAS RIGHT #katakuri has me in pain btw i just know oda has no idea.... he thought he tricked us all with the whole mouth and eating thing....... #well jokes on you my man we're all freaks in this corner of the world!!!!

[twpsyn-who]

Today on "Another JeanMarco Soulmate AU absolutely no one asked for" I present to you -

Soulmate AU in which you stop seeing colors when your soulmate dies, the only exception being your soulmate. Now cue to Jean who just found Marco's, his best friend's, body. And you know, there's the shock of finding out Marco's dead. The pain and confusion and guilt. But there's also the revelation, because despite everything he can still see Marco like nothing took place at all- yes, half of his face is missing and his body is straight up lifeless, but Jean can still make out the color of his eye ; see that light shade of brown perfectly, remember all the times he has found himself looking at them while listening to Marco talk. He can still make out the colors of his uniform, see the same shade of black his hair has always had, practically see. Despite being dead, Marco was the only piece of color left in his life.

And there's denial for a moment because there's no way Marco was his soulmate. But that goes away fast, getting replaced by guilt. By the fact that he hasn't been there to save him, that Marco has to die all alone without anyone being there for him.

And that was worse than the simple fact that he could no longer see colors ; because Marco was there when Jean needed him, but he failed to do the same. And not only he lost his best friend that day, but his other half too.

#Anyway this fucker doesn't tell anyone about the whole soulmate thing. Not of shame of anything but because he's mourning man and also is no #One's business. Anyway the first one to find out is Armin because he notices and ever since he makes sure to mention colors as often as he #can. Like 'These flowers are a nice shade of red' or 'Green suits you well Jean! You should wear this shirt' stuff like that #Jean does appreciates it once he gets over his ego and pain and lets other people get closer to him #Funny enough Jean is the only one in that situation loool. Well I don't know about Reiner and Historia is getting there soon enough but #everyone else??? Colors everywhere man #Is both funny and sad #'Since when..?' Jean expected that question yet he wasn't truly ready to answer it. Deep down he knew he was never going to be ready for it #'Trost' his voice stains sightly while naming the city. His own city. The place he grew up in all his life. The others say nothing else #after that confession. They were all aware many has died during Trost. It wasn't that far fetched for Jean's soulmate to be some civilian #lost during the evacuations or something. But then Connie's eyes widen ever so sightly the realization sitting in. He doesn't even register #when he says 'It was Marco right?' and regrets it immediately. Jean's painful face is all the answer they needed #Also Historia ready the letter and the world losing colors while she's doing that??? Her tearing up a little but not letting herself cry #until she gets alone???? Her going to Jean once that happens and them comforting each other????? #They starts seeing colors again once Eren dies. Poor Jean is trying his best to not have a breakdown because Connie needed him more in that #moment #Reading* wtf my tags make no sens sorry guys I'm lowkey tired #aot #jean kirstein #jeanmarco #aot jean #marco bodt #marco bott #aot marco #jean kirschstein #snk #JeanMarco Soulmate AU #soulmates au #I'm not sad you are

[bobzora]

finally beat the first kingdom in p5t the other day and it was truly flabbergasting the way marie fuckin. dissolved. and morgana was like well that shouldn't have caused a mental shutdown... but i don't know for sure! and then moved on. LIKE HUH. WHY ARE NONE OF THE THIEVES. ACKNOWLEDGING THIS. LMAO?

#bobtalk #p5tposting #p5t spoilers #i guess. for the first dungeon. lol #its like well if it was akc i'd understand but it's whiplash because over and over the thieves are normally like #well....this palace Looks bad. but we should scope out how things are in the real world before we take action! they're generally cautious #and they're stuck here so obviously that's not an option right. like they were going to fight marie eventually no matter what #but they're like *shrugs* about any potential real world consequences to girlie disappearing like that it's really...weird? #i mean. even with kamoshida they only went through with trying to steal his heart because they were desperate and willing to risk him dying #bc they didn't know for sure bc they were new to this but it was better than the alternative. etc. iirc at least. #i'm aware this is a silly spin off this is just. really funny to me? unusual? that the game is like. 'don't even worry about it <3' #like guys i think you might've just killed a woman <- i know she's going to be fine. because they wouldn't do that. but LMAO can u IMAGINE #(anyway barelyyy started the second kingdom (as in. we made it to the first battle and haven't started). are all the rulers just going to b #ppl toshiro has beef with personally. because that's really fucking funny if so. his whole GC hates his ass!)

[fisheito]

UM, ASTER/YAKUMO I ONLY *JUST* FOUND? HELLO?

I've never felt so seen. So represented. Thank u aster. Here are some of my fave lines

#after reading this i had to consult The Chart to see if it lined up with the fic and #well. yeah. guess it did 😂😂😂😂 #narration in aster's voice is so wonderfully comedic and snarky i loved every second of it. u manipulative gremlin #WHY IS YAKUMO SO CUTE HE SHOULDnT BE CUTE BUT I WANTNA *knuckles turning white from my trembling iron fist* #what was that picture of yakumo with the comment like [boys with big brown eyes like a baby cow stfu] #yeah that thing. that image was pulsing throughout the fic. intrusive adoring thought #aster sees yakumo's big soulful innocent eyes looking up at him and he's all #i need to slaughter him. i need to pound him into cutlets and distribute him to the masses for insane profit #ah..... is this cuteness aggression... #I NEED TO BULLY HIM. HE IS TRYNIG SO HARD TO BE GOOD I NEED TO #hyperventilates into my pizza box #sipping tea and reading while occasionally yelling out #SO true bestie [aster]. (melodramatic sigh) #idk why it's funny that yakumo squeaks in fic. it is SO FUNNY. hey look it's a squeaky mouse #wait he's a snake? are u sure? dont snake eat mice?...........ARE U SURE HE ISN'T A TINY minuscule RODENT LIVING INSIDE A DAISY? NO??? #BIG DANGEROUS BLACK SHADOWY VENOMOUS SNAKE? ok..............sounds fake..........but if u say so........................ #i'm fine. i'm not still having a Time of accepting mr serpent into my life. what are u talking about. i am fine. #i am reading words and acting in ways #hahahaaha! how can you awaken something when i already know it's awake??!! #(spoiler alert: i was not truly aware of its awakeness but i've been thinking of this fic for days so i'm pretty sure the awakening is NOW) #(insert pillar men theme) (sighs wearily at my own clownery)

[sysig]

Someone’s looking out for you ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Wally West this time! :D #Their flirting is the cutest <3 <3 #But first! ZEX's uniform!!!!! JKFLdhsafjdf <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 #I've always liked his uniform - he looks beautiful in it it's quite fun to draw it's pretty it's flowy - very good piece of clothing do like #How something as simple as missing it for a week makes such a huge impact <3 Hhghh gods the way he describes getting it back ♥♪♫ #I've never appreciated the Feeling of his uniform on his body before now and hhh what a difference it makes! #Genuinely like a tactile understanding to complement the emotional <3 Feeling and feelings! It's so lovely! Ahh <3 #It goes back to being a question mark over everything once he starts to really think through the implications but for A Moment #And he gets to snuggle a human the same night :D Everything going so well! #Wally's so funny lol he's got ZEX making The most obvious come ons he possibly can flirting his little alien heart out #And he's just like ''But do you actually want to? Do you /really/ want to??'' Haha ♪ #It's very sweet honestly! Very attentive and careful <3 I'm always appreciative of anyone who treats ZEX well ♥ #But no he definitely Does Not mean pretty much anything platonically lol #What was it how did I describe him in my notes and haven't been able to stop laughing about lol - #Ah yes - Wally doesn't need to worry because ZEX is a ''hedonistic pleasurebeast'' lol #I also like how Wally is the first(? if I remember correctly) of ZEX's Type starting to develop haha ♪ #Sure he likes all humans but if he happens to lean one way more than another hehehe ♫ #I'm doubly fascinated by his self-awareness (and lack thereof) around submissiveness - he's very sensitive as a human! #He's still quite aggressive but also easily overwhelmed ♪ It's a very interesting combo to me :3c #And any further insight into his proclivities delights me hehe <3 #Heart eyes ZEX >>>>>> ♥♪♫ #And a few silly little doodles as well :D The first one's just a random chibi lol he's cute! ♪ #The second is of him trying a Starburst hehe he's so cute <3 I was so curious as to how he'd react to candy/sugar so lovely to see! #And thus far he hasn't had any alcohol - good Max has had enough - but I got my favourite Catawba so tipsy doodle it is lol #All the cutests <3 <3

[thought-42]

Truly over here speedrunning the 'oh this piece of fiction looks neat' to 'well I see we have to gently place certain parts of canon into the sun once again' pipeline.

#star wars why? #I gave the Ahsoka show a try but now that I know the ending my interest has waned entirely #there are plenty of cool things you could've done with Ezra and Thrawn I would have rolled with #but given none of those occured I will simply be over here constructing elaborate aus in my brain #'Eli Vanto in the Chiss Ascendancy' yeah yeah we've all seen it how about 'ezra bridger in the chiss ascendancy' #it wouldn't have been a good choice for a TV show trying to appeal to new viewers don't get me wrong #but it sure is fun to think about #I'm well aware none of you know what I'm talking about; don't worry this will pass #sometimes work surgically removes your soul with a vacuum cleaner and you gotta cope through fiction

[prismatoxic]

people everywhere all the time: ugh this youtube v ublock thing sucks!!! it's making it so hard to use youtube!!!

me, a firefox user: damn that sucks. can't relate though

#i watch multiple youtube videos a day so if it was going to be an issue already i'd have seen it #i'm sure it can still crop up but like... #y'all know chrome is a google product right #y'all know MOST popular browsers run on chromium right #and y'all surely know google owns youtube #and certainly you're all well aware that even ublock's devs say it works best on firefox #surely... all these things are common knowledge... #anyway if you'll excuse me i'm going to watch every last week tonight clip on the last week tonight youtube channel #i love john oliver but you couldn't pay me to subscribe to hbo max #tox.txt

[icewindandboringhorror]

I think the hardest thing in writing for me sometimes is the like “show don’t tell/let people communicate through subtext/Normal People don’t just walk around openly explaining their motivations for everything That’s Unnatural” thing because like.. I literally DO walk around openly explaining my motivations for everything, that is how I talk, I am an analytical detail oriented over-communicator who explains everything as thoroughly as possible and and will give a fully detailed 2 minute long answer to something simple like “how are you doing today?” .. like it’s hard to make things sound Natural and Normal when you yourself are inherently unnatural and abnormal in your methods of communication to an extent lol

#''hey. whats up? you look kind of sad.. is something wrong?'' normal answer (apparently how people are supposed to talk): *looks away #remosefully and stares into the distance* ''n-no.. I'm fine. don't worry about it.'' abnormal answer (how I would respond): ''Yeah I #'m mostly fine. I was just thinking about what the future is going to be like 30 years from now and if I'll ever actually accomplish anythin #g that I want to. which makes me feel X way for XYZ reason. you see because I had a dream last night that made me think of *continues to exp #lain my exact emotional state and inner thought process completely matter of factly in exact detail for 5 more minutes* #tfw you would be a badly written character if you existed in a story lol #This is also why I struggle making conflict because most conflicts can be resolved through conversation and I personally love to have long #detailed conversations about everything. Like literally I don't have hardly any conflicts interpersonally because if something happens it's #immediately followed up with like ''hey sorry if my tone of voice sounded a bit pointed or harsh. when you were talking to me I was trying #to balance all the stuff I was taking up the stairs and also my leg hurts so I think all my mental energy was being used there and I just #didn't feel like talking. I should have just said 'wait a minute and we can discuss it inside' instead of trying to end the conversation qui #ckly in a short rude way.' ''oh yeah thats fine. I thought it was something like that. sorry for hounding you about the topic as well. i #havent eaten in a while so I think I'm just a bit prickly at the moment. we should both rest for a while and destress from the store #trip and then talk about it later. maybe after lunch?' 'sure. sounds good.' like LITERALLY. lol #it is so hard for me to write characters who are bad communicators or don't understand their own internal states or arent constantly #analyzing their own actions to understand what they do/don't feel and why and what the cause of it is and etc. etc. etc. #I just naturally want everyone to perfectly undertsand everything and communicate amazingly and have complete self awareness and #logical presence of mind gjhbj.. which like.. of course comes across as unnatyural and also those type of people rarely ever get involved in #conflict and conflict is APPARENTLY what drives stories (even though I don't like most conflicts and just want to resolve them lol) so ...aa #I mean you can get around this to some degree by the fact that (at least in my opinion) no rule for dialogue is 100%. dialogue is good if it #sounds naturally like it comes from the character who said it. It can be meandering and pointless and rambly IF that matches the character. #it can be dry and overly self aware IF your character is that way and it suits them. So like throwing in a few detached scholar types or lik #e '5000 year old cave dwelling hermit' type people is good for me and works BUT the thing is an ENTIRE cast of characters can't be that way. #at some point - even in a setting where everyone is reserved and academic (like a research camp in the wilderness full of scholars and stuff #) still SOMEBODY has to be the one who's conflict prone and doesn't pristinely understand all of their emotions and etc. etc. Because statis #tically that is still literally the majority. Kind of like my tendency to make everyone 100% aromantic and asexul when it's like.. YES.. may #be 2 or 3 or even 4 out of 10 of them could be that way. but like.. an entire group? a diverse group of 10 people from all walks of life and #EVERY single one is like that??? hgjh . you have to add realistic variety #As much as I'm pro 'have more stories where sex or romance are literally NOT involved at all in any capacity since it's already oversaturate #d in media' I'm also dedicated to realism. alas. (at least as realistic as you can get in a fantasy setting lol)

[disaster-vampire]

i love when doctors that work in the mental health field assure you they have "experience" with gender dysphoria and then they don't even ask you how you'd prefer they refer to you

#latest one has been that lady who was weird abt me being very well spoken/self aware in terms of my own mental health #when i said the person i'm seeing for my gender therapy is one of the few that does it on the island she looked offended #and then she literally wished me happy women's day when we had an apptmt on march 8th #i literally replied no. my mom got all fussy abt it and the lady didn't even apologise #sure you totally have experience with gender dysphoria

[howthesleeplesswander]

“Everyone should have a dream, even a pathetically unrealistic one.“ // @Baizhu (tho i can... almost guarantee he probably isn't talking about Baizhu specifically— almost uvu;)

Teen Wolf Season 1 Sentence Starters || Accepting! || @greedbent

((i mEAN EVEN IF HE WAS, IT WOULD BE VALID X'D and Baizhu is well aware of that alsdfksj bUT B3c he's amused regardless))

At first the doctor merely hummed, offering passive agreement in the midst of rearranging one of the pharmacy's shelves to hold new stock. But after a few beats of silence, his response flowed buoyant and playful, "I don't think I've ever heard that much optimism from you before. I'm a little impressed—unless, of course, that was meant as a less-than-subtle jab at me."

Most rational, Celestia-fearing people of Teyvat would call the search for immortality as 'unrealistic' as one could get. But such people were closed-minded; confined within the known and narrow by a frankly concerning amount of complacency.

While he'd never known Kaz to harbor any fondness for the norms of the world (societal, legal...take your pick), Baizhu did wonder if he thought his personal quest was far-fetched to the point of foolishness. He wouldn't take offense, even if so. Someday he'd have to ask.

"Regardless, surely you must realize a statement like that begs an obvious question." Here Baizhu paused in his work to toss a curious glance over his shoulder. "Does 'everyone' include you, as well?"

#greedbent #《⭒✩⭒ || interaction: mortally coiled (baizhu) 》 #《⭒✩⭒ || answered ask 》 #《⭒✩⭒ || bond: he’s got two little horns and they get me a little bit (greedbent) 》 #tRUST ME baizhu would not be offended even if kaz WAS talking about him 😂 #i'm sure he's heard it all before in regards to his little quest for immortality so #he's well aware of how crazy most people would think that goal is lol #BUT HE CAN'T STOP WON'T STOP 😤🙌 #i'm also cracking up over the fact that no matter WHAT kaz says #baizhu will apparently always be flirty and playful with him asljfkd X'D #kaz: your life's goal is pretty fckn stupid #baizhu: 🤷 if i said my other life goal is to steal whatever's left of your heart would you think THAT was stupid too?? #alsdjfsdfj I CAN'T BAIZHU PLZ

[pangolin-404]

"The value of Life is negative. The balance of being is rotated by 38 degrees. The surface is full of cracks, a turgid light shines through. Fleshy primordial bodies sluggishly roll down the slope. Only you slide upwards, with a celestial step. You become beautified, a saintly figure. Your pristine idiocy reveals a safe path through the impenetrable fog of Life. Your dull sword cuts through the weak tendons and membranes of the garden of corruption. Sit on the throne of contentment and ferment. Inspect the eternal blue skies of your kingdom. You come to a realization. You pick up an onion and begin peeling."

#thoughts #my art #cruelty squad #cruelty squad posting #tw gore #tw blood #ask to tag #I feel like this is such an. oddly-soft toned piece; considering the nature of the game. meant to be. solemn #I'm not sure if I necessarily agree with all the philosophy this game waxes but I admire how it hits the mark #in both things I DO agree with and in how clearly it tells its own message as a whole #the world the game takes place in; where death is nothing and people are regularly killed; killers; unhinged and uncaring and meandering #and you are a creature struck by sheer luck amongst depression and desperation to live and pay #and even if you become a monster as well; ripping things apart; you are blessed you are a wretched husk #I feel so utterly unhinged speaking this way; praising the storytelling and world of a game that loOKS LIKE THAT #a reviewer I listened to summed it up as; it is best understood by people already aware of the worst parts of the world #the wealthy the lack of taxes; the murder the guns the open carry jokes #I will admit; that line. 'you one of those open carry guys? I respect that.' it made me cackle #my favorite level story-wise is the apartment. rent due. the normalcy of the player's room. it's so calm. it's normal. it's normal #and then it's not. and then it's back into the fray and never touched again

[cheekblush]

just went through the exo tag and saw the WORST take 🙁

#someone saying exo should disband bc they're past their prime #and that love shot was their last good comeback... #excuse me but did you miss the masterpiece that is obsession??????? #so many people seem so happy about cbx leaving sm & of course it's great they're standing up for themselves #i just wonder what this means for exo as a group... if this is really the end for them i'll be inconsolable 💔 #maybe this will be like the loona situation & the other members will also sue if cbx are successful with their lawsuit? #i honestly don't know i'm so confused & have so many questions i just want them all to be happy but i also don't want to lose exo 😭 #they're my comfort group i really didn't see this coming not with all this anticipation for their long awaited comeback #all the members seemed so excited to finally have a cb as well.. especially bbh giving all these spoilers so this really is so unexpected #and of course sm is already denying all accusations... this will get so messy i can feel it 😭 #i just hope everything ends well for all the members and they can remain together as a group if that's what they want of course 🥺 #i remember during obsession era junmyeon said that the members already discussed leaving sm together & remaining a group #god i hope they stay together i'm honestly so scared 😭😭😭😭 #i'm sure the other members support the cbx lawsuit and were aware of this beforehand so hopefully everything gets resolved in their favor #but sm is soooo vengeful to artists who sue them like what if they blacklist them like they did with jessica.. 😭😭😭 #i'm honestly so so scared i know i sound dramatic but like i might as well kms if exo disband 😭 #☁️

[gas-stxtion]

//sorry i haven't been working on replies lately! you see, it's because [mid-sentence i slowly lie down on the floor and start crying really hard. i do not finish my explanation]

#you know this whole thing is one big experiment‚ right? and you're the little mouse? {ooc} #//feel free not to read the tags b/c i'm gonna scream a bit #//moved in last week and already we may end up with two more people in this apartment #//bc two of my roommate's partners both need a place to stay #//and like with the one we've had some time to talk and prepare #//but with the other it's like oh ok she's moving in this weekend. non-negotiable huh. ok #//i want to scream cry and throw up lmao i am not emotionally prepared for there to be four people here #//especially b/c i don't know either of them suuuuper well just yet #//and rn i'm doing the bulk of the cleaning in the apartment which i don't mind! because i'm happy to help! #//roommate has a lot of other stuff she's worrying about and i understand and want to take the load off #//but i think if i see one more dirty pot i might start crying #//which as we all know is a normal reaction #//(that's sarcasm if that's not clear) #//i know i need to say something and insist on better communication #//because this is not malicious on my roommate's part. i know that. it's just a miscommunication #//anyway yeah i keep mentally coming back to the fact that my room isn't even fully unpacked yet lmao #//bc now we gotta get shit together to make sure everyone has somewhere to sleep n such #//and yes it's bc i haven't asked for help. i am aware. that's on me #//but damn. #//ok this got long jesus- #//if you read this i am giving you a high five but if not i understand lmfao #vent cw #negative cw