#anyways i love gay women a lot

[biblicalhorror]

Aroace Riz real but also Fabian is SO clearly in love with him and Riz has no idea

#honestly fabian might not even fully know yet #a core part of fabians character is that he is so deeply afraid of rejection that he is never going to pursue the people he actually wants #i do think he likes Maezy a lot but i think he only knows how to pursue hot toxic women that will discard him at a moments notice #which in a way protects him from ever actually dealing with heartbreak #is he a gay man dealing with comphet? ehh maybe #i could see that #but I think the vibe i get is more about how he has these platonic friends he completely adores and is fully devoted to #and then in another category he has the people that he does not have any actual attachment to that he will allow himself to pursue #and crossing the boundaries in between those two categories or allowing himself to pursue someone he really cares for #would require a level of vulnerability he is in no way prepared for #in his home life he has an emotionally detached mother who is well liked but kind of floats through interactions on a surface level #and a father who is extremely concerned with fame and glory and attention but doesnt seem to have ever stopped moving in his life #genuinely fabian does not know what a safe loving partnership would look like #and we see him constantly oscillating between emulating his mother and his father in relationships #but just beneath the surface is a little boy who wants so badly to cling to his loved ones so tight and be squeezed right back #with no way of knowing how to even ask for that if he wanted #and riz is his best friend in the world and he knows on some level that riz is simply not interested in having that kind of relationship #not on the level fabian needs #but that also makes riz a safe target for these feelings of devotion #theyre just friends! just besties! fabian never has to reckon with his own loneliness or harmful patterns #if he channels all of his yearning for closeness onto his best friend #anyway! this boy needs therapy #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fabriz

[moeblob]

I'm suffering Fates Brain Rot so I drew OCs? Logical!

Nytis (blondie) is a demon cleric who hates feeling any form of pain but lives to cause others pain (he does indeed see the irony of becoming a cleric). In order to help protect himself he forms a pact with Elnae (red gal) and she basically fights in his place if there is a threat of injury. She also does little errands like info-getting and sneaking around for him.

The thing is, while he can hurt others no problem and it's satisfying, he was granted the ability to heal others after he swore allegiance to a deity he holds no respect nor regard for. He honestly doesn't care about whatever gods exist. HOWEVER. As a demon, simply using holy magic actually hurts him so he's a pretty stingy healer and has a sword "just in case" he has to fight.

That said, he does actually have one thing he refuses to let go unpunished: a kid being injured/cursed. He might be a messed up demon but he draws the lines at letting kids suffer. When El asks about it and is like "haha what, did you have a bad childhood too, buddy?" he's like "???? How else would I end up like this? As a cleric? Hurting myself to heal? What the hell is wrong with you YES I had a bad childhood."

#my characters #hes actually really mad when hes planning to be in a town for a day and then dip and he sees a kid in the markets #who looks like a zombie almost while still living and he realizes that someone CURSED THIS CHILD #and so he orders El to go dig up the dirt around town and he goes over and lifts the curse #its super painful on his end but seeing the life return to the kids eyes is like aight i can take it #and then he finds out the church of that town had some really shady dealings and they cursed the kid #and that the kid was supposed to die when they turn ten and hes like hey wtf lets go ruin the church el #and shes like are you.... are you declaring war..... on some church.... as a cleric.................. sir. what. #anyway they argue a lot and bicker and are secretly good friends #neither one will admit it tho #also shes super gay and is like you know if i didnt have a pact to serve i would love to travel and flirt with women thatd be nice #and nytis is like great thank you for the info now go do (thing) #i dont really draw them much but i really like them

[panicbones]

i could go on for so long abt orb in so many different ways. my first ultra starting off strong by poison of the mind

#so many thoughts on gaijug so many abt gai and juggler independently too #i also rly like the ssp and i love thinking abt them #RAAAUGH ORB #man. it rly goes to show how bad kr and sentai writing is w women #cuz naomi gets the shit stick for writing so hard and yet #she still has more to her then a lot of other kr and sentai women #IT SUUUCKS #but anyways its such a shame orb origin is not very good cuz i need to know more abt gaijug pre divorce #skeletal chatter

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

[dolokhoded]

simon peter is the funniest apostle to work with because in theory he's the most loyal, most by-the-book of the apostles so you'd expect him to be the most logical and collected one but 80% of his concerns (pre crucifixion then everything went downhill and they all died) are that he has a crush on every person he encounters

#🧅 #im not religious just insane.jpg #true poly disaster. funniest shit ever. #cause yknow simon p's a fisherman he's married he's a very poster family man #and he loves his wife he really does. im not gonna make the only guy who's married fucking Hate his wife and want to like. go have gay sex #instead cause mlm good mlw bad. but he does have his. Issues. concerning how he views women #he's gonna work on that though i'm not leaving him like that don't worry. peter already knew the torah by heart probably for peter turning #to god meant learning how to respect women. and yknow people he considered 'ungodly' in general. to respect humanity as he respects god. #tee hee i love this arc. i love all of them but i dont ever rlly talk abt this one. #but anyways yes he does love his wife. #then some strange guy shows up while he's fishing and he's like follow me son of jonah i will make you a Fisher Of Men. and peter's like #TEE HEE OKAY JESUS i will come fish men with you. #which......okay....simon....... interesting that u wanted to do that..... with zero context.... #and then cue weird thing with magdalene. which. they don't end up together by Any Means. #they hate each other. they have not spoken in a civil manner once. but they do have a weird bond between them than only aromantic people #can understand. #WHICH BTW i already knew there's a thin line between polyamory and aromanticism. but it really showed when while trying to #explore how peter experiences polyromanticism i found myself projecting a lot of my own aromanticism on him #(is polyromantic a correct term? i'm not sure these terms really confuse me especially considering the time period cause like. polyamorous #describes a relationship with multiple people which peter obviously wasn't in in 30 AD. but he Did have romantic feelings for multiple #people so is that polyromanticism? or is that a completely different term? idk. bare with me.) #very interesting. anyways yeah there's that. magdalene is aro also to me. so yeah this is one of the most fun dymanics i have in this lore #cause like. polyromantic person and aromantic person somehow having the same mutual not platonic not romantic but a secret third thing #connection with each other. i love thinking about them

[pinkfey]

ik it must like suck to be really into a piece of media where everyone unanimously loves one couple that u aren't a fan of but critters take it too far bc what is there to even hate abt imodna.. that they're wise and sexy?? that laura has perfected yearning?? ur all so lame !!!!!!

#some of the backlash is so intense #beauyasha dealt with a lot as well but i don't remember it being as immediate as imodna #and it's 'allegedly' because everyone makes the show about them but i think u guys just hate gay women. tbh. #like ur lesbophobia has carried over into c3 #and like another thing i notice is this hatred for imogen specifically bc 'it feels like everything is about her' #which is firstly like.. not true.. matt is a good dm and knows how to divide time and arcs and weave things together #why is everyone acting like he's devoting every waking moment to her do u all just not pay attention #but ig when ur spending all this time hating someone ofc ur going to notice when they get the spotlight more #and secondly. so what !! did u have the same feelings towards vax?? fjord?? if not then why are u upset. #and thirdly. honestly cannot relate. i love her main character energy it's my favorite thing abt her #kind of cathartic that they're so mad though. vengeance for all the vax x percy years. #okay wee rant/complaint over back to avoiding critters like the plague #laura is sexy imogen is sexy imodna is solidified in my top two cr couples 4 life <33 #anyways​.txt #cr posting

[bluesadansey]

remembering on my circa 2017 booklr I used to tell people to read Gemma Doyle by describing it as trc but with an all girls boarding school / all girl group in a historical setting… I was trying to do the lord��s work she deserved tumblr fame

#I do think that was an oversimplification of both but. Not totally off base there are some similar char tropes used I’m proud of past me for #the attempt. Also I think I’m going to start advocating for Diviners in that way now that trc fandom is apparently quite miserable post GW #you like gay people doing dream magic? you like witchcraft and ghosts and strong ensemble casts? #you like an ambitious abuse survivor getting a healing arc with learning to control magic/psychic abilities as a metaphor? you like four #book series where the first three books rock and the last book which is named king + corvid is a bit underwhelm who said that? #a positive point in diviners favor is Ling x Wei Mei >>>> RonanKavinsky. Generally find the take on dream magic in diviners more compelling #(although LingHenry + RonanHennessy both being mlm wlw duos who are the dreamers is kinda fun) #anyway. This is not actually a fair comparison because Ling is my fav or at least top two w Theta of the leads and I love Ronan but he is m #least favorite of the trc leads of which there are four all of whom I love so it says nothing bad about him. But it does put me as an #outlier re: fandom priorities.. #on the flip side while I love diviners dynamics sadly I don’t think they ever come anywhere close to Gangsey levels of extreme codependency #so I can not care quite as much…. #from what I remember the girls in Gemma Doyle are a lot more codependent good for them. Would have to reread to compare codependency levels #Ling and Theta are both my favorite in diviners in the same way Blue and Adam are my favorite in trc and Abed and Annie are both my fav for #community. basically one char who I love and overidentify with (Ling/Blue/Abed) and one char I love who in many ways I’m not like #but in a handful of very niche specific ways I also relate quite a bit. And am fascinated with (Theta/Adam/Annie) #s speaks #very off topic from my initial point which was you should read Libba Bray’s books #and in both cases I have a second and a half tier fav (Evie/Gansey/Britta) who I love fictionally but if I was trapped in a room w them I’d #kill myself. with the white blonde women I’d also want to make out w them debatable if that makes it better or worse #but like. I could not stand listening to them speak for that long I know this #Gansey might just die a third time by my hands…

[cafecitowriter]

not to say i told you so but I knew Jack was fishy from the beginning 😒😒😒

#i mean i could write an essay on how her proximity/upbringing with wealth clearly programmed her with a shit ton of internal misogony #(and external while we're at it) #but seriously the fact that she was so unbothered in the beginning about the nuances of her dating keeley when she's funding her firm #and then love bombing her #only to blow up when keeley's privacy is massively violated #all because she and her daddy didn't like the optics of it #like jack can talk shit about rich white men all she wants but she is a prime example of a rich white woman who thinks she's woke #just because she's gay #anyway i hate that the writers put keeley through this this season when we could have had a healthy queer relationship between two women #(not to mention how male-gaze this a lot of their scenes have felt) #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers

[soup-or-who-lock]

Ted Lasso Wednesday Thoughts!!! Rebecca's Dutch pal seems....he seems like a fella who could possibly be called Rupert...not that he seems like Rupert, just seems like A Rupert. And he would be a swell New Rupert lmao

Jamie taught his grandad to ride a bike, to honor Jamie's grandad's grandad. pardon me while I'm sobbing.

"You fellas say pillow fight one time and we're never watching a movie again" or whatever Ted said

Arguably my single most important thought ever? Ted got reverse-Princess-Bride-d. (To "get Princecess-bride-d" one would be served 1 of 2 glasses, both of which have Substance. a reverse-Princess-Bride situation is that you think both glasses have Substance, but neither does.) And neither of them referenced the Princess Bride??? The Beard serving glasses of tea with Something in it scene was so Dread Pirate Roberts and that's such a Ted/Beard movie!!! I'm hurt and shocked and offended not to have had them mention it.

#i say Substance b/c i'm not 100% sure if it's supposed to be weed or mushrooms or something else that idk about #(i'm much more a ted than a beard if you catch my drift) #in regards to the dutch fella's name i just simply think it would be funny!! I think they should do that and then the media can #call gross rupert Old Rupert (as they called our rebecca Old Rebecca) however i would also accept Crusty Rupert #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso season 3 #ted lasso wednesdays #and im gonna go ahead and hide my last prediction deep in the tags which is #i don't get the feeling Trent is capital-G-Gay (given that he didn't say he's gay he just came out and he's closer to a woman than ever) #it sounds like he's bi and still married the difference is that he's accepted himself and so has his wife (or whatever they are) #and naturally many bi people use gay either as their preferred label or an umbrella term so if that is trent's preference then that's lit #i just think he might actually be bi and happily married #and while i think trent and ted are in LOVE i just want them both/each to be happy #jinkies this is a lot of tags. b/c surprising no one i have many feelings about the theodore lasso show #anyway i don't think i'm being eloquent but i loved this episode i loved it i love trent and colin and keeley and i love this show #i also could felly be completely wrong about trent being bi and that would be a-okay by me!! i just kinda mean to say that while he is #decidedly LGBT and decidedly interested in men he didn't say that he's not into women. hope i'm making sense

[azol-otl]

Not Reverse Robins or Scrambled Birds but a secret third thing: A Step to the Left.

Not  Dick > Jason > Tim > Steph > Damian, 

but Jason > Tim > Steph > Damian > Dick*.

But not only them. Every sidekick with a legacy name gets shifted one spot. (No I’m not counting the Golden Age because I’m not combing through that ).

This means that Jason’s Titans team is him, Mia (Speedy), Jackson (Aqualad), Cassie (Wonder Girl), and Bart (Impulse but y’know he was KF II in the comics).

The NTT team including Starfire, Changeling, Raven, and Cyborg stays the same since they’re the only ones with those names. Cass gets lumped in here because Jason actually wants to do college/is becoming disillusioned about cape life and the idea of Kori learning Cass's body language is too good to pass up.

Tim gets one (1) cape friend (because Jason only got one) and it’s Zachary Zatara because it has to be a d-lister who deals with that disaster Teen Titans era.

Stephanie gets Jon (Superboy), Yara (Wonder Girl II now), and Irey (Because guess what it’s Impulse on the team and not KF which means we get Impulse II). Secret, Cissie, Anita, Slobo etc. all stay the same.

Damian doesn’t get anyone until he becomes Batgirl.

Duke literally gets Damian’s exact canon team but it’s Kon instead of Jon and probably won’t end with them committing war crimes.

If the character in that placement dies in canon then the new character in that placement also dies (i.e. Jason dies so Tim will die/ Kon dies so Jon will die).

But there will be changes because these are different characters so not all of them would react the same.

For example, Jason and Cass are the first Robin and Batgirl, but Cass becomes Nightwing while Jason becomes Oracle because I feel like Jason generally fits Barbara’s character better than Cass does (which is a fucking shame because Oracle being someone named Cassandra should be a no brainer but yeah).

 Or how Barbara should be Batgirl number three, but it’s actually Damian because Cass would see their similarities between them and offer him Batgirl (which he refuses at first but after his disastrous run as Robin he sees how Batgirl would fit his strengths better).

 Also I refuse to believe that Jason and Cass would let Dick out as Robin so young so he’s benched until later and his place is taken up by Duke and instead of Leviathan it’s Gnomon.

#I actually have a lot of thoughts about this but I didn't want to word vomit it all up like I normally do #No lie Damian becoming Batgirl III was not planned but because it started off with Cass it honestly felt right #So now him and Stephanie parallel each other so much more than I planned with the whole 3 identities cycle of Original > R > BG> OG #Also Robins 1 3 and 5 (the ones who were actually focused on for a time) are all Gotham natives with strong ties to the people #So that feels right #Also also Mia and Jason both being on the same team and having similar traumas while comics were finally starting to tackle these things #Tim has to deal with all the shit Jason did including starting off as a Blonde Jason clone (hey Timmy Todd) #Being victim blamed for his death for nearly 20 years and brought back as a villain #Then left with writers who hate him and made him ugly *and* stupid #then left with Lobdell and having the fans of his teammates blame him and his fans for things that they had no control over #other notes I didn't put in include Cass's cover is that she's Jason's cousin via Willis who was adopted and it turns out to be true #Stephanie 'Ambiguously Gay' Brown with her team full of Women who can crush her like a bug #Cass 'Are you sure she's straight' Wayne and her Gal Pal Koriand'r #Jason and Bart's wild 50 years where they surprise everyone including the writers and editors #since none of their love interests stuck but the chemistry they had with each other was off the charts #so their friendship read more as a slow-burn annoyances to friends to lovers that was totally on purpose guys and became canon p52 #like right before the reboot because the writer was like "Fuck it we're rebooting anyways! #if you feel like it's unfair that Tim and Damian gets no friends remember that I didn't shift teams at all only the people in them #so they get dealt Jason and Stephanie's canon hands #Don't come at me with 'uhm Robin is DICK'S nam'e' that retcon happened 50 years after the character #I can do the exact same with any character #great another essay in the tags #azol's posts

[cyborgrhodey]

loki has been really fun and real comic book mini-series feeling but its so hard finding real discourse about it because so many people watching it are. frankly. delusional

#like i am very sorry to be the bearer of bad news but owen w's character isnt gay he isnt thor either #and no loki controlling all of time is like. not the point of this show. that would not be the happy ending. my god #also 😒😒 about the lack of love for like. the REAL COOL background characters like. asian men. black women. queer women. but no #all the love is for.... the *wow* guy? i like him too but #theres not even speculation about renslayer???? or at least all of it is drowned out by the weirdo voices #(imo renslayer feels like a kang variant. when she started going on about order i was like. thats kang right there) #(like RIGHT THERE is the solution to the jonathan majors problem. i think) #anyway theres a lot of time shenanigans going on here and I WANNA TALK ABOUT IT #but instead people wanna talk about the jet ski guy. fuck off #somebody shut me up

[honeyedheartss]

trapped in my endless cycle of books about groups of boys who are way too close and violent to each other but would kill for each other and stand for them at all odds

and it's.... lays on the ground... I am mostly comfortable in my gender presentation about half the time but.... I want to be loved by a boy the way boys love boys not in a het or even t4t way....

do u all know what I mean..

#am i romanticizing violence and codependency again despite doing everything in my power to leave past #situations rooted in violence and codependency? #yes #the bond of violence and dogged loyalty is beyond anything else I've ever experienced. #those years were some of the worst of my life #but i miss having people who were mine and i was theirs #do u all know what i mean. ... #like yes i got hurt and threatened and slammed around #but i know they would NEVER let anyone ELSE do that to me #unbreakable bonds etc #but i was still a girl to them #so it was still different #i don't want to be loved by a man the way men love women or genderqueer people #i want to love a man and be loved by a man the way men are #but i do not want to be a man outside of this #i want to exist as a boy only in the context of being gay yk #(yes i have a long term fem partner and they know abt this lol we talk about it a lot) #anyways #banana rambles

[psy-ay-ay]

I open the naruto tag and see a really cute comic about someone colliding into naruto and him accidentally kissing sasuke, being very naruto and sasuke about it but then reaching out their hands again and kissing again. It's cute. I try to insert different characters into the design of the person colliding into naruto. it could be kiba or maybe that guy who collided into naruto the first time he accidentally kissed sasuke at the academy. i think maybe people in the comments have better ideas than me and open the notes. First one reads 'I did not cheat on my wife, someone collided into me and i accidentally kissed this man'. I remember why I am not in the great yaoi fandom of naruto.

#i think saddest part is i was so happy to see that victims of yaoi poll #and all of sakura's propaganda was about how sasuke is gay and she is a lesbian and why are people even threatened by her presence around #sasuke and shitting on her. and it's like that's just another facet of victims of yaoi!!! just saying she is a lesbian anyway is not the #'be normal about women' idea that you think it is #i'm so tired of this. this is why you only get fanart and 'funny lmao' posts on this blog now #naruto #naruto women i'm so sorry #why are you assuming that they are cheating on their wives or that they have wives if they like each other like ffs if you dont like #something in canon ending just fucking disregard it why twist it into disgusting things showcasing your misogyny #the idea that sasuke would marry sakura if he doesn't like her is SO BIZARRE to me. have you met sasuke? #do you really think he would do something out of pity or for social image or pressure or anything? you can NOT make sasuke do anything he #doesn't want to and it's not like they got married really early like right after the war? there was A LOT of time for BOTH of them to #consider their feelings for each other AND for other people #so i'm equally okay with sasuke doing his travels and arriving at the conclusion that he like sakura or naruto and wants to marry them #but what we would never do is marry someone and then cheat because he loves someone else #i personally don't even think that there's a possibility of sasuke and sakura getting married and realising much later that they dont like #each other as partners like they already have time to figure that out. i think it's canon they do spend a lot of time together travelling #and such before having sarada. oh i am not even going to talk about people saying sasuke is with sakura only because of sarada or something #the only other valid way of looking at it is that beautiful post about sakura sasuke and karin travelling together because that's just so #fucking good

[joblessquinoa]

Thinking about how I would probably never recommend the Hong Kong remake of Ossan's Love to anyone for a variety of reasons, but that drama also marks the first time I heard the phrase "coming out of the closet" in my native language, and that means something to me

#gay people in cantonese *sobs* #im so dramatic #i actually liked a lot of that drama #the mc was an idiot (affectionate) and all the women were pretty well done #but my issues were more about how most of KK's character was written off in the traditional hk slapstick comedy style #when there was so much more potential for exploration 🤧🤧🤧🤧 #ossan's love hk #ossan's love #yea idk how to tag it to differentiate it from the japanese one lol #anyway would highly recommend perceiving queer stuff in your native language 10/10